Hello minions! Fierynitemare here saying HAPPY NEW YEAR! so it's a new year which means new writing style and new chapters. I've decided to write this fan ic in first person this time (expanding writing skill and all that crap). Please tell me what you think.

DISCLAIMER: FAIRY TAIL DOES NOT BELONG TO ME. !

Chapter one

Pain. What is pain? I can't help but ask myself this as I float in a vat, suspended in some mysterious purple liquid. Wires connect me to a machine that pumps condensed magic energy into my veins infusing me with a magic foreign to my body. Pain spreads all throughout my body, causing every muscle to ache in every place. There are two types of pain: physical pain, sometimes a necessary discomfort, and emotional pain, an unreasonable illogical annoyance , I'd rather not experience. Yet try as I might I can't turn off the pain I feel on the inside, it's always there beneath the surface so deep and so dark I sometimes forget how to breathe. You can only distract yourself from this pain, breeded by betrayal and lost love, for it is inconsolable, and irreparable. Why does pain hurt so much? They're faces flash in my mind before I even register what's happening and i feel a mixture of longing and hatred as I get to Natsu's face. Why? Why did you do this to me!? I feel it again and along with it that old rage bubbles up inside of me ready to explode. They can't get away with this, they deserve to feel what I feel, they need to see that actions have consequences.

A pounding on the glass in front of me knocks me out of my thoughts, and has me opening my eyes only to be met with the angry glare of Kain. I didn't realize I was channeling my magic energy until I take a look at the lab around me. Several vats have been shattered and the mysterious liquid that was once inside of them has now spilled onto the floor, and a giant crack has appeared down one of the sides of my vat.

I give Kain a sheepish smile and shrug 'sorry?' i say telepathically

Kain just shakes his head and hits the button on the control panel that will drain my vat and allow me to open it. "I'll clean it up." I say as I step out from the warmth, housed in the glass tube, and into the biting cool air. I shiver from the change in temperature and wrap my arms around my wet body.

Kain hands me a towel "you need to get some control over your emotions."

I wrap the towel around myself and try my best to look repentant "I know and I'll do better I promise." I say as I look at Kain "it's just hard sometimes you know… being stuck in a vat for an hour doing nothing gives you a lot of time to think."

Kain tries to do this searching thing with his eyes, its when he tries to stare into your soul and see what's going on inside your head "About what?" I hate it when he does this, I don't want them to see inside of me.

'about how much they hurt me' "just things." I say as I break eye contact and stare at one of many puddles of of mystery liquid on the floor "what's in that stuff anyway?" I ask Pointing trying to change the subject

Kain tries to do his searching thing one more time but I won't let him. Giving up Kain sighs and glances over to where my finger is pointing and a smirk plays on his lips "Oh you know… just things." He says with a roll of his eyes

I scowl at him "not funny."

He shrugs and goes to check on Ty and Cam, monitoring their magical pulse and checking thier progress.. "I thought it was." Kain must be satisfied with what he's reading on the chart because he slaps his hand on the button, and drains their vats as well.

"Bout time!" shouts Ty as he comes out of the glass cylinder. "We've been stuck in here for ages."

Rolling my eyes I exit the lab and head to the showers to wash off the rest of the liquid from my body. Hot water rains down and steam soon fills the air around me as I rise off in the shower. The strong smell of strawberries assults my nose as I lather up my sponge. When I finished washing up I rinse off one more time before exiting out of the shower and grabbing the towel someone- no doubt Kain left for me. I head to my locker and change into the clothes I put in there this morning.

"Milhail has a task for us." Ty says, Leaning against the doorframe with his arms crossed against his bare chest, wearing nothing but a pair of low riding jeans, causing his muscles to flex. I didn't even hear him come in.

"How long have you been there?" I ask unsettled, Ty is as silent as a mouse, you will never hear him enter or exit a room. Once I asked him how he keeps his feet so light and silent but all he replied was that death is always silent, that's what makes it a perfect assassin.

