Chapter 3
After a few minutes, I start to pull away. He cups my face again and presses a soft kiss to my lips and whispers "A day at a time." and I just nod. He backs away and I get off the top of the picnic table and he laces his fingers with mine as we walk into the clubhouse. They all look at us and smile and I can't help but shy away behind him. "Don't hide baby." he says as he pulls me to him. "Sorry." I say softly.
We walk over to one of the couches and he sits down and I sit down next to him, him still holding my hand. I look over at Gemma and she gives me an approving nod and I lay my head down on his shoulder and feel him kiss the top of my head and for the first time, I feel safe. After a little while, my stomach growls a little. "I'm going to fix something to eat if that's okay. You want anything?" I ask. "No babe. Go eat." he tells me as I stand up and he stands up with me. Before I walk away, he pulls me to him and kisses me softly before letting go of my hand.
I walk into the kitchen and as I am making something to eat, one of the croweaters, Lisa, comes in and I tense when she walks in. There's a knife on the counter and she grabs it. Putting it to my throat, "I don't know where you fucking came from but you need to get the fuck out of here. No one wants your fat ass here and Juice don't want you. He just feels sorry for you." she tells me and I put the butter knife down and she continues. "I don't care if you stay or go as long as you leave Juice alone. Understood?" she asks as she pushes it further against my throat and all I can do is nod. "Good." she says as she walks away.
I walk out of the kitchen and head to the hallway to my dorm and as soon as I get to the door, someone grabs my hand and I'm in the midst of a panic attack. I'm turned around and see Juice standing there and I start to sob harder and it's making my panic attack worse. "Hey. Hey. Look at me baby. Look at me." he says as he cups my face. "Look at me. Concentrate on my breathing. In with me, out with me. In with me, out with me." he tells me and my breathing starts to calm down. He pulls me into his arms and I soon get myself together before I pull away. "I'm sorry Juice." I say. He cups my face and says "I got you baby." I pull away from him and he looks at me confused. "I can't do this Juice. I'm sorry." I whisper and he asks "What can't you do baby?" I shake my head and say "I can't be with you." He shakes his head and says, "Let's go inside." I nod and he follows me into my dorm.
Closing and locking the door, he walks over to the bed and sits down but I remain standing. "Come here baby." he says softly. I walk over and sit beside him and he takes my hand. "Tell me what you can't do baby." he says softly. "I can't be with you." I tell him as I look down at my hand in his. He moves off the bed and is on his knees in front of me. Cupping my face, he sees my throat. "Baby, what happened?" as he tilts my head up to look at my throat better he sees it's a cut. "Baby, who did this?" he asks and I shake my head no. "Who did this?" he asks again, this time making me look into his eyes. "Baby, I need to know who hurt you. Is this why you said you couldn't be with me?" and I start to sob. He holds me close and lets me sob. As he holds me close, he caresses the back of my head and whispers "I'm not letting you go baby." he kisses my temple and asks "Do you want to be with me?" I don't look at him and don't answer. "Baby look at me." he says and I look up at him. "Do you want to be with me?" he asks again. "Yes." I whisper. "Then be with me baby. Please." he tells me and I nod my head. He kisses me softly and when we separate, he says "Now tell me why you thought you couldn't be with me." He moves back up onto the bed next to me. "One of the girls told me that I needed to go back to where I came from. Said no one wanted my fat ass here and that you didn't want me, that you just felt sorry for me." I tell him. "That's bullshit baby. Listen to me. I really want to be with you. The minute I saw you, I couldn't fucking breathe. You are so fucking beautiful and there's something about you that I just can't seem to get out of my head. All I want is to make sure you're okay." he tells me. I look up at him and say "I really like you Juice." I tell him. "Then stay with me baby. Now tell me who hurt you." he says. "Lisa." I say softly.
