Can I just say before you read the chapter that when I first originally wrote this story (which was more than a year ago) I had no plan. I was going to write a whole different story about Clary being a ghost and not surviving Sebastian's abuse. I've never had a set plan so that is why I have written parts of this story strangely. Anyway, ahead with the story we go;
The furious eyes of my boyfriend met mine as I squeaked out a hi. Jon's face appeared behind Jace's.
"Clary, and Bastian?" Jon seemed confused. "Izzy called us saying you were acting odd, you're just lucky that we were coming back from practice." Jon laughed through the tense situation. His laugh seemingly adding to Jace's foul mood.
"Why are you with Bastian?" Jace asked, as if Jon didn't say anything.
"I was walking home when I saw Clary leaving Izzy's house in a rush." Sebastian explained swiftly, gaining a stronger French accent than when he was talking to me alone.
"Not that I really asked you to walk with me." I said with a tinge of hostility, Sebastian just looked at me before asking Jon whether he could get a ride, even though the Penhallows lived only a few blocks away.
"Earth to Clary, you gonna join us." Jon almost shouted, laughing as I snapped out of my daydream. I hastily got into the back of the car with Sebastian. For the third time this night, I felt like silence was surrounding me. Even Jon didn't attempt to talk with how tense the atmosphere was. As soon as Sebastian left the car, patting my knee as a warning to not tell, Jace almost exploded in anger.
"What were you doing with him Clary, that guy is not good news, I can see it in his eyes!" Jace started shouting, his body tense with anger. We were at least a safe distance from Sebastian now so I was able to relax.
"Do you think I had a choice Jace, its not like I can refuse walking with him." I shout back.
"Well I'm sure that if I was the one to try and walk with you, you'd somehow find a way to avoid me!" Jace yelled, it was clear that that was his real problem.
"I don't know what you mean." I said shocked.
"Oh come off of it Clary, everyone's noticed how you've been avoiding me recently." Jace scoffed.
"I have n-" I started.
"Guys, can we at least wait until we're out of the car, I don't want to particularly be here when you guys are arguing." Jon yelled, cutting me off, and once again, we lapsed into silence.
The 5 minutes of silence that followed was one of the most uncomfortable experiences of my life. Jon left as soon as he could, leaving Jace and I to lock the car and get into the house.
"Why are you doing this to me Clary?" Jace was the first one to break the silence. I locked the car swiftly before raising my gaze to reach his eyes.
"I'm not doing anything Jace, I just haven't been feeling well recently." I told him, being partially truthful. It was true that I wasn't feeling well recently, but that wasn't the reason why I was avoiding him.
"Then what's wrong? Talk to me Clary." Jace pleaded. I could no longer look him in the eye, I couldn't let him know, Seb would make me pay, make them all pay.
"Tell me what's wrong Clare." Jace whispered walking up close to me and bending down to catch my gaze. He was breaking down my defences slowly, wearing away at me like drops of water on a stone. Soon all my armour would be gone. I shook my head stubbornly, closing my eyes as if this was all a dream. Jace swore at my stubbornness, my eyes were still closed so all I heard was angry footsteps retreating into my house.
I quickly followed after him, both curious and scared about what he was going to do next. I ran up the stairs after him, only to stop by my room and see him in there. He was standing by my desk, with a crumpled piece of paper in his hand.
"What's this?" He asked, holding up a crumpled sketch of Sebastian, the image that haunted my nightmares.
"It doesn't matter Ja-" I started, scared of what he was already thinking, scared he would make the connection. It was stupid of me to leave it on my desk, but I couldn't get the image outside of my head, sketching usually helped get rid of unwanted memories.
"Is this what its about Clary? Do you like him now?" Jace's voice cracked at the end.
"No, Jace I would never cheat on you!" I squeaked out, if only he knew my real feelings for 'Bastian'.
"I never said you cheated on me Clary, all I wasn't to know is why you're being like this to me!" He shouted. I once again couldn't look him in the eyes. Pressure was surrounding me. I felt as if I wasn't getting enough air inside of me. The rest of what he said was lost on me, all I could hear was blood pounding behind my ears, roaring like a steam engine on tracks, heading towards me, faster, faster, faster, I couldn't get enough air, black darkness surrounded the edges of my vision, seeping outwards quickly, I couldn't see, I couldn't breathe. The only sound now was my heart thumping as if I was sprinting, running away from all my troubles. Till there was no more noise...
Slowly, as if waking up from a heavy sleep, I opened my eyes. my heart rate had now calmed down slightly, though it was still beating rather too rapidly to be at its usual resting beat. I was on the ground, on someone's lap. Jace's lap. Darkness no longer surrounded my vision, only the golden halo that was Jace's face. I could roughly hear Jon in the background talking rapidly to someone. What happened.
"You had a panic attack, you were out for over a minute. Jace is on the phone with Izzy now as Jocelyn's phone is off." Jace whispered. I guess Id spoken my thought out aloud.
"They've never been that bad before." I whispered confused.
"I know that you know the cause behind it, its the same problem as to why you're avoiding me isn't it." Jace spoke carefully. My armour was almost at breaking point now, and he knew it.
"Please tell me Clare." He pleaded so quietly that I almost didn't hear him, but I did. The last defences I held against him were broken with the single name Clare, that was what Seb used to always call me. And with my defences gone, the damn inside of me broke. Tears burst from my eyes and I could no longer hold my sobs in. I cant do this anymore. My mind screamed at me. He's slowly ruining me, Sebastian will never allow me to be happy. And with that, my hope broke.
"Who's Sebastian, your ex?" Jace broke through my crying. I froze. I spoke those words out loud once again. My blood turned to ice. I shook my head quickly, my mouth quickly forming a terrified "no" out.
"Is this what its all about Clary? Your ex, this is why you're so scared?" He asked. I waited in terror as he slowly pieced it together. His face getting wiped of all emotion, but in his eyes, he was furious. Beside hem, Jace picked up[ the crumpled drawing of Seb, as if seeing him in a new light.
"Bastian, short for Sebastian. How could I have been so stupid." Was all Jace said, getting up.
"What's going on?" Jon asked, finally hanging up on Izzy. He stepped towards Jace, concern filling his eyes as he assessed his friends tense stance. Placing a hand on Jace's shoulder.
"Oh nothing much, just that your sister failed to mention that her abusive ex-boyfriend has followed her here to try and terrify her." Jace said smoothly. Jon froze, shock written all over his face. I saty up quickly, but Jace was out of my door all to soon shouting "He'll pay" before slamming the front door loudly. Silence.
I got up silently, rushing to the window only to see the shadow of Jace's figure running down the street, towards the Penhallows house.
"What the hell Clare." Was all Jon said. I guess it was time for the truth to come out, and part of me was relieved.
Well, I guess you'll just have to wait till the next chapter to find out what happens! It'll be a split PoV between Jace and Clary. Also its Jace Herondale's birthday today! Yayy. So anyway please review and I just want to say that this only has a few chapters left now ;) I hope everyone likes how all the secrets are finally out for everyone to see now and that this wasn't originally meant to be so soon, but thanks to sophiecampbellbower, my story has changed for the better.
So yeah I just want to give a shout out to sophiecampbellbower for always giving me the best reviews.
Anyway till next time-
-Ruby|-/