Posted on: 10-7-17 At 4:15 AM (USA CST; GMT: -6:00)

A /N::

I'm trying to change Sebastian in a believable enough way that it is not out of character. But, in order to have him honestly fall in love, he does need to change. Not a lot. But, keeping him IN character while he changes is not easy.

I hope I'm managing it fairly well. I'm sure some who stumble across this story will think that he is HORRIBLY OOC and that I am horrible for doing this.
Or for thinking that he needs to change at all. But, while his character is already set to be able to possibly fake, being in love, the requester, "Mestwendyfan" wants him to REALLY fall in love with Mey-Rin.

So, seeing as Sebastian currently is canonically NOT able to truly fall in love, he does need to have some alterations. That said: please keep in mind- I am trying my hardest to do this while remaining true to the character, the feel of the story and so on.

Likewise, with Ciel:
he is already either in love with Lizzie or just cares deeply about her. However, his feelings and his actions are very often somewhat disconnected in the manga.
If anything is going to happen between himself and Lizzie, it needs to be when Sebastian is distracted.
Keep in mind, he does not want Ciel finding another reason to live.

So, while he humors their relationship, if he thought she might be cause for Ciel to rethink the contract, or that she might give Ciel a new reason to exist, he would NOT humor it. He might actually see to it that she was unable to be with the boy.
So, he needs to be distracted. And things between the two of them need to progress quickly and suddenly.
Again- that said: I am trying to keep their interactions and progress In character, as well. It's not easy to change characters and do so while maintaining the feel, Integredy and personalities from the parent fandom.

Necessary Warnings::

Some will likely find it Depressing.

Childbirth depicted to an extent.

A lot of blood.

A miscarriage mentioned.

Still birth.

Non-detailed (not too detailed, anyway) mention of a deadly dog attack/mauling.

More Religious and Demonic references.

Deaths (OC and minor character).

Underage teens making out in a bed.

This is a dark manga, I am trying to adhear to the way it feels to ME.

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Chapter #7: Fragile Mortality

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May-Rin, Finny, Bard & Tanaka blinked around. They had just come in from an outing with Ciel, Lady Elizabeth, Paula and Sebastian. Something was off in the house, they knew that. They could all sense it. Ciel looked at Sebastian. The younger of the 2 butlers nodded to his young master and started searching. Tanaka, Finny and Bard saw Ciel, Lizzy and Paula up to Ciel's study. Since something was off, they didn't want to leave the young master and lady undefended...

Meanwhile, Snake: who had stayed at the manor this day, was nowhere to be found. It was assumed that he was wherever he usually hung around. He concerned Mey-Rin. She had always gotten an uneasy feeling from him, so, she really didn't much care what he did. Or where he went. She had tried to get use to him. But, no matter how she tried, she could not feel like he belonged.
The redhead followed Sebastian.
When Mey-Rin caught up with her lover, there was a large black dog, it looked like a small bear. It had Lau by the throat, pressed up against a wall, and Ran-Mau was pinned to the floor, with the dog's large paw on her ample bosom (Her bodice had been shredded, so her chest was bared). Mey-Rin rolled her eyes as one of the woman's breasts jiggled with the movements of the creature.

"Sebastian..."

She said moving forward, a hand on her distended belly. Both he, and the dog, along with Lau, looked at her. Ran-Mau, for her part, seemed to be playing dead... Well, Mey HOPED that the Chinese woman was playing, at least.
Lau appeared to be alive, despite the canine's teeth in the flesh of his throat. Sebastian held out his hand to stop her as the dog growled a warning.

"I will handle this issue."

He said.

"But, that dog is-"

She started, and earned a quick warning look from the father of her child.

"-Not safe for you to be around while carrying our child..."

He finished, altering the conversation a bit. He knew very well that the dog was connected to her father. Sighing softly, Mey-Rin turned. She headed to her and Sebastian's room (Ciel had moved her to the butler's room, in order to make it less of a bother to himself: that way, Sebastian was less likely to have his attentions divided, at least; that's what the young Earl claimed) without another word, deciding to leave the dog situation to Sebastian, she left.

