Love Lies and Life

A/N: This chapter I credit to (Dendardendan) she reminded me of something that many people may not believe but happens and I really think she's in my brain or has access to my computer. Now many may hate me after this chapter but remember I love the drama and I love you all, also you must remember Fitz is 25 and Liv is 22 and still naïve to life and what it may bring. Is Liv pregnant? Mmm good question let read and find out.

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Chapter 14

She is more aggressive as well, more needing, more passion and more desire. As they exchange their tongues between their lips Fitz grinds hard into Liv's core. Liv begins to feel light headed and flush all over. "Fitz baby wait…wait love I think I have to throw up."

Liv pushes Fitz with all her strength because he wasn't moving fast enough and darts from the bed into the adjourning bathroom completely missing the toilet and puking on the floor. Fitz is gross out by the whole thing and almost pukes himself. He grabs a towel from the rack and throws it over the mess on the floor then steps over it grabbing smaller towel wetting it and placing it on Liv's neck as she leans over the toilet. This would normally make him think only one thing could be the reason for Liv sudden nausea but since they've haven't had sex it never crosses his mind.

"Livvie I think you coming down with something baby."

"Arrrggg." Liv continues unable to answer Fitz

Fitz damn near puking himself tries helping Liv as best as he can. He runs down stairs and grab some salsa water and crackers by the time he returns Liv has finally calmed down. "Here baby try this. It will settle your stomach." Liv takes the water and sips it. Fitz wets yet another towel and washes Liv's face. She sits back against the wall totally exhausted.

"I think I need to lie down." She says

Fitz slowly lifts her from the floor and carries her back to the bed. He then places the small garbage container next to her side of the bed. "How do you feel?"

"Tired, like I just got hit by a mac truck."

"I brought you some crackers."

"Mmm thanks babe just put them on the nightstand. I just want to sleep right now."

"Livvie are you sure you're ok?"

"Yes babe, that just wiped me out. I'm sorry."

"Ok." Fitz slides in behind Liv and they both try falling asleep when Liv says "Maybe you shouldn't sleep next to me I don't want to get you sick too. Both of us can't be sick at the same time."

"Right…right…umm I'll just sleep on the couch. Yell for me if you need me."

"Ok." She says half sleep only to wake in the night as her stomach began to churn and the vomiting starts again. Fitz is by her side in a flash. She holds her hand up to stop his approach as she settles down. "I'm fine but I really think you should stay away from me right now."

Fitz stops in his tracks and just watches Liv. It is killing him that she's sick and he can't do anything to help her without running the risk of them both getting sick. Somebody had to be healthy to take care of Caleb. "Liv baby you may need to see a doctor."

"I already have my yearly schedule for day after tomorrow. If I'm not feeling better by morning I will call for and emergency appointment sooner."

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The following morning Liv calls in sick to work. Fitz decided to go in since Liv was finally sleeping and no longer puking her guts out and practically yell at him for wanting to call in. He places a love note next to the bed on the nightstand and almost kisses Liv but stops himself and leaves. He would go to work but call Liv every 2 hours to check on her. She was mostly sleeping so he decided to leave early after checking in with his parents and Caleb. All was fine there. He knew Liv probably had not eaten since she was sleeping most of the morning, so he picked up her some soup and ginger ale before heading home.

Liv was just putting on her clothes after taking a bath. "Hi."

"Hi, are you feeling better?"

"Yes, I'm just starving right now I hope that's food in your hand."

"Yep I bought you some soup."

Liv ate the soup very slowly praying she didn't throw it back up and she didn't. The saltine crackers also helped. It wasn't until late into the night her stomach once again began to churn. "I think you might be coming down with the flu or some kind of bug."

"Yeah I think you may be right." Liv decided to nibble on crackers hoping again they would help her stomach. The ginger ale Fitz brought home also helped.

"I checked on Caleb mom said she'd keep him until you felt better or at least until you go to the doctor tomorrow."

"That's good." Liv stomach settled and she started to feel better. She only puked once in the night and for that she was grateful because Fitz was ready to forcefully take her to the hospital.

Finally it is the morning of Liv appointment. Fitz insisted on going with her. It's supposed to be her yearly exam but after explaining to her primary doctor her symptoms he decided to run a few extra tests. Bloodwork, urinalysis, cholesterol, HCG, and STD even though Liv notified him of her negative result she and Fitz took together several weeks ago. Forty-five minutes later the doctor returns with his findings.

