Guess who's got writer's block when I literally have days to write? That's right, ME!

Because of that, I have decided to slap down this massive chapter with a million feels so that you guys can have something to read while I struggle to come up with ideas and get my writing in order. Also winter storm Ulmer going through bombogenisis was wack here. Got some nasty wind gusts with the snow, I was just lucky to not lose power. Lights liked to flicker every once in a while.

Nonetheless, I am going to continue to be busy for the rest of this month, so uh yeah. Hopefully I can muster up some inspiration. After all, I don't have any magic forward-posts after this, this is almost the end of what I've written...

Enjoy!

Edit of May 24th, 2020: I fixed a plot hole, where Myrana gave away her necklace. This breaks one of the rules of being a Solenade, where you can't "get rid" of the necklace. Luckily, inspiration has struck to make her decision much worse hehehe...

With the sun rising and burning against my eyes, I feared the worst. Master Lloyd would be so disappointed and angry with me… Would he abandon me? I disobeyed his advice, and went off on my own… I was his only friend! I shouldn't have abandoned him!

I supposed it would only serve me right if he did the same.

Huffing quietly, I rattled my chains again. I knew it wouldn't do any good, I couldn't phase through them, but it was something to bother my captors at least.

Then one of them walked into the room. He wore white, and that was as much as I wanted to know about him. Kneeling down at my bound form, with the chain leashing me to a solid pole, he began staring intensely at my face.

"Why aren't you free yet? What component are we missing?" He hummed, staring at my scar on my arm. He glanced further down and noted the large scar running across my left leg. I often ignored it, the dark green skin scraggly and rough from around the knee down, I didn't remember its cause.

"You were always clever, despite your future knowledge. There has to be something you know, even if it's instinctual." He mumbled again, and I only glared back. I had to keep my dignity, despite the pain. Eventually, he gave up and left. After being sure that he was gone, I set my head down on the hard and splintered wood. It was mild compared to my pain.

Was this despair? The crushing feeling of defeat? Knowing that you couldn't do a thing to get out of your situation, and even if you did, there was nothing but the worst on both ends?

Annoyingly, one who wore red walked in. Couldn't they leave me to suffer in peace? My chains rattled as I stared up at him. He was quiet, studying me much like the last one.

"I remember that scar. I remember both of them." He sighed. More lies, I could sense it.

"The necklace alone didn't free you, but why? Was it an order that kept you back?" I shuffled in defiance, scowling through the ache in my body. It seemed to be something he was looking for.

"That's it! I knew you were still in there, no matter how much I hate you!" His bittersweet proclamation echoed through my mind as he dashed out of the room. I huffed and struggled against my chains, I had to stop him!

Of course, the chains won as they always had. Despite it being a fruitless effort, it gave me comfort. The last shining bit of hope that I could escape and return to Master Lloyd with the necklace, and prove my worth.

"Guys, come on!" The red one ran back into the room, several others spilling into the small area with him. Black, white, blue, maroon, and two old men. While they were excited, I could tell it was just for relief, and not for my own wellbeing. When I stared back at the one wearing red, I noticed the necklace dangling over his chest. I hissed, but remained still. It could be my only bargaining chip!

"Let's hope this works. I hereby declare that any previous order is to be voided, a fresh slate!"

The pain died away.

There were so many things going on at once, I started reliving my life and my afterlife all at once, a cacophony of noise and flashes, important and unimportant details streaming faster than the speed of light! Breathing heavily, I felt myself becoming me again, and I began sobbing happily.

"I-I, my name is Myrana! And if anyone ever tries to bury me again, I will not hesitate to tear their organs apart!" I screamed to the heavens, one of the largest smiles I have ever had plastered to my face with pride.

Today I was free, and I would make sure I stayed that way! Never again will I fall prey to being a slave of no free will! The sky will be set ablaze, the fiery existence of stars will freeze, the largest of black holes will become habitable before I let this happen again!

"And that's her alright." Cole sighed, bringing me back to reality. I stared at him, and started to giggle.

"I'm free. I'm finally free. I know who I am. I know who I am!" The joy and relief in my voice… It sounded as if I had discovered my homeland was alive. Of course, it wasn't, but at least I was here and free!

The aching chains around my body fell away as Kai placed my necklace around my throat, where it belonged. He backed away, and I stared him dead in the eyes.

"As the free ghost you have all made me today, I hereby owe you my existence. Even though my Solenade status already has me in debt…" I awkwardly replied, and the group nodded respectfully.

"And we hope you can forgive our realm for causing you such pain." Wu replied, and my smile wavered.

