Chapter 32

Leonard just held his girlfriend that night. He understood now why Penny left for New York because she wanted a new start in life. He could not blame her after being with three guys that abused her and refused to be in a serious relationship for a long time. Leonard did not still understand most days why she picked him though. Maybe it was the way he treated her because he would never judge her for her past and that he just loved her. To Leonard, Penny and now their baby meant the Universe to him and everyday he would show her. Or maybe he just should not know why Penny wanted to be with him, just to be grateful they found each other. Leonard pulled his girlfriend closer as it was somehow possible and feel into a deep sleep.

Penny had woken up noticing she was alone. But as she came to and noticed her surroundings, Penny sat up and Leonard was walking in now their bedroom with a tray full of breakfast. "I thought you could eat a good breakfast now your carrying our baby, plus it's your first time meeting your therapist, and you have call back audition today." Leonard said as he settled the tray of food over Penny's lap and sat next to her.

"Awe babe, you're pretty amazing, you know that?" Penny replied back, leaning over giving Leonard a kiss on his cheek.

"I try, but can not get enough when you tell me. So you could tell me again..." Leonard couldn't help give his girlfriend a cocky smile and he wiggled his eyebrows at her as he began to kiss her neck.

"Smart Ass!" Penny joked as she rolled her eyes as she tried to eat her breakfast but became distracted as Leonard continued to kiss her up and down her neck to she shoulder. "You feed me, yet you act like you are trying to get me in the mood for sex... So what is it because I have only have time for one or the other..." Penny couldn't help but wink with a smile.

"Okay okay okay, eat now and making love to you will come later. You got to keep up your energy now babe. So you start eating and I will go grab my breakfast and come back and eat with you." Leonard suggested as Penny nodded.

As Leonard walked out if the room, Penny felt a small pain of guilt and wished she could have made love to her man right now. Leonard was always good to her no matter their situation. Last night was such an emotional rollercoaster for her and Leonard sat there and listened to her messed up past again. Yet somehow he still loved her. She knew things would have been different in her life if she met Leonard sooner. But if she did met him when she was twenty or a few years older she had an idea that she would not be ready for a serious relationship with Leonard back then. But him being in her life sooner he probably would have been there for her anyways when she fell out of a bad relationship. Yet that is how her life was and Leonard was in her life now at twenty-five and it was a very grown-up relationship with Leonard, with now a baby would be in their lives thirty-six weeks from now. It was different and scary with Leonard but yet she wanted more than anything that ever happened in her life before. That was why she wanted to go to therapy so she was done with her past life and fully ready with Leonard and their baby. She was tried reliving the past with her man that was her present and future.

After Leonard joined her and they ate breakfast together, Penny took a shower and Leonard got ready for work. It was when Penny was getting dressed, Leonard kissed her goodbye for the day and left to pick up Sheldon and headed to work. Penny sat in the waiting room filling out paper work and her nerves finally got the best of her. She ran to the public rest room and lost her breakfast. Penny noted even it was nerves this time and was use to getting sick after drinking so much, she might as well adjust being sick in the morning here in the next few weeks. Once she was good and cleaned herself up, she threw a piece of gum in her mouth and sprayed some perfume on her, Penny headed back to the waiting room to finish her paperwork. But once she did, now there was a couple with two children that seemed to be bickering. Their children were even fighting over a toy. Penny's tried to ignore all four if them but panic set in and her eyes grew big fearing that might be her and Leonard some day. But before she could run out of that waiting room, a woman came out in that looked like in her mid thirties with long burnette hair, hourglass shape body, and around Penny's height with a hot pink pantsuit with a white blouse on. "Penny Barrington?" The woman said with a bright smile across her face.

Penny looked up at her and wondered how a therapist could be so chipper. She got up and handed the receptionist the clipboard and greeted the therapist. "Well Penny I am Doctor Elizabeth Dean. If you follow me we will get started." Penny told her okay and followed and Doctor Dean began to make small talk with Penny so she would see if her new patient would loosen up and would be easier for Penny to open up.

"So Penny tell me why are you here? Why is it important for you to talk to me?" Doctor Dean asked Penny after they were sitting down across from each other in comfortable bright green and pink arm chairs. The whole office was full of bright colors and sun shining through the window.

Penny liked how this doctor decorated her office, she was going to feel comfortable with her. "Well I am in a really good place in my life but I feel like my past is going to ruin it all eventually..." As Penny began.