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Chapter 5

I'm pretty sure that I look a mess; hair wild, eyes half-lidded with lust, irritation forming on my face due to the interruption, and in nothing but a robe with her 'crush' behind me with swollen lips and his shirt wrinkled. Any person could tell that we were not just drinking coffee, hell, even a blind person. Not that it matters, Tobias clearly told me that he really doesn't care for her, she pushes towards him and he can't seem to get a break. She raises her eyebrows at me as Tobias simply places his large hand on my shoulder and I glance at it, remembering those skillful fingers just inside me about to send me in overdrive moments later, "I was looking for you." Her thick Russian accent sends unpleasant shivers down my spine, her cold blue eyes almost remind me of a sharp icicle waiting to fall and penetrate anyone under her.

"Well, I came here to see if Tris was okay since she got up so abruptly," Tobias talks so smooth and just now I try to figure out why do I really hate him? Because his looks make me think things that I shouldn't think? Because just another pretty face can ruin my heart? Because I'm not able to be girlfriend material? Because I can't risk loosing him? All those things―some―is why I can't ever see myself with Tobias. Yes, maybe have the most amazing sex ever while I'm here but he's told me before, all he wants is my body; not my personality, love, or dedication. All of this is just a fling and just like when he left to come back home, he will forget me, and I won't forget him. He will move on once he gets what he wants from me and I get what I want, "What do you want?" His deep voice brings me back down to earth and I tune back in the conversation.

Victoria stands taller and holds her chin high, her dirty blonde hair cascading down her heart-shaped face. If it weren't for her ugly attitude I wouldn't hesitate to call her pretty, beautiful even. But, my mother always told me that an ugly spirit can make you ugly on the outside and give off a bad vibe. . . no matter how beautiful, "Nothing," She wants to show me that she isn't being attached to Tobias, "I just wanted to find you and tell you that I'm going to bed." She turns around and walks down the hallway.

Tobias chuckles to himself and shuts the door before leaning down and pressing a kiss to my lips and after a few seconds I pull away, "Maybe you should go with her," His eyebrows furrow deeply at me with confusion and I give him a fake small smile, "I don't want dead chickens ending up in my suit case because she thinks that we actually have something going on. I don't want to separate you too."

"Tris, there is nothing going on between us two: Victoria and I. So, therefore we should go back to the bedroom-" Waves of guilt crash down on my shoulders and all of a sudden I can't look him in his eyes. If I were Victoria I would hate to have my 'crush' or sugar-daddy whatever the hell he is to her, end up in another's girl room looking like they just had amazing sex. I couldn't be that girl that comes in and ruin everything for the both of them. I walked in on Zeke and Tobias talking about marriage during lunch one day here, they were talking about finally wanting to settle down and Victoria's name came up from Zeke and Tobias didn't say anything. Of course he wants a hot, Russian, girl who he's familiar with and I just feel bad for doing that.

"It's fine, Tobias. Really, go ahead. We have lots to do tomorrow anyways." He doesn't say anything but presses one last kiss on my mind before he walks out of my room. I walk to the bed and see the wrinkled sheets where my hands were just fisted in. I sit on the edge of my bed and fall back with a groan, "Why me? Why must I be the one that always fall short?" I mutter to myself and just lay there looking up at the white ceiling with gold trim. . . that's probably real.

Christina has Will, Shauna has Zeke, Marlene has Uriah, Ana is going to have Eric, Maya has Eric, Susan has Caleb, Victoria is begging to have Tobias and I'm sure he's going to cave pretty soon, Lynn hates everyone, and I, and a few others, seem like we just can't seem to find love. More specifically me, I'm 24 now and I'm still living in my apartment alone wishing I had some comfort at night instead of cold sheets. Others would tell me that I'm looking for love too soon because I'm so young. But, there isn't an age limit and I can't keep bed hopping and drinking at parties, I want love and start a family and be scared of commitment. I want someone to tell me they love me other than my family. I want someone to come home too and I was starting to get pissed because we were all sat in the large truck that drove us towards town and I was surrounded by a bunch of f_cking lovers, Victoria was trying to make me jealous by whispering in Tobias' ear and touching his thigh and I am not going to lie, it's working. Just last night he had his mouth all over me and it kind of stings seeing that happening.

I cross my jean clad legs over one and watch the scenery pass of trees and wildlife and the rest of the snow trying to melt, and I ignore the burning gaze of Tobias. Soon, we arrive at the Vnukovo Outlet Village and I was pretty surprised to see all of the American stores and once again I was being stereotypical, like I had expected people to be walking around in expensive fur coats and stuff. Hell, people probably think of me only eating rice and beans, "Where do you guys want to go first?" Ana asks as I shiver from the cool wind of Russia hitting me directly in my face.

"Let's walk around and when we see something we'll stop." Maya says with her hand grasped tightly in Edward's hand.

We walk around for about 10 minutes to get a gist of what stores they have around here and we decide to go Lush. Well, the girls do and we said that we would meet the boys in Nike. In lush we all talk about stupid girly things like how amazing their lay was last night or what they're going to wear to the club tomorrow night. At lush I get plenty bath bombs, soaps, lotions, shampoo, and toothpastes and powders. We meet the boys at Nike and briefly have a dance session of the music in there, I get some pants, a bra, shorts, and a pair of shoes. Already, my hands are getting full but I am not going to pass up this opportunity of having all of this money and ignore the fact that I hate shopping.

That's not the case.

I'm going to spend this money happily since my American money amounts to more here.

"I've never heard of a 'lululemon'." Zeke furrows his eyebrows as we enter the gym store. Of course there is the 'pump-up' music and people walking around like they want to exercise but only buy clothes to be 'motivated', "Should I be intimidated?" He questions, looking at a buff guy walking past him, his eyes almost gawking out of his head and I can't help but to let laughter slip past my lips.

I look through the rack of expensive yet not expensive sports bras and a royal blue one catches my eye, "Trying to remind yourself of me?" Tobias leans against the racks, looking down at the bra in my hand and I roll my eyes at him noticing that they're the color of his eyes, "So, are you going to ignore me now? What did I do?" He asks lowly.

I whip around quickly, he almost collides with me and instead of his body doing it, his punches me in the nose, "You didn't do anything. No one did anything to me. I just want to have a good time before I have to go back to America and get back to work. I don't want to get in the way of whatever you're trying to build." I glance at Victoria and anger takes of Tobias instantly making me want to cower back away from him, instead I hold my ground, "So, if you want to be with her, I don't want to be the cause of stopping something beautiful."

With that I walk away, like I do with everything. What am I doing?

Bath and Body Works went by slowly because we couldn't make decisions and we kept getting the deals mixed up making us run out of line to get more stuff so we could get 50% off. Papaya was nice and the guys did nothing but tell us if we looked great or not, then we took a quick break to get some snacks at Auntie Annie for pretzels. Then, we went to this nice little shop for souvenirs. The lady didn't speak a lick of English and it was quite funny. H&M, Charlotte Rues, Calvin Klein, Victoria's Secret, Adidas, Tommy Hilfiger, Forever 21, PacSun, and many other stores and all together I'm pretty sure we spent over a thousand dollars. The trunk was packed in sections of our stuff so it wouldn't get mixed up and we were going back to the house.

I didn't want to address the situation that happened between Tobias. It's not that I'm mad at him, I don't want to get attached to him. . . not at all.

Short chapter, sorry about that but I'm just trying to dish one out. I thought I was going to be able to edit this but I'm so tired that I'm not even going to try, it's just gonna make matters worse and I have school tomorrow. . . great.