A/N: This took me longer than expected. I'm sorry.
I just wanted to remind you guys that I am no medical students. I am a communication major student so any medical diagnose and information you will read from this chapter and to the future chapter are just made up by me. I don't know if it's actually can happen or not so please bear with me.
Same Warning: Grammatical Errors and Misspelled words because I write, I edit, I post.
Disclaimer: Durarara is not mine.
Without further ado, on with the story!
"Can I talk to you in private Shizuo-san?" Izaya's mother asked again. Shizuo was loss for word, he doesn't understand why she wants to talk with him. Izaya's mother wait for his answer with a patient smile as Shizuo looks from her to Tom-san who was still standing beside him, listening to them.
"Uhh.." Shizuo started looking lost when Tom-san answer for him.
"Sure he can talk with you, Ma'am." Tom answered with a grin. Shizuo turn to look at him, bewildered. "What? We're done with collecting after all. Come on talk to the poor lady. She must be waiting for you since earlier." Tom said with a goodhearted laugh. Shizuo sigh defeatedly.
"Sure Ma'am" Shizuo answered at the lady who give him a warm smile.
After bidding goodbye to Tom-san, Shizuo and Kyoko started to walk to the direction of Russia Sushi in awkward silence and neither of the two starts a conversation. In Shizuo's case, he was getting nervous by the second passed. He doesn't have any idea on what Izaya's mother wanted to talk to, she just remained quiet all through the way and that's why many possible what if's are starting to enter his mind.
Finally, they arrived at their destination, upon entering Simon greeted them. He looks at Kyoko-san with shock-filled eyes.
"Izaya-mama you're back as well. Welcome, welcome." He greeted at her after the initial shock. Kyoko let out a motherly giggle.
"Thank you Simon. Can we please request a private room?" Kyoko asked with a motherly smile still plastered on her face. Simon looks at the both of them confused but didn't ask any question and just guided them in one of their private room. Kyoko thanked the Russian man.
"What should I bring to you, Izaya-mama, Shizu-o?" Simon asked with his broken japanese.
"Please bring me some ootoro and a cup of tea." Kyoko ordered before looking at Shizuo. "What do you want, dear? It's on me." She asked him. Shizuo shake his head to decline the offer but Kyoko beat him to it. "I insist. Please." She said with a smile. Shizuo pressed his lips together still perplexed at the offer but with a one look from Kyoko-san, Shizuo give in. She really is Izaya's mother they are both stubborn.
"Just give me the usual." Shizuo said finally. Simon gave a nod and told them that he will bring it to them.
After Simon leaves, the two remains silent. The awkwardness in the air is very thick and Shizuo can't help but to fidget in nervousness. Fortunately, for him their order arrives but that didn't last because after Simon placed their food down he bid them goodbye to take care their other customers.
"Ma'am, what do you want to talk about?" Shizuo started getting the attention of Kyoko-san.
"Please call me Kyoko instead." Shizuo nodded.
" -san?" He stuttered. Kyoko smile for a moment before replacing it with worried smile.
"It is about Izaya."Kyoko said slowly, nursing her cup of tea in between her hand. Shizuo went rigid on his seat, his gaze not living Kyoko who's looking at him desperately. He tried to open his mouth but no words came out of it. "Shizuo-san please listen to me." Kyoko continue and finally Shizuo got his voice back again.
"Can I ask you something, Kyoko-san?" Shizuo asked first with a stutter. Kyoko nodded. "Did you know about my relationship about Izaya?" He asked nervously and the answer he received makes his jaw drop.
"Yes." Kyoko answered calmly. Shizuo started to fidget at the answer.
"H..how?" Shizuo stuttered, he was confused at the calm reaction Kyoko was giving him. Most parents usually disagree at their children being in a relationship with the same gender but it was different with Izaya's mother and that baffled him.
