Vale's P.O.V.
"How could you do something like that without telling me?"
"It's for the best, Kenobi."
"For who?" I hear Obi-Wan snap while keeping up with my fast pace. "For the Jedi Order?"
I'm rushing down the hall after leaving a meeting with the council. Obi-Wan's right on my trail, baffled by what I said in the meeting. Anakin has gone to a hangar to take Padme back to Naboo.
No one's in the hall we're in, mostly because there are so few of us now. Everyone who's still alive from the battle of Geonosis is with the Clone Army or with the Senate. All the younglings are in their sector of the Jedi Temple.
"Yes, for the Jedi Order!"
I snap right back at him without looking his way. All I can think about is how my miscarriage was my fault. Obi-Wan and I should have never gotten together in the first place.
Who were we to think we could have a child in the time we're living in? Better yet, how could we believe we'd be able to leave the Jedi Order? The Council needs us so much that didn't even bat their eyes when they found out I was pregnant.
I should be expelled and yet they let me stay; how could they not though? The Clone Wars has begun. Count Dooku is leading the Separatists and the Republic we once knew is slowly fading. Not only that, but they believe I'm the chosen one after all that I have proven not to be.
"You still should have asked me before you had the surgery, Valera!"
Obi-Wan argues in a loud voice because I still have not looked at him. When I finally do, I see him livid with our situation. I understand completely, but after all I've endured, I won't give him sympathy.
"Why in the blazes would I ask you?" I shout right back at him in the hall. "It was my choice and my choice alone! I thought you would at least be understanding of my decision!"
"Of course I understand why you did it, but that doesn't make it right!" He yell through the hall while raising his hands in resentment. "Just because we had a miscarriage doesn't mean I didn't want to have a child with you anymore!"
"Are you kidding me?" I blurt out in shock as my eyes go wide at his confession. "I should have never been pregnant to begin with! If we actually tried for another baby, it would end same as this one did!"
"You don't know that!" Obi-Wan argues while looking away from me and trying to calm himself down. He pushes back his long hair out of his face as he tries to think. Covering his eyes, he mumbles, trying to hold himself together. "If you didn't get that surgery... We would still at least have a chance."
"A chance at what? Look around, Obi-Wan." I announce and wave my arms in the empty hall. "Half of the Jedi Order is dead, the Republic and Separatists are going to war!" I come up to him and make him look me in the eye as I let out a hollow laugh. "We can't risk me being pregnant with everything going on! We should have never filled our heads with the ridiculous idea we would leave the Jedi Order!"
"It wasn't ridiculous! We could have!" He spits out, just as frustrated as I am, making me shake my head, smiling in defeat. Pushing my hair back, I try holding in my expression as I state in twisted humor. "How? Obi-Wan, how? We lost the baby as soon as we realized we had one. That brief fantasy of us leaving and raising a child will never happen!"
"It won't now because of what you've done!"
"It was never going to happen! Don't you see! We have been so blind in our feelings!" I declare, feeling tears entering my gaze as I try to get him to see what I do. "This is exactly why it's forbidden to love! It blinded us from reality and made us believe we can have more!"
"We weren't blind, Vale. We had hope." Obi-Wan argues with me while pacing beside me. "... And things happen. Things like this can happen to anyone."
"Things like this don't just happen to Jedi. This should have never happened."
I point out knowing we're probably the first ones in the Order to be in this situation. Letting out a breath and wiping my eyes, I try to think straight. Closing my eyes in heartache, I realize what we need to do now to salvage our places in the Jedi Order.
Obi-Wan stands in front of me in complete misery at what's happening between us. My mind is swarming with reasons not to say what I'm about to say, but I know it's the right thing to do. We can't go on living like this if we are to stay in the Jedi Order.
"Maybe... Maybe this is a good thing." I whisper and feel tears slipping over my cheeks. Unable to look at him, I speak up in a cracking voice. "Maybe this is a sign for us to stop."
"Stop what?" Obi-Wan blurts out in a dreading voice. "Stop what, Vale?"
"This... What's between us." I wave a shaking hand at us while blinking away tears. "Let's face it... We're never going to leave the Jedi Order. We're never going to have a child. We should end this while we still can."
Obi-Wan's P.O.V.
I feel my body go cold; I do everything to keep my composure at her words. Watching her with a heart-broken expression, I force myself to look away from her. I can't look her in the eye after hearing what she just said.