Once he was sure she was gone, he directed his attention to the dog. It did not look like Glasya-Labolas' canine form. That was similar, it was also thinner and a bit bigger than this canine, not to mention the large white wings that always appeared when he was in that form. Sebastian, after removing his glove on the hand with Mey's contract seal, snapped his fingers and several heavy books floated over the dog and the injured Lau.

"I'll be with you in a moment, Mr. Lau."

Said the butler solemnly, in his usual tone of voice with a pleasant smile playing at his lips.
Lau's eyes widened then, as a heavy book slammed the man on top of the head, his eyes rolled back in his skull, and he was no longer aware. Next, 4 heavy books floated over the dog's head. The black dog's equally black eyes, rolled up to eye the menacing books.

"Do let him go-"

Sebastian said, his voice harder than when he had spoken to Lau. The dog just rolled its eyes to Sebastian's direction and it growled from where it held the China-man by the throat. Sighing in slight annoyance...

'Cats really are so much more intelligent...'

Sebastian lamented silently, then he snapped his black tipped fingers again. This time, all 4 books slammed onto the beast's head, repeatedly. With a canine squeal of pain Lau was released and the dog backed off. But the books kept slamming down atop its head over and over again. Sebastian was quite enjoying this!

Meanwhile, Sebastian & Mey-Rin's room:

She had changed from the dress that she wore out, and was brushing out her curly, red hair (which had grown a bit- now it reached nearly to her mid-back) when she felt the sensation: her sire was here. Looking around, she couldn't see him. Frowning with the uneasiness growing, she stood from her seat on their bed. Inside her baby kicked hard. Biting her lip, the young mother-to-be rubbed her belly.

"It'll be OK..."

She whispered. Mey-Rin turned in several circles, looking around herself and around the room very carefully. Finally, she turned again and found herself face to face with: Glasya-Labolas. He was in his human form. Gasping from being startled, she tried to back away from him. But he grabbed her, pulling her against him hard, burying his nose where her neck and shoulder met.

"Ah~ The scent of a pure, untainted soul..."

He murmured against her hair and skin. She gritted her teeth and repressing a shudder as she tried to push him away. He had an arm banded around her waist, and his other hand held her right wrist at the level of her shoulder.

"Let. Me. Go."

She hissed. She knew very well he wasn't talking about HER soul. That left only one other, that currently rested enclosed within her body.

"Dear child... Aren't you glad to see your fath-!"

He suddenly gasped. Moving away, he releases her as his hands went to his stomach, she held a bloody knife in her left hand. The one he had NOT held captive. She had hiked her skirt up and removed the dagger from the sheath in her garter belt without him noticing!

"How does that hurt me?!"

He asked, clutching a gaping wound in his stomach. She watched him coolly.

"It was washed in holy water. For a tainted, fallen angel, it must hurt a great deal."

She said, edging away from him. He glared at her.

"How did you-?!"

"Forgetful- Aren't you? My lover is a human-turned-demon. One you turned. Sebastian HATES you. He resents you. Do you think he wouldn't tell me how to harm you? As a demon, he can't touch holy objects-"

"You never could, either. With a child that is more than half demon growing within your womb you should be even less-"

She laughed softly.

"Babies are very close to angels. They are still new souls. What blood runs through its body matters not. At the moment, it's purity of soul is helping me! I can touch crosses, crucifix, bibles, rosary beads and things that have been touched by holy water! Anything that has been blessed!"

He swore and started towards her, but she slashed at him again and ran from the room.

"Who are you? What does Labolas want?"

