But I'm not the kind of person that it fits.

The women that came from far and wide where just as Kagome thought they would be. All very beautiful, tall, respectful and very very refined. Sesshomaru did strike fear in all of them. She thought for sure they would sneer at her person, but they didn't, they regarded her just as they did him with respect.

She began to see why Sesshomaru looked down on humans. "I think I need a break."

Sesshomaru looked up from their hidden spot within the walls, "A break?"

"Need I remind you I'm not from this time?"

"What is your point, Miko?"

"I just need to let loose, let my hair down."

He rose an eyebrow, "You can remove the pins if you wish Miko."

She sighed, "Its a figure of speech Sesshomaru" She stood and stretched.

"It is unsafe for you to travel in this weakened state."

"I will show weakened state mister; this is too formal for me."

"Because you hung around the half breed for far too long."

Kagome waved her hand over the wall, "I'm going to ignore that insult."

"As if you could act upon it Miko, I do not fear you."

She narrowed her eyes, "You should."

This made him stand and walk to her; he waved his hand closing the portal "Do not challenge me
woman."

"What, you're weak too."

A low growl came from him, "I will glad you show you weak woman."

His demonic power pressed against her and she held her breath. His gold eyes and power held her, but his dark clothing and lips made her heart flutter "Enough, Sesshomaru, I get it."

He quickly relaxed his hold, and she quickly exited the room. He found her response to be rather odd; perhaps she did need a breather.

He left the room. "You can visit my mother."

Kagome walked outside and looked up at the moon, "That sounds nice."

He walked to her and went to put his arm around her waist but he never made contact, she was gone.

He looked at the space in which had been standing. Perhaps she was not as weakened as he thought.

Kagome landed and laid down on the grass and closed her eyes "The universe hates me."

"Oh?"

"Lady Kagome, what are you doing?" Rin giggled.

Kagome opened her eyes to see both Rin and the moon mother looking down at her "Breathing Rin."

"You look quiet, flustered."

Kagome let our hair and the pink drained from her face.

"Rin, go wash."

"Hai moon mother."

The girl skipped away.

"Why are you here?"

"Cant a girl visit?"

The moon mother rose an eyebrow.

"Sango is pregnant."

"I fail to see what that has to do with me,"

"I just needed a break."

"A break?"

Kagome yanked yall the pins out of her hair and untied the belt around her waist and let the outer layer come open "I glad that Sesshomaru seeks my advice, I know not that take that for granted, but this just isn't me."

She stood and handed the gold pins to his mother "I dont think I ever get settled in"

"You gave up your future for the past, did you not think of what that would mean?"

She did, and she didn't "It's just all happened so fast."

"Time cannot stand still unless you make it."

Kagome removed the black outer layer robe and began to walk around, his mother followed.

"What do you want Kagome?"

Tears started to form "I guess I wasn't ready for us all to grow up" She was still very young in her point of view. She wanted her mother "I miss my mother,"

"Is that why you have come to me, I must admit Kagome I am not the nurturing type."

Kagome smiled, and the moon mother reached out and rubbed her face with her thumb.

"Just because he is mating does not mean you have to, do not live your life based on his moves."

But she felt she needed to.

"I was already a third wheel to everyone else."

"You being married or unmarried will not change his views of you."

"Even when he is married?"

"You are still the Miko of his house, a close ally, a friend."

Kagome smiled; she hoped that he did see her as a friend. Kagome walked to the edge and looked down "I will always be his friend."

"But?"

Kagome looked at his mother, "I cant be what he wants of me." Kagome knew why with each clench of her heart she knew.

"How do you know?"

Kagome shook her head "All this, glitter and gold and form and rules" She sighed "If I was not the Shikon Miko if I want from the future do you know where I would be?"

His mother rose and eyebrow,

"Id be in some hut in some village in rages" Kagome touched the bottom of her hair.

"But that is not how your life was written Kagome; you are where you are meant to be"

"I just feel" She bit her lip "I just feel out of place" Kagome looked down "I'm not the type of person this fits" What she wanted and reality of what was, was different.

"Yet, he chose you."

"Did you chose me or my power?"

"Both, have you talked to him about this?"

"I dont know what to say?"

"Sometimes, actions speak louder than words."

Suddenly Kagome lifted her head, and she made a decision. He wasn't going to like it, but if he wanted to be part of her life in any way, he would have to get over it.

She returned, and when he felt her, he reentered their portal room and came to an abrupt standstill.

There she stood, hair down, skirt on, bow at her back.

"What is this?" He asked,

"Me."

There was silence between them,

"Your suiters-"

"I'm not looking for suiters Sesshomaru; I cant be like you."

She cared for him, and while she would spare him her feelings, she would not ignore her heart and seek to be tided to someone else. It would be fair; it wouldn't be faithful. Perhaps in time.

"Like me?"

"I cant just choose; I dont want to choose."

He walked closer to her "Then what do you want?"

She looked up a him "It's not what you think."

"Then tell me," This through a loop in his planning.

Kagome shook her head "It doesn't matter, take me as I am or move aside."

He rose an eyebrow at her choice of words "You should be careful of your words Miko."

"As I am."

He looked her up and down, and she stomped her foot "Would you stop teasing me!"

He smirked,

"I am so going to zap if you dont stop that," She was trying to be calm, collective and brave.

"Hn, that would be the brash thing you would do" He looked away "I will miss you held tongue, but I will adjust."

Kagome breathed, he was accepting her.

"Beside Miko, did I not invite you here in that skirt and loose tongue?"

"Sorry to burst your bubble."

"It was not my intention to make you like them."

"I could never be like them."

His gold eyes bore into hers "Hn, let us leave it that way."