It had now been a month since Serena and Bernie had split due to Bernie cheating on Serena back in Ukraine, Bernie had been trying to stay clean which she had found hard as while she worked on the AAU she had bandages up her arms to cover the scars as all of her long t-shirts was in the wash or was waiting to get washed,If anyone asked her about the bandages she would lie and say that she fell over while drinking,Only David and Serena knew the real reason.
Serena was also finding the break up hard as when the pair would be the same shift, she would ask Bernie if she was okay and still attending her meetings , which Bernie would say yes, and tried to tell her that she was sorry for sleeping with Alex. Serena didn't know from the moment she walked out Bernie had stopped cutting. But each time Bernie tried Serena would walk away from her.
Bernie had swapped cutting for drinking as she thought it was the only way she knew how to cope, Bernie was on an early shift which meant that she would be needed,the night before Bernie had gone out drinking so the following morning she had a slight hangover which wasn't to bad that would stop her from working , if she got asked she was going to tell them that she had been up all night with paperwork.
few minutes in her car before getting her bag and getting out walking into the building grabbing herself a coffee, Slowly sipping her coffee she made her way to AAU unknowingly knowing that she would come face to face with Alex who had been called in to cover as AAU was short on staff, she walked on to the AAU heading straight to the office, she noticed that some of Serena's things had gone. She sighed to herself before leaning back in her chair not knowing that Serena was taking a few days off from working.
Bernie looked around the empty office taking the last few sips of her coffee before stepping outside the office and headed over to the desk looking at Fletch and Donna "where's Ms Campbell?"
"Ah about that, she's taken a few days off.. said she needed some time on her own.."
"Oh, So she's left me in charge?"
Fletch nodded "Yeah, She said that you'll keep it in safe hands until she gets back"
"And it will be" Bernie Replied
Bernie nodded as she picked up a patient's folder before going over to them checking on them before hearing her pager go off, she called Fletch over to continue checking the patient, Bernie made her way to the MRI and CT scan room looking at Dom "you paged?" She asked
"No not me but someone else did..." Dom replied with a little pause as Alex came walking through the doors and spoke "no but I did"
"What are you doing here?" Bernie asked raising her eyebrow while looking at Alex in an unwanted way.
"Heard the hospital was low on staff... So I said i'd would love to help..." Alex replied with a smile just to wind up
"We don't need you" Bernie scoffed knowing what Alex was a trying to do"why did you need me for? Looks like you have it all under control.."
"Well not quite... The patient well, she keeps fitting..." Alex explained to the blonde.
"What do you mean fitting?" The blonde asked walking to the patient , feeling her chest to see what could be making her fit
"Like she be fine but once she starts going into the MRI scanner she begins to fit..." Alex said watching her Ex girlfriends movements
"There's some sort of blockage in her airways... she needs to be in theatre right away... you can join us if you like Alex.."
Alex nodded as they moved her down to theatre, Dom,Alex and Bernie all scrubbed in and started to operate on the female, Alex started telling Dom about how they would operate on the sand and in the heat, the blonde just listened while she opened the females airwaves beginning to look for the blockage but kept getting distracted by what Alex was talking about and accidentally cut into more of the patients windpipe while trying to remove the blockage "Shit!"
Alex looked at Bernie and snapped "what the hell have you done?!"
"You're blaming me when this is your fault?!"
"Well you're the one operating on her!"
"Oh I'm not the one who's talking about the army and how we used to do this in the burning sun and how you met me... it's a little distracting..." Bernie scoffed.
"You love how I would talk while you operated..."
"Well not anymore..." she scoffed again as she tried to stop the bleeding of the accident that he blonde had caused "take over if you want..."
"No thanks this is your mess, you can fix it..." Alex said in a harsh tone while watching the blonde again
Bernie sighed deeply trying to stop the bleeding, which took her more than 15 mins until she eventually got it under control "there we go" she said to herself and also got the blockage out and looked over at Alex and dom
"Anyone of you would like to close her up?" She asked
"I'll do it" Alex said watching Dom who had looked over at her as Bernie stepped back so that Alex could finish the operation, Bernie walked out and un-scrubbed herself and washed her hands before going back into the ward giving herself a break.
