Here is Chapter 9. Here we see that Finn tries to put his life back together but is clearly struggling. Enjoy.

Chapter 9: A New Hurdle To Cross.

Rachel's POV. (Starts from the end of the trial.)

After the end of the trial, I feel a sense of liberation run through me because of the outcome and the fact that I can no longer be forced to live a lie and a life that I am not enjoying. The fact is that ever since we got married, Jesse and I have had a torrid relationship and it just doesn't seem to work. We were too similar and he often looked like he had something that he was hiding from me. I wondered whether or not he was sleeping with another woman but whenever I mentioned Finn, he never showed empathy to what happened to him. And now I know why, he was behind it all. Now I feel that I can make a fresh start in my life. He is as good as dead to me.

I take off my wedding ring to prove that I don't believe that I am married to him anymore. I write a letter to the Jailer to pass to Jesse that I am sending divorce papers to him because I have fallen out of love with him and I don't want to be trapped in a loveless marriage. Well that is the official reason. The real reason is because I want to have nothing to do with him after what he has done to Finn. At the end of the day, Finn has always had my heart and has always been the one for me. Anyone else was just settling for them because I couldn't have Finn.

When I return to my father's house, I begin to make a file for divorce. My dad's got a divorce when I returned to Lima after That's So Rachel because of differences that couldn't be resolved. Neither has made any attempt at talking to each other again so I guess that their relationship on any level is over.

Today has been a long day and a very emotional day as well so I decide to head upstairs to bed after I begin to make divorce proceedings. I know that now my dreams have come true, I need to help Finn achieve his dreams. Not having him around for a long time and then him coming back means that I have had a lot of time to think about my mistakes and how in some ways my selfishness led to him being in this state.

When I wake up, I decide that I want to head to the school just for a breather. The thing is at the moment, I am currently waiting back to hear if I can get another show. I recently auditioned for a role in Chicago the musical but they said that they would call back in about a week so until then, I am staying in Lima in order to help with Finn.

I am completely surprised to see that Finn is at the auditorium when I arrive. He is playing the piano and is singing a song that I think is Let Her Go by Passenger. A pretty ironic song choice I have to say considering what he has gone through and he had let me go to achieve my dreams. After he finishes, I decide to go and try to talk to him.

Rachel: "You still got it."

Finn: "Thanks. Why are you here anyway?"

Rachel: "Finn, I wanted to talk to you. I want to help you."

Finn: "About what? The fact that I am physically weak and mentally unstable. Trying to help me discover what I want in life? That's gone Rachel. I am useless and unimportant."

Rachel: "You are you. I want to help you get better. I'll be here to help you get back on your feet."

Finn: "Do you know how hard this is for me? Living with the fact that you are useless and that you will never be the same again. The fact that you are always going to be someone else's second choice. I will never be able to work properly in a full-time job due to my limitation. Do you see that in me?"

Rachel: "Why would you be someone's second choice? I don't get it."

Finn: "I'm your second choice Rachel. I saw you take off your wedding ring at the trial yesterday. You only want me because you can never have Jesse. He had a great career on Broadway right. Money in the bank and a strong reputation. What do I have? Nothing."

Rachel: "Why are you talking about Jesse?"

Finn: "(Loses it.) Because I feel like I am compared to him in your head. I feel that I am nothing compared to him. Every time I look at you, I feel that you are comparing what I am doing to Jesse and I feel that I'm inferior. What else am I meant to feel? You married him right. You were always going to choose him right. He was the first to see you in a wedding dress. Had the ceremony and everything. I am never going to have that. Kurt told me about that audition you had, what happens then. You all have your careers and your dreams and I am the one that has nothing. No money. No job. No-one to come home to every night. They took everything from me. I am just a loser."

Rachel: "I was only settling for him Finn. I only married him because I thought that I could never have you. Can you see that? You deserve your chance at achieving your dreams and I want to help you achieve them."

Finn: "Only when they don't interfere with yours Rachel. You were like that then so how can I not know that you are different now. You cheated on me twice and the second time you claimed that it was my fault? What me having to open your eyes to what you can achieve and this is how I'm repaid by saying that everything that is wrong is my fault? Maybe we should go back to this no contact stage. Maybe we aren't meant to be together."

Rachel: "Trust me Finn please. I want to try and help you. I still love you."

Finn: "I don't know if I can. You broke my heart so many times, I don't think I can trust you with it again."

With that he wheels away. I know that I can't be angry at him because he probably feels that the world is against him and he needs help. His anger is understandable because he has been treated like a slave and is not the same person. His anger has probably built up over time and it just vented over and I faced the brunt of it. I know that I have to stay around in order for him to find his place and calling card in life. It is the least I can do for him even if I can't be with him again.

Finn's POV.

After my little rant at Rachel, I decide to head back home. I mean, I know that it was unwise for me to rant at her but I have all this anger at me and it just boiled over at her and she was unfortunate to be the one who was there when it happened. The stresses of my torture, my return, the hospital, learning about everyone, the trial, it just got on top of me and I needed to let it all out. I didn't mean that no contact thing again, I just love her too much but after everything, I don't know if I want to give my heart to anyone ever again.

I wheel home and see that my Mom is waiting for me to let me in. Ever since, I left the hospital, we have installed a device which makes it easier for me to get into the house. The thing is that I also have to have my first day of physical therapy today and the therapist is coming to our house in order to give me the treatment because it is easier for us in my own house for the treatment and also because I am not paying for it thanks to the Judge's orders, we can take the therapy as and when we need it.

The session went okay as it was mainly for the therapist to see what type of therapy would be best to help me recover due to context of my injuries. It wasn't easy to come to terms with the situation but I will hopefully with time be able to understand what needs to be done in order to get me back to physically strength.

After the therapist went, we saw that a letter had been posted through the letter box which was addressed to me. That's odd. Why would employers send letters of rejection rather than a simple email? I have kept getting rejections from applying for jobs ever since I left the hospital and it was getting on top of me. They would reject me for being unexperienced, not having the qualifications or they liked someone else who they felt was right for the role. I mean it is all lies. The real reason they don't take me is because I am a former hostage who has been made physically disabled and has a bad mental state. Basically discriminated against.

I take the letter into my bedroom which is just a small room because of my body is unable to climb stairs without any help and so instead I have this small room which just has my bed, my wardrobe and my drums. My Mom said that she couldn't get rid of the drums because it meant so much to the pair of us of when it was just the two of us. Of those times when she would let me play so she could have some time to herself. She told me that she needed them there just to remind herself and if Kurt and Blaine ever adopted or have a surrogate for them to know about me and keep my legacy. I hope that I will be able to tell them myself and teach them to be able to play the drums myself.

I sit down on my bed and look at the letter. It isn't completely formal. There is no company stamp or anything. This makes this sound that this might be something else. Maybe someone giving me a Get Well card or something.

I open the letter to see what it is. And I start to read.

Dear Finn.

Cliff-hanger. I know. I don't often do them but I felt it was right for this chapter. Who wrote the letter. Comment your thoughts about this chapter and who wrote the letter in a review if you wish. I have given a clue in a previous chapter.