So, it's been a bit! About a month and a half, I think! Real shitty of me to disappear like that, but that's not the point.

Point is that I'm sorry, and that I'm tired.

Real tired, cause I've gone through 7 full drafts of chapter 33 and I still didn't enjoy how they turned out. And honestly, I should've probably figured out a version of this chapter figured out weeks ago but I've barely had enough time to put into school, friends, family, and myself.

And a lot of Elden Ring and Dark Souls 2, somehow I managed to make space for those lately. A lot of the time playing those games have been spent being sad about not being able to get Bloodborne.

Anyway, I've been struggling with writer's block this whole time and haven't been sure if I should actually post anything about where I've been just cause I didn't know how long this chapter would take.

Cause I really don't wanna call it a hiatus, cause part of me feels calling it that means im abandoning this story. I've been struggling with it a bit, but I wanna still get to write about all the things I've planned so far.

And I love writing, but it's just felt like a chore lately, and I hate that it feels like that. Especially since I got people actually waiting for me to update. And wanna know what's kinda dumb? Every time I kinda get over my writing block, I get the urge to write about something that's not this story.

Which sucks, y'know?

Real quick, I'm gonna get off topic.

Like a month or two ago, I got this new story idea, right? Which would basically be me giving a Spider-Man/Mirko story like the one from a year ago another try but staying decently far away from canon to not limit myself with where I can take the story. To like, make up for how that one turned out. I've tried for months to write more about 'The Rabbit and The Spider' but I just don't like anything new I come up with for it.

I basically gave up trying to figure out what to do with it given how little joy I got out of that and stopped trying, and I feel real shitty about it cause every now and then I get people saying they'd want me to come back to it.

So basically, every time I try to write something for this, I get inspiration for another story and it's really messing with me.

And I wanna write this story, right? I wanna do something that picks up with a Peter with a little under 2 years of being Spider-Man to his name when Gwen Stacy dies, then having snippets of the next 1.5 years of his life up to his arrest after a fight with the Sinister Six. Coincidently, it'd be the same day a teenage Mirko gets arrested in a raid on the underground fighting ring she's been participating in since about a month before Peter got bit by the spider.

Then, the story would follow both Peter and Rumi being forced to work off their sentences together by the HPSC in collaboration with UA, who got roped into since Peter and Rumi are 16 so now they gotta get both Peter and Rumi onto a more traditionally heroic path so the HPSC isn't solely responsible for how they turn out, cause no one wants another Lady Nagant situation. Fun hijinks with Peter doing hero stuff with Rumi, and either Hawks or Aizawa while keeping the fact Spider-Man is working with the HPSC hidden from the public ensue.

That, and a lot of exploring how much of a mess Peter is by the time he's got 3 or so years of Spider-Man under his belt. Y'know, fun stuff. Throw in Peter and Rumi being forced to share an apartment for the sole purpose that they're easier to manage when they're both in one spot and you got more snarky banter than I'd know what to do with.

Anyway, so I got that idea in my head that I kinda wanna pursue cause I think it'd be fun to write but I also don't wanna do it cause then maybe I'll get so caught up with that story that I won't come back to this one.

So yeah, that's what's been going on! Basically, I need a break until I find it in myself to write something and enjoy myself doing it. At least about this story, which is the one that should have my attention.

Man, it's nice to just say that instead of just rewriting the same chapter over and over.

I don't know when you'll hear from me next, so I just want you to know that I'm really trying to get all of this figured out. Again thanks for being so patient with me taking so long lmao. I just really wanted to let you guys know what's been going on with the chapter.

See you guys… sometime, I guess. The best I can promise is that I'll probably have this figured out before… summer? Maybe? We'll see.