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Chapter 15
BPOV
December
It was early December, and we were out hunting. We had noticed that the snow had started falling the day before. Emmett had warned us the other day that it was coming. This meant that Olivia would be arriving soon. We weren't sure exactly when, but we were being vigilant. And I was huge. Like about to pop, huge. This didn't make hunting all that easy for me.
The last couple of months have been pretty great. Edward and I have been adjusting really well to being vampires. We weren't quite ready to be around humans yet, but we were working our way up to it, slowly. We've come across a human scent a couple of times, and tried to acclimate ourselves to it. It was… hard. Like really, really hard to not go running after the guy that was in the woods, hunting. Which was ironic. That scent hit both of us so damn hard that I was surprised that Jasper, Alice, Rose, Emmett, Carlisle and Esme could hold us back. We were so completely consumed by the scent that it was all we could think about. I thought that animal blood smelled appealing… god, was I wrong.
But we were finally able to rein in our crazed thirsts. It wasn't easy, by any means, but we did it. After that, we at least knew what we were in for when we caught the scent of a human after that.
Edward and I have been amazing together, too. I thought we were insatiable when we were humans… all I can say is, WOW. I may be pregnant, but I still want him more than anything. It has actually brought us closer. Not just the sex, but being more in tuned with each other than we ever have been before.
We also have been adjusting very well with our gifts. Although Edward can't exactly 'turn off' the thoughts that he hears. He's starting to figure out how to tune them out sometimes by focusing on something else. But they're always there.
My gifts were becoming very easy to work with, as well. Putting my shield over Edward was like second nature to me. I was still jumpy when he reacted to some of my thoughts. It's hard to get used to. And it's becoming easier for Alice to see the future for me. Even if my shield isn't around her. We've figured it's because she's becoming so attuned to me that it's the same as being under my shield. Or Olivia is letting her in and we just don't know it. Rose and Jasper can't always feel my emotions, but they're both learning to read me and my reactions so they knows how I'm feeling.
We did try, one day, practicing with Carlisle's gift. Just to see if it would work.
We started small, with him moving a throw pillow my way, and shockingly, it bounced off before it ever got to me. It ended up ricocheting off the window and then hit Emmett in the face.
We all found it hilarious. Emmett… not so much. He wanted to be able to do that, himself.
And Olivia's been growing… rapidly. Everyday my body was changing and it was freaking me out, sometimes. But Edward was always telling me how unbelievably beautiful I am… biased ass that he is…
She's also been getting stronger with her gifts. It's scary to know how powerful she'll be.
But knowing that she'll be here soon has been making us all really excited.
We even got Monkey settled at the house with us. I'd been so worried about him. But, Alice and Esme promised that he'd been perfectly fine with the foster family that had been taking care of him for the short time it took us to get adjusted. Monkey is usually just running around the house, doing his own thing, now. He doesn't really bother anyone, which was a great relief.
We ended up getting Olivia's and our room done in just a couple of days. It wasn't that hard with all the people in the house helping. I think Alice, Rose and Esme took things a little overboard, but how could I not let them do something that they love? Rose really got into the mix, buying almost as much as Alice and Esme had for Olivia. But I really couldn't begrudge her that. She deserved it.
We were also getting along with each other a lot better than I ever expected. Rose was not as indifferent as she had been when we first got here. Alice has become almost attached to my hip. Jasper has been so supportive in helping with our gifts. Emmett has been a huge source of entertainment. And Esme and Carlisle have both been amazing parental figures. We've turned into a real family. A huge one, at that.
Things were really good, so far.
I've also been worried about how we're supposed to deliver Olivia. None of us knew for sure if a traditional delivery would be how we did it, or if we would have to do something like a c-section. That one, I wasn't looking forward to.
I was waiting for Edward to finish with the mountain lion he had found; when it felt like my whole body was revolting against me. My insides felt like they were being ripped apart and breaking. I started screaming bloody murder. Being a vampire, we have a high tolerance for pain… but this is beyond anything I've ever felt… Even the car accident and being changed.
I vaguely heard Edward rushing over to where I was. "Bells? Baby, what's going on? Are you ok? Is it Olivia?" Edward asked, frantically.
