A/N: Thank you everyone for all the reviews and follows. I'm sorry it has been so long since my last update but things have gotten crazy and busy due to the holidays so it was impossible to sit down and type out this chapter but I've finally gotten time to sit down and due this. So with that in mind Happy Belated Thanksgiving and enjoy this chapter!
The Forbidden Crush
Chapter 7
She sat there facing her Potions Professor and inwardly sighed as he licked those sultry lips of his. She pushed those thoughts out of her mind, She can't be thinking like this right now especially if she is in trouble. She wiped her mind clear so that her mind would be empty so she could pay attention to whatever he had to say.
Severus sat at his desk as class ended and he saw the Granger girl slowly packing her belongings and telling her friends she'd catch up with them later. She slowly walked up to his desk and he could tell she was mentally preparing herself for whatever he was going to be talking to her about. It seemed like she knew what he was asking her to speak about. He cursed himself silently. I should have asked her to meet after class seperately in another way, She probably knows that I know now. She was now sitting in front of him waiting for him to say something.
"Miss Granger is there anything you'd like to tell me?"
"I'm not sure what you mean Sir." She said looking at him nervously.
"It seems to be like you have a crush on a Professor here. Would you care to explain this to me?" He said trying to keep his tone even and emotionless along with his face to hopefully keep her from relizing he already knows hoping she'll say it before he has to.
"I do have a crush on someone but nothing can come of it. Nothing ever will so there is no use in speaking about it. I rather not say." She said looking downward. He is good at sensing lies so she felt it best to speak honestly to him.
"Miss Granger I already know who it is so it's best if you just came out and admitted it." He was slightly aggitated now but his voice showed no signs of it.
He waited for her to respond. He wanted to hear it. As he looked at her he noticed she was rather attractive as she has since grown into herself and her hair tamed out alot though he'd never actually admit it to anybody. Maybe he'd have a chance after she graduates if she still feels the same but he must get her to control herself now. Finally she took a breath and spoke.
"So what you're trying to say is you already know it's you?" She said looking slightly more frightened.
"That would be correct." He said sdryly with slight aggrivation. Isn't that what I just clearly said. I thought she was supposed to be the brightest witch of her age yet she is mearl mimicking what I say now. He thought to himself sighing so low it was barely audiable. "The apparent...Crush...On me is not what concerns me as you can feel however you want. But what does concern me is how this crush is affecting your behavior and attention in my class. You are daydreaming and not paying attention to lectures, You're staring at me when you are supposed to be paying attention to your potions I've assigned, and it is blatently obvious that you have a crush. You are lucky most of these other dunderheaded peers of yours are too oblivious to notice the crush you lay out for all to see."
Hermione gulped nervously and took a few deep breaths trying to calm herself as a few tears stung her eyes and she tried to discreetly wipe them away. This was the dungeon will come the insults and the degrading and she'd be running away in tears of hurt and embarresment.
He saw how she was so upset and terrifeied and noticed her failed attempts to hide her tears from him. His heart broke though his face showed no sign. He was so used to his fake persona that he had to make over the years with the war and Voldemort that it was now second nature to hide all emtions and did it without trying.
He open his mouth and spoke again "May I call you Hermione?" He waited and saw her nervously shake her head yes "Hermione I am now not speaking to you as a Professor I am speaking to you as an old comrad in war as an equal okay? I'm going to speak to you as I do with Minerva and my other colleagues as we have much history in common okay?" She pondered for a moment and spoke looking at him suspiciously "Okay, Then may I call you Severus?" He nodded his she relaxed a bit.
"Hermione you need to learn to mask your feelings. Right now your face gives away every emotion inside you. If you don't want to be hurt or tormented by your peers especially this you need to mask your emotions. I still do not see why you have a crush on me of all people out of all the men and boys in this school being as intelligent and statusque as your are. But you cannot show any feelings like this as this would be innapropriate. You are my student and as such until you graduate nothing can come of it and it would put my job in danger. I have lost much and put much on the line do you really think it fair to be to lose my job because of a crush Hermione." He hoped she understood what he said. He didn't want to make her more upset and wanted to try keeping things as calm as possible for if she went to Minerva crying about how he had insulted her and was so mean he'd never hear the end of it and may be hexed to death.
"No that wouldn't be fair. I understand what you are saying partly. But what do you mean until after I graduate though. Are you tring to say I may have a chance then?" She looked hopeful.
He paused for a moment and proceeded. "I don't know but you must learn to mask your emotions and this behavior cannot go on. You must pay more attention in class and focus on your assignments more is that understood"
"Yes Severus, Thank you. I thought for sure you'd degrade and belittle me but you've done nothing but give me advice. I appreciate that. I guess the war did change all of us." She looked at the desk in thoughtfulness.
"The person you all saw before was what I had to be a Death Eater. Had I not mean as cruel and menacing as I was my cover would have possibly been blown. Now I may be free to be who I am but after so man years that part of me will never go away and will still be there. Now please go as I have much work to do before the next class arrives." With a wave of his hand he dismissed her.
She stood up and grabbed her bag and then left the classroom.
A while later Severus was in his chambers after the last of the morning classes ended and thought about the day. He had 3 exploded cauldrons and 1 idiot who decided to take a sip of the potion he made before having him check it and turned himself into a dog. Still no idea how he pulled that one off. He thought slightly amused. He had sent him off to Madam Pomfrey and dismissed class after the rest of them were done with their potions. One thing that kept repeating in his head all day was his conversation with Granger. hy had he said I don't know when she asked if she had a chance after graduation. What in tarnations made him say that. Merlin help me it's happened, I've lost my mind and I've completely snapped. With that thought he headed off to the Great Hall for Lunch. He needed to eat now before he lost his appetite.
A/N: Hope you enjoyed this chapter. I know Snape seems a little out of character but I'm trying to show the real him I imagine after the war behind the facade he's had for so many years due to the war. I'm hoping you're enjoying it so far. Please leave reviews I appreciate them all! This is what I imagine when I think of Severus and Hermione and I hope you all like it.