He just stood there in silence yet again...what has the cat got his tongue or something? I'm not really loving the silence so I walk up to him.

"Helloooo? Anyone home up there?" I said knocking on his head.
That seemed to knock him out of his stupor, he looked me in the eyes.

"I...I didn't mean to hurt you Bells-" I stopped him right there.
"Only the people who truly care about me get to call me Bells. To you I'm just Bella...or Ms. Swan" I reply coldly

he sighed in defeat...yeah that's what I thought fucker.
"I didn't mean to hurt you Bella, I was at a tough time in my life. I thought you deserved better than me so I took myself out of the equation"

By now I'm in full on rage mode " SO CHEATING ON ME WITH JESSICA FUCKING STANLEY WAS THE WAY TO TAKE YOURSELF OUT OF THE EQUATION?! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO JUST TALKING TO ME PAUL?!" I huffed.

I was met with silence yet again...Man am I really starting to despise him being silent. Stepping back, I try to calm down a bit...maybe talk like an adult, I mean I am still trying to move past the heartbreak I had to go through because of this motherfucker.

"I don't see how cheating on me was the way to take yourself out of the equation that was my life. I mean shit Paul, I thought you loved me, I thought we were going to build a life together or at least try too. I know for a damn fact that I wanted that with you, but now im questioning whether that was ever in your plans with me. Or was I just some game to you, a play thing 'til you found the next toy for you to play with? Huh?" I go off finally letting everything out hoping for some sort of explanation

The man...no boy standing in front of me had the audacity to look at me like I had just kicked his puppy, excuse you sir, you do not get to sit there and look hurt like you are the victim when I was the one who was tossed out like I was last week's garbage. I was the one that had their heart shattered into a million people in front of every single person I had called a friend. I was the one left alone to pick up all the shattered pieces to try and fix it myself, while he got to walk away and continue on with his life like I had never existed. He went on to be with the slut he decided was better than me and let me tell you she had gone around the school to make it known to everyone that she had won, that I was nothing...she tried to kick me while I was already down, this bitch wanted me to think that I was unlovable, unwanted, not needed for anyone at all.

For a while her tactic to keep me down worked for a while, I went through the rest of that year feeling like everything she had ever said about me. While she may have had her victory...short lived at that, I had used all those feeling to make music and I started to play in open mic nights with my band called Twilight, it took time but we finally got discovered in a local gig that we had acquired from an open mic night we had performed at. Our career was a rough start, my band mates knew the situation that had occurred for the source of my music and they were more than supportive. To this day I don't think that I could have ever made it to this exact moment without them...

Looking back up at Paul all I could get from him was him staring at me? So many emotions come across his face that it's hard to keep up with.

"All I want from you in an explanation on why you thought that was the best way to go? why was shattering my heart the most attracting option you could come up with?" I say not allowing him to answer

"Was it fun to watch me be hurt by you, did you enjoy breaking me into a million pieces? I loved you with everything I had and you had to go and ruin it for some dumb...whore! All she wanted was to have you as arm candy to flaunt at school! Was she really worth it Paul?" I say with tears threating to fall.