Endure
Summary: "Nee-chan, why?" In her old life, she did everything to kill to survive. "Foolish Otouto" In her new life, she will do anything to protect the ones she love. "To test the limit of my abilities" Even if it meant having to suffer the consequences that wasn't for her to originally bear. "Protect Konoha. Protect everyone. Protect Sasuke for me, Itachi". Like her name, she will endure. Self Insert OC.
Author's Note:Thank you for those who reviewed, followed and favorited the first chapter! It saddens me though that there are a few who reviewed but I am really thankful to those who did in the first chapter! You guys are awesome! 3
Warning: typos, English ain't my first language, I'm not really following the anime/manga that much just the things that I can remember sooo…Slightly mental SI. Fluff first but lots of angst in the latter parts of the story ehuehue
Disclaimer:I do not own Naruto
XI
Training still continued for the Shinobu after the incident that happened a few days ago
It was the only thing that kept the nightmares away even just a little bit
'How could I forget such a thing' she asked herself, absentmindedly attracting more leaves to her body
A long time ago when she was deemed ready to do the organization's doings, she was allowed to venture the outside world. She later finds a lot of people engrossed at a certain manga. She listens to them, sprouting praises and telling its story. Interested, she finds the name of it and buys it. And it was the beginning of how she found Naruto in her first life.
'So stupid' she grits her teeth in frustration, not noticing that little Itachi was looking at her curiously
'Of all the things to forget it had to be the fate of my younger siblings and the clan'
It frustrated her and made her depressed that the things that she vowed to protect were the ones who were going to die by the hands of the one she loves
Shinobu heaves a sigh, the leaves falling down the ground after she finished her meditation
She looks at her younger sibling, who in return was looking at her with those big black eyes
So unaware
So innocent
So happy
The giggles of her precious brother warmed her heart
"Don't cry, Sasuke. Your big brother is here to protect you, no matter what happens."
"Sorry Sasuke, this is the last time"
"I will love you always, Otouto"
She shook her head, trying to remove the nightmares of her brother's known future
'Itachi that I know in my first life…is this how you felt when you saw Sasuke?' Shinobu rotated her finger while Itachi's baby hands tried to reach for it
She recalls everything what her brother has to go…is going to…will go through in the future
Shinobu couldn't imagine her brother having that fate. Experiencing the pain, suffering, loneliness, betrayal HEISNTLIKETHATHEISAGOODPERSONWHOWANTEDNOTHINGBUTTOPROTECTKONOHAPROTECTSASUKEHISPRECIOUSOTOUTO
Big black eyes stared curiously at those crystal clear things coming out of his big sister's midnight blue eyes
"Guwah?"
Small but steady arms circled his little body as he was pulled to his sister's warm chest
He could hear her heart beating
Her soothing hand caressing his small head
Those crystal clear things called tears dripping onto his face but he didn't mind
Words could be heard but he didn't understand and it slowly lulled him to sleep
"Don't worry, Itachi. Shinobu-nee is here now. I'll be the one to protect you and Sasuke"
XII
Uchiha Fugaku didn't know how to be father
He always thought when he'd get children from Mikoto, he would treat them like how his father treated him when he was younger
Strict
Aloof
Harsh
And somehow loving in the inside
But when his daughter, Uchiha Shinobu, came to this world he was…utterly lost. Him, Uchiha Fugaku, clan head of the Uchiha clan, one of the founding clans of Konohagakure no Sato…utterly lost because of his daughter
Fugaku never had a sister so he didn't know how to treat his newborn daughter
Should he act like how his father did to him when he was a child?
