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Welcome back to another chapter. Sorry for the delay, I recently moved homes and it's been a hassle just to get organized. I'm going to post what I was able to edit today and I'll update again in two weeks. Hopefully now I can get back on schedule.

What She Didn't Know

Chapter 16

Monday morning came quickly for Loan after spending a fun weekend with her siblings. When she awoke that morning, she was surprised to find the house so empty. But she quickly remembered that her younger siblings still had school to attend to. After showering and eating breakfast, Loan went to find her mother and father only to find them in his study in the middle..of..something...and that something was her Aunt Lisa and Aunt Darcy.

"This is why you should always knock, my child." Lucy had said several hours later when the adults had come downstairs. "You never know when you might catch us in the throes of passion."

But Loan just groaned as she let her face fall to the table. "Mom, please don't talk about your sex life anymore...I beg you." She pleaded.

Lisa, who was wearing her father's orange polo and a pair of green panties and a towel around her shoulders, laughed. "I take it then that you no longer wish to hear about our past?"

This made Loan's head shoot up. "I still want to know about that!" She said quickly. "I just don't want to hear about her having sex now."

"Oh?" Darcy chirped, a smile on her lips. "So you want to hear about her sex life when she was 8?"

Loan felt her face heat up, her eyes grew big, and her lip began to tremble. She turned towards her father and cried. "Daddy, they're picking on me!"

Lincoln walked up to his daughter and placed a calming hand on her head. "Hey now, don't bully my baby girl."

The adults shared a laugh before they all gathered around the table. They all had a cup of coffee in front of them and Lucy had a plate of scones in the middle of the table. They all looked at one another before they all turned towards Loan.

"Are you sure that you want to keep going?" Lincoln asked her. While he wanted to stop, wanted to forget it ever happened and keep living the life that he managed to rebuild with the help of his sisters and friends, Lincoln would keep going if Loan wished for it. He could never refuse her or rather, he wouldn't because he knew that she deserved to know the truth.

Loan nodded. "Yea, dad, I do. I...feel like I need to know, you know?"

Lincoln sighed. "I do, baby girl, I do..."

"I do have one question though..." Loan said as she turned towards her Aunt Darcy. "When did you get involved in all this?"

Darcy placed a finger on her chin as she looked up towards the ceiling. "That's a good question, Loan...when did I get involved in this..."

"Probably when I tricked you into sucking Lincoln's dick..." Lisa muttered into her cup. She looked down ashamed into the dark depths of her coffee. "But that won't happen for some time yet..." Lisa set the cup down without drinking. "We last left off in the middle of my torture of Luan."

Loan just reached for her parents' hands as she prepared to listen to her aunt's tale.

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"As you may recall, Luan was just starting to feel the effects of the drugs I gave her. She had started to scream and convulse and thrash about in her cell." Lisa stated. She took a drink of her coffee before continuing. "Yet, that had only been the beginning. I had studied a sample of a chemical mixture designed by a Dr. Crayne from further east, a mixture that was designed to show the user their worst fears. I improved on it and added it to the drugs that I administered to Luan."

"Holy shit..." Loan breathed out.

"Indeed, Niece." Lisa nodded. "Indeed."

Luan couldn't scream anymore, her throat had gone hoarse and each time that she tried, she was wracked with coughs that made her throat feel even worse. Her whole body was on fire, her very blood was boiling and her skin bubbling on the surface. She felt tears of blood seeping from her eyes and she could taste blood in her mouth.

She tried to move her arms but they were being weighed down by the very air, her whole body was being pushed down by the air. It was stifling her, the lungs in her chest could barely suck in enough oxygen to keep her alive. Each shallow breath felt like she was inhaling razor blades that sliced up and tore open her throat and lungs yet she still needed to breathe.

With each agonizing breath, Luan could feel literal lightning shoot throughout her body, her legs spasming and cramping all at once. Her fingers contorting painfully until almost breaking before they twisted in another direction. Her heart, which was beating so fast and so loudly in her ears, was beating against her chest so hard that she felt it crack her ribcage.

Luan was certain that her heart would give out at any moment and then she would finally be free from the hell that her sister had placed her in. But to her horror, her heart kept on beating for what felt like hours, days even. She twisted as she writhed from the drugs that Lisa had given her. Her eyes saw things that couldn't possibly be real, and she continued to taste blood in her mouth.

And somewhere in the hellish white void that she lay in, Luan heard her sister's voice say that she still had 47hrs and 30 minutes left.

"Did time really move that slowly for her?" Loan asked, feeling both impressed with her aunt's genius and a little scared.

Lisa shrugged. "I cannot say whether it did or did not for I have never tried the cocktail of drugs I administered to Luan. But I would not be surprised if it did make it seem to her that time was moving slowly."

"What happened next?" Loan asked.

"Luan lost her mind." Lisa stated simply.

Luan cackled madly, her hands grasping the sides of her face, her fingernails digging into her skin. Her eyes were wide and her pupils were dilated and blood ran down her face. Her voice rang throughout the cell, surrounding her with her own crazed laughter. Liquid fire was coursing throughout her entire body, nails were embedded into each of her fingers and her toes had been melted together. Her bones were cracked and fractured and a stiff wind would bend her in two. But Luan didn't care, she couldn't care, not when everything was so funny!

