I am sorry for the extreme delay, little time and writers blocked has affected updates. This chapter picks up from chapter 4. Well on with the story enjoy and don't forget to review afterwards.

Previously on Secrets:

"Wait, Trevor and Olivia are having dinner together, alone." Fin asked in shock, "I know they were nice to each other at work earlier but the two of them alone could be disastrous for them." Fin added.

Veronica nodded, "True but it could also result in them getting back together, which I and mom desperately want, even Trevor."

"Trevor wants to get back with Olivia. I know the divorce was mutual…"

"What divorce?" Veronica said interrupting Melinda. "I thought you guys knew, Trevor never signed the divorce papers, so legally they're still married." Veronica said looking around at the shock faces in the room.

Chapter 5: Progress

Melinda shook her head in disbelief. "They're still married, how did we not know this. I was for sure Olivia said she got divorce paper drawn up and that she sent them to Trevor."

Veronica nodded, "She did, but Trevor never signed them, he wasn't going to give up on their marriage that easy."

"How come Olivia didn't just take Trevor to court to get him to sign the papers." Barba asked knowing that if she had just taken him to court a judge could've ordered him to sign the papers.

"I was just thinking the same thing. Olivia could've had a judge order him to sign the papers." Casey said in agreement.

Veronica couldn't agree more with them but she felt that Olivia didn't force him to sign the papers because despite the loss of their son she still loved Trevor with all her heart. "Olivia didn't want it to turn into a messy divorce so I guess she didn't push for him to sign, hoping that with time he'll come around and sign them." Veronica decided to say half the truth not wanting to divulge the rest of the reason, she figured there was a reason Olivia kept this little information to herself.

"Maybe Trevor didn't sign the paper because he was hoping that over time Olivia would come around and decide to work on their marriage." Nick said knowing from experience that when he was going through his divorce with his wife he didn't want to sign the papers either hoping that his wife would come around.

Veronica glanced over at Nick, "Nailed it." Veronica said giving Nick a smile. "Have to admit though, I was hoping for the same thing along with our mother."

Casey let out a chuckle, "Olivia and Trevor were amazing together. We all knew that their marriage would last for years. The love they have for each other ran deep, so it was a surprise to us all when we thought that they had gotten a divorce." Casey explained

"Hence when Trevor said he had dinner plans with Olivia I wasn't mad when he blew me off for dinner and I even said a little prayer that they find a way to get back together." Veronica said as Amanda's phone rang.

Amanda excused herself as she walked into the kitchen to take the call. "Have you heard anything yet from Trevor?" Melinda asked

Veronica shook her head, "Nope, I texted him like a hundred times too and not one response. I just take that as a sign that thing is going well between them. That's why I came here so that I would stop bothering him for a while so that he could concentrate on fixing things with Olivia." Veronica as Amanda walked back into the main room.

"Sorry guys but something just came up with the case." Amanda said feeling bad that she had to end their night early.

Fin stood up, "What happened?" Fin asked as he moved to grab his gun and badge.

"The safe house we took Ellie to just called, they did bed checks and she wasn't there. They mentioned that Ellie was looking for a fix." Amanda said as she moved to put on her shoes.

"So, she probably is heading right back to Little Tino." Fin said knowing exactly what Amanda was thinking.

"God, I hate to break up Olivia's evening but I'm sure she would want to know what's going on with Ellie." Amanda said feeling horrible for having to interrupt Olivia's evening.

"Let's wait before we call her, if we can't figure out where Ellie went then we call her." Fin suggested receiving a nod in agreement from Amanda. Fin moved over towards Casey giving her a quick kiss. "I'll see you later babe." Fin said before exiting out of the apartment with Amanda and Barba right behind him.

***SVU***

Olivia stood at the threshold of her former home as she glanced around noticing some of the changes that Trevor made and some familiar things. She felt Trevor lay a hand on her shoulder, "I like the turquoise on that wall it pops but not too much." Olivia said with a slight smile playing on her lips as she looked at the wall that was painted turquoise and the fire place had a marble white frame around it. Olivia's eyes caught the picture that was hanging over the fireplace it was a picture of them on their wedding day, a black and white photo, Trevor had his arms wrapped around her as he kissed the back of her head while she stared at the camera with the biggest smile on her face as she clasps her hands over Trevor's. "That was my favorite picture of us two on our wedding day." Olivia said smiling as she turned to face Trevor.

Trevor nodded in agreement, "I know, it's my favorite also." Trevor said stepping closer to Olivia. "In that picture, or at that moment I realized that I was truly the happiest man on earth. Liv the love I felt at that moment was unbelievably deep and pure and I … I never stopped loving you." Trevor pausing as he guided Olivia to the couch. "Do you want something to drink?" Trevor asked.

"Water is fine, thanks." Olivia said as she watched Trevor walked into in the kitchen before glancing again around the house before she just stared at the stairs that led up to their bedroom and to what was supposed to be their son Mason's room. "It's been over five years since he died and it still feels like it was yesterday." Olivia said with unshed tears in her eyes. "I'm sorry I couldn't be strong enough to stick around." Olivia said before making eye contact with Trevor. "Part of me felt like it was a mistake to hold Mason because when I saw his face, God Trevor he was a mini you and I bet he had your eyes. Every time I looked at you I just saw our son, and my heart just kept breaking over, and over again. I figured if I just left and didn't see you I could forget and be able to live again and move on."

