WARNING: Rape scene
It will be signified by a double line, don't read until that line appears again if it bothers you.

We had decided to take a break in the Land of Hot Water, after having to travel for so long by foot, the three of us were tired and Itachi looked like he was getting sick. He had become more pale, talked less than usual and wasn't even trying to socialize. That wasn't unusual, but he wasn't answering any questions.
Going to this village, we had to somewhat disguise ourselves. We wore yukatas over the top of our normal garb, the jackets sealed away to hide who we were. I wasn't proud of the way we got them, but when Kisame went into a frenzied state, he would kill anyone who crossed his path. Itachi could stop him, but only if he was around. It just so happened that there were people in the woods at the wrong time when we stopped for a break, caught by Kisame while he went to take a piss. He came back, blooded with the three yukatas.
"Look at that, they're all about our size." He seemed proud, like he'd gone shopping and found them just for us. If it wasn't for the blood, maybe he could have pulled it off.
"They'll need washed…" I commented, to which he seemed to finally see that they were soaked in their owners blood. I doubt anyone here has stain remover, there was no way the stain could completely come out. I was pulled from the thought when Kisame threw them at me.
"Well, you should know how to do that." The second he said it, he got a look that he regretted it.
"Excuse you? Is it because I'm a woman, un?"
"Er...no. I just...you know…"
"Kisame, silence might be the best answer right now." Itachi warned, knowing his sexest comment had pissed me off. "I'll come with you. We'll have to figure out how to get the blood out."

There was a small stream just off the road, which was where Kisame had found the poor people he found. There was blood in the grass on the other side, meaning this was where the deed was done. Their bodies were nowhere to be seen though.
"Do you know how to get blood out of things?" I asked Itachi as we sat on the bank, soaking them in the water. I mean, I did for period stains and all, but it wasn't easy. Out here, there weren't any store bought stain removers.
"Yes, but we don't have what we need. Since it's still fresh, it should come out with a good soak." He said, pulling the blue one out to scrub the stain. I did the same with the orange pinstriped one. It was the worst, seeing as it was white, with orange and blue wasn't as easy to clean as a dark green or pink yukata.
"Are you feeling alright?" I lowered my voice so no one nearby would over hear.
"I'll be fine once we get to the Inn." He just needed rest I guess.

Kisame wasn't happy his was the orange pinstriped yukata, because it clashed with his skin. It was the one that had fit him, so there was no choice. Itachi didn't complain about his being an odd green with a purple sash, it really wasn't a nice color combination but it worked on him. Mine was pink, my least favorite color as well, with a white daisy pattern that made me look like a child. The bright purple obi didn't help that fact. I wonder how old the girl Kisame had killed had been.
"So, how are we going to play this?" Kisame asked as we got closer to the village. "We can't really just walk in and ask for a nice room." He had a point.
"We're not entering the village. There's an inn just past it, we'll be safe from recognition there…" Itachi finally spoke up.
"As long as they have a hot spring, I'm not complaining." I shrugged, never having had been to one, I had to hide my excitement.

The place wasn't what I expected. Not to say it wasn't nice, but there was a building that had collapsed not to far away from the inn. The broken sign said 'couples suite.' Glad I wasn't the couple that was in there where it happened.

"Welcome!" A cheery lady in a bright blue kimono greeted us at the front desk inside the main building. I guess this village liked their colorful clothing. The only thing colorful was her, there rest was the dingy gray the outside had. It wasn't the worst, but still, if they wanted people to come here, maybe add some paint.
"Three rooms please." Itachi asked, still playing the ruse that he and I weren't sleeping together.
"I'm so sorry, all I have is two rooms." She looked scared when she caught sight of Kisame. "B-but you are a couple right? We still have one room with a king bed and the other is a single left." She was looking at Itachi and me, hoping we were a couple.
"Er…" I blushed, wanting to say something, but Itachi sighed and cut me off.
"That'll be fine."
"Great! You two on your honeymoon?!" The receptionist asked as she gave us the keys.

