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"So when I was 15 years old I fell in love with this guy in my art class. I always called it love at first sight but then it wouldn't have been possible for things to turn out the way they did. To me he had come around at exactly the right time and I was willing to commit everything to him, I was so young I know…I was also outrageously naive. So naive that I never noticed the red flags that had been risen since the very beginning. I mean the whole time we flirted he had a girlfriend! Then the minute we have start actually getting to know each other, he dumps his ex and starts dating me! That poor girl…back then I didn't give a shit though, I was so damn blind. We were set up to fail though…that summer he moved four hours away from our town to live with his dad. The first two years of our relationship were long distance and that is where the downward spiral began." I hadn't been back to these memories in ages, my eyes had begun to sting. Fuck, how can I cry in front of someone I just met? I don't want to seem like some emotional wreck…even though I knew I was.
"Damn Goku I must be boring you. We should just talk about something else."
"No, I'm interested! It's helping me understand you a bit more." He quickly replied. I didn't want to continue though, the memories were still too painful. It didn't hurt because I was heartbroken, it hurt because I couldn't believe the torture I put myself through for virtually nothing. I never had anything but good intentions, I even planned on marrying Damien one day. All that effort was wasted and pointless, I had made a fool of myself. I was left with pieces and I was learning about myself all over again.
"Just let me know if you've heard enough. Ok? Anyway I wasted so much valuable time for him. I missed out on so much and I was always sneaking around my parents back for him. He made me into someone I never wanted to be. When the love between you and your partner is pure you should only work to bring each other up and never down. I was always being brought down. Goku, he never made me a better person, not once. He made me worse. Now that we are broken up I'm just trying to figure out who I am as Luna, not as Damien's girlfriend."
I paused for a moment to give Goku a chance to say something if he wanted to. He appeared to be in deep thought as he sat facing me with both his legs and arms crossed. He looked up at me and straight into my eyes.
"Please go on." He insisted. I was pleased to see that he was not bored at least.
"Damien is a very territorial kind of guy, not in the chivalrous type of way but in an obsessive type of manner, and not to mention jealous as fuck. For someone who was in love I didn't mind it at all though, I just wanted to make him happy and I was happy with him, I would've done anything for him. And he never appreciated it. A few months before our third year anniversary I had discovered that Damien had been cheating on me with someone at his work. It shattered me. I trusted him with all my heart and he completely betrayed me…His excuses involved the issues we had been having prior to the affair. But basically he was blaming it on me. Long story short, he tattooed "sorry" on his hand and the idiot I was took him back—"
"So this guy deliberately betrayed you and you stayed with him anyway?" This was Goku's first outburst since I had began my sad sad story. It caught me off guard considering he had chosen to remain silent.
"Well…Yes. Isn't that what you do when you love someone? You forgive them…"
"But Luna…what about you?"
"What about me?"
"Well don't you love yourself? Didn't you care about yourself? Did you not think that you deserved better than some prick who was going to run to another girl whenever things got tough? Would you have done something like that to him?!" I was sincerely shocked. Goku seemed so serious as well. How could I answer him though? I knew that my feelings were to always come last, I always put him ahead of me. And no. I couldn't have imagined doing something like that to him at the time. But he did it to me and it was a huge punch in the gut and ego. Instead of answering Goku's question out loud I continued to stare down at my twiddling fingers, I began to wonder whether this story was too revealing of me. How could I stop now though? This is exactly why I never talked about this…I couldn't handle the criticism, I was hard enough on myself as it was.
"You know Goku I hardly ever thought of myself in that relationship. I had been a selfish person all my life and when I finally fell in love I wanted to be the best partner I could be. I was putting 110% of myself into this and I'd say he was at 45%, I gave up too much of myself. That was the mistake I made for the sake of love." I suddenly felt the trickling of tears down my cheeks, they were flowing uncontrollably however I wasn't sobbing. I wasn't choking up like I would usually do when I cried. This time the tears had come down on their own, I had been holding them back for so long I guess they couldn't hold anymore…
"There's such an overwhelming sadness coming from your energy Luna…almost like its spilling out of you. How long had you been holding all this in?" His voice was much softer than before and even though I had I just met him a few hours ago it was so comforting to me…
"For as long as the relationship had lasted, five years. I never told a soul about the problems we were having…or rather the problems I was having. I only wanted others to think well of us, maybe even look up to us as inspiration for standing together for so long…The way I idolized my parents relationship. In the end I always believed everything was going to be ok, because love endures everything. When things only got worse I soon realized that even though what I was experiencing was love it was not the same for him, and that is why it could never work." I frantically tried to wipe the tears away but they continued to flow, at least I wasn't choked up.
