Ziva sat curled up in a chair and stared at the wall. The fact the love of her life was dying right down the hall broke her heart. In all her training as a Mossad agent, it never prepared her for losing her partner, friend and lover. She let her mind wander back to when they were undercover as married assassins. Even though they had to fake their love life it was then she realized that Tony DiNozzo was the one she wanted to be with for the rest of her life. When she had told him on that mission that she was pregnant he almost had a glow about him. What she would give to see that glow on his face and that million dollar smile right now.
Ziva wanted nothing more than to see the face she fell in love with again and hear his voice. But for now all she had was pictures of what he used to look like. She listened to a voicemail that he had left her a few days ago. She wished she had answered the phone that day. She saw the missed call still on her phone log. 'God why didn't I just answer the phone that day?' she thought beating herself up. She had already gone home that night. Tony had stayed at headquarters late that evening to finish up a lot of paperwork. He had called her late that night and left a voicemail when she didn't answer. She now pressed her phone against her ear and listened to the voicemail that had his sweet voice on the other end.
Hey sweetcheeks just wanted to let you know how lucky I am to have you in my life. I love you.
'Sweetcheeks" she pondered. That was the nickname her little hairy butt gave her. The fact in hearing him tell her he loved her, even in a voicemail was comforting. The waiting room was silent other than the sniffles from the rest of the team. Ziva walked to the window of Tony's room. How she could be with him in the way they were a week ago, a month ago, even five months ago. To have the happiness they shared back instead of the guilt and fear in her heart.
"He's going to be alright Zee" Gibbs said placing a hand on her shoulder.
"I don't think I can do this Gibbs. I can't lose him not like this. It's almost like it would have been easier if he would have died out there on that hillside instead of seeing him in so much pain and suffer." Ziva cried. Gibbs pulled her into a hug and placed his chin on her head.
"Ziva, we need to talk about some options." Dr. Pitt said walking up to the two agents.
"Brad you know good and well that I am Tony's power of attorney. I am the one that makes all of his medical decisions." Gibbs spat. What did Ziva know about Tony's health? She wasn't there when he had the plague and almost died. Gibbs believed he knew what was right for his agent and Ziva was going to have no say in his medical decisions.
"Actually Agent Gibbs it says here in Tony's chart that Mrs. Ziva DiNozzo is to make all medical decisions for Tony.
"What!" Gibbs spat. He then looked at Ziva. "Mrs. DiNozzo?"
"We didn't know how to tell you Gibbs." Ziva cried.
"How long?"
"Five months ago. We slipped off to the Hamptons and eloped. We knew if we told you that you wouldn't approve of it Gibbs." Ziva said wiping away tears.
Gibbs was shocked. Why wouldn't they of tell me?
"I'm sorry Mrs. DiNozzo but we really need to talk about the options." Dr. Pitt interrupted.
"Yes, I will make the decisions but I would like Agent Gibbs input as well." Ziva answered.
"Very well. This is Dr. Steven Williams. He's a surgeon that I highly recommend. I will let him explain what needs to be done." Dr. Pitt said.
"I believe Tony needs a debridement of some of the burn wounds. It will clear out some of the infected tissue. We can do it right here in his room. We just need your consent." Dr. Williams said
"Will this set back his healing process?" Gibbs asked.
"Not at all. It will give his body a chance to heal and recover from the pneumonia. At the moment I think it would be his best options." Dr. Pitt answered.
Ziva looked at Gibbs who gave her a nod.
"Let's do it." Ziva said
The thought of what they were about to do made Ziva sick. Gibbs knew that it wasn't just Tony's impending procedure that made her sick.
"Does Tony know yet?" Gibbs asked.
"No. I had found out the morning of the accident and had planned on telling him that night. It was hard to keep it a secret even at the crime scene. Gibbs if I lose him what am I going to do?" Ziva asked.
"We will make sure you guys are taken care of. The rest of the team…" Gibbs asked.
"No one else knows yet. Just me and you." Ziva said wiping more tears from her eyes. What irony she thought. The day she finds out she's pregnant is the same day her husband almost dies. She prayed that he would pull through and be able to see their little one born.
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