Chapter 12: Reunion

I toss my pen on my desk with a sigh of frustration and I rub my hands up and down my face. 5 whole days of spending time with my friends, including Tobias, and avoiding him on purpose when we do have get together's. He's tried talking to me numerous times but I just had to quickly excuse myself to go to the bathroom or something so I would have a reason to not talk to him. The more I avoid him, the more Christina tells me to grow a pair and talk to him―all of my friends. Yet, I don't want to bring myself to something where I know that I will get hurt, I don't want to tie myself down without fully reassuring myself.

I decide to go on my lunch break early, my stomach growling and my head hurting. I shut my laptop down before I shrug my long trench coat on that will protect me from the rain outside. I grab my bag and start to make my way down to the parking deck. But, as I am walking I look outside to see that it has stopped raining, instead the clouds look like they could drop some more rain if the droplets were heavier. I choose to walk to my destination with my umbrella in hand instead of going through traffic and coming back late.

LYFE, was the closest and most convenient options by my job. I wasn't going to walk all the way down the street just to haul a cab because I got caught in the rain. I stand in the line and go over the menu at least 10 times until it's my turn to step up. I order the grilled pepper quesadilla, grilled chicken sandwich, and a ginger beer. It doesn't take long when I get my food and I have all intentions to get the hell out of here and spend my time savoring all of my delicious food, until I hear my name being called and that voice sends shivers down my spine in a way that I don't know if it's good or bad. I bite my lip and turn around slowly to face Tobias, "Hey." He walks towards me with his hands in his pockets. I take notice of his apparel, he has on a pair of black jeans, a polo sweatshirt, and his polo bomber jacket with Adidas sneakers. He looks so sexy in casual clothing that I am actually taken back. Although it feels kind of weird seeing him here in the states, just a few months ago I knew that I could walk anywhere without having a sense of anticipation that he might see me, "What brings you here?"

"I could ask you the same thing." I can feel heat creeping up my neck, "Are you following me?"

His eyebrows furrow and he gives me such a look that puts me in my place, "No, my hotel is close to here and I decided to get some food seeing that I don't have much to do here." He shrugs his shoulders, "You on your lunch break?"

"Yes," I nod my head, "Actually I should get going back-"

"-You can come back to my room you know and we can eat. . . and talk. Just talk." He points out and I get hit with so many confusion emotions it feels like the right reaction is to back out. But, I mentally slap myself in the face and take a deep breath, nodding my head. He looks so taken back I find it almost offensive, "Okay, just give me a few to get my food." I nod my head and sit down at one of the tables, looking out the window at the people walking past. Wondering, I how I got hooked to Tobias with all these people in the world.

I whip out my phone and find Christina's contact number. Even though she is probably too busy with one of her many 'patients' that she cares for so much, she most likely won't see it.

Well, since you kept asking so much. . . I put on my big girl panties and I'm going with Tobias back to his room for lunch- Tris

I bite my lip, looking at his strong structure from behind as he braces himself on the counter and watches his food being prepared. I look at the females sparring him a glance as he looks like he is from a damn magazine with those clothes on and posing like that. I still feel some type of way knowing that he is fighting for me! Instead of all these other girls who are just melting over him right now. Wait! Rewind! This man is fighting for me. Me! It just hit me like a ton of bricks, this whole time I have been too blind to actually just give myself a chance to just see what everyone else was seeing. All I saw was that he just wanted to get in my panties again and betray me, he didn't want a real relationship. Yet, he is here for a nice little get-together/break and here he is calling me and making sure that I am okay. I am giving him the cold shoulder and being mean. I'm so pissed at myself that I could cry.

My phone dings.

I'm so taken back yet proud of you, congrats!- Christina

I take a deep breath when Tobias walks towards me with one bag in his hand. He gives me a kind smile and we both walk out of the restaurant together.

"So, what do you work as?"

