For the rest of this story it is safe to say that I do not own Glee.
Finn's POV
I can't believe that Kurt killed himself. He is dead. He is gone. He is decest. He went Bye-bye. I'll never see him again. He flew the coop. He is swimming with the fishies. He's been flushed. He died. He commited suicide. He finished himself. He ODed. He ended ties. He pulled the cord. He passed. He shut the door. Nope, no way that I word it makes it any better, and it never will. That man was my little brother, we were FURT! He took a slushie for me. I went in his room the other day and I took the lamp that I called 'faggy," I wish I could take that back. I don't even care that he used to like me anymore, I just miss him, we were... are brothers, and I just want Kurt back, I just miss him. "MOM! YOU CAN'T TAKE HIS ASCOTS, THOSE ARE NOT FOR GOOD WILL THEY ARE FOR FURT, ME AND KURT! STOP!"
Kurt's POV
Wow, he wants my, "faggy," lamp and my ascots. I can't believe it. I feel bad... I mean he took the lamp!
Carol's POV
When I tried to take Kurt's ascots away Finn got all defensive. He misses him, and so does Burt, they both beat themselves up over it. I do too, just not as bad. I tell Finn to go out, and hang with friends, because for one he needs them, and for two, he gets a life and he should use it, that is what Kurt would want, I think. I just feel so stupid. I call myself a mother, I should have known, any good mother would have.
Kurt's POV
I thought that she wouldn't even notice my absence, but we were somewhat close, I mean the shopping and everything, one time she called me the daughter that she never had, then she looked at me to see if I was offended, I wasn't. I still can't get over how much my dad cared. He has Finn, the son he always wanted.
Sam's POV
I can't even. I have been blocking my thoughts away from it. I can't let the saddness get to me on the account of the football game and nationals so I won't.
Kurt's POV
Smart.
Puck's POV
I never thought that I would care about him, I didn't think that I did, why should I? I slushied him, threw him in the dumpster, and shoved him into lockers. I didn't even know that I would care until I heard it, and I shut down. I didn't care, until I heard it. The memories, they were strong, the ones from Glee of course. I thought that nothing good came from here, singing and dancing to songs that I hate, what I didn't notice was that I was making friends, and Kurt was a good one, and now I will never get him back, none of us will, and Finn is broken. He is so upset. I didn't just lose Kurt, I lost Finn.
Kurt's POV
He probably missed Finn more than me.
Puck's POV
HEY! That isn't true!
Kurt's POV
You can hear me? Nah, that was just my imagination, I am dead, Somebody is just trying to guilt trip me.
Mike's POV
I didn't know him very well, and that is something that I regret. Glee club just isn't the same, everybody is upset, even though Kurt most likely wouldn't want that, but I don't know, because like I said, I didn't know him well, and not only is everybody all mopey it just seems empty. Tina is getting better, I mean with Artie and I comforting her and spending even more time with her she is okay, but I am not... I got an A- the Asian F! My dad will kick my you-know-what.
Kurt's POV
Wow more about Tina, I didn't know she would care that much. I didn't think that anybody would care that much.
Brittany's POV
Who was Kurt again? Oh wait...hold up, he was lady Hummel! Lady Boy, will be missed. He dressed nice, and he never called me stupid, which means something to me. He was kind, and he could sing. And he was on the Cheerios! which makes him cool.
Kurt's POV
errr... thanks...
Santana's POV
I didn't like him. He dressed weird and always hung out with the girls. He tried too hard to be liked, and smelled weird. He also took a slushie which is loyal, but wayyyy to despraite. It was also so obvious that he had a thing for Finn, which is why he took the slushie. He never called Brittany stupid which counts for something, but he also was nice. He was too nice. I guess I should have more respect for the dead, but I am honest, and a b! #%, which is why I can say stuff like that.
Kurt's POV
I shouldn' think too much of that, it is Santana!