Ty's shrugs "long enough."

"What do you mean long enough? You weren't watching me get dressed were you?! Because that's just creepy Ty!" I can already feel my cheeks heating up, at the thought of him watching me get dressed.

"Chill blondie I just got here."

"Oh." I sigh relieved that he didn't see me get dressed because that's just embarrassing

A smirk plays of his lips "what are you so freaked out about anyway… its not like I would be seeing anything I haven't seen before." He says referring to the one mission on hawkabe mountain two weeks ago

I know my cheeks are fire engine red now as I point to the door "OUT!"

Ty's laughter can be heard echoing down the hallway as he heads to the meeting room

"Arrogant asshole." I mumble walking down the hallway

I'm greeted by the sound of Ty and Cam getting into another one of their arguments.

"Who you callin' stupid!" i hear Ty shout at Cam

"You! You freakin' reaper you're dumber than a box of rocks!" Cam shouts back

"Those are fightin words."Ty says darkly

"You wanna go little bro." Cam taunts "bring it."

"Death dragon's -."

"Blood dragons -."

Before they can do any real harm I hit both on them on top of the head knocking them out for the time being. "What was it over this time?" i ask with a resigned sigh

"Mission tactics." Scythe replies vaguely

I shake my head "those two I swear." Ty and cam are full of so much excess energy they just don't know what to do with it. Excess energy is great in battle, it helps sharpen senses and increases your reflexes but when you're sitting idle, it creates a jittery time bomb. I take a seat at the head of the giant table in the middle of the meeting room "what's the mission?" I ask getting down to business

"Simple obtain and acquire mission." Kain answers

"What are we trying to obtain?" i fire off another question

"Demon blood."

"Mikhail must be trying a new experiment." I conclude, he probably wants to find a way to give us a power up of some sort, turn us into something even more demonic than what we are. This man's power hungriness will be his downfall. I don't agree with what he's doing but orders are orders and I wouldn't mind a power up. "how are we going to get it? The fairy tail guild and I killed all of the demons of Tartarus two years ago and their base was destroyed."

"Well that's what we're arguing about, Ty wants to summon a demon, while Cam wants to scavenge the ruins of their base and see what we can dig up, I mean all we need is a sample and Mikhail can probably create a less potent version of it based on the sample he has."

"Exploring the rubble seems like the best and safest idea." I say "summoning a demon is just stupid."

"That's what Cam said."

"So it's settled then."Kain says with a clap of his hands "we'll go explore at sun down." But first there's a shipment of jewel we need to hijack."

Well that was sudden "How much time do we have?"

Kain glances at his watch "ugh… twenty to thirty minutes to get there give or take a few."

"Where we hijacking it at?" I ask

"Magnolia."

I feel as if I've been dosed in ice magnolia! Shit. I'm not ready to face that yet. Yeah sure we were going to magnolia to check out the ruins from the cube but that was under different circumstances, it would've been at nighttime and there would be less of a chance of running into fairy tail, but now the odds of seeing them have skyrocketed, a shipment of that much jewel won't be traveling unguarded and fairy tail seems like the best option for guarding it. Fuck!

Scythe stares aat me as the different emotions crossover my face I don't know what he must see because I see his melt with sympathy "you can sit this one out if you want Lucy, I know it'll be hard for you to see them."

In an instant I have him pinned against the wall my hand on his throat "what did you just say?!" I ask with venom

Sythe raises his hands in the universal sign for I surrender "sorry Lucy I meant no harm by it. Promise." He says with a shaky voice

"You may not have meant harm but you sure caused harm. I don't need your sympathy nor do I want it understand me sympathy is for the weak! I am not weak and I sure as hell will not be sitting this mission out! Understand me!" I say with venom laced in my voice

Scythe nods his head and I let him go, he slumps to the floor out of breath I don't plan on sticking around here to deal with the different looks from all of the boys "Be ready in five!" I snap as i storm out of the room and they all jump into action.