"A distribution company. I am part of the warehouse section. I place orders in, and I also deal with payroll."

"How responsible of you."

I playfully glare at him and cross one leg over the other. The tense air between the two of us seemed to have vanished when we were on our way walking back to the hotel. We came to his room and I was surprised to see how neat and tidy it was, we ate our lunch at the small dining table that was located in the living room/kitchenette. Now, we were drinking our drinks and sharing a cookie he got for free.

Tobias isn't as bad as it seemed. I don't know what I was getting myself so worked up about him, "Tris, I just want to talk to you." Tobias leans forward in his chair. My heart starts to beat more as my high of happiness starts to slowly come crashing down like a mud avalanche, "I don't know to explain it to you. Honestly, you don't have to want to be in a relationship with me. Just forgive me."

My eyebrows knit together in confusion as I look at him, searching for some kind of answer to this jumbled problem, "What do you mean?"

"Tris, to me it seems like you hate me or you really don't like me." A sad looks forms across his face and I want to jump out of the window for putting him in such a horrible emotion, "Just forgive me for whatever I must have done to you in the past for you to not like me."

"Tobias," I am at a lost of words as I try to fish out the words in my mind with a thin rod. I try to add words together that will make sense without sounding like a complete idiot, "You didn't do anything to me, and I do like you. I don't hate you. You just. . . bring so many emotions out of me that I don't know how to deal with them. It was never this hard for me. Now, your in my life shaking up the simple things I had into something new."

"Is that good?"

"Yes."

Recognize - Partynextdoor ft. Drake

He looks like I just gave him a rocket scientists' homework, "So, why do you keep pushing me away?" I shrug my shoulders, fumbling with my fingers in my lap, unable to meet him in the eyes, "If I bring out the good feelings in you and you do the same for me, and I have everyone out of my life that will cause confusion. Why are we still like this? I'm done trying to play the 'nice guy' and walk on eggshells with you. I'm not going to pretend that this is high school and we blush around each other because this is life. Tris, will you be in my life?"

Tears blur my vision and my lip trembles, I stand up and start to walk to the front door and I hear him let out a groan of frustration, "So, your just going to run away like usual and not put your feelings up front?" I hear him behind me as I stop in my tracks, putting on my trench coat. I don't even bother turning around, "Your going to act like a coward because I know that this isn't you."

"Tobias, I'm scared okay?!" I whip around, "I don't want to get hurt. I'm in too deep right now. If you leave me that would be it because I care for you so much. That's why I can't find the strength to say yes."

We stand there staring at each other for what seems like an eternity, the only sound is the rain starting to pour out of the sky. Tobias takes one stride towards me and grabs my face in between his hands and leans down, pressing his lips on mines. Normally, I would push him away and run away. But, I am tired of running away. Instead, I kiss him back with much intensity. This kiss feels so much different than the other ones, sparks electrify the air around us. Instead of those fireworks people say, I feel like I am being zapped each time his skillful tonuge brushes against mines and its so pleasurable. I drop my bag on the floor, my hands curling around his broad and muscular shoulders. I pull away from him for air and for him to wipe the tears off of my face, "Did you find the strength?"

I look at him in the eyes, asking myself the same questions I was the other day. I do see myself with him, and I do want to at least try something new. I want to see him everyday and be able to call him, we'll figure out the rest later, "Yes." I whisper. Tobias sucks in a deep breath and slams his mouth against mines and kisses me like this is the last time he'll see me.

"What time do you have to be back?" He asks, easing my jacket off of my shoulders and pulling me into a hug while he presses his lips against mines, tasting of chocolate.