She sat on the bench in the staff changing room looking down at the bandages that she had covering her scars , she wanted to take them off but was afraid that she would relapse if she took them off so she just stared at the bandages.
The blonde found it awkward to be around Alex as they had been in a relationship for over ten years while the both of them was in the army and felt more guilty about what had happened in Ukraine that night. She didn't know what to do but she knew that she had to try to fix it with Serena.
Bernie sighed, she missed Serena , and how they was before Bernie had messed it all up by running off to Ukraine when Serena needed her the most and having a one night stand with Alex was the worst thing that she had done since her affair with her when she was still married to Marcus.
As the blonde was looking at the bandages she decided it was time to take them off so that she could apply some cream on the scars to stop it from hurting, she started to undo the bandages and put the bandages next to her , she gently placed her finger onto one of the scars feeling the pain of it she bit her lip and removed her finger sighing deeply.
Alex came looking for the blonde to apologise for snapping at, she had checked the office and the bench out in the front of the building so there was only two places left for Alex to check, she was walking past the locker room when she saw Bernie, she quietly opened the door and went in and sat by her
Bernie felt someone sit by her so she looked up seeing her before looking back down at her arm as she didn't have any time to cover them up, the scars made her more self-conscious.
"I came to apologise..." Alex said watching
"It's fine..." the blonde snapped
"Well it's not..." alex said noticing the scars
"I said it's fine...apology accepted..." the blonde sighed
Alex nodded "why didn't you reply to my messages?"
"Because I wanted to fix things with Serena.. I told her about that night... big mistake..."
"so your saying that me and your a mistake?"
"No course not just that night was.."
"But you want Serena mor than me... I get that now, I should never of come here to look for you"
"Alex... Before you say that I didn't love you , I did but then I came here and I met Serena... She was there and I just fell in love with her, I'm sorry... I should go back to work..."
"Bernie... Wait... I...Urm I miss my best friend" Alex replied in a shaky voice trying to hold back her emotions that she had for Bernie
The blonde looked up at her "You do?" She said as she took her hand and held it just like she would do when the two was a couple, Alex smiled holding her hand tight as she put her free hand on the blondes cheek and began to stroke it softly.
Bernie smiled feeling her cheek being stroked "I miss my best friend too" she said softly before leaning in to kiss Alex , Alex also leant in and kissed her softly before deepening the kiss. Bernie kissed even deeper and ran her hands through Alex's hair as added more passion and also added her tongue into the kiss, Alex gave out a small moan as she sucked on the blondes tongue.
Serena decided that she would pop into the hospital just to see how everything was doing , so she got up from the from the bed and grabbed her clean clothes taking them into the bathroom and turned on the shower getting in, she washed her hair and her body and thought about Bernie and how she missed her and her cuddles she let out a sigh as she stepped out the shower drying herself off and started to get dressed.
Once she was dressed she went back into the bedroom and blow-dried her hair and brushed all the knots out before having one final look in the mirror to see If her outfit matched before going down stairs and picking up her car keys , she walked out to her car and got in. She made her way to the hospital, thinking on what to say to Bernie as she thought it was time for the both of them to talk
Serena pulled into the hospital and parked her car next to Bernie's , she looked at her phone before typing out a message for Bernie
"I think it's time to talk... I'll come to the office to see you.." She sent.
The blonde had her phone right beside her as she heard her message tone go off, she looked over at the screen while still kissing Alex Unknowingly that Serena was on her way up to the shared office, which would mean that Serena would have to walk passed the changing room.
Serena had gotten out the car and walked into the building, she headed towards the lift and walked in, she pressed the AAu's floor button and waited till she reached the floor and stepped out walking on to the corridoor and walked past the changing room when she came to a stop and looked through the window of the glass door seeing Bernie with Alex , seeing Bernie with Alex broke Serena's heart into a million of pieces , Bernie looked over seeing Serena she broke from the kiss.
