Another day, another chapter, this one may be shorter than the others but it was one that sets the bar of the story, like the character development chapter almost... or something like that

Anyway

Enjoy!

~MajorChemistry~

Chapter 11: Comatose

Within the next couple of days I was out of the hospital and back to my feet... Well sort of. It still hurt to move and my face still looked like an eggplant, but I was still alive, that's all that mattered. I woke up one morning in Carlos' bed, my body still aching to the point of me not wanting to get out of bed, but I did anyway. I noticed Carlos was gone, but there was noise in the kitchen, so that's where I limped off to. Carlos was pouring a cup of coffee when I came in, "Morning." I said,

"Actually, it's almost noon." He smiled, handing me the mug of hot liquid,

"This medication has my sleep schedule all fucked up, why'd you let me sleep so late?" He shrugged,

"You needed the rest."

"Carlos, I've had nothing but rest for the last three days."

"Sorry."

I rubbed the sleep from my eyes, "What did you want to do today?" he shrugged, "Well..." I sat my coffee on the counter, "We can go to the mall. I need new clothes for school considering it starts next week."

"That's fine, we can do that."

"And get some dinner afterwards?"

"Sure, are you sure you can walk that much?"

"Carlos, I can't be cooped up indoors forever, I need to get out of the house or I'll go crazy."

"Or we could stay home and go crazy together." He smirked,

"That's not gonna happen." I patted his shoulder,

"I'm gonna go get ready." I said, heading to the bathroom.

Never in my life would I think that I would hate walking. My ankle was killing me and my torso still hurt, I just wanted to go back home and go to bed, maybe being a homebody was better than going out. I hid the pain from Carlos because I knew he was checking on me, "So, what am I supposed to do when you're at school?" He asked,

"I don't know." I shrugged, "Wait till I get home I suppose, I don't have any after school activities since the doctor said I couldn't do anything with my dance team... Which sucks." I missed my friends from school, especially the dance team, Rachel and I hadn't spoken in weeks. We both were doing our own things I suppose, and it didn't help I wasn't showing up to practice even before the incident, I had a lot on my plate.

Carlos made a face, "Maybe you shouldn't be blowing off your friends." "Carlos, they have all have phones too, if they wanted to talk to me they would have messaged me... Or even bothered to see me when I was in the hospital."

"I don't think they knew you were there. Do they even know about me?"

"Of course they do, when you came and picked me up the one day I told them you were my boyfriend. What about you? What about your friends?"

"What about them?"

"Do you talk to them?" He stopped for a second and didn't answer me. After a minute he finally spoke, "You wanna get some lunch?"

"Yeah, I'm hungry." I said, agreeing to let the subject drop.

Carlos dropped me off later in the afternoon, "Thanks for going shopping with me." I smiled at him,

"No problem." He smiled back, "Let me help you with your stuff." He got out of the car.

We lugged the shopping bags up to my room, "Thanks." I said, setting down the last bag,

"No problem."

"You sure you want to go? You can stay for a bit."

"Don't you think we spend too much time together?"

"No, there's no such thing." I smirked.

He grabbed my hands, "It's okay to spend time with your family, they're important in your life too." The last thing I wanted was for my mom to be smothering me all night, but I did miss seeing her.

I sighed, "Fine, I'll talk to you tomorrow?"

"Yeah, we can see if we can find out something about this shipment."

"You know, normal people go see a movie for a date."

"Being normal is boring." I kissed him, "I love you."

"I love you too."

I escorted him down to the front door, "See you tomorrow?" I said,

"You know it, I can't keep my favorite girl waiting."

I kissed him again, "Love you." I said one last time,

"Love you too." He smiled and went to his car. I stood in the doorway and watched as his car disappeared down the road.

With a sigh I turned to go back inside but froze when I heard a noise coming from the backyard, it was a lawnmower, someone was mowing our yard. I went inside and limped to the back patio door, my mom was sitting at the table and I noticed someone out on the lawn mower, "Mom, who's mowing the lawn?" I asked as I walked out the door,

"Troy offered to do it since you can't."

"Mom!" I groaned and did a facepalm,

"Don't start this shit with me Sara Rose."

"Seriously, are you and him a thing? What the hell does he want?"

"He wants to help us Sara, you and your brother are out causing trouble and he's trying to help so that your ass stays out of juvy."

Troy pulled up to the patio and turned off the mower, "How's it look?" He asked my mom,

"It looks good, thanks Troy."

"I'm just happy to help Lyn. How are you feeling Sara?"

"Getting better each day. Thanks."

"Don't worry, the bastard that did this to you will be caught." He gave me a look like he knew Boss was going to take care of Maero... Or maybe he expected Stillwater's finest to get him.

