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Warning this chapter will have another flashback and it will pick up from chapter 2 at Casey and Fin's place. I promise those who are slightly confused about the baby this chapter will hopefully clear it up.
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Chapter 4: Revelation
Casey glanced over at Fin and Munch trying to figure out how to approach the subject. Letting out a breathe Casey turned towards the small group who were all staring at them. "Yes, Olivia was pregnant."
"So, what happened to the baby?" Amanda asked, "I know she wouldn't let Trevor gain full custody of her child, she'll die before she let that happen."
Casey nodded in agreement, "Yeah you're right about that." Casey paused looking towards Fin and Munch once again for help but neither seemed willing to help out. "Olivia and Trevor lost their child in death, less than three weeks before her due date." Casey said seeing the shock looks on their faces. "Yeah, it was a shock to us and them. In fact the day before she lost the baby we had just thrown her a surprise baby shower and Trevor sister, Veronica and Alex took Olivia for a full spa day before bringing her back to the house for the baby shower."
"A wonderful day turned into a tragic day." Munch whispered as he glanced up at the group as he related that day when everyone rushed to the hospital.
Flashback: November 5, 2010
Munch and Fin rushed into the hospital finding just about everyone standing and sitting in the waiting room. "What happened?" Fin asked as they approached the large group.
Elliot turned towards them, "Trevor said when they woke up this morning Olivia said something didn't feel right. He thought maybe it was from the long day yesterday and that she just needed to rest."
"We all thought that. But Olivia was beginning to worry and I told her as she starts to get close to her due date that she'll start to feel uncomfortable and stuff and that she'll just need to take it easy that day and she'll be fine." Evelyn Trevor's mother said. "But a couple of hours later she started to feel some cramping, thinking it was contractions I told her to just breath through it and time them." Evelyn shook her head as tears started to fall down her cheeks. "I should've let her listen to her gut and taken her to the hospital sooner but I just kept telling her that everything was fine."
"Evelyn this is not your fault, no one could have known that something was wrong." Alex said as she tried to comfort Evelyn as she took over in explaining what happened. "Olivia was still worrying about the baby so Trevor wanting to put her worries at ease decided to go ahead and bring her to the hospital. The doctor even thought that it wasn't nothing to worry about, that she was experiencing false labor pains but to put her worry to ease did an ultrasound so that she can see for herself that the baby was ok." Alex paused as she took a breath stilling her emotions. "When they did the ultrasound they couldn't find a heartbeat, the doctor tried to find one for ten minutes but the heartbeat wasn't there. That's when Olivia's OBGYN showed up and tried to find the heartbeat but even she couldn't and decided that the baby… had died." Alex choked out as she lost the battle and the tears started to stream down her face, her heart breaking for her friends.
"No," Fin could only say as he stood there in shock.
Munch moved towards Alex and pulled her into a hug. "What's the next step for them now?" Munch asked.
"They're giving them an option, either they can do a c-section or they can induce labor." Cragen answered
"It's basically picking your poison, either she'll have to go through excruciating pain now or have to go through a long painful recovery." Veronica said as her heart broke for her brother and sister in-law. No one should have to go through this, to experience the lost of a child, a child that they love and desperately wanted for years.
"That's messed up, she can't just get an epidural so that she can avoid the pain all together?" Fin asked
Before anyone could answer they saw Trevor walking through the corridors, everyone could plainly see that he had been crying and from the wet spot on his shirt that he held Olivia as she cried. Veronica walked over to her brother along with their mother Evelyn. No one really knew what to say to him, other than they were sorry for their lost but even that felt like it wouldn't help. It would have been even more worthless to ask him how he and Olivia were doing.
Evelyn pulled her son into a tight embrace as she watched more tears make their way down his face. "Trevor, I know this is hard for both you and Olivia, but just know that I'm here for you, that we are all here for you two." Evelyn pulled back using a thump to wipe away the tears from his face, "We're here you guys, anything we can do to help just let us know." Evelyn said with a sad smile.
"Mom's right Trevor, anything we can do for you or Olivia just let us know." Veronica said setting a comforting hand on his arm.