"Since then, I asked Shinra about it." Shizuo nodded but the confusion still etched to his face but didn't dwell on to it for now as Kyoko-san started to speak again so he put it at the back of his mind to fully think later. "Shizuo-kun I know what happen between you and my son and I know that you were angry with him, Shinra-kun also told me that." Kyoko explained, her voice was shaking and her lips were quivering as she said her next words. "That's why I'm begging you. Please forgive him on what he did to you. He never meant any of that. It was my entire fault" Kyoko-san pleaded and Shizuo was shock to see Kyoko-san crying and even shock him more when her words registered on his mind. Seeing his face full of confusion Izaya's mother continue in between her crying but at her next word, Shizuo's confusion disappeared change into full horror as his body runs cold. "Iza-kun, my baby was dying. The doctor marked his life ever since then and he had no choice but to do a full heart transplant surgery to survive. It is the only way to save him." Shizuo still frozen at his seat and no coherent words enter his mind. The revelation from Kyoko-san was too much for him to take.
"Is it true Kyoko-san? Is that the reason why he leaves me?" Finally, Shizuo questioned. He can't believe it. Why Izaya doesn't tell him any of this. Does he not trust him with this?
"Yes." Shizuo open his mouth to question Izaya's mother more but Kyoko speak first that Shizuo couldn't do anything but to listen. "I am not the one who should tell you this but as a mother I can't take it to see my child suffers any longer more than what he endured. I admit that Iza-kun is very reckless in making decisions but I can't blame him. You see Iza-kun already accepted his fate. He told me once when he was just a kid that he doesn't want to go to the hospital anymore if he ever had an attack again. My husband and I didn't want any of that. We were still hoping that someday he will be cured but Iza-kun, he already loses his hope because of us. He feels bad for what happened, and always blaming himself on why we were suffering." Shizuo doesn't know what to say as he listens to her. He just stared at Kyoko-san in shock and his mind go back when they we're still dating. Izaya looks very healthy and no trace of any illness. When they were having a tag, Izaya could run fast. Very fast. He can even dodge the projectile he was throwing. He really didn't know or that's what he wants to think. Because at the back of his mind, a tiny little voice was scolding him that he already notice something wrong but still act like it didn't happen at all. Those time when after a long run he saw Izaya's breath become ragged as he clutched his chest and looks like he was suffering or the times that he saw multiple unlabeled medicine bottle on his bag. Those are clear signs that something was wrong and yet Shizuo decided no to pay any attention to it. He grimaces guiltily at that. He really is a failure of a human being.
Kyoko noticed how Shizuo's brows frown and the way he grips his hand. She knows what that look is. She already had enough of that from her son and she doesn't want any of that to see at the man in front of her. Reaching for his hand, Kyoko rest her hand on top of Shizuo-kun's hand, rubbing her thumb on it gently to ease his fidgeting. Shizuo looks up to see Kyoko's reassuring smile. He took a deep breath to calm himself.
"If you said that Izaya had no time left then how is he still alive?" At the question he asked Kyoko's face brighten as her lips curl in to a genuine smile.
"It was all thanks to you." Kyoko said sincerely and his expression turned into a baffled one. "You gave him hope. You made him want to continue his life again, you are the reason why I can still hug my son, why I can still see him alive and full of life and with that, I am very grateful to you. You don't know how much it means to us." Kyoko finishes with tears still streaming in her eyes. Shizuo couldn't believe what he just heard from Izaya's mother. Instead of answers he only got more questions, questions that needed to be answered.
"How?" Shizuo voiced but Kyoko only shook his head, wiping the remnants of her tears.
"That, I can't tell. I don't know the details exactly, only Iza-kun can tell you." Kyoko said with a solemn smile making Shizuo nodded in understanding. "That's why I'm begging you, if you can't forgive him yet, please listen to him first and decide what you want after." Kyoko continued with a bow. Shizuo stood up abruptly, his arms flailing in surprised.
"Kyoko-san please raise your head." Shizuo said with a flustered voice. "You don't have to do that. I actually decided to talk with Izaya. My son helps me realized that I should stop avoiding him and to talk to him." At the mention of his son, Kyoko's face turns in slight disappointment that didn't went unnoticed to Shizuo.
