To: Asami

From: Me

These past few days, I felt a couple of emotions. I'm guessing you may have gone through similar emotion as well. First off, I would like to say that, I wished such event didn't happen. But I would be lying if I told you I didn't expect such thing to happen sooner. What surprised me the most, was the fact you made the first move and not me.

Which is upsetting, because I was counting on you to not give into temptation. It would have made mines so much easier to control. I'm telling you this because you aren't all to blame.

I tried so hard not to take your gestures as something more. Maybe If I did, I could have realized earlier that what I was doing was wrong.

I thought this whole ordeal was my faith testing me, but I was just testing myself. Actually, fighting myself. I'm supposed to be a role model and I didn't just let my fans down, I let myself down as well. It's like everything I kept bottled up inside finally came out, inside that cage.

I may be undefeated in the world's eyes, but I lost myself back there. And that's a loss to me.

Everyone thinks I have everything all together, but truthfully, I don't.

It's just my years of practice, due to my parents' ways, that helped me before. But since I no longer live under their roof, I can't use them as an excuse for not doing what I want.

It surprised me when you out of all people, saw past my well-practiced act and took the time to speak with me. It also hurts that you witnessed my breaking point. Let me reassure you, I'm much stronger than this.

None of what you saw in the stadium had anything to do with you. I just had enough.

When I fight, I sometimes picture my opponents as an obstacle I'm facing. Azula happened to be my self conscious, this time.

In the beginning of the fight, I wanted to give up. I didn't see any use in fighting myself any longer. I was willing to let everything go.

But at the very end, I knew if I didn't fight back, I would continue being the victim. So that explains why I became so brutal back there.

Then again, I'm not going to lie. I wanted to say those words to Azula a long time ago. But if I wasn't under so much stress, I think I would have been able to keep my cool.

Asami, I don't regret the kiss and I'm not upset about it. I'm upset about how I handled it. I should have let you explain yourself, instead of kicking you out. Maybe things would have gone differently between us. We could have talked through everything.I would have maybe been able to tell you that I had similar feelings for you.

I remembered when I asked you if you believed in love at first sight and you laughed and said maybe.

You may have not know this but, when I went to visit Mako. I used to always admire you from afar. I watched as you sketched and interacted with your co-workers.

Just seeing the smiles on everyone's faces when you spoke, made me want to get to know such a beautiful/wonderful person.

I sound like a stalker but trust me, I'm not.

When I saw you get on the elevator, I knew it was my only chance to finally talk to you. So I told you to hold the door and the moment we made eye contact, I instantly got pulled in.

To hide my excitement , I quickly started fangirling and till this day, I'm embarrassed by my behavior.I had to be so annoying.

But even though I rambled out of nervousness, you still treated me the same way you treat others. Just speaking with you was enough.

Well...that's what I thought ,up until you almost got ran over.

There you were lying on the street, with people surrounding you and I thought to myself. This girl is crazy! But it turns out, I was the crazy one. Because you did all of that, just for my name.

Which touched me.

It wasn't the fact you were somewhat of a celebrity and wanted my name. But the subject matter as in, you never got my name.

I don't mean to compare Mako and ours first interaction, but it's something I been thinking about a lot lately, since the Christmas ball.

When Mako and I first met, I thought it was love at first sight. But now going through the different events.

There is a difference between being in love with someone, and being in love with the moments you share with someone.

Mako asked for my number and you asked for my name. Which caught my attention right away.

A name to me, is more personal than a number . To allow someone to call you by your name, means a lot. It's like when a teacher tells you their first name. It's like a wall of trust is instantly built between their students. You asking for my name, made me fall in love with the moment we shared.

The more we hung out, the more I started to enjoy your company more than I should had. I hid my feelings by justifying my enjoyment due to our friendship. But as time progressed, I could tell it was something more.

I started to get upset seeing you with Suki. Once again, I thought I was afraid of losing my best friend, but that wasn't the case. You kept asking me if I liked Suki and my answer will always be 'Yes'.

