Hello my amazing followers who read this book, tis' I, babygirl. I'm a sick and it feels like I swallowed a match while snorting cocaine―not that I know what that feels like. But! I just want to thank you for reading this story and leaving me with great reviews which brings me to a question that one guest left me and wanted me to explain for her/him. They asked, "She wants to show me that she isn't being attached to Tobias, "I just wanted to find you and tell you that I'm going to bed." What does that mean?
Well, Victoria wants to show Tris that she isn't fazed by Tris if she is trying to steal Tobias from her, which she isn't. So, instead of doing the usual trying-to-make-Tris-jealous, she is nonchalant and wants to basically tell Tris that she will have Tobias either way and she doesn't need to put an effort into it. I hope that clears it all up for you, if not just tell me in the comments down below and please don't hesitate to ask me questions about the book. Here is the chapter! *It's pretty short because I still want to update and I don't feel well* Thanks for reading this information!
Chapter 6
"So, tell me what happened," My bestfriend sits across from me, stirring the contents of her coffee together. She woke me up early this morning to sneak out of the place, get dressed, and go to the town to get something to drink together so we could 'talk'. I would be lying if I said that I didn't want some alone time with my bestfriend to talk to her about all the craziness that has happened in the duration of a week. It took a while to get a ride, but we ran into one of the workers there and lied to her telling her that Tobias said it's okay to let us go to the city alone, "and don't leave out anything, I need you to tell me why you're in a more pissy mood than Lynn."
What am I supposed to tell her in this small cafe? Everyone probably know's Tobias and I'll be dammed if I tell her that he ate me out and his 'friend' Victoria interrupted us. I could just feel my face heating up at the thought of standing in front of Tobias telling him about the conversation that Christina and I had. I nibble on my chocolate croissant, scooping up some of the warm chocolate with the flaky dough. She raises her dark brown eyebrows and I take in how beautiful she is, Will is so lucky, "I don't want to use real names, so I'm going to have to abbreviate." She nods her head, totally understanding where I'm coming from, "So, Toby, came to my room after I stormed up from the table and we had some. . . intercourse." I mutter. She squeals loudly making the coffee in her mouth slowly drip out onto the table making me face palm myself on the forehead, "Not, physical. . . oral." I mutter, my face is probably as red as a beet.
"Damn, Tris. That's what I'm talking about!" She holds up her hand and I stare at her like she's lost her mind, "What?"
"This is not okay, Christina. I totally lost control of myself and I forget it. When Lauren told you that I was fine the night we were all drinking, I was in the middle of giving him a damn BJ, while drunk. We put two-in-two together and figured out my drunken things I had done." I sigh, feeling so disgusted and disappointment to myself. I'm like a wild college student, a child. I shake my head and take a sip of my hot coffee, enjoying the chastisement of the hot liquid burning my tongue that I deserve. I want to burn the feeling of him inside my mouth away, "Vicky knocked on the door during our time after dinner and she glared at me like she hated me, and I'm sure she does. But, she also wanted to prove to me that she wasn't fazed by me and still wanted to show me that she would have him no matter what I try to do." I shake my head, so overcome with emotions that I just want to pack my stuff up at the mansion and get on the next flight to go home and finish my life. Do the usual.
Work. Sleep. Eat. Exercise.
Not, Drink. Have fun. Get eaten out. Give head. Party.
Totally off my radar, "Do you like. . . Toby?" She tilts her head to the side.
I worry my lip, fully questioning myself rather than jumping the gun. Can I see myself with Tobias? Do I see us getting married mixed with our families, having a mixed tradition wedding. Having Tobias give me gifts and kiss me on the cheek, having a child with curly hair and captivating eyes? Do I really want that or will I remain to be a single young-adult who works harder than she should? I shrug my shoulders at Christina, "I don't know." I mutter, "We came here for a reunion, y'know? To have fun and drink, dance, eat food, and go shopping. I didn't come here to get in my feelings and find the lover of my dreams."
I'm still trying to find out why is this happening to me.
We got back to the mansion an after an hour of talking and indulging in the sweets, everyone was just waking up and didn't really question where we were. But, after breakfast everyone decided to go swimming in the indoor swimming pool. I came to a conclusion that I don't want to keep being mad, I need to release any tension I have and enjoy these last few days with everyone before we go back to Chicago and this will be the last time I see Tobias.