"It doesn't matter, just take me, please." I beg. I've been dreaming about this forever, and I would be so pissed that I would wake up right now and this would all be a dream, a figment of my imagination. He looks in my eyes briefly before his lips collide with mines and he lifts me in his arms, everything seems to move so quick that it gives me a headache. My back hits the mattress and our lips pull apart for a split second to take off my boots and socks, and while he does that I take off my long sleeve, t-shirt, leaving me in my bra and skirt. Tobias climbs back on top of me and the heat from his body warms me like a fire in the winter, my body starts to react to his touches and soon my underwear becomes dripping wet when Tobias' hands cup around my breast.

While he peppers kisses around my neck and cleavage, I unbutton his pants and he takes off his sweater. I've been wanting this since I woke up with a hangover, and now to have it happening in the flesh, it's almost surreal. Tobias lips come back to mine tenderly before he slowly turns me on my stomach. I would love nothing more than to kiss his lips as we both climaxed, but I do have to admit we both love this position. I love changing things up, like it's so obvious what would happen. I hear the zipper of my skirt in the back, slowly slide down, the cool metal touching my heated skin.

"So, beautiful." I brace myself on the bed, smiling when I feel him placing a kiss on my shoulder and down my back until my skirt comes off along with my panties, "Are you still on?"

"Yes." My voice doesn't even sound the same. It sounds small and helpless. I hear Tobias moan when his finger comes in contact with my sopping wet opening, he teases me by tracing the hole and I whimper into the pillows. The last thing we need is to get caught by housekeeping or someone coming in to check on us because we're too loud. His finger finally enters me and I just about loose it as I try my best to stay grounded with earth, instead of moving it he takes it out making me about to protest but soon I feel the bulbous head of his manhood doing the exact same thing as finger just did.

"Are you ready?" I nod my head, my hair cascading on my shoulders, stopping at the hook of my bra that seems to be forgotten. He slowly inches in, my walls stretching with each new amount of him. I bite my lip to stop crying out from the pleasurable pain. He keeps going and I keep stretching. Suddenly, I feel like I am a whole virgin again and I want to crawl away from him and get away from the pain, but it feels so good in an odd way. Tobias hand travels up my back onto my shoulders and I hear groans and grunts from his throat as he thrusts in slowly and then out, letting me get used to the feeling of him inside of me again, "So tight."

His pace starts to pick up along with my breathing, his hand tugs on my hair until it feels like my throat is going to rip open. My eyes roll in the back of my head as I start to climb higher and higher to my orgasm that is threatening to wash me away like the sand on the beach. And, I can tell by just how my walls keep contracting around him that this is going to be a powerful one, better than the ones I tried to give myself with my vibrator, better than the ones I've had in my sleep. After fantasizing over him in the last, what it seems, almost 3 months, I finally have him behind me, in my favorite position and inside of me invading me and stretching me. With a grunt, Tobias pushes me down until my face is pressed down into the mattress that smells of him. I bite down on the top part of my hand to hold back the scream that wants to erupt from my throat.

I finally got what I want. I wanted Tobias to dominate me and be rough with me, have me passing out from pleasure and now he isn't treating me like we just made up whatever feud we had with each other and that is one of the many things I love about him―he doesn't do the expect, like 'making love' to me sensually in the way that we just 'made up'. I keep taking deep breaths as I near closer and closer to my awaiting orgasm. My hands grip the comforter as Tobias thrusts start to come harder but less calculated, "F-ck." I whimper, my eyes rolling in the back of my head as my jaw goes slack and I get hit with my orgasm, moaning loudly into the creaking bed. All of my thoughts of anger, sadness, and getting caught in here for being too loud falls off of the balcony and I give in to my emotions and release so much tension that has been in me forever.

My cunt squeezing and dripping around Tobias seems to get to him and I feel his warm semen dripping into me and I fall forward, exhausted and spent for the rest of the day with no intentions of going back to work and I don't mind getting fired. If it means I can spend time with Tobias more, I don't care. I feel him pull out of me but I don't have any strength to pull my face from the mattress and face him. With my eyes closed and almost asleep, I feel a warm rag wiping away the mess in between my legs. I smile and finally give into the sleep, blocking everything out except for the man beside me.

