Up In The Air ch. 4
Santana have been coming around for the last three weeks ever since the outing at the park, often bringing Beth and Charlie with her as the kids are seamlessly getting along with each other. It's nice seeing Bailey coming out of his shell the more he spends time with his new friend and the twins are enjoying their time with the ballerina while the R&B singer talks to me about the smallest of things. It's nice to see my children interacting with kids their own each age and truly having fun because I know that I can rather overprotective when it comes to them but I can't help it as I don't want them to get hurt.
I guess that I should loosen the reign a little bit as Santana has made an effort to get to know me better but for some reason, I can't bring myself to fully open myself to her as I do want to be friends with her although I want to get fully invested something could lead to more heartache and pain. I know that soon that the performer will sooner or later have to get back to her life as an entertainer and go on tour to promote her albums then it won't be long before she forgets about me and I know that it would hurt me for her to walk out of my life as soon as she walked in.
I guess that I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep her interested as I know that I'm not like any of the models and musicians that Santana is used to deal with on a daily basis as I'm just plain ordinary. I knocked on Mercedes' door, hoping to talk to about the R&B singer to see what she knows really about her as I'm not entirely sure about the information I found on the internet or how much of it is true. The dark-skinned diva opens the door with a smile leading me into the living room and we talked about things that's going on in our lives as well as about the kids although she gave a me look as though she knows this visit isn't regular visit.
"So I heard that you and Santana have been chillin a bit… that's been going?" Mercedes cutting straight to the chase.
"She's been nice, sweet even as she made it clear to me that she wants me but wants to be there for me as a friend or a lover and I just don't know what I want. I mean I am open to having a relationship with a woman but after everything that's happen with Brody, I don't know if I'm ready to commit to another one" I sigh. "Everything is confusing right as my children are enthralled with her and it seems like she really likes them too"
"You have been through a lot over the few years and no one can blame you for not wanting to jump blindly into another after being in a toxic relationship with the father of your children. You want to make sure that you and those wonderful babies are taken care of but you're not letting yourself being entirely happy. You're holding onto some of that pain and you need to let it go if you are to heal" Mercedes said taking my hand in hers. "You have to take back your happiness and I think taking things slow with Santana and seeing where things go could be good for you"
Part of me knows that Mercedes is right and I should let go of the pain that I'm holding onto from the ideas that instilled in while we were together and start truly living my life. He's no longer around to destroy my happiness or control anything that I do anymore as I try to figure out what I want out of life, doing my best by my children.
"Thank you Mercedes, you're truly are the best friend that I could ask for" I said hugging her.
"There's nothing that I wouldn't do for you and those babies" Mercedes smiles.
"I do have a few questions for you about Santana"
"Or you could ask her yourself because you need to get out of your comfort zone and get know to the girl if you're ever gonna move forward" Mercedes said standing up. "Santana! You have a visitor!"
"What?! Mercedes, she's here" I said looking around.
"Yup" Mercedes grins.
I hear footsteps coming down the stairs as Santana jumps the last two step onto the landing step to see me sitting on the couch before a wide grin forms on her face as Mercedes slips into the kitchen. The R&B singer moves around the couch to pull me into her arms as a warm and comforting feeling spreads throughout my body, allowing myself to lean into the embrace and return the hug before it was over as I found myself missing the feeling.
"Hey mi amore, what are you doing here? Just couldn't stay away from me?" Santana asked smirking smugly.
"Oh please, you're the one that can't stay away from me. It's bordering on creepy" I said rolling my eyes at her.
"But can you blame me though? There's something about you that makes me want to get know you. You're addicting and I just can't get enough of you" Santana giggles seductively.
"Thanks for making me sound like a drug" I said lightly scoffed.
"Sorry but even if you were one, I wouldn't want to quit you" Santana giggles. "But I guess that's not the reason why you're here. How are you? How was your day?"
"I'm-I'm good, thank you for asking and my day is going fine" I said running through my hair. "How about you?"
"I'm great, actually. I'm moving" Santana said pumping her fist into the air.
My heart sank when the word 'moving' came out of her mouth and I didn't want to feel disappointed but it was hard to do when Santana would moving somewhere else although I guess that it's too be expected. I can't make her stay just because I made the decision of seeing where our relationship with the performer and she will always be on the move with her career as it would be selfish on my pat to ask her to stay here.
"T-That's great, Santana" I said trying to keep my voice even.
"I know right and I can finally get a place of my own without having to listen to Mercedes and Trouty Mouth getting their mack on" Santana shuddering in disgust. "Plus, this way I can have a place that I can spend with my god-kids and your ninos. The place that I found as backyard with a pool and space where they can just play"
"Wait what?" I asked shocked. "You're moving to New York? Like as in permanently?"
