N.A: Moshi Moshi everyone! I hope that you all be fine! ;)
Sorry for all the mistakes in language, if you see something, just tell me and I can correct. Thank You! :3
Don't forget that "Authors are moved by reviews" and thank you all guys that follow or favorite the story, and a very special thanks to those who review, you really gave me force to continue! Love you! – This was what Pherenike always says to start the chapters, but then she realized that there is no one reading anymore…
Pherenike starts to get out of behind the curtains and see no one… - Okay, I know that have been a looooooong time ago, but I am really sorry! - *Starts to hear something* - Great! You guys are back :D…
Furious Crowd: Hey, there she is! Come on guys, take the forks and torches, let's teach her that a week is not a year muahahaha!
Pherenike: No! I'm sorry, please! Not in the face! Not in the face! * Starts to run and escape to the mountain*
Okay, now serious guys, I'm really sorry for all this time, not a week or a month, it has been a whole year and this really bothers me. A lot! But this year was the worst year in my life…
About seven years ago, my high school best friends fall in love, abandoning the other people in our group and making me specifically suffer as hell, since I consider them as my family and we went into a serious fight, with both sides talking things that shouldn't be said for no one.
I know, this was a stupidity of immature teenagers, but when we are hurt, it doesn't matter if what you are feeling makes sense, what really matters is that who hurt you don't care enough with your feelings at that moment and this is what hurts the most… And man, this couple hurt me for a lifetime, I didn't want to trust in anyone anymore, I just want to run away from everyone who I loved to never feeling someone abandoning me ever again… After that, I even tried to talk to them every now and then, they never answered me and I never tried harder as well, "Because my pride is important too, can't be just me going after other people always!" – I said to myself…
The time passed, and I knew that "The show must go on", and it was what I did with my life, I never had so many friends again and started to choose very well who I let enter in my life, and that was good to me in some ways… I became more mature, for example (That is what I like to think, at least). And then, last year, I received a call from one of our common friends that were still in contact with them and me "Hey Pherenike… I have some bad news… Please, sit somewhere…''
And this conversation just turn my world upside down, he had terminal cancer… Two weeks later, I was burying him and comforting a 23 years old widow, my other friends and myself (but hey, I still have my pride right?! I never felt so ridiculous and ashamed of myself…) The problem with the family, like he was for me, is that even when we are hurt, furious and don't talk to them for years, in the end, they are still family and all the love and memories are still with me, and always will be…
And after this traumatic time in the hospital and all the history of my childhood, I think you guys can see why I couldn't continue with a story where a person is close to losing someone that he loved because of a stupid fight, or read about nurses and doctors trying to save a life… Writing about Naoki's feelings hurt me very much, and I just stopped to try to continue this because was just making me cry all the time… And yeah, I'm sorry for all the time, but I needed this year to back to this history with all my heart, because worse than back after all this time, would be if I just translate this in any way, just to finish.
I'm sorry for writing all that, but as I said some time ago, I like to write here because it is like a therapy: no one knows me in person (although it is just like I know all you guys S2), and this gives me a freedom to talk whatever I want about my feelings, with no judgment and for me, this is the best thing since the chocolate .
So, for who read all that, thank you very much! You guys are too kind to take this time to read about my feelings . I'm fine now and I will really try to end this fic until the end of the next month (after all, it is like more 20-30 pages in 4 chapters).
And after all, I really hope that you guys like it!
Chapter 9
"She really was talking about abandon you, but in the mean of die, you big idiot!" – The words of his friend (That is, if Nishigaki still considers he this way), repeated over and over in his head... How could he be so blind? So stupid? If she dies... No! He couldn't think of that hypothesis, he wasn't ready for it...
- Naoki? I'm sorry honey but I saw Kotoko-chan and your brother running out of the house... Please, tell me what is happening?
- I tell you in the car, mom. Come on, be ready that we are going to the hospital at 10 minutes... – Said Naoki, getting out of the blank that he was for what? Five minutes? Ten minutes? He didn't know... All that he could think was that Kotoko had to survive or his own existence didn't have sense anymore...
- Hospital? Why will we go to the hospital? – Answer Noriko, alarmed.
- I explain to you in the car Mom... – He rose up and gone
to his daughter's room, he chooses two changes of clothes and took some toys that he knew that she liked more. Noriko accompanied him closely, watching his movements... – And you are taking these things for what? You are not planning to go with Kotomi too, are you?