"Well Olivia it looks like you are pretty healthy as you stated all STD's are negative and your cholesterol levels are great, but your HCG levels are very high so I ran urinalysis and bloodwork…Congratulations you are pregnant."

"WHAT!" Bothe Liv and Fitz say at the same time.

"NO no no this has to be some kind of mistake you need to run it again, I'm not even sexually active."

"I'm sorry Olivia I ran the testing thoroughly…."

He's interrupted when Fitz suddenly stands and walks out of the office without as much as a word. Liv reaches for his arm "Fitz baby…" He snatches his arm from her grip and continues walking slamming the door behind him. Liv jumps from her seat and goes after him.

"Fitz…Fitz…Fitz wait this has to be a mistake." She chases behind him but his long strides give him a good head start. Already embarrassed as all the other people waiting are looking at her with judgmental eyes she keeps up with her pursuit. "Fitz can you stop walking?" Once outside she yells "STOP WALKING!"

Fitz is already on the driver side of his car when he stops in his tracks. She looks at him with total fear in her eyes. "Fitz I'm just as confused as you are right now. This has to be some kind of mistake. The tests are wrong."

He intently stares at Liv. "Do you ever stop lying!?" This was not a question but an accusation. "I want you gone….TODAY! WE ARE DONE! I'll have my lawyer set up joint custody." He says with such venom in his tone it sent chills down Oliva's spine. He gets into his car and pulls off leaving her standing there only for her stomach to start to churn and right there on the sidewalk she begins to puke.

One hour later she arrives back at Fitz condo after calling a UBER for a ride. Too embarrassed to go back inside the doctor's office and in total denial of her newly diagnosed pregnancy she used her key to enter his apartment. She immediately sees all of her belongings sitting by the door already packed and ready for the taking. Tears fall from her eyes as Fitz walks into the room with a beer in his hand he sits on the sofa and turn on the television completely ignoring Liv's existence.

She timidly takes a few steps further into the condo. "Fitz I swear this has to be a mistake the test has to be wrong."

"Who is he?" He deep baritone voice sounds out

"Wh…what? You think I cheated on you?"

"How the fuck else do you explain it Olivia?"

"No…Fitz…I swear I'm not cheating on you. I can't explain it. Fitz I can't be pregnant. I will get a second opinion."

"No need Olivia as I said I will have my lawyer set up joint custody however you choose as long as it's fair." He stands as he speaking walking towards the door he opens it as he holds out his hand. Liv looks down at the keys in her hand and slowly removes the keys to his condo. "Fitz baby please let's just get a second opinion. It will show that the tests were wrong."

Fitz looks at Liv and then the hallway and back at her again signaling for her to leave. She gathers her bags "Fitz please?" She drags out and he slams the door in her face. Liv turns and walks to her car defeated broken and confused. She places her bags in her trunk and sits in her car. Unable to drive in this moment she cries. Fitz watches her from his large bay window and he also cries.

Fitz not understanding how she could cheat on him? When did she have time to cheat on him and who did she cheat with? They never got past 3rd base so there's no way possible she pregnant by him. He could not and would not put up with a cheater and a liar. He was there when Liv pissed in the cup and the blood was drawn from her arm. She could not lie her way out of this and Fitz was done he had given it his all. She tease and pulled him in knowing all the time she had been or was or maybe still is sleeping with someone else. Fitz wasn't fooling around his heart was broken. He called his lawyer and had him type up a custody agreement to be sent to Cyrus. He also immediately informed his parents the following morning.

Oh course they were shocked to say the least. They couldn't believe what Fitz was telling them. If they never had intercourse how on earth was she pregnant. They were at a loss. They would not judge Oliva hell the girl raised herself. She had no one to really teach or guide her. She had no family. The poor girl was all alone, but Marie would make time to stop by her place soon and share with her that she would always be a welcomed family member and this situation would not change that as far as she and Gerry were concerned. People make mistakes god knows she made her share of them.

Liv on the other hand would go to Abby's before picking up Caleb. She really needed a friend. Abby took one look at her and words were not needed. She takes Liv by the hand as David walks into the room. "Hey Liv." But Liv can't respond because the broken child inside of her came crashing out. It wasn't just any cry it was a cry of brokenness despair and heartache tag team by deep pain. Abby had never heard Liv cry so hard. Her small body trembled and in that moment Abby new this had something to do with Fitz but she also realized it was also something deeper. She waves a concerned David away and he hesitantly leaves the room.