Trevor shook his head, "I don't know how to help her mom, I want to help Liv but I come up empty, the only thing I can think of is to just hold her as she cries." Trevor said looking at his mother, needing advice in how to help and comfort his wife.
"Oh honey, that's the best thing you can do is just hold her and let her know that you're there for her." Evelyn encourage, "Have you guys figured out what you'll going to do?" Evelyn asked wanting so bad to take the pain away from them.
Trevor nodded, "Yeah, we're going to induce labor, then she'll get an epidural to help with the pain." Trevor said
Evelyn nodded, "Why don't you go get some fresh air and coffee…"
"Mom I can't," Trevor said interrupting his mother. "I need to get back to Olivia I don't want to leave her alone to long."
Evelyn shook her head, "She won't I'll be there with her. You know I consider Liv as my daughter and I want to go and give her a hug and comfort her." Evelyn said as she started to walk away leaving no room for argument.
Elliot and Fin approach Trevor, "Come on man, let's go grab some coffee so that you'll have the energy to be there for Baby Girl during labor and delivery." Fin said as the three of them made their way towards the exit, as the rest of the group took a seat in the waiting room.
SVU
Evelyn said a little prayer as she made her way towards Olivia's room, asking God to give her children the strength to get through this tragic event that they were experiencing at the moment. Taking hold of the doorknob Evelyn took a deep breath as she turned the knob, walking into the room her heart broke even more as she watched her daughter in-law in bed tears streaming down her face whispering repeatedly how sorry she was that she let her son down. Moving towards her, Evelyn set a gentle hand on Olivia's shoulder gaining her attention. "Liv, sweetheart this isn't your fault." Evelyn pulled her into a warm embrace as she felt Olivia shake under her arms as she sobbed. "You did everything right Olivia, the doctors even told you that." Evelyn paused as tears started to cascade down her cheeks; she tried to gather her thoughts. "Babies… sometimes they just die for no reason, and sometimes that's the hard part, not having any answers. But I promise you Olivia that you'll get through this, with me, Trevor and everyone else's help, you'll get through this." Evelyn finished as she started to rock back and forth rubbing a hand up and down Olivia's back trying her best to soothe Olivia.
"I don't think I can do this, give birth to my son and then have to bury him. My heart is so shattered right now it can't be repaired and even if it can, there will always be a whole there." Olivia choked out trying to breathe but she was so overcome with grief she couldn't help but cry. "I don't think I can get over this," Olivia finished.
"Sweetheart, you'll never going to get over the death of Mason, he will always hold a special place in your heart, even my heart. But over time you'll learn how to live with it and live your life with just the memory of him." Evelyn stopped when there was a knock at the door and it opened revealing the doctor and a nurse.
"Sorry to interrupt Olivia," Dr. Mitchell said as she move to stand in front of the bed as the door opened again revealing Trevor who made his way over to the other side of the bed to be by his wife side. "I hate to rush you guys but I need to know if you guys decided on how to go about the delivery?" Dr. Mitchell asked looking between Trevor and Olivia.
Trevor nodded, "Yeah, she wants to be induced and then given an epidural to help with the pain." Trevor said
Dr. Mitchell nodded, "I understand this will be hard for you both, and I am going to do everything I can to make it as easy as possible." Dr. Mitchell sat on the bed next to Olivia setting a gentle hand on her shoulder. "Olivia I am so sorry this happened, and… I wish I could give you answers to why this happen or even had prevented this." Dr. Mitchell paused for minute, "I have had patients who have gone through exactly what you are going through and they manage to move on, to live with the lost and I know you'll be able to do the same with time." Dr. Mitchell stood up when her pager went off, "Sorry I have to take this but the nurse will administer Pitocin to start the contractions then in a couple of hours we'll give you the epidural before the contractions become too strong. Hopefully the labor won't last to long." Dr. Mitchell took a breath, "Once again Olivia and Trevor I am so sorry for the lost."
"Thanks Nancy, we appreciate all your help." Trevor said as he stood up shaking the doctor's hand.
