Protecting the Heart
Disclaimers: I do not own any part of Glee or its characters. This is purely for pleasure I get nothing else for this. Want to give a special thanks to Niekie for helping proof read this story for me. She's all kinds of awesome and an amazing author herself. Check out her Glee fic too.
Chapter 9
The next week went by quickly. Sunday Teddy woke up and was in a happy mood. It was like the day before never happened. Santana and Rachel were happy about this for now but knew that eventually it would come up again. They spent the day with the three of them putting together the baby's bed and setting up the room for her. The paintings they did on the wall for her turned out so nice and they couldn't wait until they were dry and framed. The day was a good one and everyone was happy when they went to bed.
Monday and Tuesday Santana had class then the campus was closed the rest of the week. Wednesday they all spent part of the day at the store picking the rest of the things up for Thanksgiving dinner and Teddy's birthday party on Saturday. Come Thursday morning they had everything they needed and Rachel was up early to prepare dinner. Santana got up with her too since neither of them could sleep anymore with the other not in the bed with them.
A few hours later Will, Danial and Ely showed up and the cooking was in full swing. Once Santana and Teddy finished up the stuffing and pies they head into the living room with Daniel and Ely to watch some TV. The boys quickly got bored with football and ran off to Teddy's room to play. Once dinner was complete they all sat down to a beautiful meal and just enjoyed each other's company for the rest of the day.
Friday they double checked the things for the party the next day then they just spent the day curled up watching movies and playing with Teddy. That night Santana awoke to him crawling in bed with them. He burrowed into her chest not saying a word. Rachel woke a few minutes later and smiled sadly at him rubbing his back helping him get back to sleep.
The next morning Santana woke with Teddy completely on top of her and Rachel curled into her side reminding her of the first night they were all together in that little apartment in Virginia. Smiling, she nudged Rachel kissing her on the head trying to wake her.
Rachel burrowed in as much as her belly would allow and kissed her neck softly, "Sleeping."
Santana chuckled. "I know babe but I have a weight on my chest and we need to get up and get ready for our boy's big day."
She looked up confused and smiled softly seeing Teddy burrowed into Santana's chest. "I see he's found the comfy spot to sleep. It's one of my favorites too."
They both laugh softly and Rachel moved so Santana could shift and put Teddy on the bed. Rachel walked to her and stood between her legs when she sat up on the side of the bed. "I still need my morning kisses."
Santana smiled and pulled her down connecting their lips. The position was a little awkward with Rachel's belly as she tried to lean over so Santana stood and pulled her in deepening the kiss. "Mmm… That's better."
Rachel smiled pulling her back in not releasing her until they both needed air. "Thank you. I guess we better get showered and dressed for the day." She looked at the clock seeing the time. "We need to be out of the house and on our way in two hours."
Kissing her once more Santana smiled. "Go ahead and get your shower. I'll get this boy moving and start breakfast. He requested Mami pancakes for his birthday breakfast."
Rachel chuckled and moved to their closet. "Yea yea I know. He prefers your pancakes."
"Yea but he prefers everything else you make so I say you still have a leg up on me." They both laugh and move to get their day started.
When Rachel comes down stairs she finds Santana at the stove and Teddy sitting at the counter talking animatedly about the dinosaur he's looking at. Upon further inspection Rachel sees that it's a pancake he's talking about and she just smiles. "Ana, did you really buy a dinosaur mold to make pancakes with?"
Santana turned around and beamed. "I found it at the store when I went looking for the stuff you wanted to make his cake and I couldn't resist."
Teddy held up a pancake and smiled. "Look mama a long neck."
Rachel chuckled. "I think you are watching too much Land Before Time little man. You keep forgetting their real names."
He shook his head vigorously. "No I didn't, it's just easier to say long neck. I know what it is for real mama."
"Yea mama, he knows the right names." Santana smirks at her and earns a slap to the shoulder causing them all to laugh.
Santana finishes up cooking and they eat discussing the itinerary for the day. Once they finish they clean up and head upstairs for showers and baths. A short time later they are loaded up and are on their way to the museum to set up for his party right on time. When they arrive they are shown to the party room and they work on getting it all ready and by the time the party's about to start everything is ready and looks great.
Rachel stands back looking it all over and smiled as arms circle her waist. "It turned out really wonderful. He's so excited."
