Abby went back to Gibbs house heartbroken that Tony wouldn't take into consideration what she had to say. Gibbs heard someone come into the house. He looked out the doorway of the makeshift nursery to see a crying Abby come through the door.
"How did it go Abs?" Gibbs whispered. He had just gotten Katie to sleep.
"He won't listen to me Gibbs. It's almost as if he doesn't even care!" Abby cried.
"I know how he feels. Let me go talk to him." Gibbs said placing his hands on Abby's shoulders before giving her a kiss on the forehead. She nodded and went into the nursery and sat down to watch Katie sleep.
Tony didn't realize when he shut his eyes on Abby that he was actually going to fall asleep. He woke up quickly to being slapped on the top of the head. He opened his eyes to see Gibbs was standing over him.
Wake up DiNozzo! Gibbs signed. Of course Gibbs looked more pissed off than normal.
"Hi to you too boss. Oh wait I forgot you're not my boss anymore so you don't have the right to slap me around." Tony spat.
Tony, you got to listen to me. Gibbs signed. You have really screwed up and ruined everything. You are throwing your marriage and your family down the drain, and for what? To drink until you can't remember anything? Ziva is meeting with a lawyer right now filing a divorce. Is that really what you want? Because you know your nothing but a coward who has chosen the bottle over his family and especially over a daughter that absolutely adores you.
"I am no coward Gibbs. I gave you the best years of my life. And for what? To lose it all in one single blow. I am nothing anymore. The bottle has always been a friend of mine just as it has been yours. So you have no right to come in here and act holier than thou and tell me I am the one who messed up when Ziva is the one out there filing for a divorce!" Tony yelled. With that he got up from the bed and used his walker to walk to the bathroom. "This conversation is over Gibbs. Leave!" Gibbs slipped up behind Tony and whacked him on the head again.
"I said leave damn it!" Tony yelled and slammed the door to the bathroom behind him. Why couldn't anyone just understand what he was going through. His whole world was crashing down around him and all of this combined pushed him closer to the edge, to his breaking point. Tony felt like it wasn't just Ziva leaving him but the rest of his family had turned their back on him too. Now even his surrogate father was now turning against him just like Senior did when he was a child. He felt utterly alone. He gave a few hours and when he knew he was absolutely alone, he went into the kitchen and got another bottle of scotch. He drunk on the bottle until he fell asleep that night.
Ziva awoke with morning sickness. This couldn't be happening, could it? Katie was only 7 months old, she couldn't possibly be pregnant again. She went out and got a pregnancy test early that morning before work. As she waited on the results her mind wandered. 'Would Tony give up the drinking if he knew we were having another baby? Katie was his world and now adding another one could be his motivation, couldn't it?' She looked down at the stick and began to cry. Positive. This changed everything. In that moment she didn't want the divorce. All she wanted was to be able to tell her husband they were having another baby.
Tony was rudely awaken by a person standing over him with papers in their hands. 'I really need to start locking the front door.' He thought to himself.
"Mr. DiNozzo, I am here to serve you the papers for your divorce." The process server said.
Tony couldn't make out what the person was saying but took the papers. The person turned and walked out the door. Tony poured himself another glass of scotch as he read over the papers. How could his and Ziva's marriage come crashing down like this? He couldn't take his eyes off the papers and would read and then reread the papers only looking up to pour himself another glass of scotch. He couldn't take it anymore. 'No one really cares anyway.' He thought to himself.
Once Ziva got to work she caught Gibbs as he was coming off the elevator.
"Gibbs we need to talk now!" Ziva demanded.
"Ok, then come with me." Gibbs said. They got onto the elevator and Ziva stopped the elevator.
"I'm pregnant Gibbs." Ziva said trying to hold back the tears.
"Does Tony know yet?" He asked.
"No, I don't know how I am going to tell him. Gibbs this is killing me. I love Tony but I can't live with him being an alcoholic." Ziva explained.
"He needs an intervention and that's exactly what he is about to get." Gibbs said flipping the switch to go back to the bullpen. "Everything will be alright Ziva." Gibbs said giving her a hug.