"Well more like my home base for everything but yeah. Where did you think that I was moving to?" Santana asked raising an eyebrow.
I'm feeing rather embarrassed about jumping immediately to the conclusion without getting to the entire story only to find that Santana is indeed moving but she's staying in New York for the time being. She was looking for place that she could spend with Beth and Charlie as well as my own children then I'm pulled out of my thoughts when a hand gently guiding me to look into a pair of mocha brown eyes. I feel myself getting lost in them as the R&B singer leans in to place a lingering kiss on my forehead.
"I'm not going anywhere, I promise you that although I might to leave for tours and promote my music but I will always return to you and the ninos. I will tell you if I have to leave for those kinds of things but other than that, I'm not going any where" Santana said resting her forehead against mine.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to jump to conclusions. I'm not… I don't really understand what's going on with me" I said closing my eyes.
"You've been through a lot of things and someone hurt you deeply as a part of me wants to find the bastard so I can go all kinds of batshit crazy on his lowlife ass. Make him regret that he left you and your beautiful children but I know that you hella a lot better off without him around" Santana said kissing my forehead once more. "I told you that I would be here for you as a friend or a love and I'll be here for your children too if you'll allow me to be"
"I don't really have much of choice as my children are rather enamored with you" I said letting out a small laugh.
"I'm enamored with them too as well as their mother" Santana said looking at me with this look, setting every cell in my body on fire.
"I um I"
"You're cute when you're nervous" Santana giggles.
"God, you're such a flirt" I said pulling away slightly.
"Only with you"
"I have some questions for you because I feel like a barely know anything about you and if you're gonna be around my children then I need know something"
"Oh wow, I feel like I'm on an interview" Santana jokes but straightens up, noticing how serious I am. "What do you want to know?"
"How close are you to your parents?"
"I'm pretty close to my mom and my brothers. They're a large part of the reason why I work as hard as I do especially my mom, she's done everything for me as she raised us all on her own and I figure that it's time I take care of her, ya know"
"What about your Dad" I asked curious.
"He wasn't really around much as I have few memories of him but my mom did everything on her own and did her best to raise me and my brothers" Santana said shrugging her shoulders nonchalant. "I think that she'll like you though"
"How can you be so sure of that?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
"Just a feeling but my Mami's a huge Broadway fan" Santana said smiling knowingly.
"Your favorite color?"
"Green"
"Favorite movie?"
"It's a tie between Aladdin or You Got Served"
"Why You Got Served?"
"I had a thing for Omarion back in the day but I got over it, I prefer tiny Hobbits" Santana said winking at me.
"Flirt" I said rolling her eyes.
We sat there, asking each other questions until Mercedes headed off to bed and it was already getting as I needed to head home to make sure that my children get ready for school tomorrow. Santana offer to walk me home, lacing our fingers together in a comfortable silence and I feel like I know the person behind the persona of the R&B sensation as I like to see where our relationship is heading. Before I knew it, I was already on the doorstep of my apartment and I kinda wish that I live further away as I turned to the entertainer, throwing caution to the wind as I lean up to kiss her on the cheek. She looked at me surprised as a grin forms on her face, shaking my head at her as I move to go inside when a hand gently stop me.
"You like me, don't you?" Santana said with shit-eating grin.
"Don't let it go to your head"
"You like me and you know it. I'm wearing you down" Santana said slowly walking away. "You will be mine, Rachel Berry"
"You're such a dork" I giggle.
"As long as I get to be your dork"
"Have her home at decent hour next time"
We looked up to see Bailey sticking his head out of the window followed by Harmony and Marley waving happily at Santana who returned the wave.
"Dully noted" Santana said holding up the peace sign.
"Bailey Benjamin Berry, Harmony Maria Berry and Marley Penelope Berry get into bed right this instant" I said putting my hand on my hips.
My children quickly pulled out of the window, finally getting into bed as Santana snickers, waving at me as she turn to return back to Mercedes' place but I didn't want our time to end as I want to continue learning more about. I bite my lip as she almost reaches the corner of my street and I wouldn't see again if I hadn't called out to her.
"You called?"
"What are you doing, Tuesday afternoon?" I asked shifting from one foot to another.
"Nothing that I know of. Why?"
"I was wondering how would you feel about grabbing a bit to eat and maybe… just talk" I said shrugging my shoulders.
"If I didn't know any better than I would assume that you're asking me out on a date" Santana said smirking teasingly.
"Well good thing you know better" I said rolling my eyes good-naturedly. "So Tuesday?"
"Yeah, I like that. See you then" Santana said smiling.
"See you then"
~Nicole The Dragon Rider signing off
End of ch. 4