I just nodded, "Yeah, I hope so." I followed behind them as they went inside.

The next day was dreary, like it wanted to rain but it was holding back for some reason. I looked out of my bedroom window as I tried getting a hold of Carlos, "Hey this is Carlos, leave a message."

I sighed at the voicemail, "Hey babe, just checking to see if you were still up for today, call me back, I love you." I hung up and patted my fingertips on the window sill, "What to do, what to do?" I said to myself and looked around my mess of a room, "Cleaning it is then." I started picking up clothes. Hours had passed, and I waited, for a call, or a text, anything from Carlos. It wasn't like him not to answer me, usually I never got his voicemail he would answer right away, but not today. I looked at my phone again, nothing, Don't worry Sara. I told myself, Him and Boss are probably taking care of Brotherhood stuff. Yeah, that was it, he was too busy with gang stuff at the current moment.

Another hour had passed, I called again, "Hey this is Carlos, leave a message." The voicemail said, "It's me again, hope you're okay, just please leave me a message or call, or something... I'm just worried is all... Still love you though, I'll always love you." I hung up the phone. One more hour had passed and I had just finished cleaning up my room when somebody knocked on my door. I opened the door, Johnny was standing there, but something about him was different, he seemed, upset, "Johnny, are you okay?"

"Yeah I..." He trailed off for a second, as if to gather his thoughts. He looked back at me, "It's Carlos... Something happened..."

"What do you mean something happened? Is he okay?" I could feel the panic growing inside of me, "Johnny, what happened?!"

"The Brotherhood... He's gone Sara..."

"No! You're lying! This isn't funny Johnny!"

"I'm not lying to you Sara, I would never joke about something like this, you know I wouldn't."

I turned away from him, "Get out..." I mustered, "GET OUT!" I yelled at him,

"Fine, but he left this for you." He was holding something in his hands. It was small and purple, I noticed then that it was Carlos' beanie.

I took it from Johnny, it was slightly torn in some spots, but on the inside was a folded up piece of paper, I unfolded it, Sara, it read, I hope this note gets to you, Jessica was at least nice enough to let me write you something before they had their way with me. You were right, I shouldn't have let my guard down. My time here will be done by the time you read this, but you've got to finish what we've started, don't give up on the Saints yet, none of this was their fault, and it wasn't yours either. You are the strongest woman I've ever met, the way you took people out was amazing! You are amazing, and I don't want you doing anything irrational, don't hurt yourself, your family still needs you, I still need you. For as long as you're around I hope you remember all of the good times we had, remember me as I was. Keep fighting this fight, and do what's right, know that I'll always be with you. I love you Sara Rose Ashmond, and I'll be waiting for you. Carlos.

The pain in my body increased, I could feel everything aching, especially in my chest. After that it was all a blur, I remember Johnny catching me as I fell to my knees and cried, it was like I was losing my dad all over again, only this time, it was 100 times worse, and Johnny knew it.

Boss managed to contact Carlos' brother and helped organize the funeral, "So you were his girlfriend?" I remember his brother saying, "Yeah..." I muttered, not saying much of anything anymore. The funeral had come and gone and I collected some stuff from his apartment, stuff that was mine, and stuff that I decided to take like some of our pictures and some of his clothes and belongings, I knew it was weird, but I couldn't help think that maybe I needed it for closure. The last of the stuff was taken out of the apartment and I turned around and took one last look at what used to be my home away from home before closing the door behind me forever.

Days had passed without him, surely school had long since started, but I didn't go, I wasn't emotionally ready yet. Since his funeral I just laid in my bed and stared at the ceiling, people had come and gone, and I saw them, but didn't listen to what they said. I wanted to see him again, to feel him wrapped his arms around me when he would hug me, to give him a kiss just one more time, but I couldn't have any of that, not anymore.

I spent days laying in bed as if I was in a comatose state... Which I wished I was, then I wouldn't feel this pain any longer. How was this not anyone's fault? Boss should have been there to help him, I should have been there to help him. I could have stopped Maero and Carlos would still be here with me... Maero... Suddenly I felt it, the anger that I have pushed back for so long was finally coming out, I wanted to spill blood, I wanted them to feel my pain, I wanted revenge.

I was going to finish what Carlos started, Maero was going to pay for what he did to the man I loved. The perfect place to start was with the shipment, someone somewhere in the Brotherhood had to know something about the shipment, I knew who I had to find, and I was going to find him even if I had to kill every mother fucker in my way, that was the plan. I finally got out of bed and changed my clothes, pulling on a hoodie and some shorts, a new Sara was coming, and the whole city was about to meet her.