Gibbs knew without a doubt Tony needed this intervention. Ziva being pregnant was the biggest reason for him planning it. All Gibbs wanted was for Tony and Ziva to make it work for those babies. He knew that this separation and planned divorce was slowly killing Ziva. He would hear her crying from down the hall at night. They needed to get back together. He went around to rest of the team to let them in on the intervention.
"McGee, tonight 5 o'clock, DiNozzo's house. We are going to give him an intervention and he won't be able to refuse help this time." Gibbs said.
Tony looked at the clock. How was it only 1 in the afternoon? The day seemed to have drug by. His heart was broken. He felt like he hadn't showered in days. For what he had planned, he needed a shower. He wouldn't want Ziva to come over and see him and smell him like this. It was a challenge but he was able to get his shower by himself. He got out and pulled on his Ohio State Buckeyes t-shirt, which was one of the most comfortable he had and his favorite. Then he struggled to put on his sweat pants. After he was dressed and he fixed his hair the best he could, he went into the kitchen. He poured yet another glass of scotch before finding a piece of paper and a pen. He seen a picture of Ziva, Katie and himself from the day Katie was born. He tried to carry that along with his pen and paper over to the kitchen table. He sat there looking at the picture, remembering how happy they were before he began to write. He knew the note was going to be sloppy given his decreased dexterity in his hands, but he prayed it would get the point across.
He cried as he began to write the note
I love you Ziva and Katie. Know that I couldn't live without you. For the rest of the team, this is for the best since I am a burden to all of you. I should have died the day of the accident and I am fixing that.
Love, Tony
Tony took a deep breath as he looked over his sloppy note. He put it along with the picture of himself, his wife and daughter into the pouch attached to his walker. He found his and Ziva's wedding picture that was on his beloved piano that he could no longer play. He looked down at the picture and cried. They were so happy then. He placed that picture in his pouch. He picked up the divorce papers from the coffee table and made his way to the master bedroom. He put everything from his pouch onto the bed beside him. He found his pain killers that he was prescribed from the accident. He opened it. He looked back at the pictures one more time of his family. He closed his eyes and tipped the bottle of pain killers into his mouth filling it with as many as he could get in before downing it with water. He knew if the team really respected his wishes they would let him go. He had insisted on having a DNR after the accident. He never wanted to go through the pain he did after the accident. But this, was almost more painful than the accident ever was. He laid down on the bed and looked over the pictures he had brought to the bedroom with him. As sleep started to overtake him that last thing he remembered seeing was Ziva and Katie in that picture. How he really did love both of them. He had trouble breathing and began to gasp for air before it began too hard to even try. Than a darkness fell over him and he felt at peace.
Gibbs allowed Ziva to go home early. She was nervous about telling Gibbs she was pregnant but she was downright scared to tell Tony. She figured she could slip over to their house and tell him before the rest of the team got there. She didn't want everyone to know just yet. As she drove she kept thinking about this new pregnancy. She wasn't expecting it so soon after Katie. But she was really excited to have Tony back in the house after he came home from the hospital. Even though she was still furious with him over his drinking, she was willing to give him another chance, for the kids' sake.
She pulled into her and Tony's driveway. She found the front door was still unlocked. 'Tony must be in the living room. He normally doesn't leave the front door unlocked.' She thought. When she didn't find Tony in the living room she started to search the house. Nothing could have prepared her for when she got to the master bedroom. She went running over to the bed where she found Tony laying across the bed in his t-shirt and sweats. His face was down on their bed. She tried to roll him over. She put her ear to his nose and watched his chest and found he was not breathing and his chest did not rise and fall. She put her fingers to his neck and couldn't find a pulse. His face was pale and his skin cool. His lips were blue from the lack of oxygen. She tried to shake him awake praying that she was just seeing things.
"Tony, Tony wake up!" Ziva yelled.
She found the pictures, the divorce papers, and an almost empty bottle of pain killers beside him. There was a note that was also lying beside him. She unfolded it and read with tears flowing down her face. She got her phone out of her pocket and instantly called Gibbs for help.
Gibbs was still at the office getting ready to head over to the DiNozzo's house. Abby and McGee was up in the bullpen going over what they were going to say to Tony. Gibbs phone rang and he picked up fast when he saw it was Ziva.
