*I am officially back to updating and writing again. I am so sorry for the delay but I got married and I moved. I needed to get focused on the wedding and had to get settled into my new place. thank you for understanding and being patient. Thank-you for the reviews on the last chapter they were greatly appreciated. Thank-you so much!

TWO WEEKS LATER:

"How are you feeling?" Roman asks me as I am sitting on the beach in Pensacola, Florida enjoying our family vacation visiting his mom and enjoying some time with Nova and Kylynn. It's been a while since we came to Florida and a while since we enjoyed the beach my husband used to spend so much time at during his childhood.

"I'm feeling pretty good," I say with a soft smile as I rub my growing baby bump that I have exposed while wearing a black bikini. "Much better than I was in Ohio. It feels good to be here in Florida."

"I agree," he says placing his hand on my stomach and rubbing it softly. "I think we got lucky with that scare a couple weeks ago. It could have turned out a lot worse than it was."

"I know," I say, "it was a reminder for me to just take it easy and to take some time off work. I need to really take time off. I wish I had listened to you about getting involved with this whole rape case but my lesson has been learned."

"I'm just glad you're healthy and the babies are healthy," he smiles. "I can't believe how much you're starting to show. I think it's beautiful."

"I think creating life with you has been my favorite memory so far. I know at first I wasn't exactly thrilled by the thought of being pregnant and having a baby but I'm happy now and creating these lives with you has been one of my favorite memories." He leans over and kisses my stomach softly.

"I think it's one of my favorite memories too," he smiles. "So I haven't made my decision yet if I am going to keep this job with the Steelers or if I am going to stay with the Saints," he says. We haven't really talked about the Mack situation or the coaching situation because it just didn't seem like the right time or the right place to do so plus the doctor wanted me to stay stress free so we avoided the topic but we have to talk about it some time since he needs to make a decision by the end of the week.

"What is your heart telling you?" I ask him looking up at him.

"I don't know," he says. "This is something I have always wanted in my life. I have always wanted to be a head coach in the NFL. It's been my dream all my life and the Steelers franchise isn't bad it is one of the best but having Mack as my quarterback I don't know how I feel about it. I feel like I am being disloyal to you by keeping this job. The owner told me to just brush it under the rug and forget about it," he says, "but how can I do that when I know everything he's done to you, to my wife and he's part of the reason you lost it. I'm scared if I give up this opportunity another opportunity isn't going to come along and I am going to be stuck where I am forever."

I let out a deep breath and say, "this is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I know this is something you have wanted all your life and I know this has always been your dream and honestly the Steelers franchise is one of the best in the NFL and you're going to be making bank as a head coach. The owner wouldn't have chosen you to be the head coach if he didn't believe that you couldn't take the Steelers to new places. I think you do a damn good job at coaching and you know your stuff. I think that you can take the Steelers to new places, you could even get them into the superbowl their last season wasn't the greatest and they were losing to teams that they shouldn't have been losing to. I think you would be a fool to give up your dream for Mack. I think you would be a fool to give up everything you worked for because of something that happened in the past." I don't like the idea of my husband having Mack on his team but I don't like the idea of my husband giving up something he's dreamed of doing for his entire life.

"Mack is an animal," he says, "I don't want him on my team, I don't respect him and if I don't respect one of my players how is that going to work out for the team, especially the quarterback."

"I understand that you don't respect him, I don't respect him either but Roman," I say rubbing his arm softly, "is he worth giving up your dream for? You don't have to like him, you don't have to love him, you don't even need to be friends with him the only thing you need to be is his coach. I know it's a sucky situation but you need to think about you, how much this job means to you. Do you want this coaching job? I mean look at all the benefits that come along with it, and with us having twins in a few months I think it is better to take this job, grit your teeth and bear it because it is a pay raise from coaching the Saints and look at the house we just purchased. I think that you should keep the job and we'll work out the rest in time," I suggest.

"Hayden, I understand what this job means to me and I know the benefits that come along with it but is it really worth working with the devil to get those benefits? I can't get over what he did to you, what he put you through and now you're asking me to work with him. I want this job more than anything but I don't want it if Mack comes along with it," he says. "I'm sorry, Baby Girl, I just can't accept this job."