Dr. Mitchell nodded as she shook Trevor's hand giving him a sad smile before making her way out of the room.
In the waiting room Alex looked over at Veronica, "Do you think we should go and clean up all the gifts from the baby shower at the house?" Alex asked thinking it would be too hard for either Trevor or Olivia to go through the house and remove the baby stuff, and she felt like she needed to do something to help her friend.
Veronica shrugged, "I'm not sure, I think it's a good idea but I hate to do it and it's something they weren't ready for yet." It was something Veronica has been debating about since they got the news about the death of her nephew Mason. One thing she knew for sure was that it would be hard for them to return home and have baby furniture and clothes everywhere around the house that would remind them of their son, remind them of what could have been.
Casey sitting next to Alex nodded in agreement, "I'm thinking the same thing too."
"We could just wait until afterwards and check with them to see if that's something they want us to help them with so that they wouldn't have to go through that." Melinda suggested receiving nods of agreement from Casey, Alex and Veronica.
One thing everyone knew at the moment was that their friends needed them right now and they were going to be there any way possible to help them get through this tragic event in their lives. It was going to be a long road but they knew in time they would be able to move forward and learn to live with the pain of losing their son.
END OF FLASHBACK
Amanda wiped away the tears that had escaped her eyes, "I couldn't even imagine the pain Olivia and Trevor must have gone through in losing their son."
"How long was she in labor for?" Barba asked, hoping that his friend didn't have to endure a long labor and delivery.
"Seven hours but it felt like eternity for us all especially Olivia and Trevor." Munch answered.
"The lost of Mason was too much for Olivia as you can imagine. They had Melinda do an autopsy to determine what caused the death, but like the doctors she had no answers so she ruled it as a natural cause. Trevor was able to move forward and learn to live with the pain but Olivia, she couldn't handle it." Casey said as she thought about her friend, "Mason looked just like Trevor, it was his mini me, and that's what broke Olivia even more because every time she looked at her husband she saw her son, she was reminded of him so she left, she didn't want to deal with the pain. Trevor tried to help but she just pushed him away and sent divorce papers."
"Elliot her partner tried to talk some sense into her but she said the only way for her to move on was to start fresh and I guess that included leaving Trevor." Fin added
"Wow," Was the only thing Nick could say.
Everyone was startled when there was a knock at the door. "Oh, that's probably Mel, I texted her to come over." Casey said as she stood up making her way towards the front door and opening it.
"Hey Casey," Melinda greeted as she hugged her long time friend. "Guess who I ran into downstairs." Melinda said turning to the surprise guest.
Casey eyes went wide, "Veronica, oh my god, it's been years." Casey said as she moved to pull Veronica into a hug.
Veronica laughed, "I know, it's been to long Casey." Veronica said as she moved so that Casey could close the door.
The three of them move towards the main room where everyone turned to see who was joining them that evening. "Veronica, hey, how are you doing?" Fin asked as he gave her a hug.
"I'm doing great Fin." Veronica said as she pulled back and greeted Munch.
After Casey introduced everyone they all got themselves situated again in their respective seats before Casey turned her attention to Veronica. "So what brings you by?"
"Well, I was in the city and wanted to have dinner with Trevor but he blew me off so that he could have dinner with Olivia, so I couldn't stay mad at him, because if this dinner means they have a chance to get back together then I don't mind."
"Wait, Trevor and Olivia are having dinner together, alone." Fin asked in shock, "I know they were nice to each other at work earlier but the two of them alone could be disastrous for them." Fin added.
Veronica nodded, "True but it could also result in them getting back together, which I and mom desperately want, even Trevor."
"Trevor wants to get back with Olivia. I know the divorce was mutual…"
"What divorce?" Veronica said interrupting Melinda. "I thought you guys knew, Trevor never signed the divorce papers, so legally they're still married." Veronica said looking around at the shock faces in the room.
TBC
So everyone finds out that Olivia and Trevor aren't divorce. I wonder how they'll take the news and how Olivia will react when she finds out the entire squad found out about her and Trevor and that they're still married. Until next time and don't forget to leave a review.
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