Synopsis: Lena Daniels has been in love with Jax Teller for half of her life. As she finally gains his heart, an old love comes back to Charming and threatens their future. Will Lena be able to handle Tara, and Jax's steady rise into the President's chair with SAMCRO?
Pairings: Jax Teller x Lena Daniels (OC), Jax Teller x Tara Knowles (past, mentioned), Jax Teller x Wendy Case (past)
Time Setting: Seasons 1-7
Warnings: fluff, angst, unprotected sex (wrap it, before you tap it, folks), pregnancy, insecurities, infidelity, canon SOA violence & gore, STRONG language, drug & alcohol use, lots of taking the LORD's name in vain, mentions of racism, and character deaths
Author's Note: So, this is my first Sons of Anarchy story for those of you who are fans of the show. This fic is a Dark Fic. It is set during the timeline of the entire series, but I'm not going full canon. There will be things that are actually what happened in the show, but with my own twist, and things that are not show canon. The narrative is set to fit the story itself. If you are a Tara Knowles fan, be warned, as this story may not be for you. Also please HEED the warnings. They are there for those get triggered by certain topics. I will post another warning before each chapter to give a final warning.
When Lena woke that following morning, she had woken up to an empty bed. The previous night her and Jax felt each other's comfort once more after their shower, before she passed out in his arms. And when she opened her eyes, he was gone. This wasn't unusual. When Jax was dealing with a lot of things at once, he tended to go to sleep late and leave early the following day.
Jax had been gone for a couple of days since. He sent her a text telling her, he was heading to Nevada, and that he'd be back as soon as he could. Lena was disappointed that Jax had decided to let her know of his departure via text message, but instead of wallowing, she had found herself standing outside the hospital doors. To say that she was nervous would be an understatement. She had decided, despite her head screaming that she was an idiot, she knew she needed to face this head on. She needed to be there for Jax's newborn son. Even if it meant seeing the woman that made her feel like an insecure school girl.
Lena just swallowed her pride and made her way into the hospital. Heading straight toward the NICU, she immediately spotted Tara walking out of a hospital room. The room, she guessed, belonged to Abel.
The doctor looked up to see Lena headed toward her, a surprised look on her face. "Lena. Hi."
Lena nodded, feeling the nerves bubbling in her system. "Tara. I didn't know you were back in town." She lied through her teeth.
Tara swallowed, shoving her clipboard underneath her arm. "Yeah, I've been back for a little while now. Are you here to see Jax's son?"
Again, Lena nodded, shoving her hands in the back pockets of her jeans. "How's he doing?"
Tara smiles shyly. "The surgery was a success, and he's improving. But it could still take some time."
"That's good that he's improving. Can I see him?"
Tara looked at Lena hesitantly, before nodding. "Yeah, come with me." She turned on her heel and walked away.
Lena quickly followed behind her until they made it to the room that Tara had come out of just a few minutes earlier. The room where baby Abel was currently resting. Her heart raced, as she slowly walked up to the incubator, staring down at the tiny life form fighting for his life. He was so small. Smaller than any other baby that she had ever seen before. She immediately felt the tears burning the back of her eyes.
"You can't hold him, yet." Tara explained, as he was still hooked up to machines to help his breathing. "But you can hold his hand." She pointed to one of the two open holes on the side of the incubator.
Lena followed Tara's instructions, placing a lone finger inside to gently caress the baby's even tinier hand. She smiled softly, and her heart warmed with pride the moment she felt the baby's hand twitch and automatically latched onto her finger.
"He seems to like you already." Tara commented, smiling at the interaction.
"Already a ladies man, like his daddy." Lena giggled, softly, now using her thumb to caress the baby's hand since it was still barely attached to her finger.
"Yeah, he is." Tara said uncomfortably, as Lena continued to keep her full attention on the baby. "So, uh, Jax told me about the two of you."
That stopped Lena in her tracks. Again, she nervously swallowed the lump forming in the back of her throat. She then softly released her hold on baby Abel to turn to face Tara. "Oh." Was the only thing she could muster up.
Tara shook her head in a dismissive manner. "I know you think I might have certain intentions on why I'm back in Charming, but it has nothing to do with Jax. Charming is…home, you know?"
"Right." Again, the only thing that Lena could muster up since she didn't expect for Tara to go there so quickly.
"I'm gonna let you enjoy your visit." Tara pointed toward the incubator and then made herself scarce.
Lena then released the breath, that she had no idea she was holding in, before turning back to the baby angel in her presence.
Lena had been with Abel for a good part of an hour, before Jax made his surprise entrance. He smiled softly when he saw Lena sitting by his son's incubator.
"Hey," he leaned down, placing a kiss on the top of her head, before squatting down before them.
"Hey." Lena smiled softly. "When did you get back?"
"Just now," he turned to look at his son, "mom told me that you were coming. Thought that I'd stop by and spend a little time with him myself."