"Roman, I understand and appreciate your loyalty to me but you know what it sounds like you haven't forgiven Mack for everything he's done and you're still holding a grudge against him."

"You're damn right I haven't forgiven Mack for everything he's done. He raped you, lied about it and made it seem like it was all on you then he tried to pay you off to keep you silent and he got away with everything he did. He never paid for his sins and he's an arrogant son of a bitch because of it because he can hide behind Daddy's money and now his own money. It's pathetic, how do you expect me to forgive him for what he did to you and not let go of the grudge? Do you think he deserves my forgiveness? Have you forgiven him?"

"Roman, I forgave him for everything a long time ago and not because he deserved it because he didn't and still doesn't deserve my forgiveness but holding onto the anger, the hate and holding onto the pain by not forgiving him wasn't helping me. I was angry, I hated him and I was hurt by everything but holding onto it, hating him and not forgiving him wasn't helping me to heal the way I needed to. Being angry over something I can't control wasn't helping me heal, it wasn't making me feel any better so I forgave him for everything he did so that I could move forward and move on with my life. It was to help me not him. You need to do the same because you're sitting here willing to give up your dream all because of something he has done. I know forgiveness isn't easy and forgiving him isn't going to be easy but you have to move forward you have to forget about what he's done and focus on you, focus on us and most importantly focus on our babies. Be honest is Mack worth giving up your dream for?" I ask.

"No, he's not worth it at all. I guess it is time to forgive him for what he's done and move forward. He's never going to pay for what he did and being upset about it and giving up my dream job isn't going to change that," he says, "so I guess I forgive him for raping you and trying to pay you to keep silent as well as getting away with it."

"So you're going to take the job?" I ask.

"Yes," he says with a smile. "I am going to keep the job. I have worked so hard for this and I have waited years for this job to come along it may not be the team I wanted but it's a team with a good franchise and I have a pretty good chance to taking them to the super bowl and getting them another ring and I can't do it alone. I need Mack to help me with that," he says. "I'm going to take this job on one condition."

"What's the one condition?" I ask curiously.

"I want a sit down with my lawyer, Mack and his lawyer, the owner and myself to talk this out give him some expectations and to bury the hatchet between us because without that we can't work together."

I nod my head mainly because that is a good idea and it would benefit both of them. It will help take away some of the tension between them. Roman and Mack both need this sit down to overcome all the tension between them. "I think that's a great idea," I say. "I think that you both need this sit down."

"Yeah we do," he says with a smile, "so enough about this, we are having a family vacation let's go enjoy the ocean for a little bit," he suggests, "how does that sound?"

I reach up and kiss his lips with a smile, "I like that idea." I stand up and take his hand. "Let's go, Baby," he places his hand into mine and stands up. He pulls me into his arms, wrapping me up in his arms and kisses my lips softly and passionately my baby bump between us. "I love you, Roman," I whisper against his lips.

"I love you too, Hayden," he smiles before kissing my lips again.

LATER THAT NIGHT: ROMAN's Point of view:

I'm sitting in my mom's living room with my cellphone in my hands as I watch Hayden putting a puzzle together with the girls. I just love watching them together, I love the bond they have created over the last few years. She has always been there for my girls, since we were first together. She stepped up and took over the mother role when Shea and I were having problems. Nova loved her the moment she met her and their relationship just grew from there. She has wanted nothing more than the best for my girls and she loves them as if they are her own. I smile at their conversation about the babies and how excited both the girls are to have new little siblings in January or February. "So, what do you want, Nova," I ask with a smile. "Do you want two brothers or two sisters?"

"I already have a baby brother and a little sister but I really want to have two little sisters. I hope that the babies are girls," she says with a smile.

"And what about you, Ky, what do you want brothers or sisters?" I ask.

"Brothers," she says with a smile making me smile. "Two little brothers."

"What about you, Daddy?" asks Nova, "do you want boys or girls?"

"The most important thing to me is that they are both healthy babies and that they know how loved and cherished they are but I could really use two boys."