A pang of sadness dashes through my chest, nearly knocking the wind out of me as we make our way to the pool. I just realized that this might be the last time I see him and the next time I come overseas, I will sit at some expensive venue and watch him place a kiss on Victoria's lips just as the priest say's 'you may now kiss the bride'. Then, we would come back over and I will meet their first child, who would despise me like his or her's mother. But why am I sad? Do I want that? Do I want to have Christina and Will along with our friends and family travel miles over the Atlantic Ocean to see me kiss Tobias on the lips as the seal of our marriage?
There are so many questions unanswered.
When we step inside the indoor swimming pool, the slight warmness of the room encases my slightly covered body sending shivers on my cold skin. I should have came here when I was cold at night because it reminds me of a pool on the roof of a New York building. The warm sunlight above shines through the glass paneling instantly takes me outside, there are chairs around the large pool and Uriah―who obviously got here before us―as some speakers set up with some music playing through them. Zeke, Uriah, Shauna, and Marlene are tossing a ball back and forth, Ana and Eric are laughing together in a corner of the pool, Lynn is laying against a pull out chair that is directly under the sun and is reading a book while drinking something from a glass, Lauren, Edward, and Maya are just floating around the pool together and once again, I don't see the host himself.
I take off the black, sheer, cover-up off of my body and sit on the edge of the pool. If I do say so myself, my outfit is so cute and I couldn't feel more confident. I have on a pair of black high-cut bikini bottoms, and a strapless black bandeau top. My hair is pulled into a bun because I can't even begin with how pissed I would be if it got wet and I would have to rewash, detangle, blow-dry, and then straighten all over again. Having natural curly hair is really tough, "Hey everyone!" I wave, feeling much better after the talk I had. My belly button ring shimmers with the reflection of the water as I sit on the edge of the pool and dip my feet into the freezing water, I really like this bikini and I really love how it makes my tattoo's stand out on my skin.
"Hey, Tris!" They shout back, "We're going to play a round of marco-polo? You in?" Edward asks, I nod my head and jump into the pool, shivering when the cold water meets my waist.
"Under one condition, you dunk me in the water, you will do my hair. Girl or guy!" I point at them, I see who we're playing with. Everyone who's in the pool, we have two people as Marco; Zeke and Maya. But, of course us being older and more daring, we all said that we all should close our eyes and try to find each other. I close my eyes and hope that 1, I don't get dunked and 2, none of us gets hurt because we're being dumb. I giggle as I use my senses and hear Zeke shout 'Marco' from the other side of the pool. We all shout back polo but then end up realizing that it's dumb, "Trail and error, trail and error." I tell them with a chuckle as I volunteer to be Marco and the others hide.
"Marco!"
"Polo!"
I follow the sound of their voices and hold my hand out and search blindly for my friends, "Marco?" I question as I feel something hard and I hear everyone laughing at the other end of the pool. I slowly peel open my eyes just in case I'm in front of a wall, I expect to be in front of the pool safety rules, instead there stands Tobias in front of me with a grin on his face. His bare chest is so smooth and tattoo's that I never knew of inks his body and back, his mop of curls are damp on his head and his dimples in his cheeks nearly makes me drown in warmth of his blue eyes, I give a nervous chuckle as I sink lower.
"Have you noticed that when you're confused, you wrinkle up your nose." He flicks my nose ring in my nose and I back away from him, "Why are you running, malyshka" Him talking in his usual tonuge, makes me want to jump his bones and wring his neck at the same time for making me have so many mixed emotions about him.
"I'm not running," I mutter, unable to meet him in his eyes, "I'm playing a game." I go to swim away to go to my friends who have carried on with the game with Christina as 'it'. I hear her scream in surprise as Will throws her over his shoulder and she submerges under the water.
I feel Tobias' wet finger hook under my chin and makes me turn to him. He looks down at my lips and then to my eyes, I frozen into place as he gives me an award-winning grin and opens his amazing mouth, "We need to talk about you running away from me, you may not see it but I do and I don't like it." Dominance just flows off of his aura, it makes me instantly falling into a submissive spirit that I don't like but I find it welcoming. Tobias is just the type of male who demands attention and I'm the idiot to give it to him, "So, be prepared for me, Tris. You're trying my patience." With that, he releases me and I take that opportunity to my friends.
Just when I thought this day was getting better. . .