And that's how Itachi and I got a couple's treatment at the hot springs, earning a privet spring for the two of us. Kisame laughed at us as we made our way to our rooms, telling us to have a great night and to 'try to get some sleep.' Thankfully he was two rooms away so he could tease us for long, but I still heard him laugh all the way there.

Inside, I sat on the edge of the bed, a little scared of what could be under the covers. The dull gray followed us throughout the whole place, making it more like a haunted springs than anything.
"You sure this place isn't going to cave in?" I asked as I watched Itachi take off his yukata.
"No. But, it's somewhere to stay that isn't a cave." That was true, having a bed was a luxury we couldn't afford to have most of the time. I planned on taking full advantage of it, but the off white color of the sheets had me questioning if there was a water leak above it.
"I guess…" I took the plunge and laid back on the bed, surprised at how comfortable it was. Considering, it wasn't a horrible place. It was clean, it just looked dirty and old. Our room wasn't super huge as you would think one with a king bed would be, seeing as there was no space to get all the way around it and it was pushed up to a wall. "As long as the roof stays up." I felt him sit by me, but didn't look over until he spoke again.
"We shouldn't be doing this…"
"Huh?" I sat up on my elbows.
"Us. I…" He looked down again, coving his face from view with his hair.
"If you don't want me, say it, un." I didn't want to be pulled around. "I just thought...you cared."
"That's just it. I care too much…" I was confused. "I can't...not if I want to complete my goal…"
"Goal?" I was now sitting next to him on my knees, trying to get him to open up to me. "Please, don't shut me out...not after everything." I laid my head on his shoulder, but he didn't move. I felt him sigh, he didn't make any noise as he made up his mind.
"Sasuke...everything I'm doing, is for him. My last wish is to give him a gift. A gift only I can give him." He finally moved, revealing his eyes had changed to his Mangekyo Sharingan. "You can only get this with the death of someone you care for." He didn't use it on me, dispelling it just after showing me.
"I see...you want to die by his hand." It was the perfect suicide I guess, letting the one you wronged kill you. "Is that why you're pushing me away?"
"I'm dying, Nina. I can't give you anything…"
"You already have…" He let me kiss him, but refused to reciprocate. "You showed me I'm not completely alone in the world. There's others who think similarly to me, who don't want to just destroy everything." He wouldn't look me in the eye. "You showed me that not everything is always as it seems." I know I had figured it out, but he's the one who chose to tell me the truth. "The truth isn't always easy…"
"You don't know the half of it…" His tone was dark, asking me to drop it.
"Why can't you tell me?" Who was I going to tell? Who would believe a person like me? I was always amazed at how fast he was, never seeing him move until he already had you. This time he wasn't gentle, pinning me to the bed and pinning my hands over my head with the left while his right stayed threateningly around my throat.
"Why do you care?" He wasn't going to hurt me, I could feel that, his grasp as weak. He did it all to scare me.
"Why do you?" This made him pause. "You could...no, should have killed me if you didn't want me to this close, un. Anyone else would have." I watched his eyes change again, glaring at him that he wanted to use it on me again. Not like I can stop him, my hair was covering my eye. Deidara had taught me to break genjutsu by training my left eye to be able to dispel it.