The pain tickled her funny bone, making her cackle with maniacal glee. With each bolt of lightning that shot from her brain to the tips of her toes, Luan giggled. As the sledgehammer pounded in her head, Luan chortled. And as the tears of blood fell from her eyes and pooled onto the floor, Luan laughed. And laughed and laughed and laughed until she needed to breath in the razor blades in order to keep on laughing.

"I hate this next part..." Lincoln muttered as he cupped his face for a moment.

"W-What do you mean, dad? What happened next?" Loan asked him before she turned towards her aunt.

"When Luan lost her mind, she also lost any sense of self..." Lisa said after a moment. "She went insane..."

For hours Luan howled with laughter and maniacal sobs as she suffered under the effects of the drugs. She scratched at her skin, attempting to put out the fires in her veins but she couldn't scratch hard enough since she had already lost her fingernails some time ago. She banged her head against the floor and punched herself wherever she could reach. The pain was both unbearable but also pleasurable. She felt joy when she hurt, she felt alive when she hurt. And right now she wanted to feel even more alive. She wanted to climb the mountain of pain and mount it like a cowgirl until she reached satisfaction.

But try as she might, she could never inflict enough pain onto herself to match what the drugs were doing to her. She couldn't reach her limits, couldn't push herself over the edge in order to experience the bliss of pain nigh unimaginable. And as she shrieked, Luan threw herself against the doors to her cell and tried to break free. If she couldn't reach satisfaction on her own then she needed to get Lincoln. He would surely be able to push her over the edge in order to finally reach the climax that she so desperately desired.

"Was she really bleeding?" Loan asked, now clutching onto her mother's side. Lincoln had gone into the kitchen for another cup of coffee.

"A bit..." Lisa nodded. "But most of it was all in her head. She was seeing things that weren't actually there. After the first 15 minutes, I sent my loudbots into the cell and had them restrain Luan. She was placed in the center of the cell hung by her wrists and tied down by her ankles in order to prevent further injury to herself."

"So she just imagined all of it?" Loan asked in disbelief.

"Yes."

Lisa watched through the monitors in the floor above the cell in her bunker. She could see Luan attempting to rub her thighs together as she sobbed hysterically. She has been restrained with her limbs stretched far apart in order to prevent further self harm. And after 36 hours, Luan was no longer able to speak it seemed. She wailed, whimpered, and snarled as time went on since she couldn't get her way. She was feeling a rising pressure in her loins, Lisa surmised based on what she had given her, and she couldn't reach sexual gratifaction without a partner. Lisa made sure that she couldn't achieve an orgasm without Lincoln's assistance. And at the moment, Luan had been driven insane by the need to satisfy a need that couldn't be satisfied on her own.

Only twelve hours to go, Lisa thought grimly as she continued to watch. Despite her passive expression, Lisa hated what she had been forced to do. She hated herself even more but she knew that she had no choice in the matter or a worse fate would befall their family. One that Lisa shuddered at the mere thought of.

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"Wait, I thought you said that you were a total badass that could do anything?" Loan asked her aunt after she listened to the last part. "Why were you scared about the government finding out about your work?"

Lisa smiled fondly at her niece. "You know, I was just a child when this happened. At age four, I didn't possess the wisdom that I now do. It never occurred to me that I could have done something different. All I knew was that I feared for my family's safety and that my brother...that Lincoln had already fallen to Lori's madness. If he couldn't stop her then what chance did I have?"

Lincoln leaned over and kissed Lisa's forehead before he brought her in for a hug. "You have to remember, Loan, that Lisa might've been a genius but she couldn't think of everything. And when someone has you by the balls, you tend to not think rationally." Lincoln explained.

"Also, while your aunt could have taken over the world at age four, she still lacked the experience to do so. It wasn't until she was older that her clone tried to take over the world." Lucy added.

"H-How old were you when this happened?" Loan dared to ask. She wasn't sure she wanted to know but she felt compelled to ask anyway. She wanted to know how old her father had been when he was forced to take a life.

"14." Lisa stated simply.

Loan gasped even as she turned towards her after. "Y-You killed her when you were 21?"

Lincoln nodded but he didn't say a word. His eyes were misty, almost like a storm of emotions were raging behind them. For a moment he wasn't there with her, he was ten years in the past. In some faraway place that she couldn't reach him and that frightened her. Loan placed a hand on her father's chest and looked up at him.

"D-Dad?" She called out to him.

Lincoln didn't respond and that scared her even more.

"D-Daddy? Can you hear me?" She asked.

Lisa and Lucy shared a knowing look, one that was missed by Loan. They knew that Lincoln still couldn't forgive himself for what he had done to Lisa's clone. Clone or not, she had still loved him and Lincoln had used that love against her. He wouldn't speak of what he did to get the job done, not even to them. But Lucy and Lisa had their suspicions that the act had almost broken Lincoln all over again. Yet as they continued to watch on in silence, they smiled sadly. The scene before them was reminiscent of one from almost ten years in the past. One where a young Loan was calling out to her father who had just returned home after being away for a few months.

And just like back then, Lincoln heard the sound of Loan's voice calling him and he looked down at her and smiled. "Hey baby girl...are you okay?" He asked.

Loan sniffed before she wrapped her father up in a hug. "I am now." She told him as she buried her face in his chest. "I am now."

End of chapter.