"I'm sorry I can't" she said as she gathered her stuff and stuffed the banged into her trousers pockets not having time to re-apply them, She got up and headed to the door opening it before calling out Serena's name as Serena walked back to the lifts.
"Serena wait!" The blonde called out running after her.
Serena looked at the blonde "Why should i? You made your choice.. And you chose her over me... After everything we have been though?!" Serena shouted at her.
"Please just let me explain, please?" The blonde asked wanting to explain to her
"No bernie I don't want to hear it, as you want to be with Alex more... I wish you never came back from Ukraine!" Serena shouted at her again , she didn't mean what she had just said to her.
"Fine okay, you can have your AAU ward back and you can have your life back that didn't involve me, if that's how you really feel..." the blonde shouted back and walked away to the office to pack her things knowing that Serena didn't want her back after catching her with Alex.
Serena held back her tears going into the lift and going back to her car and headed butted the steering wheel "you stupid stupid bitch" she said as she let the tears fall a little before wiping them and driving back to her house.
Bernie finished packing her things from the office and wrote out her notice before handing it to Hassan who tried to talk her out of it but her mind was set on doing the right thing for Serena.
**A few hours later**
Bernie was sat on her bed in her apartment, she had a suitcase next to her along with her clothes she sighed as she tried to fit all her clothes into the one suitcase, she also had a bottle of wine on the bedside table that she was drinking out of just to erase what had happened between her, Alex and Serena.
She unlocked her phone and looked up cheap flights to Afghan, Sudan and Ukraine before selecting the cheapest with was Afghan, she was going back to the army life if she couldn't explain to Serena what was going on. She added the ticket to her basket but wasn't going to buy it just yet.
Serena was sat up in bed on her laptop drinking Shiraz while looking at pictures of her and Bernie remembering how much fun they had, she looked at her phone just in-case Bernie had tried to message her but there was nothing so she decided to make the first move and wrote out a draft
"Bernie I'm sorry I didn't mean what I said... I want you to explain what happened"
She looked at it before hitting the home button as she thought that Bernie no - longer cared , Bernie was now on her fourth bottle of wine with meant she was now drunk, she shoved the clothes into the suitcase and forcefully zipped it up before heading downstairs to the front door and made her way to Serena's and put the suitcase by the side gate and banged on the door waiting for Serena to answer, as she waited she took some more sips of the wine that she had carried with her.
Serena came running down in her dressing gown and opened the door seeing Bernie
"Bernie...you better come in?" She asked seeing the blonde drunk
The blonde shook her head to say no "I'm not really stopping , I just came by to tell you that the AAU is all yours and that I'm leaving..." the drunken blonde spoke.
Serena sighed at the blonde "how many have you had?"
"Probably 2-4 or more... I lost count..."
"Oh Bernie" Serena said as she slowly walked closer to the blonde and put her hand on her arm so that Bernie had some support.
The blonde looked into Serena's eyes "I also came to tell you that I didn't chose Alex, I chose you..."
Serena felt guilty hearing that Bernie had chosen her "I'm sorry for accusing you..."
"You had a right to.. I guess" the blonde said while shrugging her shoulders "I love you Serena. Not Alex there's nothing there anymore" she said moving her hands onto Serena's face stroking her cheeks.
Serena let her as she listened to her before speaking "I forgive you" she said getting lost into the blondes eyes.
"But you still want me to go..."
"Bernie no I don't I want you to stay... the hospital needs you..."
"There's nothing there anymore..."
"Hey don't say that there's me, I don't want you to go... I love you bernie so much... if this doesn't make you stay then I don't know what will.." she said softly before kissing the blonde deeply , Bernie kissed backed and moved her hands so that she was holding her before breaking the kiss "I love you more, and because of that I'm staying"
Serena smiled kissing her more before pulling her and the suitcase inside , Bernie couldn't wait anymore and gently pushed Serena against the wall where she slowly undone her dressing gown and placed her hands on breasts and squeezed them.
