*Clary POV*

I remember seeing the trailer headed straight toward us. I remember Jace telling me he loved me. I remember the smell of burnt rubber. I remember the car rolling. I remember the airbag inflating. I remember my head hitting the snow cover pavement. I don't remember anything after that. I was standing over my lifeless body, taking note of the bright red snow surrounding my head. Am I dead? Why can I see myself? It's so quiet, almost peaceful. The snow was falling rather slow. Suddenly I could hear.

"Yes ma'am, I was driving the big truck. From what I can tell there are only two other people involved. One is getting up, the other is not moving. She has a lot of blood around her head. You need to hurry and get an ambulance out here."

Two other people.

Jace. I drew in a lung piercing breath. "JACE!" I spun quickly.

He was moving. Thank the Angel! He was moving. I ran over to where he was. I put my hand on his shoulder, "Jace, are you okay?" He looked around frantically.

"I'm right here! Jace!" I waved my hand in front of him. He can't see me. I'm having an out of body experience. No. People only have out of body experiences when they're dead. I need more time. My life can't end this quick. I'm only 24. Jace and I hav- were supposed to have a long life.

He quickly ran over to where my body was laying. He picked me up, and laid my head in his lap. He was telling me I couldn't leave him. His voice cracked while tears ran down his face.

"I'm not leaving you! I'm right here!" I knew he couldn't hear me. I knew I was alone. I couldn't help it. Seeing him so broken was causing an ache in my chest. "Jace, I'm right here! You aren't alone. I. am. not. leaving. you."

I looked up to the sky desperate. He was hurting. All I wanted to do was climb in his lap, and kiss his tears away. I could hear the sirens in the distance. They're coming. I just have to hold on a little longer.

*Jace POV*

Everything happened so fast. One minute I'm staring at an 18-wheeler headed for us, the next I'm hold Clary's lifeless body in my arms. Now, I'm sitting in the waiting room of the ER.

"Sir, we need to ask you some questions about the accident." I just starred at the floor. How could I possibly answer questions right now?

"Sir, can you hear me?"

My head snapped up. "Of course I hear you. No, I'm not answering any questions right now. The love of my life is through those doors fighting for her life right now. So if you don't mind leaving me alone, while I take a moment to try and pull myself together for her sake!"

"I'm apologize. Our thoughts are with you. Is there any family we can contact, so that your not alone?"

There is no family. My parents are dead. Her parents are dead. It was us against the world. "No, that's fine. I will get in touch with them." They nodded their heads, and silently left the room. I need to call Simon, Alec, Izzy, and Magnus. I searched my pockets. I felt a small hard box. I slowly pulled the ring box out of my pocket. This is not how tonight was supposed to go. Tonight was supposed to be a happy night. Now Clary is fighting to stay alive. I found a phone on the wall, and picked it up. It rang twice before I heard the voice on the other end.

"So, what did she say? Did she say yes? Who am I kidding, of course she said yes!" My chest tightened.

"Alec. I need you and Magnus to get to the hospital right now." My voice was shaking.

"What happened? Jace, are you okay? What's going on?"

"It's Clary. They don't know if sh- if she's going to make it." The tears were flowing. Men aren't supposed to cry. I couldn't hold them back.

"We'll be there in ten minutes." I heard the phone click. I sat back down in the waiting room, dropping my head into my hands. I could see her, smiling when I pushed her ice cream into her face. I could hear her laugh. I could taste her terrible cooking. I could see her sleepy eyes when I wake her up in the mornings. We have a lot of memories, but we were supposed to have time to create more.

"Family of Clary Fray?" A nurse was looking around the room.

"Right here." I stood up from the cold hard plastic chair.

"We have stabilized her. If you would like to see her, you can follow me."

We walked through a hallway, then another, and then another. The halls started to get longer and longer.

"We have moved her to ICU. She will have to remain there until she wakes up, and we can rule out any brain damage."

I heard her. I just had to focus on putting one foot in front of the other. I had to remind myself to breath. How much longer until we got to her?

"We are here. I will give you some privacy."

I placed my hand on the door. I couldn't find the strength to push the door open. I took a deep breath. I had no idea what was waiting on the other side of the door. I pushed the door, there she was.

She was laying lifeless in the bed, much like the accident. She had wires coming out from her gown. Her head was wrapped all the way around with gauze. She had dark circles under her eyes. I sat down in the chair beside her bed taking her hand in mine.

"Clary, if you can hear me, I love you. When you pull through this, I will spend everyday for the rest of my life showing you just how much. I will never take another moment for granted. I need you, Clary. I can't live this life without you in it. I know you're a fighter. You're my spitfire. I need you to fight, baby, just fight."

She moved.

I felt her hand move.

"NURSE! SHE"S MOVING!"

The dark headed nurse came into the room just when she opened her eyes.

I was immediately beside her.

"You have no idea how much I wished for those beautiful green eyes to stare back at me!" I leaned down to kiss her.

She jerked away from me. Panic filled her face. Her breathing increased. The heart monitor started to beep.

"Clary? What's wrong?" I tried to approach her again, and again she pulled away.

She glared at me, frightened.

"Who the hell are you?"

"Come on Clary, this isn't funny."

"I don't know who the fuck you are, but you need to get the hell away from me." She looked at the nurse. "Get my mom! I need my mom!"

I followed the nurse out of the room. There are no words to describe the way I was feeling. Hurt, scared, confused, angry, broken are just a few.

"What is going on?" I glared at the woman wearing blue scrubs.

"I believe she is experiencing amnesia. The brain will sometimes make a person forget in order to heal."

"So this is only temporary?", I asked her hopeful.

"I'll get the doctor for you."

"You must be Jace. I'm Dr. Starkweather. There is something I want to talk to you about. Clary's brain has a lot of swelling. She also had some bleeding. We have one of the best Neurologist in the country. I'm afraid that there is about a 5% chance that Clary will regain her memories."

My whole body went numb. My vision started to blur, and everyone seemed to move in slow motion. I started to fall to my knees when I felt arms catch me. Alec.

I felt the tears running down my face as I looked at him.

"She's gone. My Clary is gone."