Sebastian asked the monster dog. The creature made a run for it, but the books kept following it and battered the creatire over and over again, until it just had, had enough and turned to shadow, vanishing. Sebastian sighed, he hated dogs.
Turning to Lau and Ran-Mau, he started tending to their wounds. That's when he noticed a thrill of fear run down his spine. And Mey-Rin's contract seal started to glow. Then he heard Mey-Rin call for him through the contract they had formed.

Mey-Rin ran to the stairs, but before she could descend them, her father caught her. He slammed her head into a wall at the top of the stairs, and held her there with one of his hands on her head. With the other, he broke the wrist that held her dagger. The bloody blade clattered to the floor. She cried out from the pain. To keep her quiet, he slammed his mouth over her own, keeping the scream from being heard. Repulsed, her eyes widened as she struggled against his lips and tongue.

"Let! ME! GO!"

She snapped after biting his tongue hard. He swore and then laughed.

"No."

He said against her ear as he leaned his body against her back, further pinning her to the wall. She felt his right-hand rest against the right side of her belly. Cold fear struck her as the baby started to kick violently from within her and then the pain shot through her abdomen! She bit her lip as she squeezed her eyes shut.
If Ciel could use his contract to summon Sebastian... She should be able to use her own, to do the same. She assumed he did not sense Labolas, else Sebastian would have already been here.

'Sebastian... H... Help us!'

She cried out in her mind, even as the kicking inside her grew feeble and then stopped all together too suddenly. A scream of pain was ripped from her throat as the pain in her belly intensified and blood started trailing down her thighs and then, the searing pain suddenly stopped.

"Thanks for the new soul, daughter!"

He whispered in her ear. She started crying as a new pain started. Her midwife had told her how labor felt. This felt like early labor. Before anyone could do anything else, he shoved the girl off of the top of the stairs, she stumbled, then fell. Before she landed on the floor below, though, Sebastian was there, she blinked up at him, touched his face, then fainted. He lay her down and vanished from his place beside her, he reappeared before Labolas, and tried to attack him. But the dog demon laughed.

"A half starved, human-turned-demon is no match for me. I'm a fallen angel! And... NOT half starved."

With that, he vanished. The demonic butler closed his eyes. Then, looking down at his lover, he could guess what had happened, as the blood had started to pool around her hips. He went back to her side and rested a hand against her belly. He could no longer feel the spark of new life within her womb.
Her body was starting contractions, as well... Likely trying to expel the deceased child. There was a sharp pain in Sebastian's chest at that realization and he swallowed thickly as his eyes stung. He hugged Mey-Rin's upper body, burying his face in her collarbone as he shook all over. He had not felt any emotions this strongly since his days as a human. Suddenly, her hand was in his hair, he blinked and looked at his lover.

"O-our baby is... D... D-dead, i-isn't she?"

She asked, breathless from the pain. He considered lying. But... He felt he should not.

"She is..."

Was all he could manage to say. She blinked, her face crumbling into sadness, then he was hugging her again. She sobbed into his chest.

"What the bloody hell happened?!"

They blinked up at the group standing at the top of the stairs. Ciel was holding Lizze against him, as she cried. Paula looked pale, clinging to Bard. Finny looked confused, Tanaka looked sad. Bard looked pissed-off. He was the one who had spoken. As Sebastian looked up at them, Ciel's eyes widened, then narrowed with suspicion.

"Se... S-Sebastian! A-Are you CRYING?"

The teen asked his demon, he sounded both outraged and shocked at the same time. Looking startled, Sebastian reached up and touched his cheek, his gloved fingers came away wet from tears. Mey-Rin reached up and trailed her fingers through the trail of tears on his cheek.

"I'm sorry... T-that I c... Couldn't p-pro...tect... O-our b-baby... I-"

She broke off as he kissed her softly, he didn't seem to care that they were being watched. It was a sad, and sweet kiss. Tender and if she didn't know better, she would say it was a loving kiss.

"It's not your fault! Her soul was not fully anchored to her body yet. It was pulled right out of her, and out of you, as well..."

