Alicia

I was now stuck in my room with no way of contacting my older Guandan. Rose's Doctor took everything away from me that I could use to hurt myself so unless I tried to use my teeth or nails then I wasn't going anywhere any time soon. Not to mention that I haven't got any nails.

"I hate you!" I shouted for the umpteenth time.

"I know."

I began to whisper under my breath. "You think your such a genius with your time brain and your time machine but your the biggest idiot I've ever met."

"I am a genius." I turned and glared lasers at the Doctor.

"Then start acting like one." I grumbled and sat on the bed. I hissed and instinctively cradled my arm. More blood and etching had just appeared. The Doctor had stepped closer so I thrust my arm at him.

"Read that." I spat. Under my S it said 'Are you safe.' A hint of dawning ran across the Doctor's face. He left and came back a few minutes later wearing a face that said 'I really shouldn't be doing this.'

"Go on. Answer him." He passed me a medical scalpel. I took it from him without a word and etched 'with you five years ago.' Now I just had to wait for another searing pain on my arm.

"Can I leave my room now, dad." I put a heavy sarcastic tone on dad. It made the Doctor blush which made me very happy. I stepped round him and went to wash the new blood off my arm. I never thought it would be necessary to use the connection as a communicating device. About an hour later I got another message. It said don't do anything stupid. I rolled my eyes.

Rose is a fun person to talk to. She's a very positive person and a great distraction. To begin with she couldn't get used to the fact that there was someone on board that might have a relationship with the Doctor like hers but it's actually very different and she liked to talked about it a lot.

"Can you imagine The Doctor having someone on board who hates going on adventures? That's me." Rose laughed.

"So you never go anywhere?"

"Not if I can help it."

We had our legs hanging over the edge of the floor looking out into space.

"What's he like when he's with you?" I asked.

"Where to start. When we're outside he kind of melts when we find something dangerous for us to fix, and he's always hyper. Whenever we're trying to think of somewhere to go he's like a kid in a sweet shop. Do you know that look he gives you when he explains something at 100 miles an hour and you say what and he looks at you like you drooled on his shirt?"

I laughed at the idea of someone drooling on his shirt and filed it away for one of the more boring days. "Yeah, I decided to read the whole manual on the TARDIS because I love that look when you say something intelligent. It took me over a year. You know the whirring noise the TARDIS makes? It's because he doesn't really know how to drive. I'm thinking of finding an L plate and hanging it on the door outside." We laughed a bit more.

"What about you two, are you you know?"

"What, you don't mean besides the accidentally permanently got married thing?" I freaked out at the idea of us actually being a couple, in human terms. Every time someone sees us together they must be asking themselves the same question Rose was. "Definitely not. Never."

Rose realised she'd offended me. "I'm sorry I just thought... I don't know. The way he is around you is different. He wasn't even that way around Sarah Jane." I sighed.

"It's alright. I've never thought about it like that. In some ways it's like he's my dad but he's definitely not anything close at the same time. I don't know what it would be like to have a boyfriend because I've never had one... so even if we were, like that I guess I wouldn't know about it. This whole thing is supposed to be about protection. He protects me and I protect him. How are you supposed to protect your dad? Then there's this bit on the side where we can never leave each other. This Doctor doesn't know about this yet but if I was to be a certain distance from him we would both be in terrible pain. Well I don't know about him. I nodded my head towards the Doctor. "But I'm not going to try it. That's why when I was twelve I wouldn't let him tell me about his adventures because it would put me in physical pain, the idea of him not being safe. It's better now, things changed and it doesn't hurt as much when I think about it."

We were quiet for a long time after that. I didn't understand a lot about what was going on. When this first started I'd always thought of what had happened as being married. Now I realised that this allegiance, this.. thing could be any kind of relationship at all. I couldn't even remember my own dad that well. I wondered if he'd ever been a father before. If he looked at this the same way I did. I wasn't going to write a letter on my arm and asking this Doctor was out of the question. He was inexperienced with me.

Then I remembered what Dima had said all those years ago. How we'd grow from oni Guandan to uni Guandan. Together. She also said that I would understand the Love a Guandan had was so much more than what I used to think of as human love.

My feelings were getting confused.