I hear the sound of the shower running in the distance. I peak my head up and see nothing but darkness in the room, I glance out of the large window seeing that the sun is down and Chicago moving lively with the lights blinking. I try to sit up but a dull pain reaches in between my legs, through my back, and my neck. I flip to my back, my hair fanning against the white pillows and the same color thin sheet spread across my body. A cold breeze hits my skin as Tobias opens the door from the bathroom, a towel around his waist and droplets of water sliding down his Greek godlike body. My nipples harden under the sheet and they strain against the fabric.

"You're awake." Tobias says with a smile, walking towards me and sitting on the edge of the bed beside me. I smile at him as he leans down and captures his lips with mines, his large hand under my jaw as our lips seem to work magical wonders. I'm the first one to pull away, "Are you feeling okay?"

I nod my head, "Yes." I lie. Of course I am sore but I feel fine enough to do an everyday activity, "You're still here." I point out.

"What is that supposed to mean?"

I shrug my shoulders, sitting up, wrapping myself up in the blanket. I look at the small careless drops that slide down Tobias' back on the bed, "I don't know. I would have guessed that you were lying yesterday and you don't want to be with me. You just wanted to have sex with me." I frown.

"Why do you keep doubting yourself?" Tobias questions, "I do want to be with you. I thought I told you that yesterday. We wouldn't have to have sex for years, as long as I get to see you everyday. . . as cheesy as it sounds." I giggle at him and place my head on his damp shoulder.

"It's around 1 in the morning and I'm starving wanna go get something to eat?"

Much like New York, Chicago is also a place that is fast paced city and many places are open. I take a quick shower while Tobias gets dressed and I put on my other clothes, while we drive around town I look down at my phone and I see that I have many missed calls and voicemail from Peter, a few from my mother, and Christina. I bite my lip in fear of losing my job, earlier I didn't care and now that my head is out of the clouds and I am getting hit with reality thoughts of me losing my job hangs over my head with regret.

"Actually, after we get our food, can you take me to my apartment. I'm gonna try and get ready for work that's in a few hours," I try to mask my sadness, "Peter, my boss, is still pissed for me leaving him for two weeks and now that I didn't return from my lunch break. . . he's going to have my head and I wouldn't be too surprised if I get fired." I don't know what I would do if I got fired. Honestly, I love my job, and spending time with Maya. If I did though, I have enough experience to go to another job and start over, I just don't like the fact that I would have to build my relationships and position all over again. Plus, I want to have my own sense of pride when I get my paycheck and not depend on Tobias or anyone to make me happy.

Tobias nods his head, seeming sad but pushing it away, "That's fine. But what if you left something?"

"That'll only give me another reason to come over."

Greasy pizza was in store for me when I got back to my apartment. Tobias gave me compassionate kiss before leaving me alone in my apartment. I can't help the cheesy smile that formed on my lips as I had lay out my clothing for the next few hours when I would get up and go to work. As I sat down on the couch and ate my food I couldn't help but to think that Tobias is finally mine, I can call him whenever I want and kiss him when I felt like it. Of course, we still have many things to talk about instead of brushing it under the rug, but for right now I know that he and I want to do exactly that and just live in the moment for now.

While we waited in the line for our food to be made in the small pizza parlor, Tobias and I both agreed to make our relationship more in cement after the baby-shower. Right now there is a lot of finishing touches for that and I don't want to take the shine away from my bestfriend because I know that they will keep talking about this for a while. Tobias also agreed but didn't like the idea of hiding it because he wants to show me off to the world.

Saturday is the baby shower, Sunday is the day Tobias is taking me out for dinner, and that following Friday is the day that we tell our friends. I couldn't be more happier at the fact that I have a boyfriend now, years later I knew that Tobias would be the one for me. February 20th, 2016 is the date that Tobias became mines and I became his. . . less than 24 hours ago.