"But you didn't," Trevor stated as he moved to sit next to Olivia handing her the glass of water.

Olivia nodded as she took a sip of the water. "At first, I thought I did, because I was more focus on Elliot leaving without a goodbye or anything to me and trying to get use to my new partner, but…" Olivia said trailing off

"But then when things settle reality hit." Trevor said finishing her thought.

"Yeah, but, when the whole Lewis thing happened, I started seeing a therapist he helped me work through it. He even talked to me about why I haven't pushed harder to have you sign the divorce papers." Olivia reached over and sat her glass of water down on the coffee table before taking Trevor hands into hers. "It was through my sessions that I realize that I still love you and I made a mistake in leaving you not thinking about how you were doing with everything. And I am sorry for not taking your feeling into consideration."

"It was hard losing my son and seeing the women I love in unbearable pain and I didn't know how to help. It did crush me when I received the divorce papers from you." Trevor let out a breath as he looked down at their conjoined hands. "In a years' time, I not only lost my son but I lost the love of my life." Trevor cleared his throat trying to swallow the lump of emotions that was starting to bubble forth.

Olivia blinked the tears away that was threatening to fall, "I am so sorry Trevor for hurting you. I don't think I could ever make up for the pain that I put you through." Olivia pulled her hand away from Trevor's and wiped away the tears that had escaped. "I was selfish in just thinking about myself and my own pain."

"Olivia, I don't see it as selfish," Trevor said reassuring as he used a thumb to wipe away another tear that slid down Olivia's cheek. "The way I see it is that you were so overcome with grief that you couldn't think clearly, you were looking for a way to deal with your pain and at that moment you felt that the only way to deal with that pain was to leave. I have to admit that I was pissed off when I got those divorce papers because you had made me a promise to never run, to not push me away when things got tough."

"What changed?" Olivia asked, knowing that Trevor had every right to be pissed off at her.

Trevor couldn't help the smile that formed on his face, "My mother, that is what changed. I told her how I was feeling about the losing Mason and then losing my wife. She comforted me the way a mother does and then she helped me to see the pain you were in also, and that the pain was just unbearable for you and that pain lead you to push me away." Trevor grabbed Olivia's hands holding them, "Liv I just wished you had allowed me to help you. It was like you just shut down on me and I didn't know how to help you and before I knew it I got divorce papers from you." Trevor said trying to keep the tears at bay.

Olivia pulled one of her hands out of his grasps and set her hand on the side of his face, rubbing his cheek with her thump. "Trevor…" Olivia started as she closed her eyes taking a couple of deep breaths. "I wish I could change things, go back in time and talk to you and not have shut you out." Olivia said with a sad smile.

Trevor moved a hand to cover Olivia's hand. "Liv, when I got the divorce paper and didn't sign them, I expected to see a lawyer come by my office with a court order to get me to sign them, but that never happen. You said that you didn't force me to sign them because you still love me, but why didn't you come and talk to me so that we could work on things?" For the past couple of years Trevor have wondered why Olivia never forced him to sign the papers.

Olivia tore her eyes away from Trevor's glancing over at the forgotten glass of water. Olivia let out a breath, "I was afraid to tell you that I think I made a mistake and that I wanted you back."

"Liv why would you be afraid to tell…"

"Because I knew you were pissed off at me for leaving, for giving up on our marriage." Olivia said interrupting Trevor. "I couldn't bring myself to face you, to see the hurt I caused you." Olivia said just above a whisper.

Trevor nodded in understanding, "I was pissed but I would never take that out on you Liv, I would have wanted answers but I would have been more willing to try to fix us then take out my anger on you or try to get revenge." Trevor grabbed Olivia's chin making her look him in the eye. "Liv, I love you and would have done everything in my power to keep us together if I had known you still loved me and wanted to be with me."

"I never really stopped loving you," Olivia said with a smile.

Trevor took a couple of seconds to look Olivia in the eyes knowing that she was sincere about her feeling. Throwing caution to the wind Trevor leaned forward and gently kissed Olivia for the first time in four years. Trevor felt Olivia place both of her hands on both sides of his face as they deepen the kiss. Trevor groaned when he heard Olivia's phone ringing. Pulling back, he gave her a sad smile as he watched her reach into her pocket to grab her phone. Trevor knew that it was work and from the look on Olivia's face it wasn't good. "Is everything ok?" Trevor asked standing up as he watched Olivia stand up also and grab her purse.

Olivia shook her head, "No umm, that was Rollins, Ellie is missing, they think she went back to Little Tino." Olivia said pausing at the door. "I'll call you, we need to talk some more."

Trevor nodded, "Yeah we do, let me know when you find Ellie, I'm still representing her."

Olivia nodded, "Can you try calling her for me? She seems to trust you, so maybe she'll answer your call." Olivia asked receiving a nod from Trevor, "thanks, I'll call you later." Olivia said before walking out of the house but stopping as she realized that she didn't drive here and that it will be a minute before a taxi could come. Olivia turned around to find Trevor standing there smiling.

Trevor held his hands up knowing exactly what was going through her mind. "I just realized it myself, I'll drive you and try to call Ellie on the way." Trevor said as he stepped out of the house closing the door behind him. As he walked towards the car with Olivia he couldn't help the smile that spread across his face as he thought about the possibility of them rekindling their marriage.

TBC

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