I nodded. "I think… she's…" I tried to tell him, only to be cut off by my own screams again. "Edward… she's coming… oh god…"
"ALICE! JASPER! GUYS, GET BACK TO THE HOUSE!" Edward yelled into the trees. "Baby, I'm gonna carry you back, ok? We'll be there soon."
He picked me up, as carefully as he could, and took off towards home. I couldn't really focus on anything. The trees were a blur; I was just trying to focus myself on Olivia. If this was how much pain I was in now, god help me when she actually comes out.
I could feel Alice and Jasper close by us. This meant the others were probably not too far behind.
Before I knew it, we were coming through the clearing of trees, over the river, and running up the stairs and into the house. I found myself lying on the bed in our room.
Edward was at my side immediately. "Bells, Carlisle's getting everything he can think of that will help us deliver her, ok? We still don't know what will work…" He started, only to be cut off by my screams again.
Christ, how do women do this more than once? This is fucking torture.
"Bella, sweetheart, I need for you to try to tell me what you're feeling. I know it's a stupid question, but please give me something so I can estimate what's happening." Carlisle said when he walked in.
Oh for fuck's sake…
"…It feels like… my insides are shattering… like she's pulling… on just about anything she can… AHHHH!… I think she's… trying to tear her way out… SHIT!" I got hit with another round of torturous pain.
Carlisle looked almost panicked, and Edward looked like someone had just shot him.
"Carlisle, we've gotta get her out of there, now. Olivia's panicking, and it's not good for her." Edward said in a very pained voice.
Carlisle looked over at him and then to me, then nodded. "She's not coming out the normal way, Edward… we've got to find a way that-" He was cut off by the most blood-curdling scream I've ever heard. Only to find that it was me doing the screaming again.
I was hunched over, on my hands and knees, with one hand over my stomach. I was trying to calm her down some, but I don't even know if it was working.
I felt Edward's arms around me and his soothing voice in my ear. "Baby, hold on. Just hold onto me. We're gonna get her out, I promise." He kept repeating.
I felt him stiffen behind me. "Carlisle, is that the only way to do this? There's nothing else?" He asked.
"I'm sorry, Edward. If you said she's panicking, then she's in distress. She probably won't be able to go through the birth canal, so we have to do it this way." Carlisle said with unease in his voice.
Edward seemed to be looking at his thoughts, then spoke up. "I'll do it, Carlisle. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable doing that."
"What are you two… talking about?" I tried to get out without screaming this time.
Edward turned back to me and tried to even out his voice. "Bells, I'm gonna have to… basically tear into your skin at your uterus… Our skin can't be cut by anything else, so it'll have to be done by my teeth. It's the only way we can see to get her out of there."
I started panicking a little. That sounded worse than a regular c-section, to be honest. But I guess you could say it was the vampire equivalent.
Olivia continued her assault on my insides, and I wasn't really in the mood for caring how they got her out now, so long as they actually got her out.
"Edward, whatever you have to do… just do it… I can't take much more of this… I think she's freaking out in there." I said in between pants.
Edward nodded. "Ok baby, I need you to turn back over on your back, so I can get to your stomach. Come on." He helped me turn back around and lay back, as comfortably as possible.
The shirt and shorts I had been wearing were discarded. Not that I really care at this moment. I did see that Carlisle had something to cover me up with, but right now, I'd rather just get the baby out. I'll worry about my modesty later. At least I had on a bra and panties to begin with.
Things started looking black around the edges of my vision… this could not be good. I knew this feeling from when I was a human. I was about to pass out.
Since when do fucking vampires pass out? That's not possible, is it?
I tried to reach my hand out, but I have no clue if it actually moved. But I got my answer when Carlisle grabbed hold of it, tightly.
"I'm right here, dear. Squeeze as tight as you have to. We'll have her out as soon as possible." Carlisle tried to sooth me.
I think I tried to open my mouth to tell him what was wrong, but I think it just came out as gibberish.
I'm not really sure what all was happening, but I know I felt the tearing in the bottom of my stomach. It felt like fire. I don't remember much after that because I obviously lost some form of consciousness for a little bit. I guess my body couldn't take so much torture anymore and it had to slow down.
The next thing I knew, I could hear the sweetest cooing sound from across the room.
I opened my eyes to look around, and I saw Edward, with a pink bundle in his arms. He had the happiest look in the world, on his face. I could see the pride coming off of him. He was already wrapped around that little girl's finger, and he didn't even know it.