He said very softly, speaking against her lips. He was startled by how gentle and sad his own voice sounded. And the fact that he honestly meant it. He felt fear for the young woman in his arms, and a nearly overwhelming sadness in his chest. It was... the feeling was just so strong that he nearly felt a physical pain from it... He did not understand it. Perhaps it had to do with the fact that it was done by the creature that had turned him into what he was today? Maybe it had to do with some long dormant emotion that he no longer fully understood or recognized...? He just did not know, or understand. And that annoyed the demon, a great deal. He had gradually started to remember bits and pieces from his life as a human. But nothing that went with this feeling.

Tanaka went to contact the doctor and midwife.

Bard looked at Finny.

"Take Paula, the young master & young lady to the young master's study."

"What about-"

Finny trailed off at the look Bard gave him.

"Right!"

The boy said finally, he saluted Bard, and then he ushered the other teens and Paula away. Ciel cast another worried look at Sebastian... Then he let Finny herd him into his office with the two women. Once they were gone, Bard came down the steps slowly, as Mey-Rin cried out again in pain. The blond man looked annoyed.

"They won't make it in time, if she doesn't give birth right now. She could die."

He told Sebastian firmly, but sadly. The butler looked at a loss.

"I don't-"

"I delivered my late, elder sister's baby."

"L-late sister?"

Asked Mey-Rin... Both men could tell that she was growing very weak.

"Yeah, be back in a minute!"

He left to wash off his hands, then he came back. Blushing slightly, he apologized to the young woman he thought of as a sister, and looked under her skirts. He removed her bloody underclothes, and she cried out in pain when he pressed around her belly.

"Watch it!"

Sebastian found himself growling at the cook. The two men eyed each other.

"This is your fault, you know."

Bard finally said, calmly, as he looked back under Mey's skirts. Mey-Rin stopped her lover from saying or doing anything else, though, with a soft touch to his face. He looked away, with her upper body still lying in his arms.

"I can see it's head, go ahead and push sweetheart! With the next pain, you push!"

They heard Bard say.

'This is humiliating...'

Mey-Rin thought, realizing that both males were kneeling in her blood, and that Bard was looking up her skirts at her-
Before she could think anything else, she cried out with another spasm of pain, but did as her friend had instructed: She pushed.

By the time the doctor got there, with the midwife shortly behind him... Mey-Rin was cleaned up and resting in her and Sebastian's bed. The entryway by the stair case was clean, as well (though Sebastian would not tell anyone how he had cleaned up all of that blood so quickly- Ciel and Mey-Rin could both guess that he had used his powers). You would have never known that she had been lying there around 70 minutes before, bleeding her life away. The men had both washed up and changed, as well. The baby had been cleaned, and laid beside Mey-Rin on the bed.

She slept with a hand on the baby girl's chest, on top of the blanket that she had been wrapped in. Sebastian had finished treating Lau and Ran-Mau. When the doctor got there, he checked their injuries (including the concussion that Lau had somehow acquired. Sebastian knew very well that HE had given him that concussion- but, why not blame it on the dog as well?) Meanwhile, the midwife went and checked Mey-Rin, then the baby.
She listed the child as stillborn. Then she went about comforting Mey-Rin. Telling her it was not uncommon, and that she didn't do anything wrong. That it just was meant to be this way. The woman was trying to be helpful. And if it were a normal situation, she might have been correct. But, it wasn't normal and Mey-Rin knew that her child had been murdered. Having had its soul ripped right from its body. All Mey-Rin could do was sob into the woman's arms.

Sebastian told all of them that he had found the massive dog attacking their two Chinese guests, and when he chased it off from attacking them, it had tried to go up the stairs, it had tripped Mey-Rin and it was scared it off when she fell.
When Lau woke up, he was asked how he and his lady friend even got inside. Lau had blinked and said that the footman had let them inside. When he was asked where the footman went after that, Lau frowned.

