Hello, the author here just wanted to say thank you again for the lovely comments from the last chapter. Also I'm sorry I have updated in a while I've been on holiday and only been back two days. Anyway here's the next chapter.

Idea by Ludub ( backtothebay ): Maybe you could do one about his time in the hospital before the kidney transplant. How he felt about things and looking back on his life (thinking he was going to die).

Chapter 5 – Reflection

Hospital – ICU

Kyle had just been told that his only option now was a kidney transplant if he wanted to live. Kyle had agreed but on the condition that the kidney came from someone he didn't know otherwise he didn't want it. Everyone in the room had started to protest even Ash which completely shocked him considering the two had got on lately.

"Come on Kyle at least let us try to see if we are a match." Ricky had demanded.

Sighing Kyle says: "I already said no! If I get lucky on the waiting list and it comes from someone I don't know then I will take but I will not let any of you put yourselves in danger because you are trying to help me."

Phoebe was about to say something when Dr James Edmunds entered the room with a smile on his face.

"What is it?" Kyle asks.

"Well Kyle I've just had a look through your file now your brother Heath isn't a match but your brother Darryl is. So if we give him a call and he can get here on time we can get started." Dr Edmunds says.

"Doc!" Ricky says to him.

"Now don't worry I know he is in jail but all it takes it a call to the prison and your brother's lawyer and we can get the ball rolling."

"Doc, we can't call him." Ash butts in noticing how quiet Kyle had suddenly gone.

"What? Why not?"

Ricky looked at Kyle too then said: "He passed away a couple of months ago."

"Oh I'm so sorry, I didn't know." Dr Edmunds says.

"Are you though?" Kyle says under his breathe.

"Excuse me?"

"I said are you? I noticed the look on your face when you said that you knew he was in prison and you didn't seem very happy about that."

"I didn't have any look on my face that would suggest that." Dr Edmunds tells him.

"Yes you did! So do me a favour and get out!" Kyle shouted at him "Actually all of you get out!"

"Kyle, the doctor didn't mean anything by that." Phoebe says calmly knowing what Kyle can be like.

Kyle grabs the cup of the side table and throws it: "GET OUT!"

They four of them quickly leave not wanting anything else thrown at them.

Hospital – Corridor

"I'm so sorry Doctor Edmunds." Ricky says apologetically "Kyle still hasn't really gotten over his brother's death."

"That's ok but I think for now it might be best if we give him some room." Dr Edmunds replies.

Ash who felt guilty about protecting Brax's secret even though he could help save Kyle, speaks up: "Well can I still get tested to see if I'm a match?"

Dr Edmunds nods his head and they all follow the doctor away from the ICU.

Hospital – ICU

Kyle could here the four of them talking from outside the room just as a tear slid down his face.

Why did this have to happen? Why was I so stupid to not listen to Nate and come here when he first told me to? Better yet, why did I join that stupid poker game? If I had done something differently then my only hope of a great match wouldn't have come in the form of Brax. God, I miss you Brax. At least you would have still been here if you weren't a match unlike Heath who hasn't even bothered to call to ask if I'm ok.

Kyle started to cry without caring what others would think if they saw him now. He suddenly started to reflect on his life up till this moment.

I'm going to die and I just realised I haven't done anything with my life. Sure I'm the owner/manager of the family restaurant but that's not something to be remembered about at least Phoebe will always be able to say she has a song and music video out there but not me I give up when I could he done something great with my life. Oh God, the baby if it's mine I won't be there to see it grow and Ash will become its father because I doubt he'll mention me. What about Ricky? How will she cope when I'm gone after all she just lost Brax and couldn't handle that? Baby Casey will never have me there to protect him like Brax would have wanted me to. I'm going to miss everything and all because of some stupid poker game!

Kyle's reflection on his life was interrupted by a nurse entering the room to check his vitals. As she did that Kyle went back to his thoughts as he looked out the window and noticed the rain making its way down the window just like the tears coming out of his eyes.