I felt around on my body to see how bad off I was. But I found that there was nothing there. No open wound, no blood, no discomfort. Nothing. But I did see a faint scar on my lower abdomen. Either I was out for a really long time, or we heal really fucking fast.
Edward must have heard me moving around and turned to look at me. "Oh, Bells." He rushed over to me. "Someone here has been very anxious to meet her mommy." He said in a very sweet, almost heart-melting, voice.
I held my hands out to him, and he carefully placed our little girl in my arms. I peered down at the little bundle in my arms, and my breath stopped.
She was absolutely perfect. She already had the start of some unruly bronze colored hair. She had my face, Edward's nose and jaw. She looked around, then straight up at me, and I saw my brown eyes. She had a beautiful, pale complexion, as well. And now, I'm just noticing that she has Edward's ears. So cute. I love his ears. And now, hers.
I can't even think of how I'm supposed to start breathing again. I'm so mesmerized by her. You can't help it when you look at her.
I felt Edward lay beside me on the bed and look down at her, also.
"Bells, she came out perfectly fine. We were right, she was panicking in there. I guess she was moving around and the cord wrapped around her neck and arm, and it freaked her out. So that's what all the pain was from. But she was so worried about you when she came out and saw you not moving. She thought she killed you." Edward explained.
Oh my poor little angel.
I looked back down at her and… there seemed to be relief in her eyes. "Oh my sweet girl. Don't ever worry about that. You were in distress and tried to find a way out of it. I'm perfectly fine. I love you so much, Olivia." I leaned down and kissed her little forehead.
I heard her sweet coos and it just melted my heart.
I looked up into Edward's eyes and tried to relay all the love I felt in that moment. There were so many emotions going through me, but love was the predominate one.
"I know, baby, I know. I love you, too. And I love this tiny angel, right here, too." He leaned down and kissed her forehead, as well.
We stayed there in the bed for a while, just rocking her back and forth. She finally went to sleep. This shocked me a little. I wasn't sure if she would actually sleep at all.
Carlisle came back in and checked on us. I felt totally fine, but he insisted that I be checked. When he did, everything seemed good. There was no lingering effects or feeling from when they took the baby out.
Olivia was a riot with Carlisle. She giggled at him the whole time he was checking her out. Carlisle couldn't keep from laughing at how silly she was being. I thought that there was no way she could get any cuter… but I was wrong. I have a feeling that this is just the tip of the iceberg with her.
"She's perfect, Bella. No problems with her, at all. She's probably one of the healthiest babies I've ever seen. We haven't gotten to the point of feeding her yet, so we don't know what her diet is." Carlisle explained as he handed her back to me.
I looked up at Edward. "Has she thought about that yet?"
"Not really. She's said she was getting hungry, but hasn't told me what she wants." Edward said, looking concerned.
Huh… well I guess now is as good a time as any.
"Livy, baby girl, can you tell us what it is you want to drink? Do you want milk or… blood?" I ask, tentatively. There's really no easy way to ask that.
She looked thoughtful for a moment, then I saw it. Flowing red liquid… she wanted blood.
"Oh, thank God. I don't think I could be around human food all the time." I said in relief.
"She showed you, didn't she?" Carlisle asked.
I nodded and looked at him expectantly.
"She did that when we first got her out. She saw you, not moving, then she showed me that she wanted you to wake up and be with her. She was really worried about you." Carlisle explained.
I love this little girl.
I looked down at her again and she was just staring at me. She was obviously worried I was going to disappear on her.
"I'm not going anywhere, angel. You're stuck with me. AND daddy." I laughed when he playfully glared at me.
"Alright, mommy needs to go get cleaned up and changed. Come on, little one. Let's go see if Aunt Alice has your 'breakfast' ready yet." Edward said as he pulled her into his arms. I was sad that I wouldn't get to feed her this first time, but lord knows, I'll be feeding her plenty of times in the future. I just wonder how long…
Once Edward and Olivia were out of the room, I moved to get up. It felt so weird not having her in my stomach anymore. I felt a lump in my throat and tried to swallow around it. I guess most moms feel that way.