He said he did not recall. A search was conducted by Finny and Bard, they found Snake, then. He was dead in the basement, his throat torn out by a canine's jaws. The pet snakes that the man had named himself after, had been torn to shreds, as well.
It was assumed that he brought the dog in with the intent to feed it. And so, the authorities in the area were alerted to it being on the loose. Sebastian, however, knew very well that that wasn't the case. Later on, Ciel had Edward come to see Lizzie and Paula home. And he asked Finny and Bard to see Lau, and Ran-Mau safely off of the estate grounds... Scotland yard had arrived as well and made themselves all into royal pains in the ass.

Tanaka was given the evening off, and Mey-Rin was sleeping, the baby had been stored in the wine cellar until they could bury it the next day. That left Sebastian alone- just as he was preparing to leave, intending to go into the nearby forest, Intent on summoning Labolas.
However, Ciel summoned him. With great reluctance, the demon, who had been standing in his room, considering his sleeping lover, vanished from the room, materializing in Ciel's study. The boy looked at him.

"What really happened to my maid and her child?"

He asked, his voice deadly calm.

"My lord-"

"I DO NOT WANT THE STORY YOU MADE UP FOR PUBLIC CONSUMPTION! What happened to Mey-Rin?!"

He snapped. Sebastian blinked his eyes open wide. He considered making something up. But, he was still commanded to never lie to his master- finally, closing his eyes in resignation, the demon sighed very slightly.

"Very well, my lord. I shall tell you what happened, from the very start..."

He said as Ciel motioned for him to sit.

Meanwhile-

Mey-Rin woke up crying out for Sebastian. And found Bard sitting beside her.

"Huh?"

"I was walking by and heard you. You sounded like you were in distress..."

He said, by way of explanation. She blinked at him, he was holding her left hand.

"H-he's not here?"

"No, I imagine that the young master wanted to talk to him..."

She nodded weakly.

"T... Thank you, for h... H-helping me, Bard."

She said softly. She was ghostly pale and very weak from all the blood that she had lost.

"It was no problem, Mey-Rin. We're family!"

He said giving her a forced, lopsided grin. She smiled tiredly.

"Y... You said that... Y-you had h... H-helped your elder sister... To deliver her baby?"

She asked carefully, her voice as weak as she was... If he wasn't listening carefully, he might have missed her question... But, he had heard her well- as such, sadness flashed across his face, as the smile fell and finally, a haunted look settled in his tired blue eyes.

"Yeah... She was my last sibling to die. My dad died in a highway robbery. He drove a stagecoach for a bank in America. He was an armed guard, as well. It didn't help him to have a gun, though. My mom slowly killed herself drinking after he died. My elder sister: Sara raised me and our younger sister, Julia. Mostly, by herself. Sara was only 6 years older than I was."

She listened, holding his hand as it shook slightly with emotion, as he went on.

"- By the time Sara was 19, I was nearly 14 and Julia was 5, our mum had died. Then Julia and I got ill about 2 years later. Sara couldn't afford medicine. So, she stole it when she could get help nowhere else. Even so, though, Julia did not make it. And, by the time I was finally well again, Sara had, had to marry the son of the man she stole the medicine from. Their company was a pharmaceutical company, so, they had created the medicine. But they had been charging a lot for it. It was a criminal act! Charging so much for something that could save lives!

In any case, Sara had been caught, and the only way that she could stay out of jail, was by agreeing to marry the son of the head of the pharmaceutical company. He forced himself on her before the wedding, to be sure she wouldn't back out. Soon after that, she realized that she had become pregnant. But, he was abusive. He beat her, and she miscarried her first baby. The next pregnancy, he still beat her, but he met an untimely death via falling into oil, then tripping over a flame thrower that happened to be in my hands, at the time."

At that, she laughed softly. She knew he loved his flame throwers. He smiled slightly at the memory, but then he sighed and went back to his story.