Lena reached out to cup Jax's jaw, trying to give him a little comfort. She was happy that his attitude was changing about baby Abel. Jax quickly melted into her touch, placing a tender kiss to the inside of her palm. "I'm just glad you came to see him. He's beautiful."
Jax smiled, still holding on to Lena's hand. "Yeah, he is. When he's better and a little older, maybe we can give him a little brother." He gave her a cheeky grin.
Lena choked, quickly pulling her hand from his, as she felt a nervous sweat coming on.
"Hey," Jax brows furrowed, noticing her change in demeanor, "you okay?" She stayed quiet, not knowing what to tell him. She knew that what he just said was him being cheeky, and maybe partially truthful, but how was she supposed to tell him that it was already happening? That she was carrying Abel's little baby brother or sister. "Babe," he pulled her from her thoughts, "what's the matter?"
Lena sucked in a deep breath, grabbing onto Jax's hand. "Jax, there's something I need to tell you." She said, and he had her undivided attention. But she still didn't know how to tell him. "Jax, I'm—"
And before she could continue, she was cut off by the sound of Jax's ringing cell phone. He quickly stood, reaching to pull his phone out of his back pocket to answer it. It looked like the news he had just received was not good news by the irritated expression on his face.
"Alright, I'm on my way." He snapped his phone shut, shoving it back into his pocket. He then looked back down at Lena, who had stood along with him. "What were you gonna tell me?"
Lena shook her head, chickening out. "It was nothing important."
Again, his brows furrowed in confusion, as he reached out to cup her jaw. "You sure?"
She swallowed the tears that were threatening to reveal themselves. "Yeah, I'll talk to you later. That call seemed urgent."
He nodded. "Yeah, I got to ahead out. Club shit." He leaned forward and kissed her lips softly. "You gonna be okay?" He asked, and she just nodded. He kissed her once more, before turning to the incubator. "Bye, little man. I'll see you later." He kissed the tips of his fingers and tapped the top of the box and then made his way out of the room.
Lena waved Jax goodbye and waited until he was gone, as she turned back to Abel. "I guess it's just you and me, again. Huh, buddy?"
Lena took a break from spending time with baby Abel to grab herself a quick lunch from the hospital cafeteria. When she returned, she noticed a strange man standing outside of Abel's room, lurking like a creeper.
"Can I help you with something?" Lena questioned, cautiously approaching said man.
The guy skittishly jumped, not expecting someone to catch him standing there. "Oh, nothing. I was just looking. Beautiful boy. He yours?"
Lena eyed this man suspiciously, shaking her hand. "Not biologically. What do you want?"
"I'm sorry," the man chuckled nervously, "I'm Josh Kohn," he introduced himself, quickly reaching for a handshake, "federal agent."
Lena internally rolled her eyes, looking down at the outstretched hand before her and refused to shake it. "Now why would a federal agent be lurking outside of the NICU?"
Kohn shamefully took his hand back, feeling rejected and a bit irritated. "I'm a friend of Tara Knowles."
A friend of Tara's? She was now in with the feds? "Still doesn't explain why you're lurking outside of a baby's room."
"He's Jax Teller's kid, right?" Kohn ignored Lena, pointing to the window, he had been peeping in. "Maybe I can get a few minutes of your ti–"
Lena scoffed, cutting the lurking agent off. "Let me stop you right there, Agent. I see exactly what this. Listen, I don't talk to feds. If you have questions about Jax Teller, you can ask Jax Teller yourself."
This wasn't something new to Lena. It seemed like every six months or so, the feds were trying to find something against SAMCRO, and that meant sometimes trying to swindle information from anyone remotely close to the MC. They weren't going to find anything, especially not from her. She wasn't, and would never be a rat.
"So, I'm guessing you're the girlfriend?" Kohn pointed out, with a creepy grin on his face. "Protecting her man, huh?" He questioned, before stepping closer to Lena. "You know what happens to girlfriends of men like Jax Teller, right?"
Lena swallowed thickly, a feeling of disgust creeping up her spine. "I think you need to leave, Agent." She narrowed her dark eyes up at the federal agent. "Before you find out what happens to feds who harass girlfriends of men like Jax Teller."
Kohn didn't let Lena get another step in, as he then forcibly grabbed her upper arm and yanking her closer to him. His grip tightened with every word. "Is that a threat? You better watch who you're speaking to, girl."
Fear sat in the pit of Lena's stomach, as she looked up into the sadistic look into his eyes. "Let me go. Before I have your ass arrested assault, Agent." She quickly snatched her arm back and backed away from him.
"The only ones who are going to be arrested are your boyfriend and his little motorcycle gang." Kohn called out watching Lena walk away. "Believe that."
Lena ignored Kohn's taunting and shut the door closed. She then looked out of the window, through the blinds, as creepy federal agent still stood there watching her back. He stayed for the next few seconds, before he gave her a small wave and finally walked away.