He thought to himself and imagine doing to his first born child…daughter
Strict
Aloof
Harsh
But looking at Shinobu made him think…
SWEETLOVINGADORABLEINNOCENTFRAGILESHINOBUSOMUCHLIKEMIKOTOANDIICANNOTHANDLEITANDISITJUSTMEORISSHESPARKLINGMYGOSHMYDAUGHTERISSOADORABLEASDFJDSFV
Fugaku sighed
'If only you'd been born as a boy, I wouldn't be having a crisis here' the clan head of the Uchiha clan frowned, looking at his first born daughter in his arms who was only a few weeks old
He cracked a smile when he sees Shinobu smiling at him, which Mikoto would gently laugh at him before saying, "She's already wrapped around your fingers, Fugaku" and he will forever deny, even to his wife, that he'd blush at that thought
Maybe he'll just be his own ideal father
Maybe he doesn't have to follow what his father has done to him and to his brothers during his childhood
Maybe…time will tell
"But know this little one, I may not be the greatest father however do know that you'll be protected by me, your mother and our clan as well as the village"
XIII
"-s a good thing Shinobu-chan looks like you! I think Itachi-kun, looks like him"
"Tadaima"
Red fiery hair and a bright smile greeted Shinobu when she arrives after her training with her father
"Ah, Shinobu-chan!" the woman in her jonin uniform waves at her enthusiastically from their low table. She makes a squeaking sound when she momentarily lost her grip on her little brother's frail body. Her mother glares at her best friend.
"Kushina-oba-san. Okaa-san" she greets her in return as well as her mother who is beside her
"Okaeri"
The little girl takes a step and freezes for a moment, eyes wide while staring at the woman who was staring at her questioningly
The image of an older Kushina with her husband protecting their child as they were impaled by one of the claws of the Kyuubi. Her sweet, strong, energetic auntie will die after just giving birth to her son and will never see him grow and be loved. Her son, who looks like his father and has her personality will live a terrible life where the villagers will see him as a monster for what is contained in him, rather as a hero for containing the bijuu.
"-nobu-chan, are you okay?"
She is sent back to reality but catches on pretty quickly
"I am doing just fine, Kushina-oba-san. Okaa-san, I will just take a bath and rest for a while" she bows her head naturally as if she wasn't spacing out a few seconds ago
Kushina just stares and nods but while Mikoto just nods and replies she knows something is up with her daughter
Shinobu leaves the two women with her little brother in Kushina's unexperienced arms
Her fists curls tightly as she bites her lips
Her love for her brother was greater than that of the red haired woman
'I'm sorry, Kushina-oba-san'
XIII
Both of her parents are arguing in front of them
She sighs at this
"Dear, you know that the first word of every children is 'Okaa-san' right? Ne Itachi, say 'Okaa-san' for me will you?"
"I think you are gravely mistaken, dearest wife. 'Otou-san' will be the first thing our son will say since he takes after me"
"Okaa-san"
"Otou-san"
Sparks flew
She sighed
Never in her life did she imagine that the most respected people of the village and in their clan, her parents would do such a thing such as argue about who would her little brother first call.
"Abaa" baby Itachi drools, waving his baby hands towards her
He could sit up and carry his own head now
Apparently, they were fighting because her first word as a baby wasn't 'Okaa-san' or 'Otou-san'. She had forgotten what her first word was but it didn't really matter…well except for her parents
"Okaa-san"
"Otou-san"
She smiled
'And here I thought that the great Uchiha Fugaku and Uchiha Mikoto were as stiff as a board parents/person in the anime'
"Okaa-san"
"Otou-san"
It was already been 5 minutes since they started fighting
She faced her little brother, whose eyes shined when he met her sister's
"Our parents sure are silly, ne Otouto? Why don't you just say 'Nee-chan' so they'll stop" she giggled at her own joke
"Nueh?"
"Okaa-san"
"Nee?"
"Oto-"
The three of them froze
"Nee?" the black haired baby giggled, clapping his hands as he repeatedly said the word while looking at Shinobu, "Nee-chwan"
'Ah, I'm so screwed' she gave a sheepish smile to her parents' dark looks
XIV
Months passed by and Itachi is already a year old. He can already walk, read and somehow talk fluently. He is incredibly smart for his age and very observant. Shinobu wishes her Itachi would still be the Itachi she knows and not the one in her distant memory.
