So here is Chapter 4. In this chapter, Rachel reflects on Finn's sudden reappearance and how it affects her through an off hand comment from Jesse. Like with my other story, I wanted to upload this today in order to mark 6 years since we lost Cory. He was taken far too soon but he left his mark on the world. If you haven't seen Lea's post on Twitter yet, it is incredibly sweet and proves that she still loves him and he clearly her Guardian Angel and I am sure that he is happy she found love again. He had the best seat at her wedding, I am certain. RIP Cory, we all still miss you.

Chapter 4: I'm Just His Ex.

Rachel's POV.

When we heard the news about Finn's sudden re-appearance and physical shape, we were all shocked. A young man has had his life drastically altered to the fact that he will never be the same again. Even if he is physically strong enough, his mind might be shot to pieces that he might not be able to function properly again. We need to get a Doctor's notice about what has happened and what is going on about Finn and what state he is in.

Puck's phone goes off and he excuses himself to take the call. We all sit around and wait for him to get back. He mouthed before he left that it was from Kurt and so it is likely to be something to do with Finn. But what could it be?

Quinn: "He was held prisoner for 7 years, he is likely to be scared for life."

Sam: "He made us believe in ourselves. He was a leader and a good friend for everyone."

Santana: "He is such a better person that me. It isn't fair that this has happened to him."

Jesse: "Oh shut up. It wasn't like he was going to achieve anything anyway."

Rachel: "Jesse. (Slaps his arm.) That is a horrible thing for you to say. I know you never liked Finn but don't act like that."

Blaine: "Why you doing here anyway Jesse?"

Jesse: "I married this one here. (Brings Rachel into a hug.) Finn is just her ex…"

I blank out at that moment and just stand still as Jesse's words trigger a memory inside me.

(Flashback.)

I head back to Lima with Kurt and Santana after knowledge of Finn's sudden disappearance. I've been in floods of tears ever since knowing that he is almost certainly dead. I never got to forgive him for being selfish towards him during our break-up and I ran out on him in the middle of that failed wedding of Mr and Mrs Schuester. I didn't see things from his perspective and keep him within my life. Now I will never be able to tell him that.

My dads allow me back into their home and I just go upstairs to bed and just fall asleep in my tears. I cried so many tears, I'm amazed that I still have any left. I hold my picture of after we won Nationals, a picture that was taken by Puck of Finn and I holding the trophy as co-captains. It was a symbol of our journey together as members of the New Directions. Now it is a path that I have to travel alone.

The next morning, I am woken by knocking on my door. I only just got back here, can they give me some peace for one day?

Hiram: "Rachel, honey you have to get up."

Rachel: "Why?"

Hiram: "Leroy said that the police are here."

What? Why are they here?

Rachel: "I will be down as fast as I can."

Five minutes and a shower later, I head downstairs into the living room and see that there are two police officers waiting for me. They introduce themselves as Sergeant Woods and Detective Jones. Why are they here?

Rachel: "What is going on? Why are the police here?"

Sergeant Woods: "Miss Berry, we know that Finn Hudson disappeared suddenly last week…"

Rachel: "(Interrupts.) I know, I have been in tears ever since."

Sergeant Woods: "We need to ask you some questions to clear your name. Mr Hudson disappeared and possibly died in suspicious circumstances and we have a few suspects and we need to make sure that you were not involved in his disappearance."

Rachel: "Wait, what? Why are you accusing me of being involved, I didn't know that this had happened until it had happened."

Detective Jones: "Miss Berry, is it true that you used to date Mr Hudson."

Rachel: "Yes, we were engaged for 5 months during Senior Year of High School. He broke it off so I could go and live in New York and achieve my dreams."

Detective Jones: "In cases like this one, ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends are always suspects. Mr Hudson did disappear in unclear circumstances. Since we know that you used to date Mr Hudson, we could potentially use you to find links to what happened and why he disappeared."

Rachel: "Okay. What do you want from me?"

Sergeant Woods: "When was the last time that you spoke with Finn Hudson?"

Rachel: "The evening of Mr and Mrs Schuester's failed wedding at the start of this year in person. I last spoke to him over the phone around April time before my audition for Fanny Brice on Broadway."

Sergeant Woods: "Apparently Finn was heading out to New York to meet you in New York with your roommates, is this true?"

Rachel: "(Confused.) I didn't know about this?"

Sergeant Woods: "I have a letter here that was to say that he was coming to meet us and that he had a response from someone there. (Shows her the letters.) Is this your handwriting?"

Rachel: "No, that is Kurt's. He is Finn's step-brother and my roommate."

Detective Jones: "But you refute that you knew anything that was going on?"

Rachel: "I do. (Starts to feel uncomfortable.)"

Hiram: "Do you have any more questions officers? My daughter is clearly starting to feel uncomfortable."

Sergeant Woods: "Two questions left, Miss Berry. The car that Mr Hudson was driving was shot at with a gun. Do you own a firearm's licence or know someone who does?"

Rachel: "Not from my knowledge no."

Sergeant Woods: "Last question. When did you know that Mr Hudson was missing?"

Rachel; "Kurt was on the phone to Carole, Finn's Mom. He came off the phone and told me that Finn was missing. Is it okay if you leave now? (Begins to cry.)"

Detective Jones: "Thank you Miss Berry. We will. We will return if we find any new news. Thank you for your time."

My dad's usher out the police officers and then come back to comfort me after the revelation of what has happened with Finn. I can't believe that they would accuse me of doing it. I would never harm Finn in that way.

Though I am his ex and it does make sense with no leads to accuse ex-partners of committing harm on someone or getting someone involved on the case. But I was the one who broke his heart by cheating on him with Brody so it would make less sense that I would do it even if he broke off the relationship. But they might find leads if I was part of the crime that potentially ended Finn's life.

My dad's just hold me in the house whilst I cry and then put me to bed when I just feel emotionally drained. I have so much I want to say to Finn but I will never have the chance.

(End of Flashback.)

After Puck returns from the call, we go and ask him what has happened to Finn.

Marley: "What news Puckerman?"

Puck: "It is seriously bad. He is in major surgery in order to save his lung. He is less than half the weight that he should be for his size and age. He won't be able to eat properly and will likely be confined to a wheelchair for the rest of his life. He has potentially had a heart attack and he is only 26. As for his mental state, God knows what shape that is in."

This is bad. Everyone looks at each other like we don't even know what to say anymore. It makes us realise that we should never take loved ones for granted because you never know when you will get to see them or hold them again. But the other feeling in me is guilt that I was selfish during the period after graduation and that I wanted to achieve my dreams that I ignored his. Now that I have achieved my dreams, his dreams should come true as well.

But what if he only sees me for what I was then. Maybe he doesn't want to acknowledge me at all. Maybe he sees me for what I realised what I am. Just a selfish, self-centred insecure young woman and wants nothing to do with me. After all, I am just his ex.

Reviews are always welcome. In the next chapter, Finn and Rachel meet for the first time since he escaped from his hostage and it isn't pretty.