- Mom, I tell you everything in the car, now take what you need to go... "God, would she never listen?"
-But Naoki, I...
- Mom, now you have only more five minutes to be in that car or I'll go without you! – He cut her off looking at the clock.
- But son…
- Four minutes...
Seeing that his son was talking seriously, Noriko scoffed and ran to take her purse, while Naoki was already downstairs with the car keys on his hand, just to go back immediately to his room and take the picture that his wife had put back on the table, putting it in the pocket of the shirt that he was wearing, close to his heart...
- But I don't understand Keita, why she didn't tell us anything before?
- I agree with Marina, we are not her friends? – Said Motoki with a hurt voice.
- Girls, calm down! This doesn't make difference anymore! What we should decide now is who will accompany the surgery! Besides, she had her reasons to don't tell anything...
- Tomoko is right, girls... – Said the "only" man of the group – And she doesn't say anything before because she didn't have sure and didn't want the rumor of her illness to spread out and worry Dr. Irie and ourselves... And about who should participate in the surgery, I think that should be who has more experience in this kind of case, and that would be me.
-Not at all Keita! We should try luck because we all are prepared to accompany the surgery! – Answered Motoki.
- And I think that all of you will stay in the waiting room, like all people close to Ms. Irie.
-Head Nurse?! – Said in unison the four nurses.
-You all know very well that people close to the patient cannot participate in procedures like that, because they can panic and make wrong decisions!
- But head nurse, we are trained to be cold in emergency situations! We can help!
- Okay miss Marina, can you tell me which patient you should be seeing at this minute? No? One of you? – Watching the lack of answer, she just go on – As I said, if you are already nervous just knowing that she is in the ambulance to the point of not even notice that your turn is over and you don't have any more patients for today, how will you participate on a surgery where you will need to see her head been open? And what if we have complications? We'll need of immediate responses, not tears... – She sighed and seeing how everybody was shaken, go on – Look, I know that I am hard on you, but it's because I like you and I want you grown up... This situation is not easier for me than for you guys... Definitely, no one here will enter that operation room, but I think that you could be very useful giving support for her family, not just as nurses, but as friends above all...
-You are right head nurse, but if there is something else that we can help, please, tell us – Answer Keita, with a half smile.
And seeing that the others were already talking with each other about how to cheer up Kotoko's family and on top of all, Dr. Naoki, the head nurse go out to really reunite the team who would do the surgery...
Naoki already had turned on the car when his mother shows up at the garage, still breathing hard...
- Now can you explain to me what is going on? – Her tone irritated and worried at the same time.
- No, call Dad before and tell him to meet us at the hospital, then call Oji-san and tell him that we'll catch him at the restaurant in fifteen minutes 'cause Kotoko will have to do a emergency surgery and it is better that we all are in the hospital... And before you ask, as soon as everybody was together I'll explain...
Noriko just obey without more questions, she never had seen her son so serious and, considering Naoki's personality, this already means a lot... Besides, she didn't intend to start a fight in the velocity that he was driving, she wasn't so brave...
And then, after a stop by Kotomi's school (that was sleeping due the hour, by luck) and at Shigeo's restaurant, Naoki explain to both what was happening, making everything possible to not wake the little girl:
- She is passing through the same problem that her mother: multiple aneurysms, it is blood bubbles that are formed in the brain and if broke, as it seems to be the case, cause a stroke... Yuki is already with her at the ambulance and they should already be at the hospital by now... "I'm sorry for this half true, but my conscious definitely don't need help to yell at me that the woman I love will possibly die and it is all my fault..."
- This is not possible... – Said Shigeo, suddenly pale – The doctors said to me that didn't have a risk of this happen to her Naoki, that it wasn't hereditary...
- Oji-san, the medicine wasn't so advanced at that time, they didn't know...
- I should have forced that girl to go see a doctor yesterday, Yuki was right... But I thought that was just concern or with a little lucky, another grandchild, but this...
- I didn't know that she was sick, when that happened?
-Yesterday at night, we didn't know where you were and she was even organizing everything for we go after you already when Chris called... After that, she couldn't even up the stairs, Yuki had to practically carry her... You know, she even tries to pretend that was no big deal before Chris call, for we let she go to search you with us, but it was clear that she wasn't feeling well...