"You have to understand, I cannot wonder from the path I set myself on." The room around us changed, making it look like we were back at the waterfalls we had been near our first night together. I looked around, amazed that this was his power. He made me focus back to him, placing his hand on my shoulder. We were standing here, he was behind me as we looked over the river. "That night...I shouldn't have done that. I don't want to continue the Uchiha line…they'd be branded a child of a traitor. Not only that, but you..."
Oh, that's the reason. Well...I guess I should tell him.
"Well...thing is...the Kinjutsu kind of had another affect. See, the chance of me getting pregnant is like...near zero. According to the doctors, it has a very high chance of making the user infertal."
"But there is a chance…"
"One in like, a billion chance." This made him chuckle. "And what about me? The ridicule would be nothing new."
"Nina…" He made me turn to look at him. "Do you understand the danger you are in?" His voice held a bit of sadness to it.
"Do I care?" He frowned, able to use more expressions here. "'Tachi, in our line of work we both could die tomorrow. I think I understand."
"No...you don't. I want to tell you everything...all I can say is I've lived for only my brother. He still comes first." I nodded, understanding that wasn't going to change.
"I didn't ask for you to choose." He had come up with that himself.
"Hn, true. You did however make it hard." He put his forehead against mine. "Nina, I only wish that we had met under different circumstances, but our time left is so short." I felt something in my chest break, knowing what was coming. "Will you stay?" I gasped in shock. I thought he was going to tell me it was over, that we couldn't stay even friends. And now he was asking if I'd stay by his side.
"Yes." He kissed me deeply, grateful he hadn't scared me away. I kissed back, knowing this was still in his world. "'Tachi…" I made him stop, silently asking him to let me out of the jutsu.
"Hn...there's something I must know first...where will you go when I'm gone?" He really knew how to break the mood.
"I...don't know." I hadn't gotten that far in my plans.
"You can't stay here. The Akatsuki will be the death of you if you do." Itachi's warning was clear, they saw me as nothing but a pawn and would do away with me as such. "Run to Konoha."
"What?" I tried, but he stopped my worries.
"Trust me, they will take you in. Tell them what happened to you, but tell no one of us. You must make them believe you were here against you will. They may give you asylum there."
"If they don't?"
"Run...run as far from this place as you can." He said as the genjutsu started to fade. "The Leader will never let you live…"

Back in reality, I found myself alone in our room. Itachi had laid me properly on the bed at least, but the raven haired man wasn't here. I could see steam coming from the small hallway that lead outside to the private bath. I figured he had gone out there and was either waiting or talking to Kisame.
Thankfully, Itachi was the only one out there, already in the bath and facing towards the door. He'd left it open to lure me out. Sneaky bastard…
"How's it?" I hid my excitement. Instead of answering, he merely pulled his hand out the water and motioned for me to join him. From where he was, he had a perfect view to watch me strip down. I gave him a knowing smirk, untying the bow of the kimono and letting it fall open. I chose to not wear the usual Akatsuki attire underneath mine, going for just my under armor and underwear. Sure, it had been risky, but I wasn't defenceless.
I watched as his eyes turned crimson once more, watching me as I slowly made my way towards the hot springs, taking a piece of clothing off with each step. I felt the blush starting to burn my face as I took off my panties last, feeling completely exposed. Itachi never once reacted, I knew he was only holding back until I got into the water with him.
I got in, up to my hips before he moved, making me wrap my arms around his shoulders to keep steady. He lifted me, pulling us deeper into the warm pool, my legs having to wrap around his waist as he moved us. The entire time, he hadn't allowed me to break our kiss. I was breathless when he finally settled back on the seat near the ledge. With the water up to our shoulders, no one could see what was going on below.
I wrapped my hand around his growing cock, letting the hand mouth lick the underside with every stroke. The groan he made, made me let out a soft moan. I loved when he made that noise. I kissed his neck, glad he was allowing me to take the lead this time. I wanted to pay him back for what he did to me. I felt one of his hands rest on my hip, the other hand came up to tangle itself into my hair, pulling at it softly. I stopped, leaving a few marks on his neck, when he pulled a little harder to get my attention. He crashed our lips together again in a heated kiss, making me want him even more.
This was a distraction however, he used this to put me off guard to line our hips, plunging inside of me. I gasped, not expecting it at all and got very still. No, no no not now. But my mind went to the night before I was chased out of my village.
"S-stop!" I cried out, not able to continue. Unlike then, Itachi quickly stopped, moving me so he was no longer inside. He used both of his hands to cup my face, worried he had hurt me. Only then did I feel that my face was wet with tears. "I-I'm sorry…"
"Don't apologize…" He said softly, wanting to know what happened.
"I-it's not you…" I put our foreheads together, he seemed to understand what I meant. "My sensei...he...hurt me." I couldn't bring myself to say he raped me, but he did. I felt him wipe my tears with the pad of his thumb, not realizing I was still crying.
"It's alright. You don't have to say anymore if you don't want to. I can't imagine how horrible it must have been.." Itachi's voice was soothing, calming me down after I panicked.
"Iwao Satochi...He wasn't well known, but he took me in at least."