Quinn's POV
I was in a dark place, and he never was mean, he showed some support, which is more than I could have asked for given the circumstances. Sure he liked Finn, but who didn't? He is more than who he liked. He didn't deserve this, and despite not knowing him well, I will not let his legacy burn out, that is the least that any of us could do for him. He was an honorary girl, and that means something. He also did little things that mattered. Like he drove us to see Vocal Adrinaline's coach to coreagraph us a number, he paid for us to wash his car for the fundraiser, he didn't sue for us smashing his window, (school event, school would have gotten sued, not Mercedes), he helped with the bake sale, he obviously gave Defying Gravity to the no-talent that is Rachel, and he took slushies for us. He was amazing. Finn could have slushied anybody, but Kurt took the cup and slushied himself, so Finn wouldn't feel any more guilty which he already did, he wouldn't get beat up, and so one of us didn't get it. He was kind like that, and the world needs more people like him, he will be missed.
Kurt's POV
I wish people would stop bringing up the slushie incident, because that is not all I should be known for. I get it, I got slushied for us, and Finn, but I did so much more in my life time.
Lauren's POV
Didn't know him, don't care.
Kurt's POV
Wow, insinsive much?
Blaine's POV
I love Kurt. How could he do this? I have been in his room every day since he passes, and I just do little things like look through his stuff, or lay on his bed. I miss him. I think that he was the one. I know how Cliche that sounds, but I think he was. He was kind, and I loved him. He was so brave, but I think getting crowned queen was just too much. He was brave, kind, smart, loyal, loving, and well near perfect. Words don't even describe how devistated I am. He was my love. I can find others, but I don't want to. Kurt taught me so many things, as I did him, but this is one lesson, that I didn't need to learn, how much it hurts to lose your bestfriend and soul mate forever. I mean, when we met, I grabbed his hand, and anybody who knows me, knows that I would never do that, with somebody I know, much less somebody that I don't but, I did to him, because I had an amazing feeling about him, and that only grew, but I didn't notice how much until he sang 'Blackbird,' the feeling, the hurt and sadness in his voice, he felt that, and it hurt. If he got that upset over a bird, I should have known, we all should have known. I feel so stupid, I feel so embarrassed, and if I got the chance to talk to him for five more seconds I wouldn't waste them, I would propose. Teenage marrige, ew, but you don't feel this way over nothing. The betrayel, I felt from my parents, and the bullying I faced, neither even begin the describe how I feel, and It never will, because this, is unfaceable, I want to die, just to end it, but me, and Kurt's death would be selfish, and I have friends, we can all get through this together, but I don't want to go on without Kurt. He was everything to me. I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I want the world to know how much I love him. Words don't describe my hurt, my pain, my love, the amount of tears that I've shared, and I hope that nobody feels this bad, and invents words to describe how bad I feel.
FIVE YEARS TO THE FUTURE
Blaine has a son named Kurt.
Kurt's POV
Am I crying somehow?
I CHANGE MY MIND I DON'T WANT TO DIE YET.
Then a light goes off, behind Kurt's Eyelids, and two rectangles flash.
Kurt's POV
"Live,"
"Die,"
What does that mean?
"Aren't I already dead?" I think about my life, what has happened, what will continue to happen, if what I saw, was how they would feel, then I can't, won't die, because I don't even feel that bad. It would be plain selfish, I mean, end my suffering, but cause worse suffering to others? No, I won't. I somehow start to drift towards live, but then a see a spirit, I don't understand, because I don't believe in God or stuff like that. It is my mother, telling me to live, I want to ask so much, but I ask, "Would my friends know that I tried this and will they know they would feel this way?"
"Yes dear, and yes, they are also having this dream. They all know how they feel about you, the only difference is you can see all of their reactions, and they can only see theirs, it is somewhat of a warning."
Before I drift to the, 'live,' I tell my mom I love her, and I wake up in the hospital.