Disclaimer:/ So we were having a meeting I was on my way. Then a tornado comes through and long story short Stephanie Myer still owns twilight.

its been so long time for me, 2 weeks, but today I have the next chapter. I usually write the chapter out first then type and upload, I lost the piece of paper along with jewelry silver wear and shoes, when my sisters kids came over Thanksgiving, they are as crazy as their mother. But hey I love them and no foul.

Please enjoy and review your thoughts.

Bpov

Today is my date with Edward. I've put it in the back of my mind until today.

Edward called at about three to remind me to be ready by 7:00.

Its now 5:00 and I'm completely freaking out, I'm not even close to being ready I don't know what to wear, the only thing I've done is take a shower. Plus I'm freaking out over the fact that I'm freaking out.

I'm Bella Swan, hells bells does not freak out over a guy. At least that's what my mind is telling me. Buy it doesn't stop my heart from going into over drive, or the butterflies wild flutters that's making me feel as if I'm going to jump in excitement and throw up all in the next second.

I call Alice and Rose, who've become quite close in Ali's time here, they'll know what to do.

10minutes into my huge mind argument they arrive.

"Damn Bella what's wrong?" Alice asks at the look on my face I guess.

"Yeah Bella you look kinda pale and over heated." Rose comments bring in back the Im not pretty thought's. And dammit that's not true I'm fucking hot sexy and beautiful. So why the fuck do I feel like this?

"I don't know what's wrong with me I'm nervous I have butterflies the size of boulders, yet my head is telling me to muck the fuck up. I have been been an I eternal argument between viscous butterflies, and determined brain waves. What am I even doing I'm Bella Swan I do not go crazy over a guy, I don't do dates. Dates are tie downs, I don't wanna be tied down. It only makes you vulnerable, Im not vulnerable. What was I thinking Alice, Rose? Saying yes to a date, 1 date equals 2 dates then three then sex then a relationship. The steps to being tied down and I just took the first step. What the fuck is he do I g to me? I shouldn't feel this way. I should be partying and fucking, and going to work with a massive hangover. He's got me feeling all responsible and shit."

Rose and Alice look at each other, "Guess we now what's wrong." Rose says and Alice turns to me.

"Look honey, stop thinking so much. Edward makes you feel this way that's a good thing, besides commitment is not always a bad thing. What happened with James won't happen with Edward, James was a fucked up person all around. Edward's a really good guy and he won't hurt you like that." Alice says calming me slightly

"Yeah bells sometimes you have to take chances. Edward makes you feel this way because you like him and you want him. Sometimes its good to divulge in what we want. So if it helps pretend that your on a really good diet and Edward is the best flavor of Ben and Jerry's ice cream that you just can't pass up." Rose says diminishing my worries over that particular subject. Once they see they've gotten to me they link their arms to mine and start for the stairs.

"Now girly its almost 5:30 and you have a date. Let's blow his mind." Alice says all magical like, we all laugh at her silliness. And for now my worries are gone though the butterflies are still fluttering at the promise of my date with Edward. What would a girl do with her best friends?

Epov

I take a deep breath trying to calm my nerves.

I'm sitting in my car at the end of Bella's street. Not quite ready to proceed.

Its like all the recent confidence, I've come across, to be able to flirt and kiss Bella has officially left the building.

I've changed a lot since Bella's been here. I've gained some kind of courage that I didn't have enough of, and the confidence that I never really had either. Its like instead of going with the flow in my relationships, I'm taking this control and doing what I want. Asking Bella out, kissing her. All examples of things I have wouldn't have down before Bella. But now the nerves are here and it hard to think, or know what to do, or not be a coward and back out.

My mind flits back to my conversation with Jas and em. The reason I've made it this far.

"I think you should just do whatever." Emmett says

What the fuck kind of advice is that Emmett?" Jasper asks.

"The kind that has me banging your sister you dike." Emmett retaliates.

"Guys!" I interrupt before things get out of hand.

"Sorry look, Bella is a really nice girl. A little on the wild side and might be afraid of commitment. But really great. She's like a sister to me and tour my brother so I really do not want to know exactly what's going on just make sure your both happy and don't pressure her. As for the rest of your worries, forget about that shit. She's obviously attracted to you, or she would've done ya like I hear she's been doing newton. And the rest are just nerves, you'll be fine." Jasper says

"Yeah ed man the fuck up a show the girl the time of her life." Emmet suggests

"Just make sure its not some fancy restaurant. She claims that when a guy takes her to a fancy restaurant, he either wants some ass or some Malibu barbie. Her words not mine." Jas says good thing I didn't take the restaurant route.

I didn't go the restaurant route for several ways.

One she didn't exactly seem the type. Plus I wanted this date to be memorable for her

And I have a slight childish side that wasn't exactly excepted in my past relationships, and I decided I didn't want to give myself to another women who can't accept me for all of me. The side of me that wasn't the doctor but the kid.

With another deep breath I put the car in drive and continued. My mind made up.