The silence was total in the car, Naoki pressed the steering wheel with such force that the knot of his fingers was white... At no point of the conversation he had the courage to look for his father-in-law, because now he knew by his own experience what Shigeo had to go through all those years ago and just imagining going through this with Kotomi already terrified him like any other thing in the world could... There are some things that people can only understand after became parents or husbands and wives: The truly fear of losing someone, and know that he was responsible for his father-in-law have to face this kind of hell for the second time in his life just worsened his own private hell...
He stops the car on the first parking stop that could find and opened the trunk to take Kotomi's things when he heard the tone of his phone: it was a message from Yuki...
"We are in the hospital, she already gone to be "prepared for the surgery", was the term that they used. I'm in the waiting room of the section C-13 with her noisy friends, they said that the surgery will be around here. She was very pale, come fast!"
He felt his heart skip some beats reading the last sentence – I received a message from Yuki, Kotoko is already going to the surgery... Come with me, I know where he is...
They follow all the way still in silence, each one lost in they own thoughts... Shigeo brings Kotomi, that was still sleeping, in his arms while Naoki brings the girl's toys and his mother brings just her purse. They walked for some corridors until finally arrived at the waiting room C-13.
It was a small room that supply just one surgery center with two operating rooms, as Naoki known so well. The walls were painted with a pale green in the half-inferior and white at the superior. In the front of the room had a small reception where a young nurse attended, but even trying hard he couldn't remember her name... It was something like Kazuki or Kazumi, if he were sincere with himself, it could even be something totally different like Sayuri, the truth is that he didn't have any idea of her name and at that moment he didn't care either...
At the other side of the room had two plants (one at each corner) and a couch for three people at each wall, where Yuki and Keita was, sitting in silence on the couch of right while Marina, Motoki e Tomoko was on the couch of left, talking about how would be the procedure that her friend would go through... It had a little table of glass with magazines on it at the center of the room, near the three couches, where Naoki put his daughter's things and without speaking a word to anybody, entered at the room "1" since he knew that Nishigaki used to ask it for operations like that...
- Where is she? How is she?
Nishigaki was doing the pre-surgery cleaning and didn't bother to look for the young doctor in any moment and, although his voice clearly carry a lot of angry, he answered with the more professional tone that he could – She is being prepared for the surgery so, please, stay at the waiting room like the relative of any other patient Naoki.
- I want to participate in the surgery Jiro...
-Pff! And I want to be Queen Elizabeth! That's not going to happen Naoki, forget it.
- She is not "any patient" and you know that! I need to be in that room!
-You needed to be in my office this morning...
-Damn it Jiro, please let me be with her, even if I don't participate in the surgery, let me just stay in the room...
- What the hell Naoki – Yell the other doctor, finally facing the young man – Don't "Jiro, please" me now! An affair? You thought that I was having an affair with her? Really? You, of all people in this place, are the only one from who I would never expect that! The only one that didn't have the right to think that! You saw the crap that was my life in the last few years, you really think that I would betray our friendship and, on top of all, my wife, after all we go through?! And what about Kotoko?! The woman is crazy for you since forever and I accompanied almost everything that she suffers in your hands, and you still think that she would throw out all that you two build together to have an affair with me? This doesn't even make any sense, you idiot!
- I know that! I know that I was a ridiculous, prideful jerk, okay? - Yell back Naoki, then he sighed and with a more calm voice, continued – I didn't would be surprised if she won't want even look to me when she wakes, because it is just a matter of time Jiro, she will be fine, she has to be fine... So please, let me be in the room okay?! It has cameras in there and everyone will see that I'm not participating in the surgery... I can stay in a chair at the corner, okay? I just want to be the closest to her that I can at this moment... Please, Jiro...
Nishigaki took a deep breath, trying to regain his calm too – Listen Naoki, as the surgery would be tomorrow, I asked to Dr. Takemura change the shift with me and this way he would do the surgery, but as the aneurysm break we need to do it today, but even if we could warn him, he would never get here in time... It was because of this that I didn't think twice before telling your brother to bring her here that I would make the surgery myself... But you know very well that the Ethics Committee it is on my tail and operate a person so close to me as Kotoko probably will end up my career once and for all! And if you were in that room it will end up yours too! I know that I will never regret this decision, especially because it is of Kotoko's life that we are talking about here, but you still have a big path to walk in your career and condemn it just due a feeling of guilt isn't a wise decision...