Lena's heart beat angrily against her ribcage. She had no idea who this guy was, but he creeped her the fuck out. Most of the ATF agents she had the displeasure of dealing with were harmless compared to this sadistic fucker. She thought of calling Jax, and letting him know, but then quickly changed her mind. If SAMCRO was being investigated by ATF, then she knew that Jax would be well aware of Kohn, and telling him would only complicate things. So she just turned to look back into Abel's incubator, hoping that the little boy would make her feel a little better.
"Oh, you're still here." Tara walked in, causing Lena to jump slightly in fright.
"Yeah," Lena nodded, "I'm still here." She then turned her full attention to Tara. She wasn't going to tell Jax, but she damn was going to get some answers from the doctor. "Can we talk?"
"Uh," Tara's brows furrowed, as she noticed Lena's jittery mood, "sure."
Lena gestured that they should step out of Abel's room, right where she and Kohn had stood. "What the hell are you doing getting into bed with the feds?"
"Excuse me?" Tara stood taken aback by Lena's accusation. "I have no idea what you're talking about. Are you okay? You seem a little on edge."
Lena folded her arms across her chest. "Well, I just had a run in with your ATF friend, Josh Kohn."
Tara's entire face paled at the sound of his name. She quickly stepped to Lena and whispered, "where did you see him?"
"Just now." Lena began, still trying to calm her racing heart, "he was lurking outside of Abel's room. So you do know him?"
"Where is he now?" Ignoring Lena's question, she asked her own, eyeing her surroundings, nervously.
"I told him to leave." Lena confessed. "He wanted to talk to me about Jax. Apparently, he's investigating SAMCRO."
"Look," Tara reached out and touched Lena's arm, "if you see him, again, just stay away from him, please."
Lena sighed heavily, throwing her hands in the air. "Trust me, I have no plans to engage with that creep, but what exactly is his deal?"
Tara shook her head fervently. "Trust me, this is not about Jax. He's a really dangerous man, Lena, and you just need to keep your distance." She then turned on her heel and walked away, leaving Lena even more confused.
Later that evening, Lena arrived back at her house. As she clicked the alarm on her car, she made her way up to the front door. She quickly shot Jax off a quick text, letting him know that she was finally home. She just wanted to forget what happened with that creepy fed today. Again she thought about telling Jax, but she knew exactly how he'd react, and she didn't need him getting arrested for hurting, or even possibly killing a fed. She was just going to try to put it all behind her and avoid Kohn if he ever came around again.
As Lena unlocked the door and stepped inside, she received a reply back from Jax.
-k, be there in an hour-
Lena smiled down at the text. That meant she had just enough time to shower. By the time she'd slipped on her favorite of cheeky, lace panties and one of Jax's SAMCRO t-shirts, she heard the roaring sounds of his bike pulling into her driveway.
She quickly met him at the door, as he was walking in.
"Now this is the kind of welcome home I like." Jax said, smirking at Lena's appearance.
She gave him a smile of her own, wrapping her arms around his neck. Jax then leaned forward and pressed his mouth against hers.
"This is all for you, baby." Lena replied with a giggly squeal, as Jax attached his lips to her neck.
"It better be." He then reached down and grabbed a handful of her ass cheeks, giving them a soft squeeze.
Lena quickly pulled back, quirking an eyebrow at him. "Is that so?"
Jax nodded, still with that shit eating grin on his face. "Absolutely, darlin'."
He kissed her once more, before pushing her gently down onto the couch. He then proceeded to remove his kutte and toed out of his sneakers. Next went his white tee and finally his jeans.
He climbed on top of Lena, helping her to remove his shirt from her body and tossing it with the rest of his clothes. That left her bare to him from the waist up. He eyed her up and down, his blue eyes darkening at the sight of her heaving, puckered dark nipples. His hand attached itself to her throat, as he leaned forward and shoved his tongue in her mouth.
Lena kissed him back with the same passion, her fingers clawing and scratching at the reaper tattoo on his back.
Jax then began to place feverish kisses down Lena's neck, to her collar, through the valley between her full breasts. His calloused fingers, kneaded the flesh, twisting and pinching at her nipples, before taking one into his awaiting mouth.
Lena moaned softly, as Jax sucked and bit on her sensitive skin. He followed down, placing butterfly kisses along her belly and finally one last one to her hip bone, before removing her panties. Again, this time, she let out a pleasurable sigh and a gasp, as he dived straight into her wetness.
As Jax made love to Lena's lower half, the couple had yet to realize that they were currently being watched. There, sat an unknown figure, in an unmarked vehicle. The figure was currently snapping not so innocent photos of Jax and Lena in the throws of passion.
The figure smirked sadistically to themselves snapping photo after photo, finally getting their money shot.
Once they were done, they started up their engine and quickly sped off into the night.