AN
So I've shone you a lot of Todoroki's trauma, now take a look at chapter based on Midoriya's anxiety.
I want to tell you that what Midoriya's going through is something that actually happens to people with General Anxiety Disorder. it happens to me at times. I've missed class more times than I would like to admit to not being able to get out of bed due to anxiety. I am not exaggerating it at all.
Tanaka is the name of Midoriya's therapist, seen in chapter 6.
Midoriya POV
My alarm rang, it was time for school. School at UA, the school of my dreams yet I just let the alarm ring. I just couldn't get up. I turned off the alarm and just laird there, staring at the ceiling. I looked back at my clock, it was getting late, but I couldn't move. Then I remembered why I didn't want to go, this time I could actually figure out the reason, there wasn't always one, there usually isn't one. But this time I'm afraid to go to school and see Todoroki, I know that this is ridiculous he said that he forgave me and I should believe him, but it's hard to reason with anxiety. I knew that if I skipped today it will be even harder to get to class tomorrow because I still wouldn't have talked to him and it will look like I'm avoiding him but even though I am but I don't want to I just wish I didn't run away like that. That memory put it's self on loop in my mind, making me more and more anxious and like I'm a terrible person...
"Izuku? Hunny? are you ok?" my mom asked nervously, knocking at my door. It isn't like me to sleep in.
I was so wound up about seeing him I couldn't let myself partake in any other part of school, and then if I miss today what if my friends come over asking if I'm ok then I'd have to pretend to be physically sick because I can't let them know that I skipped school because I'm anxious about seeing one of our classmates because I did something out of anxiety yesterday! I started at the ceiling letting tears blur my sight.
Taking my silence as an answer she came into my room and sat down on the edge of my bed. "Is this a physical sick or a mental sick?" She asked, after placing a kiss on my forehead. She knows how my anxiety and how it can sometimes do this to me.
"Mental" I stated miserably, I didn't elaborate because I was too embarrassed to tell anyone. I wished that this was physical that people understand, this I can't tell anyone! They'd just think I'm broken, even though I feel like I was as the screen looped through my head again.
She grabbed my hand, "what would All Might do?" Tanaka-san told her to ask me that when I get sick that usually works especially after finding out that he earned his quirk like I did and how even he had limitations that he constantly pushes through. That didn't work today, instead, it just frustrated me...
"All Might didn't have to worry about something like this!" I lashed out I hate it when I do that it doesn't happen often and I always feel so bad about it. By now my mom knows better than to try to talk sense to me when I'm anxious it often just makes everything worse instead, so instead, she pulled up All Might videos on her phone and let me just watch, I was captivated by him and soon was in a headspace that allowed me to get up and face the day... even Todoroki... hopefully...
AN
I know I said that I'd talk about the final in this chapter than I came up with this bit and felt I needed to write it and I felt like this piece is very important, with this fic being about mental illness as well as blossoming love, which is coming I promise. It will be super cute.
The next chapter will be long, I have a lot of plans for that one, and it WILL talk about the final, that I can assure you.