"Your realm isn't at fault. It never was. It's… It's his fault. Lloyd, Revanche, I don't care at this point what name I use! He caused this, not you." I insisted, and Garmadon frowned.

"My son has changed for the worse over the years." He lamented, and I floated up to him.

"Please, if anything, this is all my fault. I changed him. He was meant to grow up with a kinder heart. All of you were. Don't blame yourselves. It's okay to pin all of the blame on me."

"I wish I could change my mind that easily." Was his neutral response. It triggered a memory I had forgotten about in my joy. The cage, and how I had forced Morro, my only friend in the Cursed Realm, to endure my pain.

"Where's Morro?" I worriedly asked, and Cole was the one to respond.

"Last we saw him, we let him stay in a guest room. He was really shaken by what happened. If it weren't for him, we would've never known you were coming." That's right, Morro wasn't "scratching the migraine away" in the cave, he was using code! With all the fancy technology the Ninja had, he must've had some sort of communication device in his ear!

"As my first act of having free will back, I'm finding him!" I proclaimed, and sped out of the room to find Morro. I passed door after door, glancing inside the small windows of each to hopefully find my friend.

Behind the last door of the hallway, Morro was curled up in a bunk bed, a stress ball of air spiraling between his hands.

"Morro? Morro, it's me! I'm back!" I sobbed as I banged my hand against the door, not daring to intrude again without his permission. I heard his hand scrape against the door, and I hoped he would open it. Yet, I wouldn't blame him if he just yelled at me to disappear.

"Do you realize what you did back there?" The quiet response scared me, his first words to me sad and questioning.

"I know."

"Then tell me! Tell me why!" Were his broken yells from across the wooden split.

"I-I ripped apart your mental walls to use you. I violated your mind. You were my pain relief in times where I viewed Lloyd as my god. I-I used you as a tool. Just so that I could make him happy! I didn't care about your mind, I just wanted the acceptance, the sick sense of love I'd get back if I did something he'd approve of!" I sobbed, my crime slamming through my heart, tainting the joy of being free.

Silence was the only thing that followed.

"I can't believe that in my delusional state, I thought that giving my curse to you would make the world any better." I whispered, slumping against the old wooden door. A few more moments passed, and I contemplated leaving.

"You forced your mind to tear into mine. You practically stabbed needles through each and every one of my senses, and abused me." His voice barely made it through the planks between us.

"And yet, I still can't bring myself to hate you."

I curled up into a ball at his door, memories flooding back. The days when Lloyd and I were younger, when I was years younger than my current mental age of nineteen. When I forced Lloyd to suffer my apathy and tears, and he pushed through the brunt of them all, and ending up as a possible addict who put me through brainwashed slavery.

"Morro, what if you end up like Lloyd? You keep caring, and he cared, and he turned into one of the monsters he feared lived inside me! I don-"

"I'm not him." His strong response was punctuated with a small smack against the door, and I sighed.

"I'm not a good person. I'm terrible, horrible, a demon and plague across the realms." I tried to warn him.

"Call me stupid then, because I still think that you matter." With a small creak, the door opened and revealed Morro. He looked so tired, and yet there was a warm smile adorning his face with kindness in his eyes. A slight gasp left my throat as I slowly floated up to his height.

"M-may I hug you?" I whispered, unsure if he'd be alright with touch.

"Yes. Yes, of co- Oof!" I practically crashed into Morro, laughing and sobbing on his shoulder.

"I won't let you down, I won't let you get hurt! I swear by my existence, I'll do better this time. I have to, I don't think I could lose you!" I vowed, and Morro hugged me back.

"You know, you weren't the one who caused that pain." He whispered, and I shut up immediately.

"But it was me."

"You're made of your memories, your control. He took that away, and so you weren't the one who did that. You were just the unfortunate vessel." Morro insisted, squeezing me tighter.

"I wish it were that easy to think that way."

"Then I'll help you. We can get past this, together." I started sobbing on his shoulder, my emotions running wild. I wouldn't lose him like I lost Lloyd. There would be no future in store for me if I lost Morro.

This was my second, and last chance. There was no going back. It's do or die.

"Thank you." I whispered to him softly, my voice cracking in and out of existence. I could not cry tears, but my trembling form was enough to show my true emotion.

We continued to embrace one another, fearful that letting go would cause the other to fade away. Time seemed to pass so fast, and I wished that it would slow down for us, this snippet of peace.

I wanted desperately to show Morro my emotions, but I knew better than to ask for another connection. After what I did, I was already surprised he let me touch him at all.