- Career?! Jiro, at this moment I don't care a bit about my career! If the Committee forbids me to practice medicine, I will go work with my father at Pandai, with my father-in-law at his restaurant or at any somewhere else, whatsoever... If she were alive and I had a chance to make she forgive me, nothing else matters... And if something happens to her, my life will be already over anyway... I'll be here for Kotomi a few more years, but when she is able to make her own decisions, my existence won't have sense anymore without Kotoko around...
-I'm sorry Naoki but as your former teacher, your boss and, even that all I want right now is to kick your ass, your friend, I can't let you do this...
-Don't say that Jiro, please... What if were your wife in there? If were Sakura won't you want to accompany the operation too?
Nishigaki scratch the back of his head and Naoki smiled: he knew that had won the discussion because his friend always did that before agreeing on any difficult issue...
- You are such a pain in the ass, did you know that Naoki? Tell your family, get ready and enter the room, I will start with you inside or not, so it is better you be fast!
- Thanks Jiro, that means a lot to me...
-Yeah, okay Naoki, but let me make some things clear: A) I'm still mad at you! B) You won't even think about the possibility of stay close to the operation table and C) If something goes wrong, you will get out of there immediately or I will call someone to do that by strength, did you understand? This operation already is very difficult without a hysteric husband beside me putting still more pressure on me... Was I clear?
- Like crystal, Jiro...
-Dr. Nishigaki? – It was the nurse that was at the reception, Naoki recognized – Head-nurse ask me to tell you that the patient is ready and the team is already in the room...
-Thank you Riza, I'm going! – Accompanied the woman until the door and, without turning, said – Naoki, I'll do everything in my hands to save her, I just hope don't disappoint both of us... – And then leave before Naoki could answer anything.
He took a deep breath, and send a message to his brother with the phone: " I get that they let me accompany the surgery, that should take around four hours... The procedure is simple, but her condition is fragile. Thanks for taking care of her like I should have to, you save her life! As soon as I have news I let you know." - He stared the phone until the confirmation of the send message was exhibited, not even in a million of years he would let himself to make the same mistake twice.
Quickly and carefully, he made all the procedures of the preparation pre-surgery and enter in the small room, where the group of doctors and nurses already was around his wife's unmoved body, monitoring vital signs and helping Nishigaki to make the first cuts with the scalpel.
He sit down on a chair that was in the corner of the room from where it was possible to have a side vision for the sketcher, crossed his arms above the chest and look to the little digital stopwatch that was on the wall in the opposite side of the room, marking that already have passed forty minutes since the beginning of the operation... The rhythmic sound from the monitor that indicates Kotoko's cardiac frequency fill the room and calms him down a little... "Everything is going to be okay... She will be fine!"
The damn stopwatch marked two hours and a half since the beginning of the surgery now and, for Naoki, it seems that nothing was happening... He watched everything and everyone, while continued repeating his mental mantra without even realize "She will be fine... She will be fine..." The fact that nobody expressed any reaction for nothing showed how much everyone was focused in their tasks and, although everything seems to go normally, his experience tells that the fact of everything seems fine, hardly means that was really fine, and the lack of clues about what was really happening was driving him crazy... As if an answer to his thoughts, the "bips" that marked the before rhythmic cardiac frequency of Kotoko started to increase quickly and meaningfully, making Naoki stand up and whisper a "No, please...", his own heart beating so fast as if it would get out through his mouth...
- Prepare 200mg of lidocaine, but don't administer yet. Naoki, you have five seconds to sit down or you will leave the room! – Said Nishigaki, without stop looking to the procedure that he was making on Kotoko's brain... "Finally, I found this damn aneurysm! Come on honey, you can do it..." he thought while keeping away the instruments and watched the monitor…
-Lidocaine is ready!
- Don't administer, she will stabilize... – The beatings were faster at each moment, even after Nishigaki took a step back...
- The blood pressure is increasing, Doc, we need to administer now!
-Wait for just a little more, if we apply this now, we can have trouble later... She will pass through this, I know she will!
And as if hearing the faith that her friend had in her, Kotoko's heart start to slow down, getting some sights of relieving and some "Thank God" of the presents...
"Damn it Kotoko, don't do that to me..." Just now Naoki released the breath that he didn' even realized that was holding, throwing himself in his chair again, he rubbed the face with his hands to ease the tension...
