AN: A little short again but the heat really makes me feel exhausted when writing this

Chapter Five - Consequences

"I had sex with Kyoko"

Those words are going around and around in my mind and I feel sick and dizzy and if I shouldn't be here anymore. I know that that is my body saying that and usually that would be okay but it feels like a dirty glove, wearing someone else's protection so to speak. He had sex with my wife and she looks guilty about it. I don't know how it happened but it's making me feel all kinds of anger.

I look down and try to figure this out, did she know that she was having sex with him or did she think it was me? If she thought it was me then that's forgivable and I don't think that the first option is much of an option at all.

"How?" I ask as I turn to Kyoko and she opens her mouth but is interrupted by the asshole.

"Well, you know, sharing a bed, putting certain things in certain places," Fuwa tells me and I shake my head. I don't need to hear the details of how they had sex and honestly, I'd really prefer to not hear those words but the question still lingers. Why did she do that?

"How did it happen….Kyoko?" I ask trying to block Fuwa out. It's harder to do because that is my body right there but I need to know the truth. Did he test her? Lie to her? Manipulate her? Or did she truly crave the touch of human flesh so much that she thought that just because it's my body, it's okay for her to have this type of a relationship with him.

"He drugged me," Kyoko tells me and I feel the anger go through me again. Kyoko's eyes are filling with tears and I feel that protectiveness inside of me. I just want to take care of her. How dare he take advantage of her in this way because that's exactly what he's doing, what he's done. He's taken advantage of her. "I would never - I thought -"

"It's okay," I tell her and she looks at me as if confused. I know that she's trying to figure out whether I'm lying or not or whether I'm just trying to avoid the conversation but the truth is that it's okay because it has to be okay. She didn't know any better. She was tricked.

"Hey, she enjoy-" Fuwa says and I punch him hard in the face, knowing that I've left some bruising there. He crashes backwards and falls onto the ground. Good. I hope that he knows he deserves that pain. There is a part of myself that worries how any brain damage would affect the body, hopefully it will continue to affect Fuwa and not me when I return to that body and I will return to that body.

"Kuon," Kyoko says as she turns to face me and I feel hurt by the way that she acted earlier. She should have just told me what happened. It would have been better for the both of us. "Do you forgive me?"

I look at her before giving out a weak smile and solemn nod, "If it really is true that he tricked you then there's nothing to forgive." I see her worried expression and I know that she's doubting my words. I feel hurt and betrayed but that's stupid of me, she was drugged and didn't know the truth. Kyoko walks towards me and wraps her arms around me in a close embrace despite the fact that I'm in the body of the man that she still hates, if only just a little bit these days, and my own body is on the ground unconscious.

I don't know how long I can live this way. I don't know how long Kyoko and I can continue on in this way but the truth is that I love her and I'm going to continue loving her. I don't know if I can stop but this body disgusts her and I don't know how to change it.

…..

…..

This is becoming a little too bizarre for me but I have to live with it. I can see my husband's body on the floor and Shotaro's body standing over it having sent him unconscious. Under normal circumstances, I would be panicking and yelling at that idiot for having hurt my husband but this body switching thing is making me feel that Kuon, no Shotaro, deserves it. I look up at Kuon who is having difficulty accepting this.

I do believe his words though. He has always trusted me and even in the very beginning of my relationship with Ren, he forgave me if I was honest and asked for forgiveness. He's a reasonable person and the man on the floor…is not. However, I can't help but flinch a little as I see him there in Shotaro's body. I move closer to him and take his hand.

"I'm so sorry," I whisper as tears fall down my cheeks, I'm about to drop down into a bow but he hooks a couple of fingers under my chin and it prevents me from doing so. He looks at me and shakes his head, he's already said that there's nothing to apologize for but it doesn't stop my body feeling tainted.

"Can I ask you for something?" he asks and I nod shakily. If he wants his space then I'll give it to him. I wish we could stay together but if that's what he needs then I'll make sure that that's what I give to him. It'll break my heart but if it helps him, I'll do anything within my power to help him.

"Of course," I whisper and I see pain in his eyes. I feel so guilty for putting it there.

"I love you," he tells me and I blink up at him. I love him too so much, I love him enough to accept him in this body despite knowing this body so well that if it was any other circumstance, I would feel dirty hearing that voice say this.

"I love you too," I whisper and he pulls me to his chest. I give a quiet hum as he embraces me closely. He's shorter because of the body but the way he's holding me is just the same as when he's in his own body. "I love you," I sob into his chest once again.