"- Her second pregnancy was full of complications. But Sara had been a midwife. We were snowed in... And, when she was in labor... She talked me through helping her deliver her baby. The baby was born, but she suffered from a massive amount of blood loss, and died soon after. As for her child, the baby's grandfather... The man who ran the company, he took my niece from me and gave it to another relative. After that, I never saw the little girl that I had helped my sister give birth to... So, I enlisted in the army and left that hellish place for another hell. Then Mr. Sebastian found me about 5 years later... Listen, I'm sorry about the loss of y-"

He trailed off as she shook her head. Mentally she called out to Sebastian through the contract, hoping he could come to her.

"Baldroy- thank you! Without your help... Well... Just- Anyway... Thank you, Bard!"

She said, blushing brightly and gently kissed him on the cheek.

When Sebastian had told Ciel everything: from the fact that Mey-Rin was a demi-Demon to the fact that her father was a full demon, and he was around- causing trouble and had now MURDERED the baby, along with one of his minions having killed Snake, his pets and nearly killed Lau and Ran-Mau, who were often guests at the manor... Ciel just sighed.

He had his head bowed and resting against his folded hands, his elbows on his desk. The young Earl did not know what to do. He was really at a loss, and was angry that his demon kept all of this information from him. Ciel was angry that they had not realized that Mey-Rin was part demon (but, she hadn't known either, had she? (At least, Sebastian assumed she had not known, so he let Ciel assume the same) So how were they to know, if even she didn't?) He was angry that the baby had died (despite his earlier feelings and comments, he had been looking forward to her child being born.
That was evident by the crib decoration that he had commissioned a local artist make. It was set to be finished a week before the child was supposed to have been born. Now it would be a sad reminder. He was wondering if he should donate it to a children's hospital, once it was finished.)

"My Lord... She's calling for me-"

Sebastian made the mistake of saying into the silence. At that, Ciel's blue eyes flashed up to the demon's.

"Calling for-? You didn't-?!"

He trailed off, noticing a faint glow through the white of the butler's gloves. Snapping his hand out: grabbing Sebastian's hand, he yanked the glove back. A magic circle that was unconnected to Ciel sat staring back at the boy. His eyes darted up to Sebastian's.

"You-"

Sebastian leveled him a silent stare. Ciel decided he did not wish to know why he had contracted with Mey-Rin.

"Go on..."

He muttered finally, sounding disgusted.

"Yes, My lord..."

With that, the demon vanished from the seat he had just been occupying.

When Sebastian re-materialized in his bedroom, he found Mey-Rin crying softly into her pillow. He could not, just COULD NOT fathom it... He stood there, trying to understand what he should do. What he felt, when he was near Mey-Rin: It alarmed him a GREAT deal. It was just... An unknown.
He did not even know WHY he was reacting this way.
How was he supposed to help the maid?
How was he supposed to react?
What should, or COULD he do?
Did she expect him to react as a human father, a human lover, might?
And, how was that?
Finally, he did what he THOUGHT might be a good idea. He removed some of his clothing, including his shoes. Leaving only his white button up shirt and black pants on. Removing his gloves as well. Then he slid in on his side of the bed and gently pulled the sobbing girl into his arms. She released the pillow and hugged him tightly, crying into his shirt as he held her, his hands gently caressing her red hair and back.

'This must be OK...'

He found himself thinking. But then that curious sadness was there again. Burning his chest from the inside out and stinging his eyes. He buried his face in her red hair and shut his eyes tightly before the stinging could turn into tears. They stayed like that, she was just letting all of her emotions out, while he was unsure what to do with his, and trying to hold them in.

The next day, Ciel donated a far corner of the estate's property to Sebastian and Mey-Rin. Sebastian, Bard and Finny buried the baby girl... Bard having made a small coffin for her. Sebastian, again, was almost overcome with his alien emotions. Finny did not help matters, he was crying hysterically.
Paula had come along with Ciel and Tanaka, to pay their respects to the deceased infant and her parents. Lizzie and Mey-Rin were the only ones not there. Snake had been buried with his pets, as well. About 100 yards away from where they were with the baby. And with much less emotion, then the baby was currently receiving.