Eventually, we let go of each other. If I had tears, I know they'd be streaming down my face like rivers.

"Y-you know, maybe one day I can s-share my memories. I still remember yours from…" I trailed off, wanting to ignore my recent past.

"I, yeah. I think I'd like that sometime." Morro smiled, and I took a deep breath. We had things to worry about.

"How is the Cursed Realm?" I asked, and he frowned.

"They're undergoing some cleanup efforts. A whole barrage of portals have been forming lately." He replied. I hummed, concern flowing through my thoughts.

"That's not good. There's nothing I can really do about it though, and we have someone to deal with here. I'm very, very angry and would like some compensation." I growled, and Morro put a hand on my shoulder.

"I'm sure you'll be getting it soon, I'm sure Lloyd's on his way by now."

"Yeah, you're right. We should probably make plans for that." I sighed, disappointed the peace wouldn't be able to last forever. I shifted away from Morro's hand, and he smiled.

"Hey, I'm glad you're back." His earnest reply warmed my heart.

"Come on, lets go talk with the others." I gestured out towards the hallway, and we flew back to the main control room.

"Woah, I didn't expect all of you guys here in the same room." I blinked as they were sitting around a temporary table. Garmadon, Wu, Kai, and the other Ninja, all quieting as they saw us both.

"We're trying to figure out what to do. It's… Not easy fighting a friend." Kai sadly replied, and I frowned.

"Yeah, it's not an easy job. At least he's short one of the most dangerous weapons around, me. And I can promise you, I will not be letting him get away." Jay nodded as I spoke, knowing very well my violent side was powerful.

"What do you have as a plan?" Zane inquired, and I shrugged.

"I've got an outline of a plan, I suppose. We know two things for certain: Lloyd will be coming after me, and that my necklace can give him control alongside the rest of you, excluding Nya and Wu. You were not on the island at that time. Something has to be done to keep him from regaining control over me, and to use his incessant will to find me against him.

"So, we want him to come here. It's our home turf, and we can use that as an advantage. I'm not leaving without revenge, I'm fairly set on giving him a piece of my mind after turning me into a slave. We also need to keep the Realm Crystal away, if it's here. He gets control of that, it's going to be an absolute pain to gain any sort of reinforcement.

"We can have him come here and set up a trap. I do want revenge, but I never want murder. Never again." I finished, and Cole frowned.

"But there's a hole here, what are we going to lure him in with? Alongside that, if we let him get his hands on you, he's beat all of us in the past! How are we going to get you away from him?" He exposed the holes in the plan, and I hummed.

"I already am the lure. Second, I can't give away my necklace or store it somewhere. This necklace is something I hate, and yet I love it for the wonderful things it has let me create in the Cursed Realm." I frowned, grasping it gently.

"I can only strengthen and tighten it. Seeing as you, Nya, are an excellent welder and have much more experience with metals than I do, I request that the necklace can be strengthened. I don't know the rules of altering it, which I doubt is possible, but adding something like armor to it would be greatly appreciated. It will also give me an outstanding advantage." I turned to face her, showing off the necklace as a sad reality.

"Though I know that 'I can't get rid of it.' and I don't trust the world to be nice to me, so if you don't mind, I'd like to oversee the creation of my necklace 'armor' in order to prevent the wrath of whatever ancient rules control this thing." Nya agreed to my request.

"Necklace protected. Second, perhaps we can beat him, in a new way. I know how to use my ghostly powers now that I've trained, thanks to Lloyd. He can still influence me, but I can do the same. By possessing him, I can neutralize him until we can find a prison secure enough to hold him down. If I recall correctly, Kryptarium is the most secure in Ninjago. Though I want you to make sure he stays there, it would be very easy to escape if he plays his cards right." I warned, and the others nodded.

Then I heard a thud. Quickly shushing the others, I pushed Morro away and went off to find Lloyd. Of course, I remained invisible in my search. Luckily, Lloyd had not gotten far and was stumbling across the deck of the Bounty. Before he could pull out some sort of Deus Ex Machina device, I returned the favor of losing your free will.

Fighting against Lloyd's will was easy. He seemed so out of it, which set off several alarm bells. Flexing the taller body, I found it was difficult to control. The body was tired, and Lloyd was too. A memory flashed up of the pills I knew Lloyd took.

"Oh my god he's dying!" I blurted out, the deeper voice of Lloyd mixing with my own.

"We need a doctor, we need a hospital!" I screeched, watching as a few of the Ninja came out onto the deck.

