Hey everyone, so I'm sorry to say that this is not an update and as you know I haven't updated this story since 2019, almost 3 years ago, which wow, where does the time go? But, a huge but, This story has not had its end before It's even started. I will update in the future. There's too much planning for the main plot I've done where it'll just not go unwritten. I can't and won't let that happen. I want people to be able to read all the weird and wacky ideas I've made and imagined, I want everyone to go on the journey that Andy will go on with her. And you may ask yourself "When?"
However, before I give a more concrete answer let's backtrack to where I've been. Mostly a lot has happened, things I'd never thought would happen to me. First I had horrible writer's block for a long while. I mean writing an episode that you're kind of meh about is hard, and putting a character where they're not needed plot wise is difficult, having her say things without totally invalidating others dialogue is a process, especially when things a character originally will say can heavily affect relationships with others and events. I apologize greatly for that.
Then I got a job in retail a month after I last updated. The schedule I had was all over the place and a nightmare. I wouldn't have time to breathe at all, and as a younger me I had a hard time saying no to cover a shift. I apologize for this as well.
Then, there was huge drama with me and my best friends. One ended up moving all the way across the country and I had to spend most of all the leftover time I had with her before she left. My other two fell completely apart after she left. The second I was having problems with before but I guess without the first it just completely nosedived, it was toxic, she was super controlling over me, super condescending about my needs, when things didn't go her way, it was chaos and I had to leave (there was drama with the first and second as well, and the second never told the first anything, that was a bit of a mess as well). Sadly, that moment distanced me from my third friend who at the time thought the second was right (everything with her worked out in the end. Me and her are best friends again after having a long talk and sadly I found out that because I was gone she was the second's new best friend and the second proceeded the same toxic process she did with me onto her, safe to say none of us are the second's friend's anymore and we're all menatlly happy). But at the time that just left me in a huge slump for the longest time, all the drama just really took a toll on me. I'm sorry for that too.
However, amidst all the chaos I ended up meeting my wonderful boyfriend, and I never had any time after that, It was work and him that I spent all my hours into. And I'm sorry I didn't have the best time management on that.
Then, 2020. Oh boy, the pandemic really hit, and it was horrifying. I'd never been so scared that something I'd read in a textbook would happen to all of us. And I ended up losing my job. I ended up really depressed and suffocated by the whole nightmare. I barely saw anyone, people that would normally shake me out of my funk, weren't there, besides on a little blue screen, and for me it just wasn't a substitute for the real thing. A few months in, when the vaccine started to roll out I jumped on the chance, despite having a horrible fear of any type of medical needle, I wanted to see everyone again and just go back to normal. It helped thankfully and I started seeing people again but in turn I ended up stressed about my financial situation and tried to find another job. I spent months trying to find something and I wasn't having any luck. And then, like a hand in the water to pull me up and out from drowning, I ended up getting one finally.
Sadly though, towards April, things with my best fur friend weren't doing so well, and I made the most difficult decision of my life to put him at peace. I could barely do anything those first few months after he was gone. I pulled through with the rest of my life passively but it was just difficult. I'm the type of person to completely see a dog as family, I love them all so much, and to lose him after so long completely broke me, even now as I write about him, I still find myself in tears. The healing process was just as hard as losing his sister the 2 years before. But eventually I came to that same realization as I had done before with his sister. I miss them so much and although I can't spend the rest of my life with them. They spent theirs with me, full of so much love and cuddles and spoiling them endlessly, and treats, and now they can both be reunited and have even more fun now. It really does turn those sad tears of loss to I miss you but I'm happy tears. I apologize for this sad dump so I'll move back on to my new job and the troubles it had.
Okay, after the sad blurb let's move on to the frustrations of my "new" job. First I had to start the day my fur baby passed. I couldn't get out and was backed into a wall. So I went in with a black hole in my heart and I did well until my break, where I broke down. I guess you could say that was the first omen that this job was going to be hell. Next was the same with scheduling, it was a nightmare, no constancy, absolutely no time for a life and barely any for my boyfriend. The pay was horrible, and I was constantly stretched thin on what they wanted me to do at the job. I started to completely feel miserable and the customers didn't help, I've been threatened, had stuff thrown at me (glass, wood, etc) I've constantly worried about my safety, for numerous reasons including the still ongoing pandemic, where customers have refused to wear a mask. And the company has told me to just brush it off, don't let those people back in the store, if it didn't happen on the only 3 cameras at the front of the store there's nothing we can do, etc. It also has not helped that our store is super understaffed and people are always quitting. I just couldn't take it anymore but once again I was backed into a corner. I was struggling to find a job again. When 2022 rolled around I started to lose hope that I would ever get out. I was just tired, super stressed, and pulled thin.
I am happy to report, however, that as of recently I have officially quit that job and am on to a better job with a (FINALLY) consistent schedule, much better pay and an amazing environment. My mental health has improved and I feel like I can breathe again. I have another furbaby, and she's a little demon, a handful of personality, and I'm elated to have another family member that brings the same warmth and love as her siblings did. So my lovely lovely readers, there will be more updates and I'll finally get Andy's story going again, this time enough to hopefully get you hooked. Now to finally answer that question "When?" It's hard to say exactly, but expect an update in 1 or 2 months.
Thank you to everyone who has held out some hope for this story. And I'm sorry for the long wait, you've all waited long enough.
Stay safe, hydrate, and continue to be amazing.
-M