Bette drives her car all the way to her sister's flat in tears and even if she knows it's late and she would probably be in bed sleeping safely in Sonny's arms she needs her older sister to give some sense to her thoughts.

I just need to understand my T, get rid of this possesive way of thinking.

She parks the car in front of the block of apartments and once in front of her sister's door she knocks and wait for hee to open.

"Baby sis? Wat' ya' doing here? –Kit let her enter her house and Bette just fell into her arms, crying hysterically–This is about Tina knowing about Jenny's video, isn't it? –I shook my head no- No?...then what it is? Come ere' Bette, sit down on the sofa, I'm going to make some tea. Sony honey, it's just Bette, go back to sleep"

When Kit get back in the room with two cups of tea Bette starts calming herself with her old meditation thecniques and opening up to her,she tell her the story that Tina told her a couple of hours before, of course Kit is inmediatly in tears and then Bette explain to her how she has been feeling and that she needed to go to not say something wrong to Tina. Kit stay in shock for some minutes, trying to digest everything that her sister told her and once she is calm enough she turns to her sister and grabs her hand.

"Elizabeth Maxine Porter, you should know that you made the right decision coming here to not hurt Tina more and about you feelings, I think the main one is anger and betrayal and of course you should be angry at that son of a bitch but…why you feel betrayed?"

"I hate it, it's this possesion feeling that I was Tina's first and I gave her this vision of the lesbian world that no one else can do and that I was the first woman to be intimate with her and…and even if I know that what her…ugh…what that bitch did to her has nothing to compare to what we have….I don't know, I am a horrible person"

"No you are not. But you have nevee been abused, you have never have to be in a position were your older sister rape you. Can you imagine what would you do to supress the trauma if I did something like that to you? Think about how she felt"

"I saw it in her eyes, she is scared, she was like a lost puppy and wanted to get rid of this asap but you know how control freak I am, I feel like i have to know everything about Tina's life and now…ugh "

"I think that you are Tina's first, last and forever, you just have to talk to her and tell her how you feel. She is Tina Kennard, she has the biggest heart in this planet so go home and kiss your wife"

Bette stands up and hug her sister whom caress her back in rubbing circles. "Thank you Kit"

While the brunette is at her sister house for over two hours Tina had not been able to sleep so she goes to have some tea and once she does that she goes to check on Angie because is something that always calm her. The little girl is sleeping on her tummy with both of her hands above her head one of them hugging the pilow and Tina let out a whimper because Angie sleeps exactly like her brunette mother and she realices how much she loves Bette and that she can't lose her, not because of this, not because of Charlotte.

"I…I can't lose her, I…I can't"

Tina feels a pair of arms encircle her waist and kiss her neck. And she turns around to face her fiancee's smile.

"Youa re not going to lose me Tee-she press their bodies together so there's no centimeter of skin between them -We need to go to our room and talk, talk about my feelings, about the situation and we need to reassure each other. Can we do that?"

"Yes baby, yes, I would do whatever you want me to do"

"We just have to talk T, I have to tell you how I feel and you have to tell me everything, how you felt, why you felt guilty or responsible and what happened to your sister"

So they go to their bedroom and strip to just their underwear and with that intimacy of sharing a life for over ten years, a relationship for over eight and a house for six of those eight years they open their hearts to the other.

"Just tell me whatever of that period that you want to tell me, I am not judging Tee and I would listen to whatever you want to share"

"Like I told you I was twelve and very young to understand what was happening or even if I had feeling for girls and I suppose that I did, I was attracted to girls but I suppose I erased that from my memory after the trauma. When I was fourteen people at school were talking about sex and gay and lesbian and there was when I learned about incest and lesbian sex and that what we were doing was wrong and I felt so guilty Bette" she breaks down into her fiancee's arms and the brunette kiss her in every space available "I am so sorry, so so sorry"

"Shh, baby, shh, it's ok. I hate her, I hate your sistee with everything I have but…I want to know how you feel about it? Why you blame yourself Tina? It wasn't you fault! She was the olderone, the one that knew what you were doing mean and the pervert one!"