"Yeah Gibbs."
His face went pale as he heard Ziva explain what she was seeing.
"I'm on my way." Gibbs said before shutting his phone. He grabbed his jacket and went running to the elevator.
"Is everything ok boss?" McGee asked.
"It's Tony." Gibbs yelled.
McGee went running after Gibbs.
"I want you and Abby to wait and to tell the rest of the team to stay here before going over to the DiNozzo's house. I will call you with an update once I know something." Gibbs says.
"Boss let me come with you." McGee insists.
"No McGee I will call you." Gibbs said before the doors to the elevator shut.
Abby instantly started panicking wondering what's wrong.
"Do you think something has happened to Tony?" Abby asked McGee.
McGee shrugged and tried to call Ziva to find out if she knew anything. Abby leaned her ear close to McGee's phone so they could both hear. Instead the call went to voicemail.
"I'm sure he's fine. He's Tony DiNozzo. Nothing is wrong with him." McGee said trying unsuccessfully to convince them both that its nothing.
Vance came running down from his office into the bullpen after he seen Gibbs rush out. Gibbs doesn't go anywhere without his team which is what alerted him to something being wrong.
"What's going on and McGee why don't you have Gibbs six?" Vance spat.
"It's Tony sir" McGee said before Abby started rambling to him about what could have happened.
In extreme panic of what to do, Ziva started doing CPR on Tony. She knew he had signed a DNR but she couldn't lose him. She loved him and would do anything to keep him with her.
Gibbs walked into to find Ziva desperately trying to do CPR on the bed. If she had been in her right mind she would have known that she would have had to drag Tony's body off the bed if she was going to do CPR.
"Ziva, you need to stop." Gibbs says.
"No Gibbs I can't lose him." Ziva screamed as she continued to pound on Tony's chest.
"Ziva you and I both know that this was not Tony's wishes. He would not want to be revived. He signed a DNR. You need to honor that Zee." Gibbs said.
She sat back on her legs and looked at Gibbs. Even though she had already filed for divorce she really did love him and didn't want him to die. Even if it wasn't for the DNR he had already been under for too long.
Gibbs took a look at his former agent. His eyes were half opened and half closed. Gibbs walked over to Tony and checked for his pulse. He gave Ziva a look of sorrow and shook his head. He then took his hand and closed Tony's eyes the rest of the way.
"No Gibbs you've got to be wrong!" Ziva cried in denial. She continues to shake Tony and scream his name.
"He's gone Zee." Gibbs said fighting back the tears.
Ziva curled up on the bed with Tony and placed her head on Tony's chest hoping to hear a heart beat. She too knew it was too late but didn't want to give up on hope. She cried and screamed out Tony's name asking why? Why would he do this?
Jimmy Palmer didn't get the memo to not go over to the DiNozzo house. He walked into the house and the first thing he heard was Ziva screaming and crying. He went running to the master bedroom where he found Gibbs standing in the doorway. Gibbs tried to keep Palmer from going in.
"Gibbs I need to help him." Palmer said.
"No Jimmy, he's already gone." Gibbs tried to explain.
Palmer looked over ibbs shoulder and seen Ziva laying her head on Tony's still chest. He saw that Tony had a blue tint to him. He desperately wanted to get in there and help but again Gibbs told him not to.
"Gibbs I can save him. I can do CPR, I can call 911." Palmer said devastated.
Gibbs grabbed ahold of Jimmy's shoulder but the young man still tried to get passed. From the look of Tony, Palmer knew Tony was already too far gone. But he couldn't lose his friend.
Gibbs gave Palmer a slap on the back of the head.
"Jimmy listen to me. Tony's gone." Gibbs said letting tears roll from his eyes.
Gibbs pulled out his phone to call McGee. He walked away to have the conversation so he could hear and be heard.
Palmer stood in the doorway of the bedroom as he watched Ziva mourn the loss of her husband.
"Tony, why? Why would you do this? We have a baby on the way why?" Ziva cried. "Tony please wake up please." She gave Tony a shake. When nothing happened she laid her head back done on his chest.
"Please Tony, I love you and can't live without you. Why can't you please just wake up and make this all better." Ziva wailed. "Please wake up."