Finny had used his strength along with hammer with a chisel: to carve stone out of a larger rock on the estate. Then Bard had given him some writing to copy onto the stone- Ciel had written it. The slightly insane German gardener had carefully carved it all onto the stone, then after it was set in the ground, he and Bard got to digging the grave. Bard had already made the coffin by then.
Now they stood, the lot of them silent, save for Finny's near hysterical crying. Paula eventually excused herself to check on her lady... Unable to withhold her own tears any longer.

"Well..."

Ciel said a short time after she left the men.

"- the lot of us look like fools standing here for no reason."

With that, Ciel turned on his heel.

"Finny, go tend to whatever plants need you. We don't need any more deaths around here... Tanaka, come with me."

"What about us, my lord?"

Bard asked, he was standing beside Sebastian. The demon did not need to ask, he kept staring at the small grave. He had been told to stay close to Mey-Rin, unless otherwise instructed. He knew that the young earl was afraid she would try to harm herself in her sadness... Ciel looked at Bard.

"You seem like you need a break. Like Sebastian and Mey-Rin, you seem..."

He searched for the correct term.

"- Soul weary, my lord."

Sebastian supplied softly, he looked at Ciel then. The boy could honestly say that the soulless demon was looking- just that: soul weary.

"- yes. You 3 look like this has taken its toll. All of you are to not worry about work, not right now, anyway."

"But... Dinner-?"

Bard started.

"Lizzie will be staying here for a little while, she brought some staff members from the Midford estate. Rest for the duration of their stay."

He said. Then the teen left with Tanaka following him. Sebastian knew very well that he was the only one who could deal with Bard's kitchen blunders and survive... So, that was mainly the reason that the blond man was being allowed to get rest. Once Ciel was gone, Bard walked off muttering to himself. Sebastian still stood straight as a board, staring at the grave and its marker.

~{'Here lay Faith Michaelis. Beloved daughter of Mey-Rin and Sebastian Michaelis. May her soul forever- find peace in a heavenly embrace...'}~

Was what it read. The demon didn't know if he should laugh or give in and let himself cry. Giving the child of a half demon and a human-turned-demon, the name of "Faith"... What WAS Ciel thinking? Neither he, nor Mey-Rin had been able to think of a name for their dead child, so Ciel had named the little girl for them. Not to mention, the reference to heaven. And her soul... Who's bright idea had THAT been? The child's soul would find no peace. It had been ripped from her tiny body and consumed! Really, what was a confused demon to do?!

Mey-rin sat on a balcony with Lizzie, they could see the *service* from there, Lizzie was, of course, in tears, as well... Mey-Rin thought she had cried herself dry, the night before, as Sebastian had quietly held her in his arms. When it finally looked like Sebastian was heading inside, Lizzie excused herself from Mey-Rin's company and went to Ciel's study. There, she found him crying silently in his chair.

"Oh- Ciel!"

She went to him, hugging the dark haired boy as she started crying anew.

"I couldn't help Mey-Rin!"

He snapped through his frustrated tears. She looked at him.

"I'm sure you are also upset for Sebastian- he's the closest thing you have to a best friend and-"

She stopped, blinking as he started to laugh.

"Best friend?! HIM?! Lizzie- he's my damn dem-!"

He stopped, cutting himself off as she looked at him with startled, wide emerald green eyes.

"You're what, Ciel? He's your... What?"

She asked softly.

"F... Friend-"

Ciel muttered, his visible eye darting away from looking at her face.

"But, Ciel, you just said-!"

"I'm tired, Lizzie. Leave me."

His voice was so emotionless and tired sounding that he seemed inhuman. Frowning, she gently used her fingers to smooth the furrows from his brow. Then, brushing his hair from his forehead, she leaned forward, kissing the skin there.