Naoki looked to his former professor, the man really was a brilliant surgeon and even a more amazing human been... He knew that it wasn't easy to operate someone closer by the experience that he had with an old college's colleague, Matsumoto Yuko... It was his first surgical intervention, when he was just an intern and, even that he didn't have seen her on a long time, the pressure he had felt to know that was a friend's life in his hands had been terrible... The surgery was simple and goes without any problems, either way, he clearly remembers how much he had been nervous and how he had been rude with the team, practically shouting orders for all people... He knew that everyone had forgiven the treatment that they had received due the fact that he was so young and, especially, because at the same time that he was making the surgery, Kotoko was giving birth to their daughter and even that she had agreed, he always felt guilty for not had been with her at that moment, he had promised after all... But this doesn't matter anymore, the truth is that he wasn't good with people and for a long time he didn't understand why his operations was well succeeded but everyone hated work with him... Until Nishigaki callled him to watch one of his own surgeries: He was always calm and serene, his voice had a kind command tone, that doesn't let any space for speculations and questions but wasn't gross or rude: it was the voice of someone experient that knew that the life of another person depended on his and his team's agility, and he make that clear for everyone. It doesn't matter the complexity of the surgery, he never loses his calm and always passed confidence and optimism to everyone, that worked in a quick and easy way... Besides that, different of many doctors that he saw, as responsible for the surgery he always assumed the mistakes alone and shared the success with the team in front of the hospital's directory, always protecting that ones close to him...
He had sure that for all this loyalty and for the special connection that Nishigaki had with Kotoko, though Naoki didn't understand or liked this so suddenly friendship, he knew that should be hard to he do a so delicate surgery, and even so he acted as always: calm and controlled. Romajiro Nishigaki was, for sure, the best surgeon that he knew, including himself in this list.
The sound of the monitor in that cadenced way again calm him down and the saying "Be careful with what you wish" came to his mind, he thinks that was great that all was calm now...
He looked his wife's calm and serene face, it wasn't the environment that they were he could even say that she was sleeping... Unfortunately, the fact that she was on a sketcher with people watching and messing with her brain all the time, make very difficult to assimilate this image as something positive to try calm himself... Just now he had noted that they had cut her beautiful hair... Of course that he knew that this would be necessary, but the fear and worry don't have let he thought this before. She would be so mad when woke up and Nishigaki would probably get some slaps – He smiled at this thought, almost could see Kotoko, always so happy and cheerful, hitting in a friendly and childish way on their friend's arm. It was really a shame that they had to cut it, he adored the strawberry smell that came from her hair due to the shampoo that she used... He loved sleep hugging her, inhaling that delicious perfume all night...
He started to remember everything that they had passed and smiled – When she had confessed the first time, with that letter full of mistakes... How she had cried for "ruin" his future on the day of the Tokyo's entrance exam... The first kiss at graduation and the second on the summer... That damn day when he decided to marry Chris for the benefit of the company and his father and how he felt when she hugged him and cried the tears that he doesn't drop for the dream that was abandoning... The worst and best day of his life, when he found out that she would marry with another man and when she "accept" to marry him, even after all what he had made she goes through... He thanked every day for she is so determined, after all, stay five years running after him it was the proof that she has to be very in love... But nothing had prepared him for the first time that she leave home... When Keita had asked her to be his girlfriend in front of all the college, he thought that he had lost her for good... He never would forget how desperate he was seeing her looking for her colleague, without an answer for all that awful things that he said, because everyone, including himself, knew that it was all true... The jealousy had blind him at such way that he doesn't realize how much was hurting her, that angry driving him crazy all the times that she said "Keita said this..." or "Keita make that...". If was another woman it would fall in love with the damn nurse... But no his Kotoko, his kind and passionate wife would never love another man... She would never abandon him, and it was because of this that he had sure... "She will be fine... She will be fine..."
"That's weird, no one of the aneurysms is broken... That's great and all, but why the hell she fainted? You know what, this really doesn't matter now! I will put the damn clips and we thought about it later... At least, her brain is totally preserved and she will live to bother me another day" – Nishigaki smiled to himself as he put the first clip...
- The first clip went okay guys! I'm starting the second... – He didn't have sure if he was talking to the team or just to calm his friend, that was so lost in toughts that probably didn't have even heard him, Naoki could be awful demonstrating his feelings, but it was undeniable that he loved her... – Second clip gone okay, too, I'm starting the last one... – "Everything is going to be fine, but this idiot will pay me a lunch for all this, besides to get me a job on that restaurant when this is over and I will be fired, of course... – The third clip was okay! Let's give some minutes to be sure that her body will not react and then... – Suddenly, the monitors started to whistle and show that Kotoko's vital signs were stopping...