Serena smirked while biting her bottom lip while letting out a little moan "mmm someone's horny"
"No baby your just so hot" the blonde replied kissing her neck roughly while she moved her left hand down her chest to Serena's pj shorts and slipped her hand into her pants "mmm baby" she said as she gently started to rub her pussy.
"Mmm baby why don't we take this up to the bedroom where it's more comfortable for the both of us?" She said moaning out more to her girlfriends touch and put her arms around her neck and leaned back onto the wall as she felt Bernie get a little faster each time making her get wet
"Mmm soon baby" the blonde said while sucking on her neck making a hickie that everyone could see. "Good luck hiding that" she smirked against her skin
"What have you done?" Serena asked smirking while knowing exactly what she had done, bernie had now pulled down her pj shorts and her underpants before getting down on her knees and opened up Serena's legs wide and smirked up at her as she started to lick her gently.
Serena lent back against the wall more and started to breath heavily while she moaned out getting louder as the blonde licked her more faster making Serena more wetter then before, also feeling the cum build inside her.
For the next 20 mins Bernie kept licking her Serena felt herself wanting to cum more, she tried to hold it in , she whined a little.
"Baby!" Serena moaned out loudly
Bernie looked up at her as she rubbed her again "yes princess ?"
"I can't hold it I'm gonna cum!" Serena moaned more loudly
"Mmm cum princess!" Bernie teased with a smirk and carried on rubbing her while she licked her again , Serena slowly started to cum a little so Bernie licked her up just before Serena came hard.
"Mmmm miss Campbell your very naughty" the blonde teased while watching her cum.
Serena breathed more heavily and leant back onto the wall more while moaning out Bernies name as she gripped on to the blonde hair.
"Mmm I love it when you grab my hair like that princess" the blond said rubbing Serena's boobs in a circular motion.
After a little while Serena finally finished cumming "mmm that was so good baby I want more" she moaned out trying to get her breath back while the blonde went back down on her licking the cum up before lifting her up and carrying her to the bedroom where she placed her down on the bed with a smirk as she climbed on top of her stripping off in a teasing manner.
Serena placed her hands on her girlfriends boobs rubbing them in a circular motion while smirking at Bernie before giving them a squeeze, the blonde had put her head back feeling Serena's touch before she started to grind against her softly, serena moved her hands onto the blondes hips holding them while feeling her grind against more getting faster, she started to moan out her name loudly.
As Bernie grinded again her much faster she felt herself wanting to cum, she put her hand one Serena's boob also moaning out her name "mmm Serena!"
Serena looked up at her and smirked "why are you so hot?"
"Mmm I don't know baby but your way much more hotter" the blonde said throwing her head back as she was cuming herself just a few seconds later Serena joined her by cumming again.
"Mmm I wanna fuck you so bad baby" Serena smirked running her hands down the blondes body before reaching into the bedside draw and getting out the strap on.
Bernie looked up and smirked "mmm you wouldn't dare to punish me"
"Oh ms Wolfe I would indeed punish you for what you've done to me" she winked as Bernie got off her so that she could put the strap on, Serena smirked as she put it on and pushed Bernie down on the bed and climbed on top of her before starting to rub the dildo against Bernie's pussy teasing her.
Bernie looked up at Serena moaning softly while she put her arms around her neck before pulling her head down gently in order to kiss her deeply, Serena kissed her deeper as she pushed the dildo inside of her before slowly and gently starting to fuck her.
The blonde gripped her nails into her girlfriends back while she started to get more faster who was also moaning out to the pleasure.
As the hours went by both the blonde and Serena kept moaning out each other names taking it in turns to us the strap on making both of them cum and stopped until the pair of them was tired.
Serena took the strap on off and let it fall to the floor before getting back into bed and put Bernies head on her chest cuddling her while stroking her hair, Bernies had gotten comfortable on Serena's chest closing her eyes to the feeling of her hair being stroked, she smiled into the sleep "I love you so much Serena" the blonde mumbled
"I love you to Berenice" Serena said with a smile watching her drunken girlfriend fall asleep on her.