"I wish you would trust me, Ciel. I love you. I really do. It would be nice to have you open up about your dark secrets, I'm not a helpless little child who needs to be coddled... I would support you and help in any way I could..."

She said, her lips brushing against the skin of his forehead, as she spoke softly. Then, she was gone, and he was alone... And the fears felt like they were going to engulf him:
What would she say?
What would she do?
Would she still say that she loved him? If she knew what he was...? What he had done? What he was willing to do, yet?
If she knew what had been done to him- Would she still love him, if she knew what had happened when he had been taken, all of those years ago?

How would she-?

"My lord...?"

He looked up at Sebastian, who had suddenly appeared before him.

"What are you doing here?"

He asked, his voice still thick with suppressed emotion.

"I felt despair threatening to over-take you. So, I am here. Can I do anything?"

"Yes! Stop disobeying my damn orders! Go back to Mey-Rin! Don't come back unless I am in danger, or summon you."

He snapped.

"You fear that she will harm herself?"

Sebastian asked, hitting the issue, spot-on.

"Yes."

Said the boy.

"She has seen times as dark as, if not darker than, these. And she is still here-"

He pointed out.

"Why are you still with her? Do you love her? Did you, ever..?"

"I'm... Not really sure. But, as to why I am with her, the sex is good..."

Ciel rolled his eye.

"I really don't need to know that. Don't come back to me unless you are being honest. Figure out what she means to you!"

"I told you, my lord, tha-"

"AND I JUST ORDERED YOU TO BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF! DAMN IT!"

Sebastian gave him a startled look, then he left the same way he came. One minute he was there, the next, he was gone. Only his quiet voice lingered in the darkening room, it was tick with anger and contemptuous:

"Wise words, my lord. You should do well to follow them, as well!"

Ciel just sighed heavily at that.

Weeks passed, Mey-Rin (as Sebastian knew would be the case) did not let her grief get to her. Yes, it was there. She couldn't bring herself to go to the grave until 6 weeks had passed. She went around the time she was SUPPOSED to have given birth to the baby. Sebastian found her hours after she went there, just curled up on the grass crying.
That had started after she saw the name that Ciel had chosen for the baby. Lizzie and her servants had remained for the time being. Mey-Rin had (her own choice) moved back to her own room. She and Sebastian had not touched, not even kissed, aside from when he held her, as she cried. Since the baby had passed on.

Things calmed down a bit. However, there were a few things that had been avoided by the couple. Neither wanted to really address it. But, both also knew that they SHOULD. Likewise, Ciel and Lizzie had been a bit at odds, since the night she had kissed his forehead.
That was when the baby had been buried. Things finally came to a head though, about month and a half after the death. That was when Lizzie woke Ciel up in the middle of the night.
The boy came too with her sitting on top of him in bed, her nightgown riding up a slight bit around her thighs. Her eyes were blank, as if she was still asleep. Ciel froze. He could not grab his eye patch, and the sleepy girl was staring blankly into his face: at one blue eye, and an eye with a brightly glowing magic circle in it.

"Beautiful..."

She murmured sleepily, as she caressed the nervous boy's cheek, just under the eye, and before he could react, she was leaning down and kissing him softly. He would have swallowed his own tongue from sheer panic and shock, if not for the fact that her tongue had invaded his mouth, and he found himself forgetting the fact that he was confused and nervous as he closed his eyes and kissed the girl back, his hands on her hips as he responded to her advances.

'What is going on?'

He wondered as she whimpered against his mouth.

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To Be Continued...

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Necessary Disclaimer Section:

Copyright/Ownership- The anime and manga of "Black Butler" "{Kuroshitsuji}" - are copyrighted properties of the mangaka/Author: Yana Toboso

Also the anime and manga are copyrighted by those involved with the making of the anime and the publishing of the manga.

I claim no ownership. I just love the anime and the manga.

~*~Windy~*~