"I see. You have a son already, huh. But I guess I should thank the little one for this." Kyoko said with a slightly sad mixed with relief voice." Shizuo scratches his head, slightly fidgeting in his seat. He is thinking of ways to tell Kyoko about Psyche. He guess that since this is Izaya's mother, Psyche grandmother on his paternal side, she had the right to know about him. Kyoko notices his awkward fidgeting, tilted her head slightly in confusion but didn't said anything, she just waited for Shizuo to relax again and say what he wants and gave him an encouraging smile. Shizuo cough in his hand and sit up straightly.
"Kyoko-san, about my son." Shizuo started which Kyoko answered with a hum. "It is hard to understand but actually my son's father is Izaya." Shizuo finishes with a slight blush on his cheek which turn into full on when he heard Kyoko gasped in surprised.
"Oh my." Kyoko started. "I am a grandmother now." Kyoko exclaimed with a hint of happiness and excitement. "You should introduce him to me. What is his name? Who does he look like more? I want to meet him." She squealed. Shizuo stared at her in disbelief. He expected a lot of reaction and lot of questioning but not this.
"Uh.." Shizuo utter still speechless. Kyoko stares at him expectantly, happiness evident on her face. "His name is Psyche and he's a spitting image of Izaya and smart like him even some of his mannerisms were like Izaya's. I'll introduce you to him I'm sure he will be happy to meet you as well. He's such a sweet child." Shizuo said proudly.
"That must be hard for you then, Psyche-kun always reminds you of Iza-kun." Kyoko said sadly. Shizuo pursed his lips and shook his head.
"At first but I soon realized my mistake. Like I said Psyche is a sweet child, he forgave my wrong doings without second thought." He said in a gentle voice.
"I can't wait to meet him. He sounds like an angel" Kyoko answered with a hint of excitement in her voice.
The two spend their time talking about Psyche, making Kyoko giddy to finally meet her grandson. It is already late afternoon when they stop talking, they were very immersed into their conversation that they didn't notice the time.
"Uh, Kyoko-san, I need to go now. Psyche must be home now." Shizuo said sheepishly.
"Right. I should go as well. I'm sorry for taking up your time, Shizuo-kun." Kyoko said as she stood up from her seat and bows again at Shizuo who just stand up. "And thank you for listening to me and to my request." Kyoko thanked him. Shizuo flushes, not really used to those kind of gesture.
"Ahh, it's nothing and Kyoko-san please raise your head." Kyoko raised her head again and gave Shizuo a motherly smile that warms his heart.
"I need to go as well." Kyoko said, slinging her bag on her shoulder. The two walk out of Russia Sushi not without bidding goodbye to Simon and Denis as the two exited the shop Shizuo notices two familiar looking mop of black hair on his peripheral but before he could fully see them a fluff of white and pink glomp him, making him stumble as his arm wrapped automatically at his son's shoulder to balance themselves as Psyche's good hand were clutching the front of his bartender uniform and his other hand that currently on a sling are pressing on his stomach awkwardly.
"Papa!" Psyche squealed and nuzzles his head on him. Shizuo smile at his son's very energetic, affectionate greeting.
"Hi, Dear." He greeted back, full of fatherly (motherly) affection before frowning worriedly. "Easy, you might hurt yourself." Shizuo said, cradling his son's hand on to his and making sure to not aggravate Psyche's injury further more. Psyche's gave him a toothy smile and squeezed his hand.
"Is that Psyche, Shizuo-kun?" Shizuo almost forgot that he was with Izaya's mother.
"Ah yes, Kyoko-san this is my son, Psyche Heiwajima." He said to Kyoko-san first before looking down on Psyche with a smile as he guide him in front of the elderly woman. "Psyche, this is Kyoko-san, you're grandmother." Shizuo introduced them to each other. Psyche looks at him then to Kyoko with eyes full of curiosity and confusion then back to him as if asking him if it's alright to talk to her. Shizuo nodded to his son with an encouraging smile which makes Psyche smile widely as well before giving Kyoko, who's waiting in anticipation, a hug.
