Both Bernie and Serena was asleep in their separate beds , Bernie was now tossing and turning a little trying to get comfy where on the otherhand Serena well she was sound asleep still clinching onto the pillow that smelt of Bernie. Bernie had started sweat as she started to have a panic attack while having an nightmare about when she was in the army.

Bernie quickly woke up with tears falling down her face and gasped for air, as she felt like the air was being cut off. After a few minutes of her trying get her surroundings back she started to breath deeply to get her breathing back under control. She looked around the room slowly recognising that she as home but it never felt like it was , it felt like something was missing, this feeling was new to her as she wasn't the type so show any emotion well, this time as wanted to belong somewhere and finally knew that she would always be safe in Serena's arms.

Bernie decided that she couldn't sleep anymore so she went back to her suitcases and moved them into the kitchen, she wanted to get as much of her things unpacked before she had to go in for her shift, she unzipped the suitcase and took out her clothes put them into piles before turning the washing machine on and put her pile of whites inside it and set the temperature of the machine before pressing the start button.

She got out and turned on the kettle and waited for it to boil, she hadn't had a decent cup of tea in months, she her cup ready adding the tea bag and two sugars, she put the milk out on the side by her cup and started to think about Serena , as she had been on her mind throughout her Ukraine visit and started to feel bad that she didn't contact her but she knew she needed space to get over the things that had happened to her.

Once the kettle had boiled she poured the water into the cup and added the milk giving it a quick stir and took out the teabag and took a sip as she walked over to the table where she sat down thinking on what she wanted.

Now it was the next morning, it was 5:30am , Serena woke up to the sound of her phone ringing , she slowly sat up and rubbed her head after crying herself to sleep like she did every night since that day Bernie had left. She reached for her phone pulling it off charge and put the phone to her ear not looking who was calling as she hoped that it was Bernie but it was the AAU who needed her help as there had been an emergency, Serena sighed and spoke "ill be right there" she said in her tired morning voice , the voice that Made Bernie fall more in love with her.

Serena put her phone down on the bed before getting out of it and dragged herself to the bathroom and locked the door turning the shower on and gave out a little stretch before stripping off and stepped into the shower where the water ran down her body before applying the shampoo then the conditioner and washed her body before turning it off and stepped out of the bath and wrapped the towel around her and started to dry off.

She headed into the bedroom and went over to her wardrobe, letting out her underwear and a vest before looking at her shirts while deciding on what one she wanted to wear. She picked out a shirt and a pair of trousers that she thought that matched. Serena got dressed and made her way down the stairs grabbing her things like her coat and bag, she looked at the time and sighed while she picked up the car keys, she knew that she wouldn't have time to make a coffee so she would have to buy one.

An hour later Serena arrived onto the AAU and was met by Fletch and Jasmine, who was telling her that a patient was on their way that had a spinal injury , she nodded making her think back to when Bernie arrived with a spinal injury.

It was now four hours into Serena's shift, she was down in theatre operating on the young boy who had been rushed in with the spinal injury, the operation was going well but there was one thing on her mind which she was trying to shake of, The though of Bernie, of course Serena had no-idea that she was going to see her again that morning .

Bernie had fallen asleep on her sofa after doing a few piles of washing as she couldn't sleep, she woke to the sound of her alarm coming from her phone, she sat up and rubbed her neck as she had fallen asleep In a slight awkward position. She went into the bedroom and picked her phone up turning the alarm off .

She the headed over to her wardrobe picking out a black shirt and vest then a pair of trousers and some underwear before heading into the direction of the bathroom, meanwhile back at Holby Serena was just coming out of the theatre, she headed to the cafe to grab a coffee before heading up to the office to conquer the piles of paper work.

The blonde was now on her way in, she had stopped at a local supermarket and brought Serena a bottle of Shiraz to say sorry, she also brought some wrapping paper so that she could wrap the bottle up in the office before she saw Serena but also remembered that either one of them would get called in before the other, she sighed and went back out her car.

she sat in the drivers seat and placed the wrapping paper and the bottle of Shiraz on the passenger seat before driving off to the hospital and parked next to Serena's car with out realising , she looked over "Shit" she said to her self seeing the car which now meant Bernie had to wrap the wine bottle up in her car . she had started to wrap her her present while trying to find the end to the cello tape with her right hand as she kept the paper down with her left hand which seemed impossible but some how it was possible for Bernie.

With about 15 minutes the blonde had magically wrapped up the wine bottle and got out holding the bottle and locked the car before walking into the direction of the hospital and going in and headed to the cafe and brought herself to keep her awake from the late night of flying and the nightmare that had also kept her up half the night.

the blonde had now reached the office that she shared with the woman that she loved, she put her hand on the door handle and took a deep breath before opening the door seeing Serena at her desk working through the mountain of paperwork, it took a few minutes for her to walk in as she was thinking on what to say to her not knowing that Serena was about to have a go at her, she slowly walked in and placed the gift on the desk.

Serena looked up a little seeing the bottle being placed on the table then looked up a little more seeing Bernie , she had mix feelings towards her, before she started to frown at her before getting up from her seat walking over to her

"Your back then?" Serena asked

"Yeah, it appears that I am" Bernie replied softly

"Did you get my texts and emails?"

"No , they didn't come through "

"Don't give me that! You know my texts came through you just couldn't have the guts to text me back did you?" She asked raising her voice a little

"You needed space..."

"I needed space? I needed you , I begged you to stay!"

Bern looked at her "I'm sorry"

Serena couldn't control her emotions and pushed Bernie up against the wall "But your not though are you?" She paused getting angry

"You didn't even send a text saying you was okay! I thought... I honestly thought you was dead! In a ditch somewhere!" She said slapping Bernie hard a cross the face with tears in her eyes "you have know Idea how many nights I cried my self to sleep hugging that pillow thinking it was you!" She said slapping her again , Bern let her knowing that Serena was right to react to her this way and acted like Serena's slaps wasn't hurting her.

"I'm sorry , I ran because I got scared, I didn't want to loose you" she said softly watching her and put her hand on her cheek giving it a rub to ease the pain a little , and looked into Serena's eyes seeing that she was about to break down and cry,

"No don't you dare touch me, I hate you" Serena said seeing Bern open up her arms to hug her,

"Come here" Bern said softly knowing that Serena never really hated her like she said

"No" Serena replied shaking her head trying not to give into Bernie but was finding it hard as all she wanted was her Girlfriend back in her arms.

After 10 minutes of Serena resisting Bernie finally managed to pull her into her embrace and rubbed her back gently letting her cry on her shoulder if she needed to.