Chapter 63
A few days later, Kaito is over the Kiryu's house. Yuki still has the charity on her mind, she just tries to let it go. Not wanting it to ruin her life she has here with Zero and her twins. Everything was so nice. She loves Zero with everything she is, in all these years that never seemed to change.
"Kaito, I want to take Zero on a date Saturday. Do you think you can watch the kids?" Yuki asks. "Sure why not. What's the occasion?" Kaito asks. "There isn't one. I just realized the other day, we never really did anything a regular couple got to do. I know we, held hands, watched movies together, cuddle and all that even before we were married. It's just we never really dated. We came here and jumped into marriage, then kids, and that was it. Nothing ever romantic. I want to try to change that. I want to share everything with him. The kids are not little anymore. I would like to have a date night at least once a week. To do things we never got to do." Yuki admits. "I think that sounds good. Should keep things alive. I don't see things dying between you two though. He loves you as much as he did when you got here." Kaito answers. "I feel the same way. I always want that to be." Yuki states. "I will watch them it's not a problem. I like being with them. I owe you for all the dinners anyway."Kaito chucked.
"You are part of our family, You don't need to owe us for anything. If it wasn't for you, we wouldn't have anyone here. I thank you for everything you do for us." Yuki replies. "You're very welcome. I have to admit, when Zero first got here with you, I thought he was crazy. To run away with you, forget his life. I thought he really did the wrong thing. I don' feel that anymore. You gave him a life worth living. You gave him the family, he always wanted. I never saw him smile so much. These kids are his life." Kaito admits.
"He gave me the family, I always wanted also. I just wished we didn't have to hide. I can't be his real wife. It hurts me that I can't give him everything he really deserves."Yuki responds. "He is happy with what you already gave him. Maybe one day, you can give him the rest." Kaito states. "Kaname would never divorce me. I don't see me able to ever really be able to marry Zero. To be legally his." Yuki sighs. "Does it matter? You are his, no matter what. Its all the matters. It's just a piece of paper. You're married to Kaname, does it matter? You're not with him. You don't care about him. "Kaito comments. "I do care about him. Just not in the way he does me. I am sorry. I hurt him. I think about it all the time. It haunts me." Yuki admits. "You have to let go. It's not going to change just because you keep thinking about it." Kaito states. "I know. I just wish he would find happiness." Yuki answers.
"Some people can't find happiness in anything. Its just the kind of people they are. Was he really happy with you? He was never with you. He just had you. Which is what he wanted. He took you away from Zero. Making him miserable, which in turn, made Kaname happy." Kaito remarks. "When we were alone, I know Kaname was happy. There were times he would let go but then build the wall back up. He never could just let go fully. I can't live a pureblood life. I am not made that way. To hold back how I really feel. Show no emotions. Thats not me. With Zero, I am myself. I can be as silly, nerdy, boring as I want to be. He excepts me just the way I am. I am free in so many ways that I was never with Kaname. Even hiding the way we are." Yuki confesses.