She is four now and Shisui is five and half
Her father thinks that she's old enough to wield a weapon of her choice
"You have to think of this properly" he tells them, "The weapon is an extension of your body and you must know how to properly wield it"
She and Shisui looks at each other
Shishui thinks long and hard but for her it takes within a second
"I want to wield a sword, Otou-san" she says this with confidence where Fugaku approves and is confused of his daughter's choice of weapon. He had thought she'd pick a tessen (war fan) or simply kunais and shurikens like her mother and become a shurikenjutsu master
"Are you sure?" he questions her as Shisui looks at her wondering where she'd got the confidence
"Hai"
Fugaku hesitates but agrees
He believes in his daughter's word and choice
"Alright then, but you have to start on something shorter first then decide what kind of sword you want to wield in the future"
"That will be okay. Arigato, Otou-san"
He hums as he asks Shisui his choice of weapon
They didn't know she once held a sword
XV
'It hurts'
'Someone please stop this'
Shinobu clutches her head in pain
The water dripping from the faucet echoes the tiled walls of their bathroom
The overflowing of memories from her old world resurfaces
Memories she has not seen during her first nightmare
Someone was whispering to her and she tried to block them
"Go away" she quietly mumbles
'You're not supposed to be here, why are you here?'
"Stop it"
'Don't get too attached, you're just someone who just stumbled into their world'
"No. I was born here with a purpose"
'Whether you're here or not everything is set in motion'
"I can change things even if it's just a little"
'Your brothers' will suffer. One will die while the other one will live his life driven in revenge'
"They have me. I have a purpose. Like my name, I will endure everything for them"
'A piece that is disposable'
"They…they do not think of me like that. I am wanted"
'Your efforts will be wasted'
"It will be not"
'You will be hated by your clan, your family, your precious Otoutos when they find out the truth. That you are not in this world. That you are playing god with their lives for knowing their fate'
"I am no-"
"You are by just being alive, Shinobu"
Her breath hitches
She hesitates
"Nee-chan?" little Itachi asks curiously behind the door of their bathroom. His small shadowed form could be seen from the shoji door.
Shinobu stares at it and her hesitation ceases and she knows that she's worth it that she's something despite whatever the voices tell her
"You were never wanted to begin with. Never in your old life, never in this life and never ever will be in your next"
"Ah, Itachi"
She ignores it and the voice are gone for now
XVI
During one of their training, Fugaku leads her towards a massive lake with a wooden deck on the side. He walks her there, his big hands holding her small pale ones tenderly. Fugaku tells her that he feels that she is ready to do the coming of age jutsu that all of their clan members go through.
"Look carefully okay"
Tiger
Ram
Monkey
Boar
Horse
Tiger
"Katon:Gōkakyū no Jutsu"
A trail of flame comes out of Fugaku's lips before a massive flame like a shooting star appears at the end of it. It was almost in the middle of the lake
She could sense how the chakra flowed inside her father's body when he performed the jutsu which made her understand it
"You can take your time if you want, Shi-" Fugaku stops himself as he looks at her daughter doing the same hand seals he did awhile ago
Tiger
Ram
Monkey
Boar
Horse
Tiger
Shinobu pauses for a while, trying to accumulate the chakra she need inside her belly. Slowly, she pushes the chakra towards her chest before bursting out hot orange flames out of her mouth
"Katon:Gōkakyū no Jutsu"
It is not as big or as powerful as her father's but Fugaku is proud
"If I didn't know better, I would have thought you already have the Sharingan" he chuckles at this
Shinobu just smiles and feels warm inside
'More…I need more power to get stronger'
XVII
She is tired
She is sleepy
She wants to take a shower
She needs to eat to fill up her tummy
She sees her little brother and mother playing blocks
Itachi sees her and his eyes shines brightly
He gets up and hugs his elder sister
"Nee-chan!"