I was on the streets again, the third orphanage had kicked me out after seeing my hands. I thought nuns were supposed to take everyone in, but I guess an eight year old with mouths on her hands was too much...I scratched at the wool fingerless gloves I wore to keep them hidden.
It was an accident, I had taken them off to shower and someone walked in. Before I was kicked out, a nun had whipped my hands across the knuckles to "beat the demons out of me." At least they stopped bleeding, but they still stung.
I looked up, feeling a raindrop hit my head. Of course it was raining...I found an overhang in an ally to hide under as it started to pour. During Iwa's rainy season, rain could last a few minutes to days. This one felt like it was going to be a day long one..
"Hey!" I heard someone call, ready to run if I was in trouble. "Come get out of the rain! You'll catch your death!" I squinted, seeing a man in a doorway through the rain. I quickly ran, not thinking about it and only wanting to get warm. I was soaked, standing in this strangers entry way before I realized I had done something very stupid.
"Um…" I backed up, into the now closed door.
"It's alright, I'm not going to hurt you." The man said. He had brown hair, brownish eyes and a thick beard .He had a soft smile that said he was friendly enough. "I'm Iwao. What are you doing out in the rain like that? Aren't your parents worried?" I looked to the floor, pouting. "Oh...I see."
"I should go…"
"In this weather? Where are you going? Maybe I can take you there." No one had ever offered that. My answer explained, I had no home to go to. "Hm, seeing as you have no where, why not stay here. Come, I have a shirt I think might fit you. Let's get you out of those wet clothes before you get sick."

Iwao took me in after that, saying he was more than happy to take me in as his student. He had been injured in the war, which took him out of active duty but he had been a Chunin for Iwagakure. He taught me everything I needed to know, not caring about my weird hands. He had told me they were what made me special. He knew how I felt about them and got me leather gloves to cover them.
He taught me how to use my explosion technique, the hands we learned could make them stronger and more controlled. I had mastered their use and my kekkei genkai by age ten. It was around this time he had become different. He had a meeting with the Tsuchikage earlier that day and hadn't been the same. The meeting was about me entering the academy, which I was accepted into on his behalf. I noticed the change in him as soon as I got home from training in the field.
"Sensei? Is something wrong?" I asked him at dinner.
"Whatever do you mean?" He looked up from the book he was reading. It was weird that he didn't want to talk at dinner.
"You've been...strange."
"Have I? Well, sorry to worry you. My mind is on you getting in is all."
"Are you worried?" His face said yes.
"Well, you are my student after all. I knew this day would come." He smiled that reassuring smile of him.

I graduated after a year, becoming a genin. My team though didn't seem to care for me, seeing as I was the Henkei Kaiju. I did prove them wrong though, showing them up on our first mission and saving their stupid lives. If I hadn't placed bombs underground to create the giant trench, we would have been outnumbered by Kiri ninja. We made in to the Chunin exams after that, but sadly we didn't pass the first time. I did however have to watch helplessly as one of my teammates was killed in an explosion, caused by our opponents. By the time we knew it was there, it was too late for me to disarm it. My other teammate and I were able to pass the next year, all in honor of our fallen friend.
By fourteen, I was rising up in the ninja world, become a talented explosives expert. While I was finally getting the recognition I always wanted, my sensei was hidden away. He took to drinking heavily, leaving me almost on my own again. I had no idea what was going on, but looking back, I now know what was happening.