"It IS normal. I know you're thinking about the separation. It happens with a lot of new moms. They will go through some form of post partum depression. It can go by quickly, or it can linger for a while. But you will be fine. Judging from the fact that you didn't take off down the hall after her, means it won't be bad." Carlisle told me.
That was a relief.
"Thanks, Carlisle. For everything. You've been so good to us." I said.
"No thanks are necessary, my dear. You're my daughter, and I would do whatever needed to be done for you. And Edward."
I walked over to him and hugged him. He was such a good man.
I ran into our bathroom and quickly showered because I'm sure I looked rough. Once I was done, I changed into jeans and a t-shirt and ran back downstairs. When I got there, I stopped in my tracks.
Edward was holding Olivia, by the back window, feeding her. It was just one of those moments that you couldn't think of anything better in life. Just watching your future husband and daughter together in such a simple act was heartwarming.
I walked over to them and rested my head against Edward's shoulder. I looked down at Olivia in his arms, and noticed that she looked different.
"Wow. She's changed already in the time it took to shower and change. Her face seems a little more defined." I whispered.
"Yeah. She's going to be all grown up before we even blink." Edward said playfully.
"Oh don't even say that. I want to keep her this little for as long as possible." I said, peeking at her again. I love how small she is right now.
"I called Eleazar and let him know Olivia was here. He's very excited to see her. He'll be down here in a day or two." Carlisle said, coming down the stairs.
"Good. He really was anxious to see her when she was born, before they left." I told him.
Over the next several days, we watched Olivia's growth patterns. It was insane that one day she looked like a newborn, and the next she looked a month older. This worried me a little. She would be at the developed size of an adult in a few years.
Eleazar was baffled by this, too. There hadn't been much said in stories about the powerful one, saying how fast she would grow or when the growth would stop.
We were starting to get a good routine going. Olivia slept well at night, and had a nap a couple of times a day. Her feeding schedule was always the same, thank goodness. It was a few times a day, but we also were in new territory with not knowing how a half vampire baby would eat.
It was several months later and we were getting worried that Olivia wouldn't speak. She always 'spoke' to us through her gift. But I wanted, so badly, to hear her little voice.
She had been so good the last few months. She never threw a fit, she slept all the way through the night, she kept to her eating schedule, she obviously never had a problem with Alice and Rose changing her clothes every few hours because she would just grow out of them within a few weeks. She was walking all by herself, looking to be like she was around two or three years old, which meant that she was always trying to chase around her aunts and uncles.
She never went after the cat. Which we were worried about. I guess she knew it was a pet and wasn't on the 'menu'.
Her features had become… stunning, really. The sweetest, angelic face, beautiful brown eyes, thick bronze hair that fell to her shoulders. Her smile… holy hell. She could get you to do absolutely anything in the world by flashing you that smile. It was radiant, sweet, crooked, and dangerously addictive. You had to see that smile. I thought her daddy was bad…
I guess she had had enough of us trying to coax her into talking one day, and caved in. She had been sitting by the back windows, playing with some toys when she finally spoke up.
"Mommy, can I go hunting with you and daddy?" My little girl asked.
I was coming out of the laundry room, taking clothes upstairs, and dropped the laundry basket on the floor when I heard her.
I was so shocked that she spoke, that I didn't really pay attention to what she actually said. I shook myself out of it after a few minutes, and so did Edward, Alice and Jasper.
"Wait, baby, you want to go hunting with us? Where did this come from?" I asked when I came out of my stupor.
"You guys always go out hunting, and I'm getting big enough to go, too. I may not be able to chase the big animals, but I want to at least try. There are bunnies in the woods, why can't I try that?" Olivia asked, looking up at me with hopeful brown eyes.
I looked over at Edward, Jasper and Alice to see what they thought. I wasn't sure if it was a good idea yet, but I'm a mother, I'm not going to want my baby chasing animals of any kind when she's still this young.
"Alice?" I asked, hoping she would give me an answer, one way or the other.
She got that glossy look in her eyes again, and I knew she was looking at the future. When she came back, she looked at me and smiled. "From what I can see, there doesn't seem to be any problems. When the others get back we can go."
Olivia started clapping and jumping up and down. Well I guess she's excited… and takes after her fucking aunt…
A/N: Well, that was a little tense there for a minute.
We're gonna be coming down the home stretch here in the next few chapters. But, that doesn't mean there's not more drama and danger to come.
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