"I agree," says Hayden. "I think we have your dad outnumbered with the girls," she says with a smile. "I want two healthy baby boys."

"Boys aren't going to be easy, Hayden," says my mom as she comes into the living room with banana splits for all of us. "Did I ever tell you about Roman when he was a little boy and how much work he was," she says with a laugh.

"I want to hear the story," she says with a smile.

"Roman, was a very intelligent little boy for the most part but his energy was crazy. He never really settled down. He was always on the go. He couldn't sit still for more than 5 minutes at a time and he was just a wild little boy. He is the youngest boy so of course his older brother and sisters took advantage of him and his energy. They would always send him to get things for them and tell him they were timing him and to see if he could beat his time. Of course they weren't really timing him but he thought they were so he would just run off to get whatever they asked for and to phase him they would tell him he beat his record time. He was happy they were happy but Roman eventually realized that they weren't really timing him and stopped fetching their stuff. He was just so full of energy we had to keep him busy to tire him out because it was like he would never tire out no matter what we did and no matter what he did this boy would never tire out. Honestly, if Roman would have been the first or second we probably wouldn't have had any more kids after him because he took a lot of our energy just trying to tire him out. We did sports with him everything from baseball to football he even tried basketball but he still couldn't settle but he developed a love for football and never gave up on it. He was a great football player and because he was a little on the larger size it played well to his advantage. Football got him into Georgia Tech and then instead of playing in the NFL he had his sight set on coaching. Football is his love and if it wasn't for his high energy rate he probably never would have discovered it."

"Mom," I say, "don't scare Hayden, I finally got her hoping for boys. Don't scare her into thinking that our sons are going to be wild."

"Don't kid yourself," she says, "you and I both know that you two are going to have some wild boys on your hands if you have boys."

"Nova and Ky aren't too wild," I say. "so maybe the boys wouldn't be too wild."

"Nova is JUST like you, she looks like you and has your entire personality."

"But I'm not wild, Mammaw," Nova smiles.

"I know she's just like me that's why she and Shea don't get along because she is just like me."

"I agree with that. How is everything going with Shea? How does she feel about Pittsburgh?"

"She's not thrilled with the idea and she's planning to stay in Louisiana which I'm not going to complain about because honestly I prefer it that way things between us have been tense since I told her about the move."

"So what happens with the girls?" she asks,

"I don't know. I want to take the girls to Pittsburgh but I'm not willing to give up every single holiday with them either. It would be easier if she would move with us but she already expressed that she is staying put and I don't really blame her. She did uproot her life to follow us from Atlanta to Louisiana. I don't want to split up my family either so we really need to work on that and come to some agreement on what to do with the kids." I say.

"I want to go to Pittsburgh," says Nova.

"We are going to do what we can," I say to her.

"And everything with Pittsburgh is good?" asks my mom trying not to go into too many details in front of the girls. "You're still taking the job?"

"Yes, it would be foolish for me not to take the job. When I fly out to Pittsburgh in the next few days we are going to have a sit down and talk about behavior expectations and talk about other things. I have wanted this my whole life I am not willing to give it up not for Mack."

"Who is Mack?" asks Nova.

"Mack is the quarterback for the Steelers," I say.

"Why don't you like Mack?" she asks.

"Mack did some things that daddy didn't like a long time ago so he's not my favorite person," I explain the best that I can.

"What did he do?" she asks, this girl is relentless.

"He just did something bad," I say.

"What did he do that was bad, did he steal something? Did he lie about something?" she asks.

"He lied about something," I say.

"What did he lie about?" she asks.

"Nova, he lied about something bad that he did," I say. "That's all you need to know."

"Daddy, the news said he raped Hayden in college, what does rape mean?" she asks.

I'm not even sure how to answer the question, I'm not even sure how she heard that little tidbit of news. "How did you hear that?"

"The news," she says, "the news said that Mack raped Hayden and that he was cleared from it," she says, "is that why you don't like him? And what does rape mean?"

"Ky, how about we go into the kitchen?" asks my mom.