"Liv what the hell happened? Please calm down you going to have a panic attack. Please Livvie try and calm down." Abby grabs her into a tight hug and rocks her and rocks her in hopes to calm her down. It would be over two hours before Liv completely calms down. She would stop crying only to just start all over again. Her face is so red her eyes are almost swollen shut, and her mouth is completely dry. Abby text David to bring a glass of water and he does non-verbally asking Abby is Liv will be alright. She informs him with a simple shake of the head. David sits down on the sofa not wanting to leave the room. His heart is breaking for Liv and whatever happened had to be very bad.

Liv never mentions anything about what happened she just asks Abby if she could pick up Caleb and she would call ahead to the Grants to let them know she was coming. Abby agrees so she makes the call. "Hi Marie, this is Liv I'm still not feeling well so my best friend Abby will be picking up Caleb she's a tall redhead can you have him ready for her?

"Sure Liv dear you sound terrible he could stay another day if you'd like."

"No I really miss him and the doctor said I'm not contagious so I'd really like for him to come home."

"Ok dear I'll get him ready."

"Just tell him auntie Abby's coming and he's going to be excited."

"Will do dear feel better. Bye now."

"Bye."

Once Abby returned with Caleb and he was put to bed later that night after Liv finally wakes from her exhausted and emotional sleep they would finally talk.

"So you're telling me you're pregnant even though you guys haven't had sex?" Abby ask in confusion

"No Abby I'm telling you the tests are wrong and Fitz just walked out mad without even trying to figure any of this out. Thinking I cheated on him."

"So you're not pregnant?"

"Abby…how in the hell can I get pregnant if I'm not having sex?"

"Ok so you're not pregnant but the doctor says you are and Fitz is mad because you guys haven't had sex but since it was a doctor that said you were pregnant Fitz thinks you're cheating or cheated on him because you guys haven't had sex and now he's done with you?"

"Exactly."

"Well damn that was a lot. So what now? What about Caleb?"

"He's having his lawyers write up a custody agreement."

"He really left you there…standing on the sidewalk?"

"Yep…puking my brains out."

"So if you're not pregnant why do you keep puking do you have a virus or something?"

"I don't know. I was too embarrassed to go back inside and finish talking with the doctor with everyone staring at me watching me make a fool of myself. But Abby I can't be pregnant …I just can't be."

"Well I can see where the confusion comes in. Well I really think you should seek consoling now because this stuff is enough to drive anybody crazy."

"Yep I think I will look into it soon. But for now I'm just going to deal with what comes. I've raised Caleb without Fitz for four years Caleb still reaps the benefits of having his father in his life."

David walks into the room having overheard their conversation. "Well I think Fitz is jumping the gun and being a bit harsh. He's a lawyer and until all the facts are presented you never should take things at face value. There's always more that need to be understood." Liv looks up at David as he joins them. "Thanks David I appreciate you saying that." Liv shares

But what Liv wasn't saying though is that she was hurting inside. She appeared to have cried it all out, but her hurt ran deep and she needed to learn to handle things on her own. Abby had always been there for her but she was now a grown woman and needed to start handling things like one. Would she have the strength to do it? Only time would tell. Later that night still at Abby's she called Fitz only for him not to answer. She leaves him a message asking him to please call her.

It would be two weeks and no word from Fitz except the letter sent to Cyrus from his lawyer in regards to the custody agreement. Cyrus is in disbelief he never saw this coming. Liv would simply inform him that things just didn't work out still in denial of the pregnancy. She showed up for work as if all was fine only to return home after picking up Caleb and crying when she was alone. She was grateful though because Marie showed up at her apartment two days after her and Fitz spit and let her know that she was still part of the family even though she didn't understand everything going on. Liv was also grateful she didn't push the issue of why they broke up. Before leaving Marie would inform her that Fitz left the state. He tends to do that when something is bothering him, but not to worry they knew where he was. He went to their family vacation home in Virginia to take some time for himself. She didn't agree with his decision of leaving and not even calling to check on Caleb except for when he was at their home.

