Shoutout to Platrium for noting that I had forgotten to give Theo a training scene! He's getting one here but it's set before the murder.

Theodore Elaine (15) D10M

You shouldn't have to ask for help. The words were quietly bouncing in my head, over and over again, when I knew I needed it. Asking for help was against everything my grandparents had ever taught me. It was a sign of weakness, of being a poor leader. I was supposed to be the best leader in the world, and I was a pretty good one. So why did I find myself feeling lost? The Games were as straightforward as things got, yet I found myself confused in the midst of everything, despite being in the best possible situation to show off every skill I had slowly perfected.

Still, as I walked up to Enigma, Isaac's words found their way into my head, too. "Nobody's perfect, and nothing in life is perfect. You shoot for the attainable, not the maximum." He was a smart kid, despite only being fourteen. He knew what he had to say to me to make me a better leader, and I was going to repay him my debt in leading him perfectly later on. He and Radian deserved every bit of leadership from me I could give them.

"I knew you come," Enigma said the second I walked into the room. She shook my hand and welcomed me cordially, offering me a spot before sitting down herself. "Technically, as a One, I shouldn't be helping a Ten, but I'm not really your average Victor, now am I?"

"No," I said, sitting myself down. "You're most certainly not." I could feel my diplomacy filtering into my words as I spoke, and I tried to tone it down. I wasn't supposed to be perfect. I was supposed to be me.

"So, what do you need help with?" I challenge sparkled in Enigma's eyes, and I slowly realized why. I didn't know what I needed help with. I just knew that some part of me was missing, and I saw bits of myself in her quietness, her observation skills, and her being a loner. I wanted to be a little bit more like her.

"Part of me is missing, and I don't know what it is yet. I'm already a great leader, and I know what's best for people around me. I know what needs to get done. So why am I not happy?" I finally asked, realizing how much I needed that question to be answered. I was never happy. I was always questioning myself, feeling not good enough, feeling like a terrible leader even when I did things right. I was so imperfect that I never seemed to feel good.

"Because you're not supposed to be a great leader. You're supposed to be a kid. Find your personality, not what's been taught to you for so long. Find your strengths, not the ones that were shoved down your throat. You don't have to be perfect to be good," Enigma said, thinking each word over carefully. I sat there and thought about her words for a while, slowly realizing just how right they were. I had to find myself. I had a week to do it.

Prosper Mallister: 10

Alexandria St. John: 9

Gallant Deacon: 10

Cassiopeia Palassaqua: 7

Radian Sempli: 4

Lexi Circuit: 7

Rio Ryine: 8

Argentina Hudson: 11

Adair Brites: 7

Cecilia Q.: 5

Nixon Hankook: 2

Rhiannon Raimers: 6

Yvette Ishi: 6

Isaac Carder: 4

Lacey Evans: 7

Jacob Ezekiel: 7

Jade Hart: 4

Theodore Elaine: 7

Lumara Hansen: 6

Arkane Erransaw: 7

Amelia Gomez: 8

Nyle van Buren: 8

Indie Rayn: 6

Prosper: A ten. I'm the second best person in the alliance, tied with Gallant. That's pretty good.

Alexandria: A nine. I can handle that. Sure, they might have overlooked a strength or two, but that's not a bad thing.

Gallant: A ten? I guess they think I'm pretty good. I've got as solid a chance as any other Career.

Cassiopeia: What do they mean I'm a seven? I'm a strong Career, not the worst in the pack.

Radian: A four isn't half bad. Hey, me and Isaac got the same score. Better hope Theo can be our alliance's redeeming factor.

Lexi: A seven? They think I'm as good as a Career? I mean, I'm tough, but not that tough.

Rio: I'm the second worst Career. First I'm the youngest, then I'm the second worst. I'm so getting kicked out of the Pack.

Argentina: An eleven? I figured I was decent as far as Careers went, but there's no way I'm the best. Prosper is so cool, and Alexandria really knows her strategy.

Adair: I got as good as one of the Careers. Most people did, yeah, but I can use that. Sponsors don't have to be reminded that a lot of people got sevens.

Cecilia: How dare they? I had one hundred percent accuracy and the confidence to match. They don't know what they're saying.

Nixon: A two? They really think I'm going to die. Oh my gosh I'm going to die and this is all real they're just reminding you.

Rhiannon: A six. They think I'm perfectly average. That's all right. You don't want to be overestimated.

Yvette: A six. They think you're better than Jade and as good as Indie. You're almost as good as Lexi! You really know your poisons.

Isaac: I really got a four for a rock-on-a-string? It's literally a rock on a string. Anyone could use it.

Lacey: I got just about exactly what everyone else got. A seven will be good enough for now, but I'll be better than that by the end of the Games.

Jacob: What's up with all the sevens? Is that the normal score now?

Jade: A four. I guess they weren't impressed. For the better. You want to remain unnoticed and so you will.

Theodore: I can't believe I got a seven. That's not good enough to lead my alliance into victory. No, but it's good enough for you.

Lumara: The frick you mean I got a six? I showed tolerance to poison. I showed extensive knowledge of poisons. More like 60/5.

Arkane: You got exactly what almost everyone else in the alliance got. You fit right in.

Amelia: Haha, I got an eight. Tied for best in the whole alliance. Guess who the Gamemakers think is going to win? Argentina, but also maybe this girl.

Nyle: I didn't do well enough yet. I need to do better if I'm going to win, and if I lose, everything is for naught.

Indie: That darned floor. I got a six and it would have been a seven or an eight if I didn't trip. I just know it. Screw tripping.

What's up with me always getting a ton of repeats on scores? Last year it was nines, this year I got a ton of sevens (seven, actually). I don't mind but it's kinda funny.

Also yo, this is my second time updating within this 24-hour period, so you'll only get alerted once but I've written twice.