~~hello readers! I'm finally back from much needed time at home. also lately i have been severely occupied with several anime at once it's crazy but i'm taking a break from all that to get back on track with this story. enjoy and leave a review if you'd like :) —LA~~
I was startled awake. What was that just now? I could have sworn I was just in the middle of something…Where am I? I squinted my eyes open to be met with blinding sunlight. Unable to bear it for another second, I swung my legs over the side of the bed and escaped the heated covers. Immediately my knees gave out and I fell to the carpet. Oh shit…my head. I grasped onto my head with both arms, writhing around on the floor. Oh my god my head has never fucking hurt this much. I sprouted a few tears from the pain as I lie on side, bringing my knees closer to my chest. Jesus. I don't even want to move. How did this happen? I attempted to recollect my thoughts from before I was asleep. Ok I was at the wedding…with Estelle…all the guys I had met were shit…oh yeah Estelle managed to find herself a boy toy…I might've had a little too much to drink…those pink lemonade's were so fucking good though. However the thought of drinking one triggered my gag reflex and my body suddenly jolted forward. Oh my god fuck alcohol seriously what have I DONE. I hugged my midsection tightly as if it would give me any relief. Please don't throw up now…I looked up at the glaring sunlight that still penetrated me on the floor. If I could just make it to close the curtains I can lay back down…I wonder how Estelle is doing?
It was incredibly painful but I managed to reach the curtains and successfully draw them. Crawling back I noticed a strip of light hitting the floor that led all the way up to my bed. It might have been the hangover or it might have been my poor eyesight, but I could have sworn that I saw a glisten of black hair from the bed. There was no way though…but wait….I can't even remember getting into bed last night. Laying flat on my stomach against the carpet I thought hard about the events that occurred the night before. OH! That one guy that gave us these hotel rooms was supposed to meet us here…holy shit I remember freaking out because I was feeling too…drunk…OH MY GOD! I literally cant remember a thing after that! Holy shit is that him in my bed?! Geez Luna I didn't think you had it in you…How did I manage to sleep with someone I just met? Wait a minute…it took me a minute to become aware that I was indeed wearing my panties and I also still had on my dress. I breathed a sigh of relief. Thank goodness, I kept my dignity after all! Is it possible that I passed out on him last night and he decided to sleep with me? Oh my god WHAT was his name? I shook my head and pounded the carpet in frustration.
"This is why you don't drink Luna!" I scowled to myself. My stress level was rising, fuck and I just woke up too, not to mention my head is spinning like crazy. You're such a fucking idiot Luna. Steadily I continued my route to the bed until I was finally able to pull myself up back onto the mattress. I tried not to shift the bed under me too much to avoid waking my sleeping partner. His messy black hair lay scattered on his pillow as he slept peacefully on his stomach, facing away from me. I laid on my side towards him, snuggled in the fluffy white sheets and just watched him. Ok Luna just go back to the conversation you had with him earlier, what did he say his name was? I'm pretty sure it was something medieval…like Allister or something. It was even difficult for me to grasp onto a solid image of his face in my head. Maybe if I got a good look at his face it would jog my memory of his name? It was a struggle but I managed to prop myself up with my right arm and used my left to carefully pull back the covers from the stranger's face. Before I could focus on his face I felt him begin to shift positions so I quickly fell back into my pillow and turned to face the curtains, pretending to still be asleep.
After a few minutes of silence, I assumed he was still asleep and turned over. I hadn't realized he had moved so closely to me so I was suddenly nose to nose to him…huh? My eyes widened. I swear to god my heartbeat just stopped. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't move, I was in a complete state of shock. What's going on? It can't be…there's no way…AM I SERIOUSLY LOOKING AT GOKU RIGHT NOW? IS THIS GOKU IN BED WITH ME? With a sharp intake of air I managed to scoot back to the far edge of the bed, to confirm my sight from a distance. Yeah. It was definitely him…The shocked expression on my face began to soften as tears began to escape rapidly down my cheeks. Goku…it's you…you're finally here. I desperately wanted to reach out and touch his face as he lay fast asleep. I was overcome with a familiar wave of emotions, I could hardly catch my breathe as I clutched at my chest. Every single memory I had of Goku flooded my thoughts, the ones I had kept surpassed after all this time, it was overwhelming, it was too much. This is why I kept them away from me, I couldn't handle it, most importantly…it terrified me. I wasn't ready to see Goku again…I had planned to maybe meet him one day further in the future, when I was more mature or something, when I was ready…But hadn't I decided already that I was ready? Wasn't that the whole reason why I had decided to attend the wedding in the first place? It had been over two years since I left Damien for good, have I not been spending all this time preparing myself for The One? I'm not going far enough to say that that person is Goku but was the time to pursue him now? I was in no position to have feelings for Goku two years ago..but what was stopping me now? I starred intensely at him. He was even more handsome than I had remembered and in an instant my confidence was gone. I furrowed my brows. Yeah right Luna he's way out of your league…
Why the hell was he here anyway?! AH I have no recollection after waiting for that guy to come over last night! Did he come here on his own? Oh my fucking god DID I CALL HIM?
"Luna if you ever need me…just call ok?" The memory of his voice echoed in my head. I had already planned to take advantage of that one day…whenever the hell I had decided I was worthy of someone like Goku. At least I'm not the emotional wreck I was before and I also have a bit more confidence. However I never anticipated to stay with the anxiety I still live with everyday. I always figured that one day I would ignore it enough that it would eventually fizzle away and I'd be free of it. That couldn't be further from the truth though. Yes I am different from the girl I was when I first met Goku, but in some ways my anxiety has gotten worse. It was my greatest weakness… My thoughts were interrupted when I heard the bedroom door knob begin to turn.
"Luna…Are you alive?" It was Estelle, she was whispering. I forced my focus away from the sleeping Goku and rolled quietly out of bed. She looked so happy to see me and I was so eager to get some answers from her about last night. I fought to stand upright and tried to ignore the intense, sharp pain that remained in my head. The moment I was able to reach her, she shut the door behind me and helped me to the living room couch.
"Last night was fucking crazy." Was all she could say to me as she grasped onto both sides of head. Clearly she was hung over as well, most of her make up was smeared under her eyes, and she wore her hair in a severely tangled bun on her head. I brought my knees to my chest and rested my head against the couch cushion, I probably looked like a mess also.
"I can't remember shit." I looked at her with dead eyes, she wore absolute shock on her face.
"Oh my god you don't remember?! Luna how the fuck did that man just appear out of thin air?! And no I didn't imagine it because I already confirmed it with Julian and he saw it also! Holy shit Luna you literally just called out his name and within seconds he was in the living room! You don't remember that happening?" She asked frantically. Oh god this was worse than I had imagined. Did I just drunkenly call out for Goku? Are you fucking serious?
I dug my forehead against my knees, gripping tightly onto my shins.
"I'm such a fucking idiot!" I hissed to myself.
"Why had you never mentioned him before Luna?" She placed her hand on my shoulder to get my attention. I looked up at her with a strained expression. I guess I had no choice. It was finally time to talk to someone about this.