No one knew but Fitz was also a broken man too. He loved Liv with all inside of him and Caleb too. He too was still young in his mind unsure of how to handle certain situation or his feelings. He tended to isolate himself when he was hurting. He used to just sleep around and party but he's outgrown that part of his life. He didn't realize how his action was affecting his son or Liv. Visions of her with another man were overpowering his thought process. It wouldn't be until his father called him and demanded him to return back home and be a father to his son that he came back. Liv never signed the custody agreement. She simply ignored it.

The third week of the split Liv seemed to be on autopilot. Marie had just dropped Caleb off to her. Fitz still had yet to answer any of her calls or text over the last two weeks so this week she stopped trying. This didn't go unnoticed by Fitz either. Now that the calls and text stopped coming did he realize that he should have responded. He vowed to himself that he would pick up or respond the next time she reached out too stubborn to reach out to her.

Liv on the other hand realize that she needed to start looking for a bigger place. Her place was starting to feel closed in and very depressing which is why for the last two weeks she had been looking for a new home. She found one that she truly fell in love with and put in a bid. It was a 4 bedroom, 3 ½ bath newly remodeled 2 car garage with a large front and back yard with swimming pool. She was able to do more now that her nausea had finally stopped. Still in total denial she tries to go on as normal. Her gut on the other hand won't really give her that satisfaction she's looking for. She knows something is not right or perhaps very right and it was only when she felt a slight flutter in her stomach did she want to know if the doctors diagnosis was true. So she grabbed her computer and began researching. Can I get pregnant without sex? Can I get pregnant without penetration? Can I get pregnant while making out?They all came back with the same answer. YES! Liv's hand covers her mouth as it drops open then goes to her stomach. She reads the explanations as to how this can happened and immediately gets her answer. Her mind goes back to her and Fitz when he slid his penis up and down her opening. The whole pre-cum and live sperm part of her reading threw her for a loop. Tears fall from her eyes." OMG nooooo…I don't want to be pregnant." She whines out loud to herself.

She tosses her computer and goes to her nightstand drawer pulling out the pregnancy test she had purchase as her means of a second opinion but never used. She stared at the box. She looks down at her stomach raising her shirt in the process. She pushes on its hardness. No bulge just hardness. "Please god let this be strong stomach muscles and not a baby." She goes into the bathroom and takes the test. Her nerves are all over the place. What if she is how will she explain this to Fitz? She swore to him she wasn't and this is all a mistake. Can she raise another child alone? Is she ready to raise another child alone? Can she go through this pregnancy alone…again? Will Fitz here her out? Will he come back to her? Will he step up later?

Liv is brought out of her thoughts as her phone rings. She leaves the bathroom to retrieve it from her nightstand. "Hello."

"Hi is this Ms. Pope?"

"Yes this is. How may I help you?"

"Ms. Pope this is Malcom Spencer from the relator's office. Your offer on the home on Cambridge Road has been accepted."

"Thank you Mr. Spencer, write up the paperwork and forward it to my estate."

"Will do Ms. Pope have a nice day."

Liv returns to the bathroom and picks up the pregnancy stick.

POSITIVE++

Liv blinks several times. She walks out of the bathroom and into Caleb's room. He must have worn himself out with his grandparents. He was spread out on his stomach out cold. She then walks back into her room and sits on the edge of her bed tears once again falling from her eyes. She slides down to the floor unsure of anything anymore. Her life has taken more wrong turns than she can handle. She tries calling Fitz. He doesn't answer. She tries again and again still he doesn't answer. On the fifth tries she leaves a voice mail filled with tears and pain.

"Fitz why are you doing this to me…Why won't you answer me…I didn't do this by myself….I didn't know you rubbing you dick against me would get me pregnant…pleeeeeeease Fitz pickup….pleeeeease I c…can't do this alone. I c...can't. I didn't cheat on you…you did this Fitz…you did this and I hate you Fitz…I haaaaaate you!" She hangs up and throws the phone breaking down completely. Signs of a nervous breakdown are all there. She looks and grabs her phone again and calls Fitz again getting voicemail. "Fitz you are selfish…no no I'm sorry no you're not. Fitz I love you…baby you said you loved me…but yours selfish ass left me and our son….I hate you…(Silence)….Fitz baby I…I…I need you Caleb needs you…please come back…Ok ok look I can get an abortion if you want…I…I can get a DNA test too….naw naw fuck that I'm not killing my baby for your ass you selfish prick…You know what Fuck you…yeah fuck you Fitzgerald. You rub your dick up against me and get me pregnant and somehow it's my fault…yeah well we'll see how it feels when another man is raising both of yours son you selfish bastard." She again hangs up the phone and tossed it.