"Okay," she shrugs. My mom and Ky head to the kitchen leaving the three of us alone. I don't even know what to say to Nova. I always knew that one day the media would have information that would get out and that I wouldn't want my children to hear or know about. It's the price to pay for living in the limelight, nothing is ever really private and nothing is really a secret. I know that Nova can google me one day and find out about how Hayden and I came to be even though we have all shielded her from the truth for the last 5 years because she doesn't need to know about that. She's still a child and the least she knows the better.

"Daddy, what's rape?" she asks again. I look at Hayden for some guidance because she is a victim advocate and she deals with child victims a lot so I am hoping that she has a child appropriate way to explain the situation to Nova after all Nova is only 8 years old almost 9 years old. Hayden gives me a nod letting me know she's going to take over the conversation.

"Nova, come here," says Hayden as she motions for her to sit next to her on the couch. Nova sits next to Hayden and looks at her with curiosity. "Nova, rape is an act where one person forces another person to do something they don't want to do for example like touching their private parts or them touching the other person's private parts. It is important to know that if anyone ever touches your private parts or asks you to touch their private parts you tell them no. No is a very important word to use if you don't want to do something. You ALWAYS have the right to say no and they have the right to respect it but sometimes they don't respect your no and do it anyway, that's rape. If someone doesn't respect your no, if a boy doesn't respect your no, you fight them however you wish with a punch, a kick, a bite whatever you need to do to fight them off. Your dad, your mom, Dean and I will never be upset if you fight someone for not respecting your no or your boundaries. In today's world you're going to hear a lot about how a boy will be a boy but a real boy treats and respects a girl 100% of the time and if the girl says no they respect it. Your daddy is that kind of boy and Dean is that kind of boy. It is about respect. If one thing you can remember is that it's okay to say no if someone tries to cross those boundaries and it's okay to fight if someone crosses those boundaries. Some people have trouble understanding no and if it ever happens to you, you need to know it's NOT YOUR FAULT, you are NEVER to blame no matter how you act, how you dress or what you do, it is NEVER your fault but the person's fault that doesn't understand no and doesn't respect your boundaries," Hayden explains.

"So Mack touched your private parts and you said no?" she asks.

"He did and I did say no," she says, "And like I said sometimes boys don't understand no or understand their boundaries. His daddy never taught him to respect girls and that's a shame for him but when you get older you need to find a boy that will respect you and treat you like a queen like your daddy does to me and like Dean does to your mom. You deserve nothing less."

"Okay," she nods. "Thank-you."

"Do you have any more questions?" she asks.

"No, not right now," she says. "Thank-you," she says hopping off the couch and running out of the room.

"Thank-you for saving me," I say. "I didn't know what to say."

"I figured," she smiles, "but honestly it's what I do for work, it was easy to explain it to her. I think it's time to start taking her out on dates so she can see how a man should treat a woman. That way when she's old enough to have a boyfriend she will know what kind of boy to look for and know how they should treat her like a queen."

"Oh not boyfriends already," I say. "I can't even think about some boy asking my little girl out on a date. She's not dating until she's 35. Books before boys is my motto."

"Is that so?" she asks with a smile, "I'm not even 30 yet and I'm married to you. I don't think that's fair to say for Nova and she's pretty smart. I think she will stick to the books before boys motto. So you're really hoping for those boys huh?" she asks.

"Yes," I say, "I need some help with the boys when they come around for Nova and Ky."

"Probably," she says, "but if we do have boys while we are teaching the girls that boys need to respect their boundaries and their right to say no, we need to teach our boys to respect those same boundaries on girls and to respect the word no. We have far too many pigs in this world that don't know that I don't want our sons if we have them to be one of them."

"I'm right there with you," I smile. "I love you, Hayden. I know we started off in a not so good way but falling in love with you was the best decision I ever made."

"It was my best decision I ever made," she smiles. "Thank-you for being my king."

"Thank-you for being my queen," I smile before I kiss her lips softly.

*a/n: So what did you think? How do you think the sit down is going to go with Mack, do you think he and Roman will be able to co-exist with one another? And what do you think the babies are boys or girls? We are going to find out soon! Please review and thank-you for reading .