Santana kissed her neck softly and rubbed her belly lovingly. "Yea it turned out awesome, a little caveman's dream." She kissed her once more and motioned to the door. "Looks like the guests are starting to arrive. There's Will, Daniel and Ely. Let's go say hi."
Rachel nodded happily and took her hand pulling her to the entrance to greet their guests.
An hour later the party is still going strong and they are just getting back from a private tour of the museum. Santana pulled out the cake as Rachel got everyone to the table. Santana lit the candles and everyone sang. Teddy smiled and closed his eyes and when they stopped singing he blew out his candles with the biggest smile on his face.
Ely clapped happily next to him. "Did you wish for it like you said?"
Teddy nodded vigorously. "Oh yes, I need that wish the most."
Santana and Rachel shared a look and Rachel leaned down to his ear. "What did you wish for baby?"
Teddy shook his head. "I can't tell or it won't come true but I told you I had a plan."
He smiled so brightly and Rachel's heart breaks at the hope in his eyes. "Baby I…"
She tries to say something to him but Santana put a hand on her shoulder and shook her head. "We'll talk to him later."
Rachel stood back up with a nod and they moved to cut up the beautiful dinosaur cake she had made for him and passed it around.
The party continued on for a while then a commotion at the door causes them all look up to see Santa Clause standing there. "Ho Ho Ho everyone, I was just in the neighborhood and I knew there was a birthday boy here so I came to say happy birthday."
The kids all cheered and rushed to him. Thankfully for him it was just the five kids from the neighborhood so he wasn't knocked over. The parents all smiled and watched as he took a seat in the corner and one by one the children took turns sitting and telling him what they wanted for Christmas.
Teddy was last and was vibrating with excitement. Santa picked him up and settled him on his knee. "Well birthday boy, do you know what you want for Christmas?"
Teddy nodded vigorously. "Yes sir. I was going to write you a letter but this is better. If I ask you now and wit my birthday wish too it has to come true."
Rachel turned her head into Santana's chest and Santana just wrapped her arms around her. They knew what he was about to ask for and it broke their hearts even more.
Santa gave them a look then turned back to Teddy. "Well, I always do my best for good little girls and boys so why don't you tell me what you want."
Teddy looked to Santana for a moment then pulled Santa down to whisper in his ear. "I want to keep my Mami forever and ever. So can she just stay here with us and not go to where papa and granddaddy are?"
He looked up sharply to Santana not sure what to say to the boy. The way he worded it the man thought that Santana was sick or something so he just held him close. "Well, I'll see what I can do but some things aren't up to me. I will do what I can though and you just keep wishing and praying for what you want ok."
Teddy smiled brightly and nodded once more before holding his arms out to Santana to take him. She immediately had him in her arms and hugged him close. "See, it will be ok soon Mami. My plan will work, you'll see."
It took everything in Santana's power to not burst into tears right there. All the other parents looked at them a little confused as to the emotions coming off of them but Rachel picked that moment to call everyone back to the table for presents since Santa interrupted before he could open them and everyone was back in party mode.
The rest of the day went on without a hitch. After presents the kids played a few more games and Rachel handed out the party favors as everyone left. Will and Daniel stayed and helped pack everything up and get it all in Santana's SUV then they were all headed for home.
Once they got home they just went through the motions of getting everything brought in, put up and getting dinner on the table. That night they put Teddy to bed then went to get ready for bed themselves. Neither had said a word about what happened and what Teddy wished for or asked Santa for.
When Santana came in the room from using the bathroom Rachel was sitting against the headboard of the bed waiting for her. She moved to get in bed herself then stood and started pacing. "I can't do this."
Rachel looked up confused. "Can't do what Ana?"
"Get in bed and pretend that everything is ok. I can't do it. He used his birthday wish and asked Santa for me, to keep me. How am I supposed to just get in bed and act like that didn't happen today?"
Rachel scooted to the edge of the bed and sat. "I didn't ask you to. I was just waiting for you to come to bed so we could talk about it."
Santana threw up her hands in exasperation. "What is there to talk about? There is only one way to fix this and I don't think you're going to be willing to do that so what do we have to talk about?"
Rachel was about to stand and go to her when Santana dropped to her knees in front of her and hugged her around waist kissing her belly. "Please, you have to let me come home with you all when this is all over. Please baby please?"