On that fateful day, I just got back from a mission that took me to The Land of Hot Water. Sadly, our mission didn't allow for us to stay, but I wanted to try to convince Sensei to go there with me. I was so excited, bursting through the door, only to see Iwao huddled in a corner.
"N-Nina...you shouldn't be here…" He looked like he hadn't taken care of himself in the last week I was gone.
"Sensei? What's going on?" I tried to get closer, but he got up and stepped away.
"I don't...want to…" He got out, holding his head in his hands before becoming still.
"Don't want to what...Iwao-sensei?" But he lunged at me, pinning me to the wall. I got scared, fighting him off but I went to soft. I should have hit harder, but he was the one who raised me, he was like a father. This gave him the chance to pin me face down on the floor, tying my hands together behind my back with the rope from my pack. "Sensei no!" I cried, feeling him pulling at my pants. He got mad, taking a kunai from me and cutting at them until they fell. He slammed my head into the tatami mat, putting me in a daze. I didn't know what was happening, all I knew was there was pain. He forced his dick into me, taking me in one thrust.
I cried out, trying to get him off, but he held fast, keeping me still with the threat of the kunai.
"D-don't make me…" He growled, his voice almost inhuman.
"PLEASE! STOP!" I cried, feeling myself being torn open. I prayed it wasn't bad…
"C-can't…"
"SENSEI!" I sobbed, the betrayal was what hurt the most. I had trusted him, loved him and he did this…

After he was through violating me, he left the room for a moment. It was enough time to wiggle myself free, despite how much it hurt. I was able to get the kunai he threatened me with, cutting my arms free. I tied my torn pants together at the waist, trying to keep myself covered. I ignored the blood on my legs and the pain between them as I stood, hiding myself to attack. He came back, holding his katana and looking at where I had been. I sprang from behind him, plunging my kunai into his heart.
"FUCK YOU! Like I'd let you kill me...I won't die…" Not like this.
"I-I...am sorry...g-go...r-r-run…" were his final words before he collapsed in a heap. I pulled my Kunai from his back, stabbing him a few more times, screaming from the top of my lungs in anguish. I threw it, planting it firmly into the wall.
"I hate you…" I told him as I stood, walking towards the door. When I opened it, there was a Iwagakure ANBU about to knock.
"Nina of Iwagakure, you are under arrest for the destruction of the village…"
"The hell are you talking about?" I had been here, violated and they wanted to arrest me?

I brought Itachi up to speed on my past, making him understand that it was nothing about him. The whole time, he soothingly rubbed my back as I sat next to him. He was thinking, I could tell from the small scowl on his brow.
"Genjutsu…he had been under the effects of one when he attacked. Even if he had wanted to stop...I'm sorry." He apologized.
"For what, un?"
"Forgetting what's important. You survived it." I had, but it had still hurt me that someone I trusted could let it happen.
"Yeah…" I still felt dirty, used by it all. "Now that you know...will you stay, un?" I feared Itachi thought I was disgusting for letting it happen.
"Of course...you're not...you still deserve to be loved." I watched his cheeks turn pink at the accidental admission.
"Loved?" I smirked, liking the change in subject. "Are you saying you love me?" I think I liked that look on Itachi. It was very rare to see Itachi embarrassed, and I wanted to remember this moment.
"Yes." He impressed me by keeping his voice steady, still void of emotion like usual. I smiled, kissing his cheek as I watched him turn red. He was trying to hide it with his hair, but I pulled it back to kiss his cheek, seeing his shocked expression.
"I love you too." I whispered. "Thank you...for listening." He didn't know how much it meant to me that he stopped, didn't push me to say anything and just let me talk. As he held me in a loose embrace, I was reminded that this wouldn't last. I was determined from here on to everything in my power to make more moments like this.