But the question you should had asked me was 'Do I like Suki and you together?' which my answer happens to be
'No'.

But deep down I know my answer is selfish, because you two are great for each other and I have someone already. Someone I love dearly. Someone I fell in love with. And it breaks my heart that I developed feelings for you, when I love Mako.

It's unfair for all of us. I know you hate seeing me with him and I know he hates seeing me with you. But if it's anyone's fault, it's mine. Because I wasn't honest with either parties.

I used to think, I was the only one making an effort in Mako's and I relationship, but turns out I was the one slacking in it.

I should had told him the moment I started gaining feelings for you. Even if they weren't as strong and maybe just a little crush, I should have told him and I regret not doing so.

I can't even look at him without feeling guilty. Even though I never kissed you back, what I did was far worse. By keeping everything a secret, I might as well kissed you.

When I do tell him, which I know will be very soon. I hope he forgives me, because I want to make us still work.

I hope this doesn't hurt you too much. Just typing this message hurts me. But it's for the best.

I always saw you as a wonderful person, even before we met. Through your success and your philanthropy, I'm glad I was able to meet someone like you.Words can't describe how much you mean to me. You helped me through so much and I'm ever so grateful.

I hope you don't hate me too much for this. But, I think it would be best if we give each other time.

Time, so we can move pass this and hopeful build a friendship in the future. I don't' hate you Asami, I could never. I just think we met each other at the wrong time.

If you're asking yourself "Why I can't just choose you?"

It's because my love for Mako is much more stronger. But also the reality that, you never saw me as a person. I know that wasn't your intentions, but that's how I felt and that's how it is.

If you saw me for who I am, and not property. Maybe it would have been easier for you to tell me how you felt in the beginning.

The connection we had when we first met, was wonderful. Even though our other times together were amazing, as well. None of our interactions could compare with the moment we spent together, in that tiny coffee shop.

You were so open about your personal life without hesitation and I was so open about my love for such a silly drink. You may not know this but, I'm a pretty reserved person and it takes a while for me to be open with people.

People tell me I'm hard to read. But honestly, I'm not. I think now a days, everyone wants to over look the obvious and try to find a deeper meaning into things. If you didn't see me as property, you would had notice some of my signs that..I never tried to hide with you.

I wished this wasn't the outcome, but sadly it is, and we have to move pass this. It's going to be hard, but I know we can get through this.

So go chase your dreams and continue making others' lives special. Date Suki, she's a great girl and also my sparring partner. I will learn to live with it. But I can't live with you thinking I hate you. We're in the Big Apple. There aren't many nice people in this city and when you do meet them, it's rare. And I struck gold meeting you and I don't regret that.

But I think we both can agree that,

everything changed

once you found out

I was the boss's girlfriend.

*Message Not Delivered*

The End.

Author's Note

And just like Fire Ferrets' orders, that message was never delivered.

So I'm going to leave it to your interpretation on whether or not Suki and Asami become a thing. Or if Korra marries Mako . It's all up to you. But there is one thing we all know. And that's Korra had feelings as well.

I want to thank you all for enjoying this story. Truthfully, I don't see myself as a writer. I just let my creativity take over. Which explains the reason why I update so quickly.

I never pre-write my stories. if I did that, I don't think my stories would have the same effect. I do however, have ideas on where I want to take a chapter and work around it.

Funny thing, I get just as much anxious for another chapter, as you all lol. I look forward to seeing the finish product as well. To me it's like 'Ooohhh what can I make happen next' it's crazy. I'm weird lol idk.

You all are the most loyal readers ever! I want to continue sharing my ideas with you all. But sadly, I'm taking a break from writing, so I can focus on some future objectives. I'm not taking a break from the site, just a break writing in general.

However, I would love to read a Korrasami camp themed fic. Like maybe have Korra and Asami as camp counselor or something.

Idk, just someone please make it happen! I will favorite, review, follow, stalk and everything. I would write one myself but…..it's too much work lol.

Thank you so much, once again :)

April showers bring back amazing writers. So see you then.

Thoughts are always appreciated.