"Hi, Grandma." Kyoko's eyes widen in surprise when Psyche hug her. Psyche-chan really is a very affectionate kid just like what Shizuo-kun said. Overcoming her initial surprised she cupped his soft cheek with her hand and rub her thumb there gently, making Psyche leans on the touch.
"Hi, Psyche-chan." She said with a smile. It surprised her on how much Psyche looks like Izaya that there's no mistaking it. When Shizuo said that he already had a son, she was sadden at the information. She thought that by talking to Shizuo-kun she can help Izaya gets back together with him, because she knows how much his son loves the blond and how much he meant to him. That's why Kyoko did what she thought she could help to their situation. Sure, it is Izaya's to fix but as a mother it is her job to help him no matter what. It is the least she can do for his son. However, to her surprised and relief Shizuo's son is Izaya's as well she doesn't understand how does it happen but she doesn't care. There's still hope for his son. The ten years he endured in the hospital bed in a bed ridden state except to stare at the photo in his phone will not be in vain. She was happy, very happy and as she encased Psyche into her arms, being mindful on his injury, she felt relieve and a burden being lift on her shoulders. Finally.
"Hey, Psyche-chan, why did you run all of a su.. Mom?" Hearing Izaya's voice, Shizuo flinched and turn to look at the gasping and panting Izaya.
"Daddy, Psyche saw Papa so I run to him then Psyche met your Mama." Psyche squeal happily. Wait. Daddy? Does Psyche just called Izaya, Daddy? Shizuo's now very confuse at what's happening.
"Psyche?" he called to his son.
"Yes, Papa?" Psyche asked, still on her grandmother's arm.
"You called him Daddy?" Shizuo asked back, pointing at Izaya who just notice him.
"S..shizu-chan?" He gasped in surprised. "It is not you think. I didn't force him this time." Izaya explained hurriedly.
"Papa, don't be mad at Daddy. Psyche's the one who asked him." Psyche said with a big pout. Kyoko who's looking back and forth at the conversation happening decided to speak.
"What's happening?" She asked.
"That, I want to know as well." Shizuo sighed defeatedly.
"Mom, what are you doing here?" Izaya asked instead of answering.
"I talked with Shizuo-kun." Kyoko answered with a shrug and Izaya's eyes widen at that.
"What? Did you tell him?" Kyoko shake his head, making Izaya sighed in relief. That gesture makes Shizuo's eyebrow twitch. So Izaya doesn't have the plan to tell him what really happens.
"Why?" Shizuo asked suddenly, earning him looks form his son, Izaya and Kyoko-san. "Why did you leave me? What really is the reason you left? Is it because of the scholarship or because there's another reason." Shizuo asked desperately, clutching Izaya's fur coat.
"I'm sorry." Izaya said weakly unable to look at Shizuo.
"That's not what I want to hear." Shizuo growled.
"Daddy you should tell Papa as well." Psyche pleaded. "I know he will understand if you tell him what you told Psyche earlier."
"Right, Iza-kun. Don't make this any harder for the both of you. Remember what your doctor said. Stop suppressing your emotions it is bad for you. You're still under examination because you've just woken in a two years comatose so you're still weak. You're not even allowed to leave the hospital." At the tone, Kyoko was using Izaya deflated.
"What?" Shizuo's hold on Izaya's coat. Two years. Two years. For two years Izaya was in coma probably desperately fighting for his life and here he was holding a grudge at him, cursing him for the suffering he endured for ten years unknown to him Izaya was the one who's really suffering.
"Papa, please." Psyche's voice enter his ear and he snapped at his self pitying. This is not the time for that. There's much more important things than that. Shizuo nodded at his son and look at Izaya who is looking anywhere but him.
"Flea." That successfully got his attention. "You want to talk with me, right? Then we'll talk."
A/N: And done. Updates will take longer again because of rl.