-The blood pressure is decreasing, we are losing heartbeats, Doc...
- 100mg of epinephrine, now!
- Don't let her die Jiro, please! – Naoki it was already on his feet again, watching everything the closest as possible without disturb the team...
-Administering now! Heartbeats still falling...
- She can't die, please, don't let her die...
- Prepare the defibrillator... And someone takes Naoki away from here!
-What? No! Don't do this to me Jiro! Don't pull me out now... – Naoki yelled as one of the nurses was already forcing him out of the room...
- Doc, the heartbeats are still falling, she will not going to make it!
- More 100mg of epinephrine! Is the defibrillator ready?
- Yes, all clear!
- Jiro, let me help! – Naoki, that had set himself free, was beside the older doctor, that just ignore him...
- Put him out of here, now! – Nishigaki's voice, different from Naoki, was calm and confident, what doesn't express even close what passed in his soul...
Kotoko's monitor of cardiac frequency now emitted a shrill and continuous sound, chilling the souls of all the presents... Naoki, that already was at the door again, turned against the nurse that was taking him, but the man strikes back with full force, almost throwing him out of the room and locked the door.
Naoki didn't realize that was crying, didn't realize that was screaming... All that he knew it was that he had to go back to the room, he had to see that Kotoko's heart had back to beat and that was just another scare... It couldn't be another option...
"Kotoko... Kotoko..." – Calm down Naoki! You are scaring everyone! Hit the door and yell her name won't change anything! Trust in Doctor Nishigaki, the surgery didn't over yet so don't you dare lose the hope!
- Keita, it seems like someone is ripping my heart out... What will I do without her? Why her heart stop Keita?
- You don't have to think about it until the light on the room turn off and Dr. Nishigaki tell us that she didn't make it, until there, we can only trust him and her will for life…
His mother approached and tried to hug him, but Naoki rose up and just ran away, he ran as if this would stop the pain in his soul... He ran and ran until arriving at the hospital's roof... His legs didn't sustain him anymore and he falls on his knees. Then, for the second time in that day, the great genius Naoki Irie made something that he had never made before: joined his palms, closed his eyes and prayed for a miracle.
N.A:That was the ninth chapter, what you guys think?
OBS: Tough I really searched all the medical information here, I'm still not a doctor, I'm not even a health care professional, so if some amazing professional in this area comes to read this humble fanfic, please do not be upset about anything wrong written down here, consider it a "poetic license".
Rockxy: Thank you, good to know that I'm better than Google, I swear that I use a lot of spell checkers, and yet it has so many mistakes kkkkkkkk =/. But I think that it is the choice of words that make all the difference.
Aki no Ryu: OMG! Can't believe you are a health professional, this is amazing! Thanks for the creative liberties, I would be nothing without them kkkkkkkkkk
Rito Dey: Oh yeah! He is suffering a lot! I think I'm a little sadist about this, by the way, I like to make him suffer, poor guy kkkkkkkkk
EmmaAnna: Sorry about all this time, hope you like the update ;)
Tatistus: Eu super concordo com você, como sempre, nada é motivo pra tratar a pessoa que você ama tão mal... Thank you for reading, hope you like it!
Wi 1999: I'm sorry for the time and thank you so much for reading, hope you like it. I wish all the best for you too
Beyond The Scene: Sorry about all this time, I promise that the next update will be in this month yet! Hope you like the update ;)
Annjudith: Yeah, I love to explore Naoki's "human" side, he had to suffer to learn to feel… Although I think that I can be exaggerated this a little in this chapter, I still like it… And I hope you like of this and the next chapters, 'cause it will have more and more about his feelings
TheMetaBard: Hey you! Thanks so much for like the history! I like his personality in this history, a man confused but in love… I appreciate the beta-help if it is still on the table :D
TheBayMan: I swear that I'm very careful with the translate, each chapter in three different spell checkers, but so many mistakes yet kkkkkkkkkkk But thank you so much for your kind words :D I agree with you, he is full of himself and this caused a lot of the problems, but he is very sad and is finally seeing what it looks like to have his feelings hurt, hope it is not too late for him to learn his lesson.
Roshni: Hey you, thanks for reading and for like it. So sorry about all this time, and hope you will continue to read until the end, I was very touched by your review, I never thought that someone would like this fic like I myself in other histories, really waiting for the next chapters.
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Kisses and hugs (XOXO?) and until next chapter!
Sayonara o/