Liv's mind is all over the place. Her emotions are so scattered. She feels like she losing her mind and she is. In this moment she's having a nervous breakdown. Her mind is not her own. Her emotions are flooded with pain and confusion. Fear has gripped her entire being. As she sits on the floor of her bedroom crying and talking to herself Caleb walks in. "Mommy don't cwy." Liv looks over at him not recognizing her own child withdraws between the nightstand and the bed. "Who are you why are you here. Go find you mommy."

Tear comes to Caleb's eyes "But you're my mommy." Liv withdraws further "No I'm not get away from me kid, get out of her now!" Caleb jumps when she yells and cries more "Mommy." He approaches her and she pushes him away. He screams "MOMMY NOOO!" Trying to grab hold to Liv for dear life scared out of his small little mind as Liv pushes him causing him to fall on his butt. He jumps up and charges at her again wanting her to hug him and tell him it's ok, but she keeps pushing him away. Caleb jumps up and down screaming MOMMY! His young little mind can not comprehend what is happening or why. Liv begins to panic reaching for any and everything pulling herself to her knees. A crying terrified Caleb watches in horror. He spots his mom's cell phone remembering he was taught that if he or mommy is ever in trouble call 911. So he does.

"911 What's your emergency?"

"My mommy cwying and her won't get up."

"Son what's your name?"

"Caleb Nicholas Pope my mommy sick and her cwying."

"Ok Caleb help is coming. What is mommy doing?"

"Her fall down…MOMMY!" Caleb cries out but Liv is unable to respond her panic is in full blown attack

"Caleb honey where is your daddy."

"Ok ok I call my daddy." Misinterpreting what the 911 operator was saying he hangs up and call the familiar speed dial number for his dad. No knowing how to click over when they continued to call back.

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Fits is getting out of the tub realizing he had fallen asleep. After dressing he looks for his phone. He searched his entire condo and couldn't find it so he calls it but doesn't hear it ringing. He goes out to check his car and there he finds it. He notices several messages and missed calls from Liv. He calls up his voicemail and listens. After listen to them all he lets his head fall back against the seat. Angry with himself because he never gave Liv a chance and the possibility of how she thinks she became pregnant never crossed his mind. Suddenly his phone rings in his hand it Liv.

"Livvie I'm so…."

"Daddy (tears sniffles and sobs) mommy cwying and she fall down and won't get up."

"Caleb son are you at home calm down son daddy is on his way."

"Yes daddy hurwy up mommy can't talk."

"Fuck." Fitz says in panic. "Son daddy is on the way ok mommy going to be fine daddy's on the way."

"Dadddddddy…Mommy wake up…mommy pwease wake up…daddy mommy not wake up."

"I'm coming son daddy needs to hang up and call 911 ok."

"I did daddy I call dem."

"You called 911 son?"

"Yes."

"Ok ok son daddy's coming." Fitz is in a state of panic. He wants to call 911 to be sure they are in route but he afraid to hang up with his son knowing he was terrified because something was wrong with Liv. Fitz can hear the buzzard for the door through the phone. "Caleb that must be 911 go and buzz the door and let them in ok?"

"K daddy." Caleb runs and pushes the ottoman to the door and hit the buzzard his saw his mommy do so many times. "I did daddy."

"Good job son, now unlock and open the front door so they can get in daddy is pulling up now." Fitz says as he pulls up to Liv apartment seeing firetrucks everywhere. He dashes upstairs catching up with the firemen as they reach the apartment Fitz scoops up Caleb "Where's mommy?" Caleb points to her room Fitz leads the firemen to her. She's on the floor gasping for air taking small panting like breaths. Fitz runs to her Livvie Livvie baby breathe… breathe baby. The firemen jump into action putting oxygen on her face as they start compression to her chest seeing Liv take her last breathe. Fitz removes Caleb from the room standing just outside the door so he can still see what's happening. He tries comforting Caleb hysterical cries as he prays for Liv to make it. "She pregnant and she has panic attacks." Fitz yells out.

This information gives the firemen information so now they know exactly what needs to be done. Finally he hears she's breathing and now he can breathe.

Well family there you have it time to go to work so I must stop here. Sorry for the emotional roller coaster (NOT SORRY) LOL! Don't kill me but please do leave a review. Until next time….