Walking out to the main room, he walks me over to Gemma and says "Stay with Gemma a minute." I just nod and Gemma pulls to next to her. Juice walks over and talks to Clay a minute and Gemma asks "What happened to your throat?" I look at Juice and see him look over to check on me. "One of the croweaters told me that he didn't want to be with me and that none of you wanted me here. Told me to leave him alone. I tried to call things off with him but he wouldn't let me." I tell her. "Good. You and Juice are good for each other." she tells me. We look back over and Juice and Clay and see Clay look at me and then nod his okay to Juice. Juice walks over to Lisa and she tries to push up on him. "You telling my girl I don't want her here?" he asks. "What's it matter? You don't want her. Look at her fat ass." she says and I look down at my hands. "Bitch, that's not fat. Those curves are what real women look like. Not boney ass whores that think they fucking matter. You ever disrespect my girl again and it will be the last time you show your face here. Understand me?" he asks and she looks at him with wide eyes and nods her understanding. "Baby, you need to go lay your claim. Show those girls he belongs to you." Gemma tells me. "He'll get mad." I tell her. "No he won't baby. Go claim your man." she tells me and nudges me off the barstool. I stand up straight and see Juice look over at me and when our eyes lock, I start walking over towards him and as soon as I get to him, I cup his face and kiss him softly and he deepens the kiss and kisses me hard and holds me as close as he can get me and the rest of the room disappears. When we separate, he smiles wide and kisses me one more time before saying "I'm yours baby. All yours." He pulls me into his arms and just holds me and I find myself smiling.
That night, I head to my dorm and I ask Juice "You...um...want to...um…" I stumble and he kisses me softly and says "Yeah baby." and smiles softly when he sees me blushing. We head to the dorm and I go into the bathroom to change for bed. When I come back out, he's lying in bed, the covers pulled down and he's in nothing but his boxer briefs and my breath catches. I blush and look down at my hands. "Come here Whiskey." he says and, without looking at him, I walk over to the bed and climb under the covers. He pulls me into his arms and kisses me softly and I hear Gemma in my head telling me to lay claim on my man. He looks into my eyes and I caress his face and say "Will...um...you be my first?" I ask. I see the shocked look in his eyes and start to move away from him, thinking he doesn't want me and as I start to get out of the bed, he jumps out of bed and stops me. Grabbing my wrist gently, he cups my face and asks "Baby wait." I stop and close my eyes. "I'm sorry." I whisper and tears start falling. "Baby, don't do that. Don't apologize." he tells me. I shake my head and he stops me again. "Baby, please look at me." he says softly. I open my eyes and he says "Baby, listen to me. I want you so fucking bad but I want to make sure you want this. Don't just do this because you think it's what I want. I don't care how long we wait. I just want you to be comfortable." he tells me. "Do you really want me?" I ask. "Baby, I want nothing more than to spend every minute making love to you, showing you how perfect you are." he tells me. I look into his eyes and kiss him softly and say "Be my first." He looks at me for a second and I nod slightly. He picks me up and my legs go around his waist and my arms around his neck.
Carrying me over to the bed, he lays me down gently and hovers over me. Kissing me gently, he deepens the kiss before kissing down my neck. He starts to pull my shirt up but looks at me for permission. I nod slightly and he takes my shirt off. Kissing down my body, he takes his time on my breasts, nipping and sucking at my skin. Kissing his way further down, he starts to slip my panties down my legs and I start to get a little nervous. He kisses down one thigh before doing the same to the other before finding my core. He licks and sucks my little bundle of nerves and I start to feel the tension in my core. Moaning as he continues the assault and before I know it, I lose myself to him. He moves to hover over me again and before he moves any further, he softly tells me "I'm not going to lie, it's going to hurt a little at first but it won't last but a few minutes and then it will start to feel good. I promise." he tells me and I whisper "I trust you." He smiles softly and says "I'll be gentle but just concentrate on what I'm doing until the pain passes. If you need me to stop, tell me and I will. I don't care if I get off. This is all about you." he tells me. Juice enters me slowly and I wince at the pain and he stops. "You okay baby?" he asks. I nod my head and pull him closer. He starts to move again and I feel it the moment he pops my cherry. He gives me a minute to adjust and when I nod my head that I am okay, he kisses me deeply as he starts to thrust in and out slow and easy. Making love to me nice and slow, what time he isn't kissing me, he's whispering in my ear how beautiful I am and how perfect I feel. I find my release over and over before he finally finds his inside me.
He doesn't immediately pull out. He buries his face in my neck and doesn't say anything at first. "Are you okay?" he asks finally and I just nod my head yes. He looks into my eyes and asks "What is it?" as he pulls out. "Was I okay?" I ask softly and bury my head in his neck. I feel him kiss my temple and he says "Baby, you could not have been more perfect." I look up at him and he kisses me softly. "You are fucking perfect baby and you're mine." he says. "And you're mine?" I ask. Crashing his lips with mine, when we separate, he whispers "Completely yours."