"What?" Kai asked, and I saw colors blur. Lloyd was so exhausted he couldn't even see!

"Lloyd's dying! He needs a hospital!" I could feel the influence of the body growing as I continued to maintain control. I wanted revenge, not an overdose!

As his body continued to become more and more sluggish, I forced Lloyd to lie down against the rough wood of the Bounty's deck. At this point, I could feel the exhaustion rolling through us in waves. If I continued to stay, I would fall asleep with Lloyd and become useless to everyone around me.

Pulling myself out of Lloyd's body before it was too late, I panted with the strain of keeping him awake. Feeling the ship moving with great speed, I kept my feet on the ground. Staring back down at him, he was already passed out, and I feared for his life. There was very little you could to keep someone alive if they overdosed as far as I knew.

"Oh god, he's exhausted…" I whispered out, noticing Kai and Cole were trying to figure out what was wrong.

"Do you know what happened?" Kai demanded.

"He's probably overdosed, how long until we reach a hospital?" I replied hastily.

A selfish and egotistical side of me reared its ugly head inside my mind, annoyed with Lloyd's current state. I wanted him alive. I wanted to bring down divine judgement of my own, force him to suffer through agony, leave another permanent mark on his psyche and body. Death was going to be a gift he wasn't going to get from me. I couldn't have it, neither should he, without payment of course.

I huffed quietly, doing my best to ignore the thoughts. Lloyd was warped into this monster because of me, no reason to make it worse. Revenge could come in many forms, and beating him would not be very satisfying.

Knowing that Cole and Kai would do their best to take care of him, I stepped to the rail of the Bounty. As I stared out at the fast-moving scenery, I tried to understand my feelings, or lack of them. Once upon a time, we were siblings in all but blood. There was a point where I was willing to take a literal missile for him.

Then I changed, and so did he. My paranoia and fear of being hurt stemmed from my homeworld, something unheard of in Ninjago. It flowed into Lloyd, until the dam broke and I was forced to become wild. The trauma of my actions affected Lloyd, and he turned me into a slave. Then he brainwashed me.

Yes, perhaps it was wasteful to bring more damage to Lloyd's psyche. But he turned me into someone I'm not, and so I'm going to do the same back. My mind was the only place I held sacred to myself, and his actions broke my security. So I'll break him, again.

I held no empathy for the monster that made me a slave. Clouse tried once, and he ended up dead. In all respects, Lloyd is lucky that I don't want to kill. I didn't want another death on my hands. But maiming him?

Now that was something I had no qualms about.

Seeing as the country landscape turned to city, I turned back to face Cole and Kai's panicked concern.

"Are we close?" Kai asked quickly, and I shrugged.

"I'm seeing city, so I'm assuming yes."

"Good, he's not doing well at all. He's barely responding to anything, and he's getting colder." Kai muttered, and I stared back down at my previous captor. I held no love for him anymore. After this, I hoped to never see him again.

"You said he might have overdosed?" Cole questioned, and I nodded.

"He's been getting pills from Ronin, I don't know what they are. Chances are, after I escaped, he took a lot of them to deal with it. Thus, the overdose. Honestly, my main concern is that you might not have the medical training here in Ninjago to deal with an overdose. I was lucky that your doctors know how to handle a coma when I was alive; this is something that you don't really know about." I sighed, noting that we were getting close to the rooftop of a hospital.

"Get ready, you'll need to find him a doctor quick. To save time, I'll stay back. There's no reason for me to follow him into the building." I deadpanned, stepping away from the railing and back towards the inside of the Bounty. The quiet shuffling of the other two ninja were all I needed to hear, knowing that they were doing what they thought best.

"Will he be alright?" Jay's meek voice was amplified by the wooden hallway, and I tilted my head slightly.

"I hope so, I don't want him to get off the hook that easy. However, I can't guarantee anything, it's a bit of a mess right now." I honestly replied, not in the mood to sugarcoat my words.

"Oh."

"You're still afraid of me, huh?"

"Yeah."

"Hm." I had no real way of responding, but I was sorry that he had changed so much due to me. I guess you could say I pitied him.

Giving a small nod of acknowledgement, I shuffled into the main control room. I expected less people to remain in here, but then I noticed the security cameras. A good way to keep eyes on the situation, I supposed.

"Well, I guess we'll see what happens." I huffed, and Garmadon turned to me.

"Do you not care for my son like you once used to?" There was a tone of anger in his voice. I was ready to reply with my own.