Tears started flowing down her face and Rachel could no longer hold onto her own. "Ana we can't just keep pretending when we go back. That wouldn't be healthy for either of them or for us."
Santana looked up her eyes pleading. "I'm not pretending. I love him so much and I love this baby. I need to be their Mami. I need to be with you all for real. Just please, please say we can figure out how to still be a family when we have to go back. I need my family."
Her tears were coming harder and Rachel was having a hard time not just giving her whatever she wanted. "I know you love them but we can't continue to pretend to be together when we go back just for the children's sake. We'd end up hating each other and I couldn't live with that."
"Damn it Rachel it's not just for the children's sake. Yes I love them like they came from my own body but it's more than that." She took a deep breath and sat back on her heals to look up into Rachel's eyes. It was now or never. "I'm not pretending. I haven't been pretending since the moment you walked through that apartment door Rachel. I love you. I want to be with you."
She rose up and kissed her softly. "Can't you feel it when we kiss? When I hold you?" She stood pushing Rachel back.
Rachel couldn't speak. She could barely breathe. She had no words and was only able to take Santana's wordless directions and scoot back on the bed lying down.
Santana took her in her arms and kissed her again then whispered against her mouth. "Can't you feel it Rachel, when I run my hands along your body, when we're kissing in the mornings before we get up or at night before bed?" She pulled her closer running her hands down her side and hips. "Can't you feel it when I wrap my arms around you when I get home from work or just because you look so good standing there and I need to hold you? Can't you feel it?"
Rachel gasped out when her hand ran over the side of her breast. "Yes I can feel it. I feel it every time I hold you. Every time you take me into your arms and kiss me. I was just afraid it was all in my head, that I was just projecting what I wanted onto what was real."
Santana smiled into her neck and kissed her pulse point lovingly. "This is real Rachel. It's all real. The way I kiss you," She kissed her tenderly. "The way I hold you," She squeezed her tighter for a moment. "The way I touch you," She ran her hand back down over the side of her breast and down over her hip to the swell of her ass. "Can you feel it Rachel?"
Tears started to pour out down her face again as she was given everything she ever wanted from this woman. "Yes Ana I feel it."
"Good," she said as she pushed back up and took her lips again in a kiss so full of love and tenderness that Rachel couldn't deny what it was. Santana was loving her, cherishing her and it was more than she could have ever hoped for. "Tell me we can work this out baby. Please tell me that I will not lose my family, that I will not lose what you and I have built here. Tell me that you aren't pretending either and we can just be together like we have been only better."
Rachel took her face in her hands. "I'm not pretending. I never was. I want you too. I want our family. I want everything with you, everything you have said. Yes we can be together like we have been only better because now we know it's real for both of us. I love you too."
Santana choked on a sob and pulled Rachel impossibly closer. "God I love you." She said as she took her mouth again. This kiss was almost desperate but Rachel didn't mind. She was feeling it to, the desperation to just dive in and finally just be.
After a while the kiss lost a little of its desperation as hands started to roam. Their hands were everywhere all at once not wanting to miss an inch. Santana rose up hovering above her and took a breast in her hand and Rachel moaned into her mouth and pulled away slightly. "Oh god…"
Santana moved down to her neck and started raining open mouthed kisses all around her neck and upper chest. She ran her hand down Rachel's body to the hem of her night dress and pulled it up so she could caress her bare thigh and hip. "Jesus you're so soft." She ran her hand higher and stopped right below her breasts. "Can I?"
Rachel nodded vigorously. "Yes please. Just be gentle."
With a nod she moved her hand up over her right breast and squeezed lightly causing them both to moan at the contact. They had let hands roam before but never on bare skin. This was heaven for both of them. Rachel shifted slightly and pulled on Santana's tank top.
Santana took the hint and pulled it off and almost came undone when Rachel leaned forward and took a nipple into her mouth "Sweet Jesus..."
She repeated the action on the other breast before she released it and pulled her back down into a searing kiss and allowed her to take her night dress off as well. When they came back together for their first skin on skin experience Santana gasped losing her breath and Rachel moaned obscenely. "Oh my god Ana you feel so good."
