"I fucked up Estelle. I fucked up." I repeated to her as I grasped on to the sides of my heads in hopes that'll it would stop the spinning.
"Shut up Luna you're going to be fine! Calm down!" She shouted at me, her voice echoed loudly off the enclosed walls of the elevator. Jesus I was trying hard to get my right mind together but I was struggling like never before. I was starting to get frustrated because I so desperately didn't want to ruin another encounter with Atticus. I never even drink how could this possibly be happening?
"I'm such an idiot…" I murmured, looking down. Estelle grabbed my wrists and looked sternly into my eyes.
"Luna, a really hot guy with amazing charm and money just agreed to meet with you. GET IT TOGETHER!" Oh god she really wasn't helping, and she might've been scarring her date in the process. I looked over to him in the corner, his eyes were glued to his phone. What was his name again? Trevor? I'm kind of hungry now that I think about it…Oh Estelle is still giving me that intense look. I nodded to her enthusiastically, forgetting what I was agreeing to. The elevator finally stopped, giving my spinning head some relief, as we stepped out onto our floor. Estelle led the way to our room. It was extremely extravagant but god these lights were too damn bright.
"Here's some water Luna. Snack on these peanuts and just chill ok? You're gonna be fine." Estelle assured me as she sat me down on the couch. I was just happy to finally be eating something I was starving. She disappeared into one of the two private bedrooms of the suite. I sunk into the couch and continued to snack on my peanuts. I kicked off the heels that had been killing me all night and folded my legs onto the couch, beneath my dress. You know if I wasn't drunk I'd probably be drowning in my anxiety right now…I just wish my head didn't feel so fuzzy, it was hard to concentrate. I leaned deeper into the armrest besides me, using it as a headrest. I began to drift…
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"I'm SO sorry but my friend Luna seems to be asleep for the night. Trust me she isn't usually like this, it had just been a rough night for her." I could faintly hear Estelle's voice in the background. I was so snuggled I didn't want to move.
"I understand miss. Thank you for the invitation, make sure she gets enough rest. Feel free to sleep in tonight the hotel's check out time isn't until 3 in the afternoon. I'd like to leave my number for Miss Luna if that is alright?" This voice is so familiar…
"Oh yes Luna would love that!"
"Here you are. Please have a good night." I could hear the door shut and Estelle's feet quickly approaching.
"Who was that Estelle?" A man's voice called out from a distant room.
"Oh it was Atticus, the one who gave us the room. I had invited him over for Luna but she's dead asleep and I didn't want to wake her. She definitely had too much to drink tonight." It had suddenly clicked in my drunken head that I had a date tonight, with a gorgeous, polite man who bought us a hotel room. My eyes shot open. I was now sitting upright on the sofa.
"Estelle why dignt yoo wake meh?" I demanded at the blurry Estelle. I could feel the words slipping right off my tongue, god why does my head feel so heavy?
"You'll thank me later, at least you have his number now! Hey Julian and I want to hang out here in the living room, were you done for the night or did you want to chill too?" She asked, adjusting the strap on my dress so that it wasn't hanging off my shoulder anymore. The sound of a champagne bottle being opened caught my attention from the other side of the room. Messy haired Julian was pouring a couple glasses. I can't believe I made a fool out of myself in front of potential husband material. How would I ever work up the nerve to talk to him again? Hahaha wow I am ridiculously unlucky, mine as well keep drinking right?
"I'll stay up witchu guys." I blinked at her, then began eyeing the glasses.
"Wooow I like this side of Luna! Hell yeah Julian get your fine ass over here with another glass for my best friend here!"
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"Hahaha I swear tu god I've nevr seen a single Lord of da Rings movvie!" Julian threw his head back laughing at Estelle's Gollum impression then bringing her close to his chest. I glanced at my phone's time that read 4:01 am. We were all drinking our champagne on the floor of the living room barefoot, joking around and talking about life.
"Well dats gunna have tu change cuz Stella luuuuvs Lord of da Rings." I advised Julian, who's attention was on Estelle whispering in his ear. Jesus. I took another swig from the champagne bottle I had claimed, I couldn't taste a drop of alcohol anymore and I was taking advantage of it. I was trying not to think about it too much but I really wished I had a guy to cuddle me right now. Could've been Atticus, I also tried not to think about this. But not just any guy. THE guy. I didn't want to play this dating game anymore, I wanted to be in love, I wanted to be loved. Estelle and Julian were making out now, I gave them a couple seconds to realize that I was still in the room but after 15 I had to loudly clear my throat. Estelle immediately retracted with a red face.
"Sowrry Luna I'm plastered hahaha." She giggled, leaning back into Julian's lap as he wrapped his arms around her. I took another gulp from my bottle.
"I don't unerstand yoou people. Howd you becum fizically intimate wit sumeone you barely knoow? I'll nevr undersand. Hook-uups are impossible fer me persunally." I had given up on trying to control my speech long ago.
"Hmm. I cant explayn it guud but wit Julian I instantly waanted tu make out wit him." Estelle giggled into his chest.
"Hahaha I was gunna say the saame thing stelly!" Julian laughed into her hair, they made too cute of a couple it was crazy.
"Yoouve nevr fellt lik that Luuna?" Estelle asked as I was just about to take another sip of my drink.
"Haha nev-" I had to catch myself mid sentence. It's true that I never felt any desire to be physical with someone I just met. But I had once before…
"Whut iz it Luuna? Don't tell me yoou hav?!" Estelle exclaimed.
"Goku…" That man that crash landed in front of my old apartment, the man from another universe. I was instantly attracted to Goku for sure…I had repressed my memories of him for so long. With my drunken mind all the memories were suddenly flooding my thoughts. His sheepish grin, those eyes I struggled with getting lost in, his warmth…my heart was beginning to feel heavy. Now I remembered why I had repressed my memories of him…they hurt me. I missed him. My eyes were stinging with tears.
"Luuna?! Are you okaay?" My best friend was suddenly at my side with her arm over my shoulder. "Who's Goku? Yoove nevr sayd that name tu me befor."
"He saved my life…" I cried softly. He really did. In more ways than one. I recalled the night at that gas station, I should have died. I remembered the way he used to make me feel…emotionally…and physically. He truly awoke the women within me, it was because of him that I was alive and reborn. I cut him out of my life because I couldn't match his perfection, I was a shell of a person then…but now…Hadn't I already convinced myself that I was ready?
"Luuna pleaze xplain, who is Goku?" Estelle desperately asked, she must've been so confused. How could I possibly begin to tell this story? I was too damn drunk, fuck! Then without a second thought…
"Do yoou want to meet him?" I grinned at her, my tears instantly gone. My heart was PUMPING. I hadn't seen him in so long. I wanted to see him so badly. I'd never work up the nerve to see him sober. This is it. It had to be now. I had to see Goku NOW. Estelle just looked at me dumbfounded.
"Are yoou okaay?" She asked as she touched my forehead with the back of her hand. I looked over to Julian who looked just as confused.
"GOKU!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. Estelle slapped her hand right over my mouth.
"Luna! Are yoou crazy? Why don't yoou jus call him wit your phone?" I struggled hard to pull her hand off my mouth. She was pinning me down on the carpet now. I slid my wet tongue across her salty palm and she instantly released.
"Luna what the fuc-"
"GOKU!" I screamed again from beneath Estelle, resisting her attempts to constrain me.
"You called?" The sound of his voice hit me like a ton of bricks. Estelle quickly whipped her head around, I watched her eyes widen. I couldn't help but start smiling. I lifted my head up from the floor to see the impossibly handsome Saiyan with the same sheepish grin I use to dream about.
"Goku…"