"Can I…may I kiss you?" he asks and my eyes widen. Kissing Shotaro was never my favorite thing, okay it ranked among my least favorite things but this isn't Shotaro, not really at least. I nod and he leans down and I can feel that the position is the same, the force is the same. Maybe the shape of his lips is different but the feelings are the same. This is my Kuon and my Kuon has forgiven me.

"I like that," I blush and grab his shirt, pressing my face once again into his warm chest.

"The kiss or the person you're kissing?" he asks and I place my hand on his cheek, letting my finger brush across it.

"You know that is a layered question," I wink to him and he just watches me. "I love the man that I'm kissing who is on the inside of a man's body I have no affection for," I try to explain and we both hear Shotaro laughing from where he is on the ground. Kuon glares at him and I place a hand to his chest hoping that he'll be okay.

"See, looks better when I'm kis-" he says in an annoying manner and Kuon kicks him again. He faints and I realize that I want to run away with Kuon somewhere where the media will never find us. I have to be away from Shotaro despite him being in Kuon's body.

"You always will give me the best kisses, Corn," I tell him and he smiles softly. We can keep our relationship secret. We can make sure that people don't gossip, we've done it before when we first started dating. I just don't want Shotaro to screw up Kuon's life or his career. "Kuon," I say as I hold his hand and he looks at me, his eyes having the same emotion in them that he usually does when I catch him off guard despite them actually being Shotaro's eyes.

"Hmm?" he replies with a tilt of his head, waiting for me to finish saying what I'm saying.

"If you had to choose…" I say slowly, "Would you…what's most important to you. If it's your career."

"You," he says without having to take any time to think about it. "You are most important to me."

"I have a plan," I tell him before nuzzling him despite it being Shotaro's body. I just hope that this will work out for the best.

…

…

He beat me up. I can't believe it. Okay, maybe I can because he would have to be a real dick to not hit me after what I did to Kyoko but doesn't it prove to him that the physical is much more important to her than any kind of emotional element. She might try to convince him that she didn't mean to sleep with me but the facts are the facts.

Still, I wouldn't be able to beat up my own body this much despite who may be using it. In fact, it's a disgrace that he took my body in the first place. I should sue him but then I would be suing myself and I just want to get out of this situation. I get to my feet before looking around.

I'm outside of their home. I was inside the last time I was conscious but they've locked me out and put a bag of clothes and food next to me. What is this? Is this a clear indication that I'm not welcome here? Don't they worry about how his career might be affected especially with the speed that the media has in reporting anything scandalous about celebrities.

I hear a voice to the side and see Kyoko there with her arms crossed. Okay. So she decided to stay with me because I don't see that jerk anywhere around. I smirk. I knew that she would want to stay with me more than with him. I'm at least very good for her career despite how I hate this body.

"We're leaving in a few hours," she tells me and raises an eyebrow. I don't understand what she means by that but I'm excited to be leaving with her. We can go somewhere far away and she'll have her fancy spa treatment and I'll try to turn this body into something appropriate and acceptable. "I found your passport."

I look to her, "Overseas?" I ask and she nods though she obviously doesn't want to hear my voice. No. She doesn't want to hear his voice. "That'll be cool," I tell her and she laughs bitterly as she turns to the side. Why is she laughing like that? She wants me to come, right? She can't tell one warm body apart from another. She sighs and then bows her head, taking deep inhales and exhales.

"Not me and you, we, me and Kuon," she tries to explain. "I suggest you go to your apartment or wherever you want to. Go to a motel for -"

"I'll destroy his career," I warn her. She doesn't want that and I can use it to blackmail her, I see her face slightly fall but her eyes still carry her usual brand of Kyoko conviction and determination.

"Try it," she dares me, "we'll come up with more creative reasons to get back at you. We are surrounded by powerful people," she threatens and as much of a freak as their president is, he would be considered powerful even in the singing world. He could ban me from ever performing at a decent location ever again. "We are protected," she tells me and I sit there not sure how to deal with this kind of attitude, "by powerful people."

"So you're saying that if I do anything to Hizuri, my life will be over?" I ask her and she smirks.

"Pretty much," she nods and I continue to watch her. I don't understand how she got so cocky and I don't know why she needs a passport, are the two of them going to truly travel internationally? I have to let her do this because I know that she represents a bigger threat to my career than I do to hers and I loathe that that is the case.

"Where are you going, if I'm allowed to know?" I ask and Kyoko gives me another of her superior looks. It frustrates me enough to want to smack that grin off of her face but I'm not going to turn into the kind of guy who abuses women.

"Los Angeles," Kyoko says smugly and my jaw drops. His parents? They've told his parents about this and they are okay with it. Is she serious!? If I told my parents about this, they'd think I was crazy and want to commit me to a mental ward but Hizuri's parents are fine with this!? What the hell!?

End of Chapter Five

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