Santana couldn't speak so she just leaned in and took her lips again before slowly moving lower kissing every inch of skin she could find until she finally came to her goal and took a nipple into her mouth and gently started to suckle on it. Rachel arched off the bed and buried her hands in her hair. "Oh god…"
Santana moved sideways kissing as she went. "I've waited so long to kiss you here and take these into my mouth. God you're exquisite. I could feast on you forever."
Rachel was beside herself in sensations. "I wouldn't… mind as… long as I… get my… turn…"
"Mmm, anytime you want." She said as she moved back up to kiss her once more. She meant for the kiss to be gentle but Rachel had other plans as she pulled her down and demanded entrance. She didn't mind one bit.
The kiss grew in intensity and hands were once again roaming. Rachel came to Santana's waist band and pulled. "Off." she only detached long enough to utter the one word and Santana could only comply while her mouth was being ravished.
Once her shorts and panties were gone the only clothing that remained on either of them was Rachel's panties. Rachel quickly removed those as well and Santana could only stare. "God you are so beautiful."
Rachel shook her head and looked away. "No I'm not, not like you. I'm fat and hideous."
Santana moved to kneel between her legs and caressed her belly reverently. "You," she kissed her belly lovingly, "are so beautiful. This doesn't change that. This is just our daughter and I think it makes you even more stunning then you normally are because of that." She rubbed all over and kissed every inch of their baby.
Rachel's breath caught at the loving way she was caressing her baby bump and the words she was saying. Tears once again fell as she pulled her up and kissed her. "You are so amazing. How did I get so lucky?"
Santana shrugged and kissed her nose. "I think I'm the lucky one."
They both shared a smile then pushed back in to each other. Things quickly heated up again and Rachel ran her hand down to Santana's center cupping her. Santana threw her head back detaching from the kiss. "OH GOD!"
Rachel was in awe of the feeling of her and Santana's eyes crossed as she ran a finger from opening to clit. "You feel like silk Ana."
Santana just moaned and moved her own hand down to run her fingers through Rachel's folds as well. "Oh god you feel… I don't have words baby."
They both moaned falling back into each other's mouths, no more words needed for the moment.
They both unconsciously matched the other as they explored each other's folds and started concentrating on each other's clits. Before long they were writhing against each other panting unable to breathe enough to kiss that much anymore.
Santana's legs started shaking and Rachel just couldn't take it anymore so she slipped two fingers inside her. Santana threw her head back and instantly came when Rachel curled her fingers. Her body went ridged and shook as her orgasm over took her. Rachel just lovingly stroked her inside until she came down.
Once she did she started moving her fingers again more vigorously against Rachel. "Oh god baby that's was… that was so amazing. I want you to cum for me."
Rachel's legs started to shake now too and she shook her head from side to side. "No… inside… first… please…"
Santana slowed her fingers and looked up into Rachel's eyes. "I don't want to hurt you or Rosie."
Rachel shook her head again and took her face in her hands. "I promise you won't hurt us baby please. I need you inside me." She said in desperation.
With a nod she positioned her fingers and pushed in slowly until she was fully seated. "Oh god you are so tight."
Rachel moaned loudly and grabbed her forearm to keep her from moving. "Oh shit Ana, just stay right there."
She stayed still and just watched Rachel's face as she tried to control her body's reaction. After a moment Rachel released her arm. "Ok."
Santana started moving slowly in and out loving the feel of her. Rachel was loving it as well but it just wasn't enough. "Faster, harder, Ana please."
She looked up concerned, "But…"
Rachel shook her head. "You won't hurt me, god please I need you."
Santana nodded and started moving faster and harder. Rachel was writhing and after a few more thrusts of Santana's hand she was flying. "OhshitohshitOHGODANA!"
She helped her ride out her orgasm before pulling out and shifting until they were settled with Rachel on her chest. Rachel leaned up still catching her breath and kissed her lovingly. "I love you Ana."
Santana smiled and pulled her closer. "I love you too baby so much."
They settled in together and sleep found them quickly. They knew they still had a lot to talk about but they had told each other how they felt and for right now that was enough. Rachel's breathing evened out first and Santana ran her hand down to her belly like always. "Mami loves you Rosie and now I get to keep you."
She fell asleep shortly after and Rachel kissed her neck lightly. "Good night baby."
A/N: Christmas and a few surprises. Also things in New York heat up.