"At first I was so ashamed of myself, I used to cry a lot and I felt very disgusted about myself because that caused me a trauma and make me start dating men and yes…I think I blamed and still blame myself for not being more brave, for not telling my parents the truth, for being so afraid…and she made me feel bad too when she married a pastor and became this catholic, devoted wife with three children and told me I was going straight to Hell because I was a lesbian. –Bette grabs Tina's hands and put them on her heart and in that way, feeling her girl's heartbeat she calm herself- I think what I needed was to talk to someone and I'm so sorry I didn't tell you, I was just afraid that you would let me, you would felt disgusted or something.

Bette kiss Tina, this time is a kiss full of love, well, there's a little bit of angry in Bette but there's more love because Bette has nothing to forgive Tina for, this is a trauma and Tina handle it as good as she could but the brunette has to pour her soul too.

"The reason why I was so shocked and mad earlier was because of my feeling of possesion and my own insecurities that I was not your first and that felt like a betrayal an I know is lame and I shouldn't be this obsessed with control and having things my way, I aj sorry"

"I told you that you were my "first last and forever" because is true: you were my first real love and the first lesbian relationship I accepted to have and you introduced me to this wonderful community and you are going to be my last, i just know that and you will be my forever love, i would not love any other person as much as I love you, a love that hurts and a love that can shine the sky. I promise I was not lying, I mean it….probably not as the same way as you think I meaned it but it was true. I love you with all my heart Bette, I promise"

Bette kiss Tina again and this time she push her to ly on the bed so Bette is on top of Tina. She deepens the kiss, her tongue wanting entrance to Tina's mouth and her girl is willing to let herenter her mouth, take her breath away with her kisses, to let her make love to her and Tina make love to Bette, showing her how much she loves her. Bette unclaps Tina's bra with the experience of all this years of undressing women but she then kiss her fiancee's breats with the experience of knowing this girl for a decade. And god she loves her boobs and how they stayed bigger after feeding Angie and how well they feel in her hands. Bette kiss the nipples, like if she was greeting them for the first time and then she sucks a good amount of breast what makes Tina see starts, since given birth to Angie she has been very sensitive in that area to the point that she could come just by breasts' stimulation. And Bette knows that so she spends half an hour given them pleasure until Tina is reaching her climax. While she is coming down from her pleasure Bette kiss every inch of Tina's neck and face.

And once she is recovered Tina kiss Bette's from head to toe, spending a great amount of time kissing her thighs but never reaching Bette's sacred place, her favorite place in the world.

"T, you are such a tease"

And Tina smiles and kiss Bette on the mouth before going down to her waist again to take her panties off and dive in her fiancee's arousal. She is so wet that Tina instantly savor her essence and her fingers enter Bette without resistance what makes Bette moan loudly.

"Baby, hush, you would wake Angie and she would ruin our fun. You should be quiet"

"Don't be so damn good and I would not moa….ahhh, fucking mother of god….JESUS, TINAAAA!"

Bette finally comes around Tina's fingers sometime later and the blonde woman stays there helping Bette come down from her orgasm and Bette is happy, she feels so happy. And she also recovers quickly so soon she is straddling her girl's legs and they are both sitting in the middle of the bed, facing each other and making out, a battle of tongues, teeths and fingers. Bette is the first that inserts two fingers inside Tina who moans what makes Bette bite at her pulse point and she instantly feels Tina's arousal increasing but the blonde knows that Bette is waiting so she also insert two fingers, feeling her fiancee's tightness.

"God Bette, I love youuuu"

"Ahhh T…Jesus….I love you too."

"Are we ok? We ok about what I told you?" Tina kiss Bette before she can answer and once she recovers for the kiss the brunette looks at her lover's eyes and says yes "Yes, we are more than ok and I want you to forgive yourself"

Ten minutes later they are both sleeping soundly in the arms of each other love, smiling in their sleeps.