"Obviously he doesn't care for me, being turned into a slave and all that. Brainwashing here and there too, surely I should care for the person who decided it would be a good idea to strip me of my mind." My sarcastic response caused him to quiet down. Frowning at my own misdirected anger, I sighed.

"Look. There was a time I'd die for Lloyd. But one thing led to another, and I'm not a good influence. When he literally enslaved me, that was crossing a line. Killing someone is just the end of someone's life. It's not happy, but we all face it and Ninjago doesn't send many people to the Cursed Realm. What he did warped what I considered to be me and used my body as a tool to do whatever he wanted. It's like being possessed and you don't even realize it. You can't fight back. There are many things I might let slide, but that is not one of them." It was as close to an apology as he was going to get.

"And that was the nice side of you, wasn't it?" Morro noted.

"Yes, and no. You were wise only to take the necklace from Lloyd. If you had hurt him while I was in that state, I would have gone insane. I would treat you much worse than my lack of emotions for Lloyd. There would have been no mercy, and no prisoners. However, I only acted on behalf of him. If you didn't do anything against him, I wouldn't care about your existence. I dare not speak the worst I could imagine him doing, in fear that it might happen." I replied, and he nodded.

"It would be to use you again, wouldn't it? But, you with only a clear goal in mind and not a single shred of sympathy for anyone you hurt other than Lloyd." Zane was the one who surprised me, coming up with an almost exact answer.

"You were always very clever, Zane. If he did that, what shred of my morals exist would be gone. If you think I'm a bad guy now, you've yet to see me when I let go." I warned, and the others shivered in recollection of my behaviour.

"Then we won't let it ever happen." Morro stepped forwards, still supporting me despite my dangerous personality.

I wished he knew how much that meant to me.

"I still very much want my revenge, though. Ninjago does not have prisons like my homeworld, and I believe that your punishment system is far too lax for something like this." I insisted, and Garmadon was the one who stood up for Lloyd.

"And what do you plan on doing to him, hm? I will not let you just kick my son down!" He pointed his staff towards me, anger clear as day on his face.

"What is it that you expect me to do? After what he's done to me, I would very much like a sentence that lasts a large chunk of his lifetime, if not all of it. However, to put your gracious green ninja behind bars would be such a blow to your society, your hero turning out to be the most evil villain of them all. The publicity would spread the violent nature of slavery, and could cause others waiting in the dark to become even worse than before.

"Or, I could do what I want, and your entire society will not be affected. You know very well I don't want murder, and I don't find his method of using drugs to be my flavor. If you don't want me to hurt him, you're asking far too much of me." I hissed.

"Alongside that, it's been a fight to keep the Preeminent from beginning inter-realm war. The way your realm has been treating one of her most beloved subjects… She is very willing to fight, bringing others down with her." Morro sighed, and I frowned.

There were times I even wanted a war, against Lloyd at least. I expected the Preeminent to take this as an act of war, but I doubted she would tell the difference between citizens and people like Lloyd.

"Can't you see what you've done already? Is it not enough?" Garmadon urged, trying to convince me to stop.

"I've already thought about that. There must be payment for this, he violated my mind. Nothing is as sacred as my mind." I deadpanned, but my thought continued inside my mind.

"Which I'm surprised Morro hasn't gotten revenge for."

"Just let her do it, it's not worth trying to fight against her. Every time we've done it so far, things only get worse." Jay defended, though meek and quiet.

"You cannot be defending this behavior J-" Garmadon's shocked response was cut off by Kai.

"Seriously, don't get on her bad side. If she gets out her anger, the better it is for us. I spent a long time fighting against her, and she will not hesitate to fight back with fists." Kai argued, and Garmadon stared down the rest of the Ninja, seeing the emotion in their eyes. Garmadon had seen me do horrible things, but he did not realize my determination.

"He is my son, I cannot leave him to face you alone!" He growled, facing me with determination of his own.

"Fine then. Fight with him if it makes you feel any better, I don't care." I huffed, and Garmadon found this to be a suitable compromise.

"Knowing I cannot truly stop you, I suppose this is the only option I have." Defeat was accepted, and his shoulders slumped reluctantly. Careful to avoid poking at the deal any longer, I changed the subject.

"Well, what we can do now is fix our problems and continue to plan more diplomatic meetings. I'd prefer we avoid war, and plans are a good way to start." I suggested, and the others nodded.

"I think that would be the best course of action as well." Zane spoke up, and I nearly sighed in relief. A crisis was avoided for now.

"Then let's get to it."

Yay emotions! I actually tried to research some symptoms for the sake of not making this super terrible. I'm probably toeing the line of T, if I'm not already in M...

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