"So your close friends never even had a clue of what was going on?" He asked, removing a handkerchief from his pocket and offering it to me. I nodded appreciatively to him and used it to dry my cheeks, it smelled so good…
"Ha…Goku I don't have any close friends…" My voice was beginning to trail off…I could feel that dreaded lump in my throat that I had been avoiding for months. I gave myself a second before I continued.
"It's hard to believe someone like you doesn't have any close friends…" He said quietly to himself, I wasn't sure if it was something I was meant to hear.
"What do you mean by someone like me?" I softly asked, while slightly bowing my head to meet his eyes that had been staring down. Our eyes locked for a second before he quickly looked away. Did I just see a hint of pink appear on his cheeks? How incredibly cute, gosh his wife was too lucky…I was happy to hold his attention now, even if it were just for a moment.
I watched him search for his words, he was looking directly to his left so that I was able to admire his perfect profile. What had he truly meant?
"Well…to be completely honest Luna, after everything you told me, I kind of admire you. To me its sounds like you really know how to love a guy that's for sure…except you were just giving it to the wrong person. Damn haha I wish I knew someone who deserved you so maybe I could set you up with them hahaha.." He laughed nervously with that cheesy grin of his and arm rubbing the back of his head. I was smiling now as my tears came to a halt.
"That's sweet. Thank you for saying that Goku. I should be the one admiring you though, you're basically an every day super hero in your world. All the while you have a family and a wife whom you love. I hope to have kids one day too, it's all a matter of finding the right man to reproduce with. Thinking about the possibility of getting pregnant while with Damien was always scary to me. Not because it was too early, even though it certainly was, I just didn't want to be stuck with him forever. Whenever the time is right to get pregnant I want it to be a joyous time for everyone involved. If I had gotten pregnant with Damien my family would've been devastated, I would have been devastated…" I noticed Goku had been looking away again, in deep thought it seemed. What had been on his mind this whole time?
"Is there something bothering you Goku?" I asked concerned, without thinking I even placed my hand on his crossed leg to get his attention. His eyes were then on my hand. Had I crossed the line? I didn't think so, he was acting rather stranger than before. My thoughts were interrupted by his deep sigh. I looked up at him, he was biting the inside of his cheek and still looking down at my hand that continued to rest on his leg. Concerned, I slowly retracted my hand and leaned into the arm rest of the love seat.
"You really got me thinking Luna…That's for sure." was all that he said, still looking down.
"May I ask what you're thinking about exactly?" I hesitated slightly before asking. Where was this going?
His brow was now furrowed and the grip on his crossed arms had been tightened.
"Luna…" It seemed as if was struggling to find the right words again.
"Look Goku, I know we just met today and all…but just as you were here for me to listen, so am I for you. I can be a very understanding person and it looks like something is bothering you." I asked concerned, he was making me anxious. I couldn't imagine what I said exactly that triggered him to behave like this.
"I love my sons Gohan and Goten very much. I would do anything for their happiness and I have. I'd give my life for them and I have—" he paused for a moment. I sat patiently until he was ready to speak again, he had my full attention.
"Before our conversation I had never heard anyone talk about their feelings to this extent, I never even knew that it was possible for someone to feel like that. You really had me reflecting on my own life and the type of love I've experienced. I've felt strong emotions through energy before even though it is not too common. I felt it at my son Gohan's wedding, I feel it from Vegeta and Bulma every now and again…but…it was always something I picked up from other people's energy. It wasn't something that I personally felt…" He began to trail off again. I think I understood what he was saying, the energy he was talking about, it had to be true love. I've felt it too, not for myself but from other people like my parents and even strangers. I've always wondered if it was something just anybody could feel or if perhaps their love was just so strong it was literally emitting from their bodies. This is how I was able to indicate that what Damien and I had was not true. Wait a minute…I know what he's been having trouble saying!
"Goku…You don't love your wife do you?" I said quietly. He was silent for a moment, his expression was stern and his eyes were closed.
"If that is what true love is supposed to feel like…then no. No I don't love Chichi…"
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"Well that certainly was evil of you Lord Beerus…" Whis mentioned as him and Beerus hovered over his scepter that displayed the scene taking place in Luna's apartment.
"Bwahahaha I am the God of Destruction after all Whis!" Lord Beerus laughed while gripping his stomach.
"I've seen you mercilessly destroy millions of planets but I have never seen you go this extent to destroy a relationship." Whis he said in a stern tone.
"That is true but the Saiyan brat had it coming. He should learn not to disrespect the God of Destruction."
"He merely pointed fun at the fact that you were single Lord Beerus…"
"A God's personal life should not be spoken of lightly Whis much less by a mere Saiyan!"