Rubbing my jaw, I look at the ground below us, trying to think straight. All I can think about is how we lost the baby, how we'll never be able to have another one and her saying we should end what's between us. Everything feels so heavy on my shoulders that I feel like I my lose my balance.
I want to shout at her for getting the surgery without telling me and I want to plead with her that we can't end things like this between us. Though between it all, I sense the truth to what she's saying in the force. Have the miscarriage was our fault and if we tried for another, it wouldn't make it because of our lives in the Jedi Order.
We would just lose another baby just as soon as we would find out we have it. Vale and I are at a stalemate because of our lifestyle. No matter how much faith or hope we have, nothing will change this reality.
I slowly walk towards a window in the hall, knowing Vale is watching my every move. She stays silent, patiently waiting for my response. Looking out the window, I see groups of Clones everywhere.
I left out a breath knowing this is a new beginning, one that will one hurt us more if we keep this going. Though I don't want to lose Vale, I don't want to lose what we have. It's what keeps me going, it's what makes me a better man.
Covering my eyes, I know I have to agree with her, but I try to find any reason not to. I don't want this to end. I don't want to lose her. Blinking back tears, I look back out the window and whisper loud enough for her to hear behind me.
"Okay, if that's what you want."
"It's not what I want to do, Obi-Wan." I hear her whimper in a soft tone. "... But it's what we need to do."
Next thing I hear is her footsteps walking away. I turn my head and find her striding away from me with her back to me. My eyes catch her hands going to her face, and I know she's wiping away tears.
For a second, I feel an impulse to chase after her and comfort her. To tell her we can work through this, that we can still make it work. I've never got to tell her how much I love her and all I want to say now is that I love her.
Though, this is what she said we needed, it is what she wants. I don't blame her either, having to lose and child only to decide never to have one again. It doesn't feel right to me. It feels like we've given up our free will for the Jedi Order.
Wiping my eyes, I force myself to look away from her. I urge my feet to move down the opposite way down the hall. Every step I take feels like a step further away from my home.
Anakin's P.O.V.
"Has anyone seen, Obi-Wan?"
"General Kenobi was just seen heading past the infirmary, sir."
"Thank you."
I nod to the soldier nearby and head to the makeshift building. We've just arrive to the planet of Christophsis with plans of stopping the Separatist Droid Army led by General Whorm Loathsom. They've just took over the system, and the Council has sent us here hoping to take it back for the Republic.
We've landed half an hour ago and the clones we've brought with us are setting up camp. Yet the moment we landed, I've been unable to find my old Master. I walk towards the makeshift building and stick my head in looking for him but nothing, not a sight of him.
After the battle on Geonosis, I was given the rank of Jedi Knight and two months later, the title of a General in the Clone Army. Obi-Wan and Vale became Jedi Masters from the battle of Geonosis; this month they were titled Generals and put on the council. Walking around the building, my eyes scan the area in sight of him for us to get started on an attack plan.
When my eyes find him, my shoulders slack at what he's doing. He's a few yards away, leaning on a wall against bunker. He has a hand covering his eyes as if he's trying to hold back tears.
He's thinking of Vale.
The last time Obi-Wan and I saw Vale was the day I escorted Padme back to her home planet of Naboo. Obi-Wan and I have not seen her once in the last two months. Sure, we heard things about her from the Council, but never face to face.
It was weird the first few missions we took without her by our side. I felt like we were missing or forgetting something. Our team didn't feel complete, but after a month it got easier for me and I stopped looking towards Obi-Wan's side for Vale.
When I asked Obi-Wan or the Council why she's not with us anymore, they always said the same vague thing; she's needed somewhere else. I feel like they're not telling me the whole truth because I know Vale. Growing up with her, she's repeatedly told me she'll be by Obi-Wan and by my side, no matter what.
Nothing could separate us, that's what she would say when I was a kid, no fight will ever become between us. Yet, looking at Obi-Wan at this moment, I knew something did separate Vale from us. Glancing around, I make sure so no one else is seeing him this way.
When my eyes go back to Obi-Wan, I frown in worry at his state of mind. It's been months since the last time we've seen Vale. I've got over it in a month, but looking at Kenobi, it seems he hasn't moved on from our way of life with her.
Obi-Wan's mentally stronger than I am, though. Why can I move on when Obi-Wan can't? The second the question is in my mind, I realize why he hasn't gotten over it.
Vale is the only person Obi-Wan allow himself to love. Vale's been by his side through everything. And now Vale is gone.