Serena stroked the blondes hair as she watched her sleep on her chest , she put the covers over them making sure that Bernie was comfortable as Serena had moved a little, she kissed her head before closing her eyes feeling safe knowing that her girlfriend wasn't out getting into any trouble while being drunk.

The blonde moved feeling the brunette move, and let out a little moan while trying to get comfortable, Serena smiled in her sleep hearing the blonde mumble, she held her close "shush baby I got you" the brunette softly spoke in her sleep knowing that Bernie was having trouble sleeping

With the blonde feeling the embracement of her partner she soon calmed down and cuddled into Serena as she started to fall into a deep sleep, As Bernie had put her phone one the side Serena reached over and picked up the phone to put it on charge for her.

As Serena put Bernies phone on charge she noticed that she had a text message from Alex

"I'm at the airport waiting for you, if your talk doesn't go well with Serena, all you have to do is buy a ticket then we can have a fresh start and go wherever you wanna go.

Love you so much

A x"

Serena read it and sighed but was thankful that Bernie had came to see her as she didn't want Bernie to leave Holby - the hospital needed her as much as Serena needed her partner.

Alex was waiting at the airport for Bernie , she looked down at her plane ticket and sighed knowing that she was going to be Bernie's second choice so she gathered her bags and headed to the departure lounge, and waited for her plane to be announced.

Bernie soon woke and looked at her phone to see what time it was before looking over at Serena who was sound asleep, the blonde slowly got up and got dressed before making her way to the airport, she kept her suitcase at Serena's as she was going to stay , she wanted to say goodbye to Alex properly.

When Bernie got to the airport she looked around for Alex before making her way to the departure lounge, Alex was about to board her plane when Bernie called out

"Alex Wait"

Alex turned around and looked at Bernie , she gave her a smile not knowing that Bernie was about to say goodbye to her , Alex walked over to the seats and sat down, bernie sat next to her and took her hand

"You took your time, i take it things didn't work out between you and Serena?" Alex asked while Bernie was playing with her hand as she was nervous on what she was about to say and do, the blonde took a deep breath

"Urm... She needs me lex..." she replied

Alex felt her heart breaking knowing that she was right about being the blondes second choice "And what I don't need you?" Alex asked holding back the tears again

"Lex... I'm sorry I Really am, I do love you"

"No your not... you never did love me did you? You left me to go back to Marcus when I needed you and now it's happening again but this time it isn't Marcus it's Serena..."

The blonde looked at her shocked "what makes you think I don't? I was your girlfriend for ten years?"

"I'm just going to be your second choice bernie , that's all I ever am to you" Alex said letting the tears fall Bernie wiped them with her thumbs and realised how badly she had treated her

"I know I messed up.." the blonde softly spoke before pausing and let Alex cut in

"It wasn't your fault..."

"Yes it was... everything is my fault just like the car crash, the affair I should of just told him..."

"Bernie Nobody knew that crash was going to happen so stop blaming yourself" Alex sighed "Marcus would of found out anyway.."

The blonde nodded looking at here "where" she said before she paused as her voice started to go shaky "where are you going to go? The hospital needs you... I need you"

"No Bernie you need Serena , she makes you more happier then I ever did, I've seen the way you look at her and it's the same way you used to look at me...Back to the army? That's my home?"

"Your homes here with me like we planned?" The blonde asked again with her voice going more shaky

"Home used to be here, before you moved on... I've gotta go" Alex said standing up getting ready to leave again

"Alex please"

"Bern... there's nothing left for me here , you know that"

"There is lex.." the blonde took her hand and pulled her in close

"Bern don't... this isn't what you want" Alex said knowing that Bernie was still a little drunk

"I want us to have a proper goodbye if your leaving"

"Bernie you know I have to leave"

Bernie shook her head before putting her lips on Alex's kissing her softly , Alex didn't react to the kiss for the first couple of seconds , She knew that Bernie was right they both needed closer.

Alex kissed the blonde more softly for a few minutes before breaking the kiss, the blonde looked at her "promise me you'll be safe back there?"

Alex nodded with a little smile "you know how it is Bern, but I'll try"

The blonde let out a little laugh hearing Alex talk about the army "you know if you ever wanna come back I'll always be here" the blonde Replied with tears now streaming down her face "it's not meant to be this way"

"I know but I've gotta go" Alex said before turning to walk away from the woman she loved , The blonde quickly took hold of hand to stop her.

Alex looked at her "Bernie you need to let me go, you got Serena, she's gonna take great care of you"

"But she's not you..." the blonde said with a sniff

"Serena's more then what I could ever be Bern , she'll treat you the way you deserve, I could never do that"

"Yes you could... you came back for me..."

"Because your the most amazing person I've ever met but you need to move on and life your life with Serena" Alex said before letting go of Bernies hand and walked on the plane, bernie could only watch before looking around her before looking down to try to calm herself,

Once the blonde was calm enough she slowly walked away from the departure lounge and headed to the airport's bar

"A whisky please and make it strong" she said asking the bartender

The bartender looked at her seeing the blonde still a little drunk from before

"Don't you think you've had enough?"

"Please get me a drink before I get it myself" The blonde replied

"You wouldn't dare to, would you?"

"Don't tempt me" the blonde said before hearing a familiar voice that sounded like her her psychotherapist , bernie turned around seeing him as he spoke

"Get this woman a drink and put it on my tab"

Bernie gave her psychotherapist a little smile to say thank you. David made his way to the bar and sat next to Bernie

"What are you doing here?"

"I can ask you the same thing... are you checking up on me?" She asked avoiding the question

"No I'm waiting for my wife, she's due to land in the next 10 minuets" David replied "so what about you Bern?"

Bernie just looked at her glass of whiskey "might of made a biggest mistake?"

"What mistake Bernie did you end it with Serena?"

"No...I broke it off with Alex"

"You love them both don't you?"

"Yeah...Their very much the ones" the blonde said before downing her drink

"Who do you want to be with the most?"

Bernie looked at him for a few moments before answering "eh...Serena?"

David smiled at her answer "why don't you go back home to her?"

"I just need some time alone.. She doesn't know I'm here"

"I understand, if you wanted I can drop you back?"

"You don't have to..."

"Honestly it's no problem, I have to pass Serena's anyway"

Bernie nodded and waited with David until they met up with his wife , David looked at Rose "This is Bernie, she's one of my patients"

Rose smiled and shook Bernies hand "very nice to met you"

Bernie nodded again "nice to meet you to... can we go now please?"

"Of course" David replied lifting his wife's bags and walked down to the car with Rose and Bernie, Rose got into the passenger side while Bernie helped David put the bags and suitcases into the boot

"Promise you won't tell Serena where I was tonight?"

"I promise Bernie"

"Thank you" she said before getting into the back, David got into the drivers seat and started to drive away from the airport, The blonde looked at her phone and sent a small text to Serena

"hey don't panic I've just gone for a walk , I'll be back shortly

B x"

About fifteen minutes later David pulled up outside of Serena's "thanks again... I'll see you on Wednesday?" She asked David trying to remember what day it was for her appointment

"It's really not a problem, We booked you in for Thursday Bernie "

"Oh, well I'll let you to get home" she said as she got out the car and walked up to the gate and gave a sigh.