"Tadaima"
Her energy is replenished at this
XVIII
Itachi is almost 2 years old when he meets a girl named Uchiha Izumi
They play together while their mothers' talk with each other
"-ean but Nii-san is nice when he isn't cranky. Ne, Itachi-kun do you have one?" the brown haired Uchiha girl asks him
The image of his elder sister appears on his mind
Midnight blue hair like their mother's. Hairstyle like their father's. Her eyes the same as their mother's eyes, it was bordering to onyx black. A faint memory of her tender eyes looking at him and sincere smile when he was a baby
"Hmm, she's the best elder sister in the world" Itachi declares looking at his sister in a distance, walking towards them
"Eh, honto?" Izumi pouts, wondering why her older cousin slash brother isn't like that
"Shinobu-nee-chan is always there ever since I was a baby…I mean, she's the one who I always see even when I was still that age despite babies having vague memories. She is gentle and loving like Okaa-san as well as strong and skilled like Otou-san. I am lucky to have her" he gets up and Izumi follows his movement with her eyes
A miniature version of Mikoto-sama appears before her
"Nee-chan" he smile but grunts in reply when she taps his nose
Izumi loved the way her laughter sounded like bells ringing along the summer breeze when Itachi scrunched his nose in an adorable way. Those midnight blue eyes stares at her brown ones and Izumi understands why Itachi praised and adored his sister
"Who might your friend be, Itachi?"
She wondered if this is how her friend felt
XIX
When she reaches five years old, her father happily informs her that she is deemed to be ready for the academy
Her mother worries but she reassures her
Itachi is happy for his sister that she is closer in becoming a great shinobi
Shinobu is conflicted with everything but endures it
'For Itachi'
XX
"I expect to train Itachi before he turns three" the announcement of their father made Shinobu drop her chopsticks
"Shinobu" her mother reprimands her
"But Otou-san, isn't Otouto still too young to train?" she questions her father's decision
Fugaku raises a brow at this
"You were almost the same age as Itachi when I first began to train you" he informed her, his arms crossed, hands inside the yukata sleeve that he usually wore
"But Otou-san, it's earlier compared to my training" she fights back
"Are you questioning my decisions, Shinobu?" her father stares at her hard, not glare but stares. Fugaku does not want to inflict fear to his precious daughter.
She returns the stare albeit hesitantly. She does not want to be disrespectful to her father but she wants an answer and reason out to delay her little brother's training
He sighs
"The council wants to train him early since he'll be the next clan head"
Shinobu's eyes widen in horror
The eldest child of Uchiha Fugaku and Mikoto remembers that it is the clan's heavy expectations that drove her brother to the corner. To not experience his childhood. To enjoy. To become an adult so fast. To taint his hands in an early age.
She straightens her back and faces her father and mother
Both parents stares at their daughter in shock while Itachi looks at the commotion in confusion
'What is happening?' he stares at his sister. Legs were tucked underneath her, back straight and hands on her thighs, eyes staring at them with outmost confidence
She bowed with all the respect the she could muster
"With all due respect, Otou-san, Okaa-san…I wish to become the clan head"
"W-what?" her mother asks this as she looked between her husband and daughter in shock
Fugaku does not reply
He is not mad at his daughter's statement
Fugaku knows that Shinobu is very much capable and that the only thing that hindered the council's decision was because of her gender
'Tch, those old fools and their traditional thinking'
Midnight blue eyes stares at his brown eyes
'She is afraid but is confident. She knows the consequences and the hardship but is willing to endure it. She wants to protect those she holds dear' a glance towards Itachi's confused face
He smirks
"Very well then, I'll talk to the council about this"
'She'll be a good clan head'
"Anata" Mikoto made a protest
"Our child is very much determined, Mikoto. At least recognize that" he smiles at her and continues to eat his forgotten food
Mikoto is worried like every mother but hesitantly agrees with her husband
Itachi is confused but follows his parents' example
And Shinobu is satisfied
She looks at Itachi eating his food
Itachi notices this and smiles at her which she returns
Shinobu pokes his nose and he scrunches it in an adorable way
'Don't worry, Shinobu-nee-chan is here'
She smiles and continues her dinner
Author's Note: There you have it! The second chapter of Endure hehe I hope you guys liked it c: and dont forget to review! Reviews are very lovely